So I realised that I totally forgot to update this when atars and results came out - I was honestly so upset with my performance for weeks after they came out and barely spoke to anyone.
I have now sort of come to terms with my marks and although I wish they were higher, they represented the effort I put in and I definitely could've tried harder.
So I got;
English Advanced - 89 (this took the longest to come to terms with to be honest)
English Ext1 - 45
English Ext2 - 34
Math Ext1 - 46
Legal Studies - 96
Economics - 85
Which equated to an ATAR of 95.85.
I found that, as expected, I don't test well, and my internals literally saved me. I knew I'd be horrible in exam situations as I overstress and cant seem to focus. Something I definitely need to work on before uni starts though.
My dream course definitely changed over the course of my HSC year - and I wanted to get into a B Commerce/B Advanced Studies at Usyd, which I did (thankfully).
Although every single ATAR calculator I used predicted something above 96.4 (which I would've been genuinely happy with), I am proud of what I achieved and am really excited to start uni this year.
Now I can finally close the horrid chapter that was the HSC.
peace out,
meerae