An Exhilarating VCE Journey of a boy (You dont know me)

[You dont know me]

Hi all!

This week has been a relatively better week. I got my results back for my Maths SAC: 97% and my Psychology Sac: 91%, which I'm quite happy with although both were pretty damn easy haha . My legal studies teacher postponed our SAC we have for another full week! Which is pretty snazzy in my opinion cause I can study a lot more.


Currently procrastinating, because I cannot be bothered writing my practise essay for an English SAC I have coming up which is always lovely.


I have no idea what to write about, so I suppose I'll write about my life outside of school . My week usually consists of me playing wow (world of Warcraft), studying, and working. Exciting right? I love reading interesting cases and watching/listening to people solve cases, particularly cold cases. They're just so interesting and thrilling to listen to. If you have any recommendations, please list them . I hate maths and I don't like psychology, I love legal and I love biology . I work at McDonalds and it's absolutely terrible. I'm into heavy metal and alternative music. I'm shy and an introvert. I like anime . Hoping to become a lawyer in the future. I'm really outgoing on social media believe it or not, so if you want someone to talk to, I'm the guy for you . I don't know what else to say about myself... There isn't much else to say.

I'll update when I get my SPA results, which is soon. Byeee

[Bri MT]

A bit ago you asked for people's advice on killing time - any reflections on how that had turned out/changed?

[You dont know me]

A bit ago you asked for people's advice on killing time - any reflections on how that had turned out/changed?

I can usually find something to do on weekends now which is good, because previously I would sit there and just search YouTube for hours upon hours not being satisfied with any videos I watched. If I have nothing to do now, or I have time off studying/work/school I found that listening to podcasts whilst playing a game/skating around passes time in a fun way for me because I tend to enjoy those activities. I also have found a book I like reading called "Buried Lies" which is quite long so that also gives me something to do. I also recommend reading the Once, Then, Now, After, Soon book series, it's very interesting. It's a not a series that takes a lot of effort to read, compared to, for example, Bones to Ashes. It's about a boy who is a jewish, and the hardships he faces during WW2 and then the series leads onto him being an adult. It's a great read

I can usually find something to do on weekends now which is good, because previously I would sit there and just search YouTube for hours upon hours not being satisfied with any videos I watched. I don't know if I answered your question, I sort of just listed new ways I've found to pass time, compared to what I did before. I'm tired .

Nighty night .

[You dont know me]

Hi all!

Sorry I'm not updating as regular as I use to. Schools been pretty dull this time of year, with me just prepping for SAC's really which is always fun. I had a maths SAC which was pretty simple, nothing really difficult. I have a biology topic test tomorrow on translation and transcription which I don't believe will be too hard, and then on Friday I have a legal SAC first two periods, and then I have a English SAC 3&4'th period... I don't know how my hand will cope, and if it doesn't fall off I'll be extremely surprised . All jokes aside, I think I'll get a B as usual for English and possibly an A for legal although this AOS is VERY content heavy so I don't know. I'll hope for the best.

I'm currently sitting here in the senior learning centre of my school, procrastinating as always, but I find it quite convenient that I can stay back here after school and do work, because otherwise I would sit on my computer playing overwatch for hours upon hours . Haven't really been working much, maybe 1-2 times a week so not a hefty amount.

I haven't mentioned my pets much on this really and it'll make my post longer . My dog Ayla is a cute little thing, she's a labradoodle, and we're allowing her to have puppies soon which should be fun! My cats Frank and Louie are the same as they always have been. Frank's a massive cuddler, whereas Louie just kind of goes about her day the same way I do, unseen and sly .

Have fun with your studies/work/whatever you're doing at the moment, bye bye now.  

[You dont know me]

Hi, be prepared for a lot of poor language. Sorry.

I'm extremely excited for school holidays, as I get to get away from everyone from my town and I'm just sick of all the bullshit that is involved with this school and town really. Im sick of the work, having to go to work, having to wake up early and go to school everyday back to all the fake people that the school is filled with. I just want it to end (school, that is), I want to work my ass off to do really really well and begin my dream of practising law, but I have no motivation anymore. I'm achieveing outstanding results in some classes, and in others I'm doing the worse I've ever done, all I do now is lock myself in my room and just sit here, staring blankly at this computer screen for hours, thinking of what I want to acomplish with my life, though it seems impossible. I'm at the worst I've been all year. After a long break, hopefully I can pull my shit together and work my ass off for my sake. I have no words for how I feel at the moment. I'm mad, upset, angry, annoyed. I can't particularly speak to anyone about this, because I'll just be shit on by my "friends". I try to show my energy for working hard, and being determined at school, but I think I'm at my breaking point. If I had the choice, I would sit at school by myself with my music in and just sit there staring blanklessly at the ground. But I can't, because I'd be judged, and people will ask me if I'm alright which will just make it worse. I just want to be alone for a week or so, without all this negative bullshit that comes with school. I'm going away for school holidays, so hopefully some of what I desire can be fulfilled. I want to be able to be myself. I naturally a negative person. I like being alone. Within our day and age, everyone is portrayed to be really and energic, and if you aren't, you have something wrong with you, which may be the case for some. I don't know what will make me happy for the time being. I want to feel happiness. I'm not saying I don't get happy. I'm sayin, that I want to feel what it's like to be truly happy again. I don't cry. I think it's because I've been so exposed to sadness, I just feel numb. But sometimes I just want to be alone and ball my fucking eyes out, because I'm just sick of everything.

I'm sorry you had to read this, I really am. I just needed to express how I feel truly. I probably wont update this for a while, and for that I'm also sorry. Just going through a rough patch at the moment.

Goodbye for now.

[Bri MT]

No need to apologise for venting in your journey journal. Sometimes rough patches are part of your VCE experience, and we want to be able to support you when this happens. It's okay for you to fluctuate and to express the negativity you've been experiencing

It sounds like you've been experiencing a lot of stress and that that's having a paralysing effect - I hope that this gets better for you soon. Try not to beat yourself up if you aren't very productive these holidays; taking time to invest in yourself is important. If you do decide to spend time on academics it might help to set smaller goals (eg. less than 10/15 minutes to complete), which you may or may not be able to build on.

It's great when you do participate in this journal (and I hope that this helps you), but you also don't owe us entries. No need to feel bad or apologise if this takes a back seat.

[You dont know me]

Hi,
This update wont necessarily be about my "VCE Journey", but more so on how I've been feeling as a whole.

It's been a while since I updated this due to how I've been feeling for the past month or so. My mood as been very weird and just fluctuates because of what I believe to be anxiety. As a kid I always worried, more so than I needed to, and its only gotten worse as I've progressed throughout life really. I don't know how to let it pass. I feel like I just need to let out how I've been feeling. I think I might need to start looking around for places to go where I can talk freely with someone and understand why I feel the way I do, and pathways I can take to begin feeling just better. I haven't really been focusing on my school work a whole lot, but more myself. Although I don't think that's the best way to go about things, because now I just feel secluded and I only really keep to myself. I miss being genuinely happy at school with my mates, and having a good laugh without thinking about something that totally ruins me. I find myself at the moment worrying about a particular person who I care very much for. But they've help me have my happiest moments of this whole year so far. I know I'm only 16 and people say that I have nothing to worry to about, because why should I have the need to worry? I have my whole life ahead of me to do as I please with a lot of hard work and determination, but some days I don't know that'll I'll make it to that point where I'm happy at the point I'm at. I know this post has just been a lot of random shit about feelings and my thoughts, but I want to be able to look back at this. I'm not saying this stuff to get some sort of praise, I'm not saying it so people reach out to me to see if I'm doing okay. It's purely for myself, and just being able to let out all my feelings, although to update people that read this pointless thread just whats going on.

Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this if you do. I'm sorry if I've upset anyone because of this post. I think I'll just update this to keep track of my feelings and thoughts. With the occasional sac/exam results.

[You dont know me]

It's been a while, so I dont really know where to start and dont necessarily want to read what I last posted on this thread, but anyways.

Hello all, wasn't gonna post again but I think I might start restart my VCE journey as it's a new year and I really want to have something to look back on when I finish year 12. Late last year (2018) things got a bit rough. I was dealing with a little bit, which really put me off doing anything altogether (school, going outside, seeing people, you get the idea) I didn't end 2018 the way I wanted to. I sucked at exams, and just went into a little depressed shell I created for myself. I eventually went and talked to someone about it, and ultimately led me to cut out/block what had impacted my life so much at that point in time. The moment I did that, things slowly got better. Sitting here now I'm a little anxious typing this, even though there is no reason whatsoever why I should be feeling this way. Anyways, enough with the sad stuff . New year, new me am I right? . I liked the start of this year much better than last years start. I felt free and happy (I know this emotional shit is probably cringe and obnoxious, but I wanna remember it okay . Only really started on my homework tonight, which is a horrible idea but oh well. I'm looking forward to trying really hard this year and getting the results I aim for, it'll be hard but I know I can do it. I also actually looking forward to just going back to school in general, it'll give me something to do besides working 24/7 and watching really pointless youtube videos. I'll keep this updated every week or so, no promises though .

Catch ya later alligators,
S

[Bri MT]

Glad that this year has gotten off to a better start and that you were able to improve your state!

It's good to see your optimism and I hope that it's a relatively smooth path to less anxiety and more fulfillment for you

[Snow Leopard]

How've you found Year 12 so far?

[You dont know me]

How've you found Year 12 so far?

Deadly

[illuminae]

hey man!! i hope everything's been alright !

good luck on your exams!

[caffinatedloz]

Best of luck as exams approach! Are you feeling prepared?