Hey,
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Reaching out can be a big step so it's great that you've been able to do that.
VCE can be a tough time for a lot of people & I imagine that the additional difficulties you're facing are compounding that.
I'm now in 4th year of science at Monash and people don't really talk/care about high school accomplishments with peers - especially past 1st year. There are non-scored pathways - feel free to start a new post somewhere asking about that. I don't know whether this is the right option for you or not but a careers counsellor or teacher could be a good person to talk to about this as well.
It sounds like you're in a lot of distress and seeking professional help could help. Some options to consider are:
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headspace (local centre or online)
- Australian Psychological Society (03 8662 3300 - ask for a referral to a psychologist)
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Beyond Blue- Lifeline (13 11 14)
These services will be able to give you confidential environment to talk about your emotions. You could also talk to your GP about getting a Mental Health Care Plan. You may also have counsellors at your school. I highly encourage you to reach out to professionals - in my experience this can really help, and the flow on effects of better wellbeing can also make a big difference to your studies.