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Should Poet and Lex get septum piercings together? 😜

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« Reply #135 on: January 31, 2020, 08:07:31 pm »
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« Reply #137 on: February 02, 2020, 07:31:14 pm »
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You are inspirational and I can't wait for the next update - You got this!
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« Reply #138 on: February 09, 2020, 07:51:36 pm »
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« Reply #139 on: February 10, 2020, 10:51:52 am »
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Hey,

Honestly your support through this whole journal means so much....thankyou xxxx

You are absolutely welcome


You say you can't face your insecurities and anxieties at the start of your last entry but then later in the same post you describe yourself doing exactly that in joining your school's QSA. Facing insecurities and anxieties is hard, but you have proven you can do it even though it's something that's hard for everyone. Sometimes you don't and that makes sense - it can be pretty hard to find the emotional energy to do that sometimes but for sure you are capable.

It's been a tough week but still you've been working on improving yourself and your situations.

You don't need to apologise for your entry, I understand, and thank you for sharing it with us. I hope that next week is better.

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« Reply #143 on: March 18, 2020, 06:54:26 am »
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« Reply #145 on: April 01, 2020, 12:01:44 pm »
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Hey everyone, sorry for not properly updating like I said I would, I literally have no excuse!

Hows everyone going? Also hope all you year 12's are ok, life right now would be so bad and if y'all ever need anything pls let me know!

Hope you guys are staying well and safe and away from others.

How have I been? yeesh. Well cant see my psych for another 2 weeks, which I hate because there is so much I want to discuss with and talk about with her. I feel her room is literally the one place I actually am allowed to be myself and the only place I feel I can be. That is if she is still working with all this COVID-19 stuff, but she works from home so I hope so.

Tbh although I have been hiding it from most of my friends, I am so stressed about everything right now. How tf am I supposed to do school from home? what is the wifi doesn't work and I fail my class just because I couldn't connect to a group call? What if I have to be boarded up in my house for more then these 3 weeks? I hate it here. I am judged and even though I hate school and hate the toxic environment it is still some relief from home.

I miss my friends, I've started hanging out with a new group and we have a group chat and are keeping each other updated and distracted but its still hard not to be able to sit with them at lunch and talk.

Ive been trying to use this time to build on my friendship with MM, but it seems to not be working. Things just keep happening that are making me upset and angry and hurt. Idk how to feel anymore. I don't trust my feelings because of how I feel towards him. Everything is so confusing but all I know is I need to talk to my psych about it and get her opinion, she has a lot more common sense and is a lot more knowledgeable then me although I feel bad for tormenting her with my stupid teenage dramas.

My nan and best friend are both in hospitals atm (its ok y'all no COVID 19 touching my babies....haha) but im really worried for both of them. My nan was staying in Box Hill about a week ago before being transferred and they are saying 6 staff now have tested positive for corona virus. I freaked out. I called her to make sure she was ok and she told me she was fine and had already been tested....which I knew....and she was negative....I just got all anxious again and needed the words to come from her mouth. I want to go see them both but i'm locked away, have no car and no independence.

Im trying to stay calm and have distractions. I have been cleaning my room ready to redecorate it. Im hopefully getting a double bed and repainting it as well as new furniture. My room has been the same since I was about 9 and it seriously needs a redo!!

So atm i am sleeping most of the day, up all night, not eating much, stressing, drinking shittonnes of soda water (idk dont ask I literally dont know why) and am having withdrawal symptoms from school (now those are some words I thought I would never say!)

anyways I bought hair dye because im bored and it was on special. My hair is currently a burgundy/light brown. should I go dark purple or dark red.....the choice is up to you guys haha

Hey Lex!

YAY an update!
Its sucks you can't see your psych for a while, but there are people here to support you as well as some really good resources online.
Doing school from home is definitely daunting but we'll get through this, I understand how school can be a relief from home (I'm the same) but we are all in this together and we will get through this stronger than ever.
And considering we may be stuck inside for longer than 3 weeks now is the perfect time to redecorate, surely you'll take before and after photos??!! IMO I reckon dark red hair would look cool considering you have burgundy/brown hair
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Re: w0lfqu33ns problematic journal!
« Reply #149 on: July 22, 2020, 08:46:23 am »
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Hey!

Thanks for the update :)

Trust can definitely be a hard thing especially when you're feeling especially vulnerable and unsure in yourself. For me when I was both wanting to share something and also not wanting anyone to know, I found that what worked well was to incrementally share more information. Not knowing whether or not someone will hurt you and/or betray that trust can be overwhelming but something my counsellor shared with me is that taking control over how you share your story reduces its power over you. Socially alienating yourself is unlikely to be a strong long term strategy (even though it's understandable - especially with everything that's happened) and I hope you do develop strong friendships to help support you despite apprehensive you might feel about that.

btw it's a good thing that you've been able to draw that boundary with your nan and not take on a role you're suited for. I can't imagine how hard the pressure to do that would be and I'm glad you were able to recognise it wouldn't be healthy. You know your nan a whole lot better than I do obviously but you can't know she will be furious at you, maybe she will be but there's also the chance she won't. This sounds like a conversation that might be an increasingly heavy weight on you the more you hold it so please try to be careful with how long you delay it.

It's great to hear that you've been figuring yourself out and becoming more comfortable to share that with others! Labels are only as useful as you find them so it's 100% ok to prefer to think about yourself in a non-labelled way. Congratulations on learning about this aspect of your identity :D