Hey,
So a fair bit has happened recently that most of you don't know about, but I think it's about time I update this.
I don't really know where to start though. I'm dropping 2 of my classes, so I'm going to be studying part time. At least for this semester, probably next semester too (although I might do 3 classes next semester, doubt I'll do 4). So that's kind of terrifying. Not so much anymore, I've kinda gotten used to the idea, but it's still scary. I guess I've just always seen uni (and school more generally) as something to be completed as fast as possible, but depression just had to go and fuck that up for me.
Don't really know what I'm even doing at uni tbh, very not enjoying my classes, but I
think that's just because I can't fucking concentrate at all, so hopefully only doing two classes will help somewhat. Kind of annoying though - I'm going to keep bio and chem, but that means I'm going to have to repeat emsc (AKA the class I really don't like) next year, because it's compulsory for any enviro science major
I'm sort of failing chem at the moment - or at least I failed the midsem exam, but it seems I only have to pass the theory overall, not pass both exams (at least I hope I read the course guide right), and the end of semester exam is worth more so I'm just gonna have to do way better in that. I have to pass the practical part as well, but so far that's going way better than the theory so that should be okay.
Haven't got the results from my bio exam yet, and I doubt I will for ages (even though we got our chem results in 3 days
), given they haven't even given us the results from one of our assignments that we submitted a month ago
but aside from the weirdly specific questions (which I was expecting, but were still odd), it seemed fairly easy.
I haven't actually withdrawn from those two courses yet, mostly because I need to call centrelink first and figure out what I need to do to try and get them to not stop giving me money
also need to register with access & inclusion, but at least I've done the paperwork for that. I've heard some *interesting* stories about a&i that make me not keen to actually do it though
I can actually withdraw from my classes without having to go through them, but to get it to not count towards my hecs debt I have to fill out yet more forms
So yeah, life's kinda shit at the moment, and I'm really tired all the time, but hopefully it'll get a bit better soon. Also, unrelated, but I really want a kayak, I just don't quite know how to obtain one, store it, or transport it given the small room and lack of car, should probably wait till after I eventually get a job though lol - speaking of, some recruitment people have called me like 5 times now and I haven't yet answered. Not sure why anyone is that desperate to hire me.
Love you <3