Hey guys thought I’d start up a journal now that I am technically a year 12!!
So a little bit about me: I’ve just finished Year 11 and the subjects that I did were Chem 3/4, Spesh 1/2, Methods 1/2, Biology 1/2, Psychology 1/2, English and Text & Traditions (compulsory). Next year I’ll be doing Spesh, Methods, Biology, Psych and English! Will definitely be a challenging year but I’m weirdly looking forward to it.
I've finished chemistry this year as an early 3/4 subject. Even though I'm disappointed with how I performed this year, I absolutely loved it. The concepts and topics were great (equilibrium and food chemistry are my favs) and it challenged me to apply the knowledge that I've learnt, not simply just regurgitating facts.
Outside of school I love to play the keyboard (am hoping to self teach myself how to read notes), swim recreationally, go to the gym, and learn French (this was out of the blue!) Above all I have a great passion for astronomy. I LOVE astronomy. Everything above space and aerospace attracts me like a massive magnet. I could literally just sit with someone and speak about it for hours on end.
What are my year 12 goals? Honestly, I just want to be content with whatever ATAR I get. I have a thing of being unforgiving towards myself. I always kick myself for not doing the best and then kick myself for kicking myself. For once I want to learn to be content with whatever I’ve accomplished.
What are my future aspirations? Money. I know that sounds shallow and all but my dream is to really help out my parents. I feel sorry for them as they’re both tired from working a lot and I feel that it’s my responsibility to alleviate financial stresses. It’s terrible to see them sick due to fatigue and stress and honestly it takes a toll on me too. This is my ultimate goal and I will not care how I achieve it.
What are my career aspirations? Honestly, I don’t know. I don’t really have a clue. I know this sucks but I’m choosing a career that not only pays well but ensures job security in the near future. I’ve established very quickly that though I love science I HATE HATE the research component of it. Therefore, the prospects of being a scientist or a researcher is quickly eliminated. I would love to be able to do something in aerospace but again, there is little guarantee of job security within Australia.
I’m leaning towards IT with business as I would really love to start up a business but I’m a science gal and I’ve never done anything business-related (any thoughts on this?) I still don’t know what area of IT I want to do (data science and software engineering are tempting but I need to know more about them). Medicine is another tempting career but I fear that 6 years before being able to help my parents is far too long. As well, I’m scared for my mental wellbeing but I’m honestly up for it!
I would love to be able to first relieve my parents of financial stress so that they no longer have to work full time. Then after that, I plan to pursue my dream in aerospace, even going to America if that’s what it takes! The literal thought of working for SpaceX or NASA makes me want to cry.
Hopefully, through this journal I can make more sense of myself and find out what I really want to do in life