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mango8

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Re: The ephemerality of VCE
« Reply #45 on: June 22, 2019, 09:38:19 pm »
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Thank you all so much for taking time to write to me. It makes me so happy to read your thoughts!

Hi Mango!
I love your journal!
What are your favourite books (other than the Mortal Instruments ;) )? Do you have any recommendations for someone who enjoys fantasy?
 ;D

Thanks so much! Other than the best series to exist, one of my favourite books of all time is The Night Circus. No words could describe the utterly beautiful writing in this book which takes you on a sublime, magical journey and you will never find a book like this. This book I will never forget or tire of reading over and over, and it takes you on a magnificent journey you will never forget. I heard about it from A Clockwork Reader. It is a book that is very hard to describe, but left me speechless. I never get a chance to read anymore, so I live vicariously through booktubers and their reading vlogs, wrap ups, TBRs (I have more books on my TBR than I have read this year). What are your other favourite books?

Hi Mango! :)

I've really enjoyed your journal entries so far and am also doing History Revs and Chemistry. I'm not sure if you've mentioned this thus far, but which two revolutions are you studying? It's definitely a challenging subject, but my teacher mentioned something that helped me to view this subject in a new light. If you can come to view the figures that you read about as not just names in a textbook, but real people that have made mistakes just like you and I, the subject becomes a little bit more enthralling.


Hello! Thank you! I am studying the French and Russian Revolutions. How about you? That is very true, sometimes I forget that because it feels like my teacher is just bombarding us with pages of content each lesson, and new dates and events and people I have to memorise, but not just know that in detail, but understand their significance, and I guess it has been so overwhelming and my passion was driven away by that, because learning for sacs and exams and a good study score and amazing atar can make you forget your love for something. But that was helpful. Thank you, I need to keep that in mind. What do you love about history? What are your other hobbies and passions? I am excited for your journal entries as well!! 

At the high school I went to people used to care a lot about what scores the high achievers were getting so its nice to hear that that's not the case at your school (for math at least anyway). Kudos for using the achievement of others as motivation rather than feeling threatened or bitter about it (as can too easily be the case for people sometimes) :)

As for how the questions are created (I feel like this was a rhetorical question but I'm going to answer it anyway) some teachers pull directly or tweak questions from VCAA and/or company papers.

Nice to hear about the progress you're making with realising to change up your study + receiving help from your chem teacher - hopefully it's mainly uphill from here :)

I would give you advice for tolerating lit but I left it as soon as I could (end of year 11) because I was frustrated with feeling like I wasn't learning anything so yeah... (I didn't have issues with my teacher but the class just wasn't working for me).


Finally, in response to sharing personal info with the AN community (from an earlier post) please never feel like you're obligated to do this. There are things I wouldn't have shared if I'd had a VCE journal that impacted my year 12; you've got to make the choice of what you're comfortable with and you think would be beneficial to you. From your posts I get the impression that you're experiencing a tough time (and have been for a long time) and I wish you the best of luck in overcoming the difficulties you face - but neither myself, nor anyone else here, has the right to the information of what it is unless you choose to give it to us. Being vulnerable can be empowering and there's a power in deciding who you share your stories/realities with & how - no one model is right for everyone.

Hello Bri! Thank you so much for replying on my journal. Truly. You are definitely someone who I was most inspired by coming on here, so this means a lot to me.

I definitely used to view other peopleís high scores as a threat, but as Iíve grown, Iíve kept in mind that I canít control other people, what they say, do or the results they get, I can only control my own actions and how I respond. And in the end feeling bitter and overcome with jealousy only impacts me, and impedes my abilities because I would become too focused on others.

I understand now doing textbook questions are not sufficient, and I need to do checkpoints and exam style questions to be prepared for sacs. I too hope things can go up from here. When you are at rock bottom there isnít any more down to go, there is only up.

I suppose for lit, I just need to dig deep and find my passion again, and realise it is possible to excel without an amazing teacher, and I canít let the teacher and class stop me. I wonít give up because reading and writing were always things I held dearly, and I canít let external sources defeat my dreams and plans.

Finally, I have always decided I would never share too much, at the end of the day this is a public forum and I would not talk about a lot of things that are really going on in my life. So far I have barely even scratched the surface of the extent of whatís going on, but Iíll keep it that way. Thank you for your empathy and understanding, I couldnít appreciate anything more from anyone on here. Hope youíre doing well and take care.



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Re: The ephemerality of VCE
« Reply #46 on: June 22, 2019, 11:31:33 pm »
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Hi Mango!
I'm doing the Russian and Chinese Revolutions. The revolutions that you are doing seem so interesting.

 I wish that Revs was a mix of all four so that I could get a taste of all of the different revolutions. The thing that I love about history is the fact that everything that happened in the past directly had an effect on the future that we have today. I also love how everything unravels like a story (because I'm also a bookworm haha) and that the historical figures are like characters in a book, except all the more real.

I can relate so much to school dimming the interests and passions that students have in subjects due to everything being judged and submitted towards a single number, the ATAR. If only we could just learn for our own enjoyment and not be forced to memorise chunks of content for the sake of writing it down for an exam and literally forgetting it all mere moments later.
I guess at the end of the day we've just gotta play the VCE game, no matter how hard it gets.

I'm so happy that you enjoyed reading 'The Night Circus', as it's one of the books on my TBR list for after I finish Year 12. I've read the blurb and it seems like a book that I will fall in love with.

Take care and I'm looking forward to following the rest of your journey  :) xx
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Re: The ephemerality of VCE
« Reply #47 on: June 25, 2019, 08:59:36 pm »
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Tuesday 25th June - The one where there were two precious dogs

This title is slightly misleading, as the dogs were not from today. But from last week and yesterday. Also because itís silly to write Ďprecious dogsí since its a known fact every single dog is so damn precious. So why not we dive into the usual mundane, incredibly shitty stuff and end on a positively radiant note with the dogs? Sounds good to me.

chem
This was less about chem, but more about a fantastic conversation with someone I have spoken to on and off. It flowed so easily it was crazy, and I focused well throughout the lesson, and made a time with my teacher to go over the worksheet from last week and also my sac. I think it is extremely important to individually go over the sacs with your teacher. It really brings awareness to what you need to work on, and how to structure responses correctly.

lit
So after lit, I waited to talk to her about an extension for my sac. I have made a very interesting observation wherein she evidently has favourites. Remember last week how she sounded so irritated I wanted to take up her recess (*gasp*), well, before me, someone, a very intelligent someone in fact went to talk to her, and did she rush to go? Sound exasperated in the slightest, that not 5, 10 but 15 minutes of her precious time was being taken up? Cut her off with ďletís make a time that isnít nowĒ, and huff in annoyance when asked, if she was free now? I am sure you know all the answers to these rhetorical questions. And the absolute second I went to talk to her, she practically walked in my face, just so ready to go, and then I really did lose it when she said she Ďhadí to talk to those shit assholes, (but did not show it, for I have mastered the facade), like why the fuck do they get a say in something that doesnít even relate to them? It made me so fucking angry, because I hate them so much. Anyway, she never emailed me or said anything about it. Honestly, she is making it so hard for me to keep trying in lit.

revs
It was the sac. I felt so underprepared, but the thing that really gets me is that no practice sacs are given, yes none at all, and also that itís so vague  end up filling my paper with tiny handwriting and vivid colours of everything on the study design, and what happens time and time again, is all that effort is wasted when I only use a certain amount of my notes. Like last time, I wrote extensive notes on topics, and something else just popped up which I had no recollection or knowledge about, nor any notes on it. Also I was quite annoyed with my teacher who was just not specific (Iím finding they are always so vague), and I wasted days doing extensive research on leaders, thinking (according to the sac info sheet), it was to be printed and given to her, and I email her, and she says: ďYou only need a few points on your sheet per leaderĒ. She made it look like it was a Part A and B to the sac, when, there wasnít. But I tell myself itís still good to know about all the important leaders, but I was wasting time putting it all into my own words, and doing unnecessary research which could have been left till the holidays. Oh well. Whatís done is done. Initially I thought I was going well, and I ended up with less than 20 minutes for the last question, which was not ideal. I was cramming information and just trying to get it all done. As usual, I had no time at all to check. I probably failed. Last time I felt my score was far too generous for how badly I thought I had done. We shall see.

Then I spent the remainder of lunch working on Maths as usual.

maths
The teacher announces it will be self study, and inside, I was so annoyed. It is such an utter waste of my time to come to school only to be left to do my own thing in every class, when I could do that perfectly well at home instead. And not be in a shit environment with absolutely shit people. Regardless, I jammed in my headphones to block out the fools who donít shut up, and continued doing maths.

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And again, an inward groan, as for one of the first times, it is also self study. Anyway I did my best to, but I was exhausted by then. On that note, something that truly gets on my nerves is when so many people insensitively complain about feeling like that, since I can tell you firsthand, you donít know exhaustion until you have lived my life. A multitude of factors have combined that result in me feeling incredibly exhausted every single day, so no, itís not Ďtiredí as you know it.

And now for the doggies! So last week my teacher brought her baby dog and obviously, I could not focus on anything but what a little darling he was. Also, he did keep coming to me, and I was elated to keep petting that bundle of cuteness. And yesterday, as I got out of the car at tuition, I saw an absolutely gorgeous dog, and my heart leapt with pure joy, it was what looked like an Alaskan malamute x German Shepherd = An incredibly fluffy german shepherd, and he bounded on me, licking me, and as I walked into class,  felt like I was floating. It truly is remarkable, when I look back now, how much difference a dog can make to my day, my life. I honestly canít believe that such angels exist, because we donít deserve them, but they deserve everything.

Now Iím going to watch the Voice along with a chocolate coconut slice. See you all tomorrow.

ďYou were born with potential.
You were born with goodness and trust. You were born with ideals and dreams.
You were born with greatness.
You were born with wings.
You are not meant for crawling, so don't.
You have wings.
Learn to use them and fly.Ē
― Rumi

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Re: The ephemerality of VCE
« Reply #48 on: June 25, 2019, 09:05:36 pm »
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It must suck feeling like you're not getting the support you need in lit. :-\ Hate it when teachers have favourites.  >:( Keep persevering! Also watching the Voice tonight. My favourite contestants were eliminated but I'm still watching and hoping Zeke will win.

Also, absolutely love the poem!
give like the sun and the whole world grows tall - atticus

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Re: The ephemerality of VCE
« Reply #49 on: June 26, 2019, 02:38:21 am »
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Woah girl, I think you need to chill just a bit with constantly calling your peers and teachers Ďshit assholesí. Your classmates are all students just like yourself, trying their best in the very last year of school. Regarding favouritism ó teachers are generally more inclined to help a student if he/she shows the teacher respect and appreciation first.

Pls donít take this the wrong way, but youíve been posting a lot about difficult and unfair itís been for you, and youíve said how nobody sees your Ďrealityí and therefore isnít qualified to judge you ó yet you make a ton of toxic judgement on those around you which seems quite uncalled for, especially considering the hypocrisy as you donít know anything about other peopleís struggles either.

Just something to think about xx
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