Yes, you are seeing this correctly – you’re not going crazy - I am making a journal post within a month of my last one (by which I mean before a full month as elapsed (which I have approximated to 30.44 days) as opposed to within the same month as my last post). My life has been pretty extraordinarily ordinary over the last (just less than a) month; I have been pretty much tailoring my life around exams.
I have been trying to keep up the running. Like I said last post, I have tuned it back a little, but am still going out a few times a week to run, destress (and since its almost always damp and rainy) devote my full attention to dodging all the snails on the path. I am proud to say I haven’t had to hold a snail funeral as of yet.
Here’s a photo of one of me running with the snails
Now, I am going to let you in on a little secret – that ‘photo’ wasn’t actually a photo, it was instead a drawing I did. I understand that you probably don’t believe me because of how life-like it looks, but I assure you I am telling the truth. As you can see – I am quite skilled, so feel free to reach out for any drawing advice.
Aside from hanging with my snail buddies, I have also found myself getting back into some videogames to relax now and then. Particularly over the last week or so I have been getting into factorio (for those who know of it). And of course, most importantly (yes more important than snails) I have been continuing to hang out with Poet regularly throughout my exam period.
Now into exam stuff.
Since my last post, my exam revision has gone along rather successfully: I have done practice exams, made boo boos them, then going through and patched up the boo boos, then repeated the process. Occasionally I’d do a bad practice exam here and there which would demotivate me to an extent, but as a whole I have been maintaining pretty decent motivation, and most importantly, keeping my stress levels down (moderately). I do have the ever-present concern of what if I don’t meet my expectations, but I wouldn’t say that its causing me to stress in any harmful way and I think that comes mainly down to my successful performance (at least by my standards) throughout the year which is fuelling my confidence in my ability to achieve what I want to achieve.
So far, my exams themselves have gone well. Exams aren’t as dramatic as I think I was making them out to be in my head. Even after doing bio last year, I was expecting to be walking out the exam either over-the-moon with my performance or devastated after ‘flunking it’ – a make it or break it scenario of sorts - however, every exam so far as been pretty much what I have been doing in practice (funnily enough).
My first exam English went much like my last practice exam; over the 3 hour exam I spend 70 on each of section C and A, and then rushed out a section B in 40 mins. In my last practice, my teacher marked my a 9,8, and a 7 which does get me an A+ (at least by last year’s grade distribution) which I would be very satisfied with for the exam. I do have some regrets though – I don’t think the second half of my section B was all that good, but I am hoping that I am making it out worse in my head.
The day after I had psychology which (I hope) went about as good as my last practice as well, although its hard to tell. I feel that the content was fairly easy on the exam, but some questions were just a little ambiguous/hard to understand what content they wanted you to talk about. I am confident with what I wrote, so I am keenly waiting to see how it turns out.
Over the last couple days, I also had my two methods exams. I think I managed to scrap together a solid performance, but I am fairly sure that methods is going to be my 6th subject in terms of study score. I just seem to make a lot of silly mistakes and go through the exams too slowly.
Up next I have Chem (on Tuesday) and Physics as my last exam (on Wednesday). I am a little concerned about chem as I have such high hopes for the subject, but my recent exam marks haven’t been up to the standard I am hoping for. I don’t have a lot of time left until the chem exam, so I have to really focus on fixing up my weaknesses and getting my confidence levels up a bit. I haven’t got as high goals for physics, I think I will do better in it then maths, but I don’t think by much. However, that’s not to say I won’t put in some more hard work towards it before the exam.
I think I am slowly coming to realise the school is ending (at least high school) After coming on from the English exam to my desk covered in English papers, I didn’t know what to do with them. I am the kind of person who usually saves old work in the off chance I will want to look back on it in later years, but for English in particular I realised that I will probably never look back on any of it. I ended up just putting it in a corner (I’m glaring at it right now in fact) because I just don’t want to throw it out (maybe I am trying to deny that high schools ending haha)
In regards to my uni dilemma, I haven’t devoted much thought to the situation. I think I am sticking with my resolve to wait for scholarships and make a decision from there. The Monash course does have an increasing appeal to me, but I am not sure if I want to make the longer trip.
I will hopefully make another post here sometime next week after my last exam (which actually means I will post something here in approximately the year 2082) so stay tuned!