I've been listening to Hozier's "No Plan" on a loop for like 40 minutes. There's this one line,
As Mac explained, there will be darkness again
that's making me wistful. I know it wouldn't be too comfortable after the heat death of the universe... but man, I wish I could be there for it. I'm not sure why. Maybe it takes some of the ever-mounting VCE pressure off?
I feel like I'm stuck right now (my life is just get up, go to school, study until my eyes hurt, read, come home, collapse, get up) and having something to look forward to helps. Even if that thing is the end of the world
So anyway, Term 1 is finished. I'm kind of relieved that we get a break, and kind of terrified for the future. Most of the terror comes from the fact that parent-teacher interviews are
tomorrow, and that I have to go this year. It'll be nice to finally have some attention from my teachers, but for some reason I'm still not looking forward to it. I asked my dad to run me over, but he said he didn't want to get his car dirty.
Something else that's worrying me is the upcoming formal. I'm not going (ticket price + no dates til I graduate fmllll) but I'm wondering if I'm missing out on something big. I've never been to anything like that before, so maybe this is my last chance to do something cool-teenager-movie-ish.
I'm almost done with my maths homework (finished that massive load I was complaining about and was rewarded with 20 pages of holiday homework
), but I've got an English essay to write
and a pile of physics questions to get through
. I haven't even started on chemistry. A friend says that a lot of Unit 3 will be stuff I'm familiar with, so I'm hoping the lecture won't be too difficult for me to understand.
Ahhhh. I know this isn't a holiday, but I don't care! I'm not going to burn myself out. I may not be able to relax or keep up with my hobbies, but I'm at least going to try listening to some new music over the next few weeks.