Hey everyone,
It's been one and a half semesters so far (and this one's going by so fast, hope everyone's doing ok!)
So how to start - I've been at uni for a while now, and I've really enjoyed most parts of it. However, I probably need some help/advice/support about some stuff I've experienced/been going through in relation to life at uni and stuff.
I guess some of you if you've talked to me might have picked this up from random things I might have mentioned now and then, but I find I'm not coping so well with the social side of uni. It's been something I've been feeling keenly from the beginning of semester - there's just way too many people in a lot of the subjects I'm doing (like ~2000 for bio, chem, ~800 in intro micro sem 2, etc.) and I guess I've come to the point where I'm beginning to have second thoughts about a lot of choices I made.
I've really really really enjoyed the academic side of uni, no doubts there (so much better than VCE), so I've got no regrets there about choosing science for more flexibility in subject selection and so on. You know, when I chose science, I chose it because I knew that, academically, it offered me what I really wanted. And it did. I didn't really factor social considerations in, which I think was fair enough - after all, that's no reason behind choosing a course, right?
I've been questioning myself on that point lately. The situation I'm faced with right now is basically too many people
, I can't really describe it really well - although I don't lack certain levels of social interaction, deep down there's this pain...
It's complicated.
I could say it's been demonstrated often that I'm particularly socially/emotionally sensitive (lol that sounds weird, but oh well), maybe that's why I'm feeling this way. Rationally, I think that this is pretty stupid (I don't really have a reason to feel down, I function well in social settings), and I should just move on. But I can't shut it out.
I've toyed with this idea of transferring into biomed next year (which may/may not be possible, subject to rather obscure issues). This is both because of the above, and because I've found out that I'd probably enjoy the biomed course a lot more than what I thought at the end of last year. Importantly, in theory I'd be able to go straight to second year. But the social problem is really the main reason I'm toying with this - and chances are, It's entirely likely that I will still end up feeling down even if I transfer. So I'm aware I'm probably not thinking rationally.
For those who know me in real life, please don't take this as me being ungrateful - I seriously value each and every one of you.
I wish I could make the pain go away, but I haven't succeeded yet (lol). Or maybe I've just got to toughen up and try harder.
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Sorry for being a bit all over the place, but I just thought I'd throw this out there, hoping to get some advice or insight from those on AN who are more experienced than myself
. I've been feeling a bit yuck about this for a long time, and perhaps something might come from it...
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