25/7/19
Eddie Woo hated maths until university. I suppose that's something to keep in mind. I don't want future students to suffer like I am right now. I refuse to be a victim. The only thing I'm getting out of this is that at least I'm learning how to cope with such high levels of anxiety and frustration related to a single school subject. And what I learn from this may be beneficial to future students. I'm sure that they'll be even more scared and fearful of maths if this 'growth mindset' thing isn't universally accepted in the maths teaching community.
My perception of maths right now is the accumulation of all my negative experiences and sub-par teaching methods that weren't all that effective for me, as it turned out. The most difficult part is starting, but do I get any sort of satisfaction from doing maths problems? Not yet, I guess. Yes, tell me that I can do it. But do I really believe I can?
Maths is that subject that puts you down for getting an answer wrong. It demoralises you and breaks your spirit. I apologise for being so negative, but until someone more positive finds me, this is my view.
Dear Maths,
I'm trying to get to know you, but you just reject me every time. I have persistently tried to hang out with your little friends, Trig and Calculus, but they turn away from my helpless face. You have left this soul in a sorry state. After all this time, I can say that you have been nothing but trouble for me. (Well mainly Trig and Calculus). You ruin my day like a Monday morning. Laugh at me all you want Trig and Calculus, but who could blame me for not ever wanting to be near you?
Yours somewhat sincerely,
JR_StudyEd