It's been a while!
So,,,needless to say my mood is definitely a lot better than whatever shitstorm that last update was. I'm feeling better, but just so FRUSTRATED. I did my Latin test. Did my spec test. Went to MHS for MUN. Went to Swinburne. Realised that actually, my methods sac wasn't actually last week, but the VCE office just didn't bother telling anyone about the change of dates (
) So I stressed about that for nothing. Then I spent the whole weekend preparing for my bio sac, which I was SO DAMN DETERMINED not to stuff up this time.
.....................and yeah I stuffed it up. What makes me so angry at myself about it is that I know I could've done so much better as well - during reading time I knew there wasn't a single question that I would have trouble with, but somehow during the actual write up I lost track of time and spent too long on trivial things such as plotting a stupid GRAPH and I couldn't finish it. I missed a substantial amount of questions, and my score is definitely going to be worse than last time. I've been trying to be a bit optimistic about it (it's only a small chunk of my SS overall), but yeaaaaaaaaaaa no. I don't even know how I'm going to face my bio tutor tomorrow, when we were both pretty confident that I'd do better this time round. I'm just so hhhhhhhhhhhhh?
And we went to GTAC today as well, and my oh-so-wonderful teacher tells us that the work we do there is also part of our next sac (FOR WHAT REASON?!?! LET AN EXCURSION BE AN EXCURSION).
Not to mention I'm agonising over my lack of prioritisation still. I got my Latin and Spec tests back a few days ago and
boom. 97.5% and 93.75% respectively. I'm proud, but that same pride also makes me a bit frustrated and bitter. Top of the cohort in both, yet I probably can't even get a 70% in a subject that actually matters to me this year??? I can't deal.
I get the first component of my first methods sac tomorrow. I've got 5 days to do it, then immediately after I hand it in I get the second component, which I have a week to do, and right after that there's the actual 'test' component of it. It's going to be so exhausting and stressful, not to mention my next bio sac is on the same day as that methods test as well. And then semester 1 exams for my 1/2 subjects.
I genuinely admire some people so much. How do people who do even more extracurriculars than me even manage to cope with all this stuff, as well as regularly exercise, have a social life, turn up to class on time, and look alive??? Mad respect.
Will try to update in the next few weeks, but no guarantees (my future self is going to be like 'this timeline is full of holes and patchy af'). I'm just going to try and stumble/bash my way through and hope I make it to the other side with a nice A+. For now though, I gotta get enough sleep so I can actually drag myself to aths tomorrow (haven't gone in almost 2 weeks, yikes).