Hey guys,
So I opened my maths books yesterday, and although I had no idea what I was doing last term, I actually understand things better now. I have a test on Wednesday so I'm glad things are starting to make sense. I really should have started earlier but y'know- it's too late to change that this time.
I'm also super happy to say that I went to two AtarNotes lectures today. Although I never thought I could, I made it through (almost) the whole day (I missed the last half of the bio lecture
) and really enjoyed it. It took me 45 minutes to talk myself into walking in, and I almost bailed just about every time we got a break, but I learnt a lot and enjoyed myself. It was great to meet Owlbird83 and Erutepa, and hopefully this won't be the last time I get to meet AN people irl. Also, free pizza was great!
Even though I was feeling super drained this afternoon, I decided to go to a party. Regret. I enjoyed the first little bit, but it was really loud and overwhelming. I ended up crying in this tiny room with one of my friends getting me water and a blanket. (I wore the most skimpy dress imaginable and totally regretted it as we were outside all night and I was FREEZING!) Crying all my makeup off was super embarrasing, but not too many people saw me. Although, a couple of people tried to give me a hug while I was shaking and hyperventilating, and I was just thinking
"Now, really?!", but I guess they thought they were being helpful even though I didn't know them super well. Common sense(ish) piece of advice for the day: If someone is having a panic attack and feels like they can't breathe, hugging them will probably make them feel worse, especially if you squash their lungs...
On an unrelated note, I still have heaps of work to do before Monday, but I feel like it's a manageable amount. There is more biology stuff I would like to get done, but the test isn't until week three so I'm going to focus on maths at the minute. For bio, I'm going to try some of the new study techniques I learnt today.
I should be at a lecture tomorrow afternoon, but I'm meant to be volunteering in the morning so I might not feel up to it. Let me know if you're going to be around and we can catch up!