So it was the first day of school and already I want to curl up in a ball and cry ;-; Actually, too late; already did T_T (Warning: this post will be half rant, half narrative)
Period 2: Physics (period 1 was an assembly)
We spent the lesson going through our yearly exam. Surprisingly, I didn't do as bad as I anticipated. So here's the back story: I started going through the prelim and HSC syllabus at tutoring since year 9 because that was how enthusiastic I was to start physics lol. Come year 11, I got very confused with the method my physics teacher taught and the method my tutor taught. Even though I know the content back to front and even taught my friend when she needed help, I'd always do mediocre in my exams- my teacher thinks it's because I stress too much during the exam. As a result for the constant stress, I have the tendency to break down before and/or after the exam (usually after the exam). Before my task 1 prac exam, I had a panic attack since I wasn't sure what to expect. Back to my yearly exam, I managed to do better in this exam since previously, I would just barely pass. But I still want to get a higher mark in physics.
Period 3: Modern History
Funny thing about my modern teacher, she was like to my class,"I've marked your yearly exams but I didn't want to go through it today because I'm not bothered right now. But overall, I'm very disappointed." What a great way to start year 12! She did say there were some people that did well in the 10 mark essay in Section 2 but a lot of people didn't bother studying for that (which was the Indian Mutiny) so she was able to tell that most didn't study. Personally, I think I failed the Section 1 source based questions because I panicked when I was trying to succinctly respond to the source questions. And I hope I did well in the essay because I spent so long gathering quotes that showed that each country was to blame for the outbreak of WW1. Back to class, we just spent the class starting the first syllabus dot point but thanks to Susie's Head Start lecture, I knew what was going on! On a side note: History Extension is confirmed salfjlasfjlajlsfkh so excited
Period 4: Advanced English
I feel like today was just going to be a bad day because we also got our Task 3 essay back. And my rank dropped ;-; For half yearlies, I managed to come 2/96 but my marks dropped to a B-range mark. Sure it's not a bad mark, I was just hoping to maintain an A-range mark. It was worse because this assessment weight 30% on top of our yearly exam so I'm screwed. Plus, the teacher that marked this essay was notorious for roasting students- according to my friend who has her for Advanced English and Extension English. And I can see her roasting in her comments. I opened up my test booklet and all I saw was red T_T But thank god that this term, we have no english assessment! We're starting Area of Study but our first assessment, which will be a speech, will be presented next term.
Period 5: Extension Math
Now here comes the bigger problem that made me wanna cry. My math teacher decided to kill us by giving us our extension math paper AND mathematics paper in one go even though they haven't finished marking a few sections in mathematics. I figured that I was going to fail extension math since my friend and I couldn't even finish a past paper- it still kills me to see me fail. The thing is, I usually do better in extension math than mathematics (I was ranked 3/22 in half yearlies), but with this exam I didn't even pass. I don't know the average mark for our class but judging on other people's reactions, I don't think the others did well. As for mathematics, I managed to do well in one section but I can't say the same for other sections of the paper. If I failed my extension math yearly, I'm hoping that at least I did better in mathematics.
But here's where my rant comes in: my math teacher sucks! Like, she legitimately sucks at teaching. Our class agreed that she can barely teach. Personally, I like my teachers to know what they're teaching and confidently explain the concepts to the class. Sure, I don't mind a few mistakes here and there but my teacher looks like she doesn't know what she's teaching and makes mistakes in her working out- at this point, it's basically this guy (who's first in maths and extension math) who is teaching her and the class. On top of that, I've approached her numerous times asking her to help me with a question or see if my working out makes sense but she always says,"I'll get back to you" and never responds. Oh, and a few days before our yearly exam, one guy in my class asked for her help with one of the questions from a past paper. She responds with:"If this question shows up in the exam, move on to the next question." If we were to follow her advice, all of us would finish the exam in less than 10 minutes! It's gotten to the point where I need two math tutors but I'm thinking of changing one of my math tutors because I can stand my math teacher.
To make things worse, there are some people in my class that shouldn't be in extension math. We have a lot more 5.2 students in our class, and I'm not saying that they're not capable of doing extension math. In fact, I think that they could also do well in extension math. The problem is that they have the attitude of 'I think I'll have a go at extension math and see how I go' and aren't serious in their studies. They obviously don't do work in class (and got to the point where my math coordinator had to speak to us about our behaviour) and my math teacher even told me that she believes that our class should be split in half because that's how much hope she has in us! And who to blame for this? My Curriculum Coordinator. Last year, our subject letters came so late (the week before year 10 finished school) and she stuffed up all of our subjects. On top of that, she allowed people to do extension subjects even though they didn't appear on the top ranks for our half yearlies! She even stuffed up my subjects because she swapped modern history with IPT and confirmed with me that I'll be doing modern history (at that time, I was going to do engineering studies as well). Come beginning of year 11, she didn't give me extension math and swapped that 1 unit with SLR so I changed my time table so I was doing modern and SAC. If this was settled last year, then my math teacher would've ended up as my physics teacher since they wouldn't run engineering studies! And my physics teacher (although sometimes not the best at teaching physics) is much better at teaching maths than my current math teacher! ajhfkahfk so grumpy
Period 6: Society & Culture
I still have to go to SAC even though I plan to drop this subject since the first two weeks for this term are still prelims. But then my teacher said we're getting our exams back. At this point I was emotionally numb because I was too busy crying in math and I figured that I wasn't gonna do well in my SAC yearly exam. Surprisingly, I managed to come 2/35 in yearlies. Too bad that I'm planning to drop this subject- it would be stressful though to keep SAC and do extension history so I'm hoping that I won't regret my decision.
Sorry that this was a really long post and it was mostly a depressing post with my ranting. I had a feeling that I wasn't gonna do well in my yearlies, which was why I wasn't looking forward to the first day of school. Plus, I was extremely burnt out by the end of term 3 I feel like 2 weeks wasn't a long holiday- I tend to get stressed and burnt out pretty easily so the first day was already exhausting. But no homework at least!