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Alright, in all honestly, it was a pretty bland day. I had two doubles today: English and Legal and they were just draining. I don't have study periods by the way, I know it sucks. Year 11s used to last year but our year level copped the changes. They call us the guinea pigs of the school because so many changes happen to our year level. It has its pros and cons but that's that. I also had Bio and Methods today. We're preparing a DNA Fish Barcoding prac in Bio so that's a little exciting. Methods wasn't too bad. We got our prob SAC back - I got an 87%. Not gonna lie, bit disappointed because I actually really enjoyed probability and was aiming for a 90+ but hey it's methods and I'm bound to lose marks on silly mistakes. At least I know what to look out for now. Something really nice happened in Methods today tho. So our teacher marked the multiple-choice section of our trial exam and the class was just hysterical because we knew we were so screwed for it. Our teacher actually ended up announcing what each person got out of 20 for MC in front of the whole class. Just a tad intimidating! A lot of people got 10/20. So she says XYZ you got .../20 and I just respect my Methods teacher so much because she wasn't at all judgemental when she was saying what we got. She kept reassuring us. But she reads the marks out and she gets to mine, pauses, smiles and tells me that I got 16/20. Now, I know that's not extraordinary but I am so proud of myself because that's the highest I've gotten on MC so far and it's also nice to get the highest mark in the class, as selfish as that sounds. It's just moments like these that I work towards. That look of pride on my teacher's face. That's when I feel like my work is paying off. So that was lovely!
So that was my school day. I came back home and actually had a nap. A one hour nap. I never take naps. It was very strange but also much needed because I was so tired the entire day (that may or may not have to do with me sleeping at like 1:00 AM to finish off some hw). I've also realised that I turn a bit distant and down when I'm on little sleep, yet here I am typing past midnight. I really do need to change that though. It just takes so much willpower to start doing my work. Oh I just realised, I'm technically talking about yesterday since it's past midnight. Let's just not. But yeah I woke up at like 8:00 from my nap (healthy sleep patterns who?) and did the MAV 2019 trial exam my teacher gave me today. As always there were a handful of questions that I did not know how to tackle but hey it's actually getting more manageable. I just wish I started doing practice papers earlier but I know I couldn't have. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling with maths. I almost don't want it to end because I'm finally starting to appreciate it and enjoy it. Almost. I'm also frustrated because I feel like it's too late now to sort of redeem myself from my SAC marks even if they are relatively good. Maybe, if I had developed a liking for Methods early on then I would have performed better but I can't really control that. I think it's just because I'm putting a lot of effort now and I'm committed to understanding everything. That's something I'll keep in mind for next year: once you put the work in, it's not too bad. It's just that I would love to get a 40 raw and a huge drive for that is our teacher telling us that no one has gotten above a 40 during the years she's taught at my school and I think it would be so cool to accomplish that, mainly for my self-esteem because if I can do well with Maths, I feel like I can do well at anything and that's purely because of how challenging I've found Maths to be over the past 3 years. Anyway, I know that realistically, I won't be getting a 40 but one can dream or rather aspire. I just want to get above a 30.
So that's my day
Also,
Hey tigerclouds!
Can't wait to hear more about youre journey. Have a great first day back- hopefully a fresh(ish) start to school will jumpstart your motivation!
Thank you Laura for your kind words, I think I do have a little more motivation now
Tomorrow is a nice day. I have nice subjects - Chemistry first period! I love Chemistry, I genuinely look forward to going to Chem class.
Anywho! Thank you for tuning in!