TERM 3 WEEK 5 - [ FRIDAY ISH ] - 75 DAYS LEFT UNTIL EXAMS
LAST WEEK : I wrote this but never got the chance to publish it.
It had been a very busy week. Ever since I worked those two 6+ hour shifts on the weekends, I became a lost soul in the midst of this journey to acquire a 90+ atar.
Joke jokeee, I’m doing fine and ever since I have changed my habit to sleep early, i never felt better. I must keep this journal short, all the assessments are catching up to me. Term 3 is a very tricky term I suppose.
I had a physics SAC and it was ‘ok’. I walked out of it feeling ‘okay, maybe 60s’ and then my friends started discussing the answers and I was like ‘ah shit, please god give me one more chance on this subject’. It took our teacher 2 days to mark all our sacs, and prior to getting our marks back, he was like ‘your marks are SUBJECT TO CHANGE’ so I assumed that my mark would get bumped up even if I failed BUT NOOOOO, I think they’re going down. I received a 77%, which I was very happy about ( since i’ve been praying for second chances ), but not very happy when he said scores are gonna change.
Other than that, nothing new or exciting, just general spesh homework that kills me from all directions and the more work i do the more i get stuck like i just can’t. Cambridge Maths Textbook gives you a grade 2 example, then goes from 0 to 100000 in their questions or maybe i’m just dumb.
TERM 3 WEEK 6 - [ FRIDAY ] - 68 DAYS LEFT UNTIL EXAMS
Today is supposedly the last day to work on my final part of my i.t sat and in all honesty, I don’t think I’ll get anywhere near 90% for this SAT. Informatics for me is not excruciating or hard in any way, the only ‘hard’ thing about it is management. This subject requires work every day, but I hate juggling homework on the laptop and the books at the same time. It’s so tiring. HOWEVER, I FINISHED THE DAMN SAT AND I’M FREEEE. Omg, I legit hate informatics so much, I just want to cry whenever the deadline comes.
Anyways to summarise up the past 2 weeks.
> Basically finished my entire course for physics, we’re now preparing to do some investigation project, which is gonna stress me out even more.
> We’re going through probability so fast, I don’t understand why. I thought probability is probably the chapter that we would have to spend the majority of our time on, not just spend 45 minutes on it. But it’s ok, I’m doing alright.
> Spesh: my teacher skips so much chapters holyyyyyyy. I was ahead with spesh and it was my pride, but now i’m like 3 chapters behind… I cry.
> I.T: I hate i.t.
> English: I hate English too
>Tutoring: I love my tutors, I feel like they play such a big role in my year 12 journey and I feel like I should write a bigger paragraph to thank them at the end of the year. They may not know it, but beyond everyone that I have met at parties or social gathering, they are my favourites.
> I was supposed to work today, but I caught a flu and end up bedridden for the past couple of days. I missed out on school and surprisingly, not much work to catch up onto.
> I WENT TO MELB OPEN DAY. I collected much more freebies at Melbourne than I did at Monash. Melbourne Uni was easier to familiarise, perhaps it was because it was my 4th time at The University of Melbourne, but I instantly recognises part of the campus once I stepped my foot on it. Melbourne’s location is way more convenient, more prestige and its model is also different. However, no matter how much I try to find my way around it, I still see myself studying at Monash more. I liked Monash more, I liked its vibe, I liked its buildings, I liked the idea of studying there, belonging there. It was weird because if I wanted to study medicine, I would definitely want to be at Melbourne, but do I really want to study medicine? Do I want to go to medical school? Can I go to medical school? Am I ready to commit myself to medicine? Is medicine for me?
> Almost one month left until VTAC applications must be submitted, I have one month to list all my preferences down and get my paperwork right. At the moment, Monash is still at the top of my list.
P.S: Today I called in sick so I obviously didn’t have to go to work. In a home with usually 6-7 people has now become 3. I suddenly realised my selfish desire of wanting to live alone, how naive was I for wanting to move out and being independent when it would mean abandoning my mother every night in this lonely house.
Totally recommend studying at a library or at school if you’re allowed to stay after school. I almost never study at home because I just cannot concentrate. If you’re in an environment that you associate with studying then you’ll probably focus better - it’s also easier when you can’t go check the fridge again just in case food has materialised haha - also some libraries don’t allow food and some have (supposedly) silent areas which will reduce the distractions
This I cannot agree more, but given my circumstances, going to a library on a weekday would do me more harm than good. The closest library to my house is about an hour an a half away. My family is busy and therefore cannot pick me up at any given time and if even if I decide to go to the library on a weekday, I would have to leave before the sun sets or else,
I'll get kidnapped.
ALSO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY!!