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Title: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 04, 2019, 07:11:41 pm
✯Hi everyone!✯

I'm Ashmi! I've been really inspired by these journals recently that I've finally decided to start my own. Totally not to procrastinate at all haha

*~~2020 Introduction~~*
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Hi everyone and those that are new to this journal! I'm Ashmi, but really everyone calls me Ash. This year, I'm going into year 12 as the class of 2020 (Honestly, the best number to have on your Year 12 jackets).

Fun/interesting facts about me:
✯ I love anything with choc mint!
✯ You will never see me without my CAS, Pocky or an iced coffee at any point in my life.
✯ Pastel colours are my fav, but I also like the black and red combo~
✯ I have really bad grass allergies.
✯ I moved schools for one VCE subject.
✯ I have played every Pokemon game that has existed. (I love my Dark type Pokemon)
✯ I'm addicted to collecting artbooks/character-design books from video games.
✯ I'm terrible at drawing traditionally but can somehow draw digitally.
✯ Surprisingly, I'm a cosplayer and photo-editor.

~Subjects for 2020~
Next year, I'm doing Product Design and Technology (PDT), English, Physics, Chemistry and Methods!
 
Wait.....PDT?

Yep, PDT seems like the odd subject out of the bunch. A lot of people think I'm a maths/science-based person, but really I've always have been passionate in the arts/design subjects. (I'm just really put off doing more thanks to VCAA's terrible scaling)

~Plans after school and goals for 2020~
Now this is exactly where things get complicated. I'm being pulled in multiple directions by Mathematics, Science and Design but after much debate, it is looking like the middle ground would be engineering? It is really the only thing I could do that has enough Design, Mathematics and problem solving all in one! I'm pretty interested in Electrical engineering, but I also have my eye on mechanical with aerospace, biomedical and mechatronics 8)

My dream course at the moment is Bachelor of Science at Melbourne Uni/Masters of Engineering. The ATAR I'm aiming for is anything above 96. Will I get there? I honestly don't know, probably not. Am I going to try? Absolutely!

On top of that, I would also really love to get into Top Designs for 2021 (or at least shortlisted). Just the idea of having your folio and product up on display in a museum sounds pretty cool and I would really love if I could get my costume up there one day!

In terms of subject goals, I sort of made a bet with a friend that if I don't get at least a 47+ for PDT, I will be thrown into an ice bath. (I'm going to hope I do well enough for this not to happen. I really dislike the cold).
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Below is the 2019 version of this Journal
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*~A little quick introduction about myself!~*
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✯I'm currently in Year 11, specifically the class of 2020.
✯Currently doing 3/4 Further Maths, 1/2 Methods, 1/2 English, 1/2 Physics, 1/2 Chemistry and 1/2 Product Design!
✯I love to sew costumes in my spare time as well as do a lot of cosplay photography.
✯I'm a chocoholic and is easily influenced by a cup of coffee (Iced lattes all the way~).
✯I don't know how, but I can magically make CAS calculators that refused to work with their owners work normally all of a sudden... (Aunty Ash loves ALL CAS Calcs ;D  8))

My goal for the end of the year is to get a 45+ study score in Further (hopefully that will happen)
I've always dreamed to study science/mathematics, specifically mathematical physics, engineering or statistics at Melbourne Uni. (But Med also sounds quite tempting too). Aiming for a 96+ ATAR here :D
Welcome to my journal, and I hope you stay to watch the messy journey that comes forward ;)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: caffinatedloz on September 04, 2019, 07:27:47 pm
Hey ashmi! So exciting to see another journal! Costume sewing; very cool. Do you sew regular clothes as well? ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 04, 2019, 07:42:38 pm
Hey ashmi! So exciting to see another journal! Costume sewing; very cool. Do you sew regular clothes as well? ;D

Hey Laura! Yeah, I do sew some regular clothes every once in a while! It's very rare though, usually when my closest needs a new makeover ;D. I like designing and sewing more elaborate costumes as it helps me learn some new techniques (and also useful for Product Design).
Hope you stick around to see some more weirdness come out of this journal :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on September 04, 2019, 08:05:00 pm
That is so cool that you design costumes for cosplay!

I can really appreciate people who can make and design their own costumes! What do you cosplay as?

An welcome to the journal thread!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 04, 2019, 09:02:14 pm
That is so cool that you design costumes for cosplay!

I can really appreciate people who can make and design their own costumes! What do you cosplay as?

An welcome to the journal thread!

Oh there are a lot of things I cosplay as 8). I love to design and make Gijinkas, which are like humanised versions of a certain character, for example, Pokemon or Toothless from HTTYD! I'm thinking of doing this for my final 3/4 product design next year.

I mainly cosplay from Japanese Video Games (RPG style) because they have really nice, fantastic designs which would demonstrate a variety of sewing skills! I have a separate page elsewhere that I post progress pictures of my sewing and designing process. I possibly might include a bit into this journal?

Sewing costumes is a very fun but exhausting process, but the final product, in the end, is definitely worth all the pain ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 05, 2019, 08:29:39 am
Hi Ashmi, amazing choice of subjects! I’m also in yr 11 doing a VERY similar set (how rare is it to see people doing PDT! I’ve only done 3/4, what is unit 1/2 like?)

Can’t wait to read your future updates! ;D

Finally, someone that does PDT! ;D. It's so rare to see some lurking on the AN forum, especially people doing maths/science-based subjects too. Unit 1/2 is actually exactly the same as 3/4, the only difference is that instead of making one product for the year, you make one product each semester! (So thats two products in one year!).

PDT needs much more love than it gets, it such a fun subject. I most likely will post some photos of my folio on here. (to stop me from procrastinating as much)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 05, 2019, 10:12:03 pm
☆Term 3 - 5/09/2019☆

Time for an update! I've been super unproductive this week. Just recently I've finished my last 3/4 SAC which is a miracle and a disaster in a way. I love the subject so its going to be a bit sad there is no more content to learn. This month so far has been quite good, except that it's spring and I have massive allergies with grass....

On the plus side, my future SACs are all spread out, which saves a whole pack of stressing out in the future. Holidays are really close now and that means filling it with last minute revision lectures!

☆Further Maths~☆
Finished my last 3/4 SAC two days ago and just got my results back really quickly. We had it on our last module Matrices and another 100% which is exciting. ;D Things are going pretty good in this subject and I love my CAS to bits (and it's slowly dying on me). The Further team is now making us start a mammoth amount of practise exams, about 10 minimum to be done before the holidays. It's really nice to know that all the content is done and we have a lot of time to practise before the exam in 57 days.

☆Product Design~☆
One of the easiest and most fun subject! We handed in our folios last week so right now we are finalising our production plan and getting ready to finally start sewing!
I've spent this week helping my Year 12 friend on her final product. I also helped her do a photoshoot for her cosplay which she was super excited about. Might put a full photo of the end-user wearing it next time, but here is what it looks like! 8)
(https://i.imgur.com/b6JJFvs.jpg)
I've been working on something a bit different in the meantime 8)~
(https://i.imgur.com/ybCHVQj.png)

☆Chemistry~☆
The subject I've been neglecting. Redox doesn't catch my interest at all so its been quite hard to enjoy this subject. Slightly tempted to drop it and pick up a University Extension. ???

☆Methods~☆
Definitely not as enjoyable as Further but still has its ups. Just plain old derivatives which is a nice change from having to draw constant circular functions (had to buy a new pack of pens because all mine ran out of ink!).

☆Physics~☆
One of my favourite subjects at the moment! We are just finishing up motion and we have our SAC early next week. Unit 2 of Physics works really nicely with other subjects like Methods so the workload doesn't feel like a lot. Really enjoying the content and how things actually 'work'. :D

☆English~☆
We are doing a comparative on All About Eve and The Great Gatsby. Thankfully we don't have a SAC till next term! Super chill in this subject and enjoying how there is not much work to do.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Snow Leopard on September 05, 2019, 10:19:59 pm
Congrats on the fantastic score in Further!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: pugs on September 07, 2019, 05:04:57 pm
☆Term 3 - 5/09/2019☆

Time for an update! I've been super unproductive this week. Just recently I've finished my last 3/4 SAC which is a miracle and a disaster in a way. I love the subject so its going to be a bit sad there is no more content to learn. This month so far has been quite good, except that it's spring and I have massive allergies with grass....

On the plus side, my future SACs are all spread out, which saves a whole pack of stressing out in the future. Holidays are really close now and that means filling it with last minute revision lectures!

☆Further Maths~☆
Finished my last 3/4 SAC two days ago and just got my results back really quickly. We had it on our last module Matrices and another 100% which is exciting. ;D Things are going pretty good in this subject and I love my CAS to bits (and it's slowly dying on me). The Further team is now making us start a mammoth amount of practise exams, about 10 minimum to be done before the holidays. It's really nice to know that all the content is done and we have a lot of time to practise before the exam in 57 days.

☆Product Design~☆
One of the easiest and most fun subject! We handed in our folios last week so right now we are finalising our production plan and getting ready to finally start sewing!
I've spent this week helping my Year 12 friend on her final product. I also helped her do a photoshoot for her cosplay which she was super excited about. Might put a full photo of the end-user wearing it next time, but here is what it looks like! 8)
(https://i.imgur.com/b6JJFvs.jpg)
I've been working on something a bit different in the meantime 8)~
(https://i.imgur.com/ybCHVQj.png)

☆Chemistry~☆
The subject I've been neglecting. Redox doesn't catch my interest at all so its been quite hard to enjoy this subject. Slightly tempted to drop it and pick up a University Extension. ???

☆Methods~☆
Definitely not as enjoyable as Further but still has its ups. Just plain old derivatives which is a nice change from having to draw constant circular functions (had to buy a new pack of pens because all mine ran out of ink!).

☆Physics~☆
One of my favourite subjects at the moment! We are just finishing up motion and we have our SAC early next week. Unit 2 of Physics works really nicely with other subjects like Methods so the workload doesn't feel like a lot. Really enjoying the content and how things actually 'work'. :D

☆English~☆
We are doing a comparative on All About Eve and The Great Gatsby. Thankfully we don't have a SAC till next term! Super chill in this subject and enjoying how there is not much work to do.
heyy, welcome! your subjects sound very interesting!! oh my, i feel the same way with you about further! very keen to start doing practice exams eeee

do you have any handy dandy cas tricks?  :D i'd love some extra tips!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 07, 2019, 09:19:39 pm
Congrats on the fantastic score in Further!

Thank you!! Hopefully, that will happen in both exams too ;).

heyy, welcome! your subjects sound very interesting!! oh my, i feel the same way with you about further! very keen to start doing practice exams eeee

do you have any handy dandy cas tricks?  :D i'd love some extra tips!

Further needs so much more love ;D.
Best things to know about your CAS are the shortcuts! Always remember them and try not to look at the keyboard when typing numbers in, trust me, it saves so much time once you get the hang of it! (Might do a mini post during the holidays on some clever tricks!).
The more you know about the CAS, the better, saves so much time during assessments! Clearing your CAS before a SAC/exam is a must too. It stops it from lagging and is much more efficient. Also making sure your 'float' setting is set to a number quite high to reduce rounding errors.

Financial is pretty much your Financial Solver. I'm not too sure if people know this, but your CAS works the same as your basic computer operations, like ctrl z! You can do ctrl c and ctrl v to copy and paste, which is great for finance solver (especially those two-step process problems).
If you are doing the Geometry module, using Numerical Solve on CAS and not 'solving' anything by hand (solving for x etc) is a massive time saver. Just write the equation you input on the CAS on your assessment paper and just solving on CAS for the variable. Making sure your CAS is on the right settings (approx and degrees would be best!). 8)
For matrices, defining anything that looks like it will be repeated on in later questions and whatever you do, never clear your CAS till the end, just in case you want to go back and look at your previous working out.
Data analysis, make sure you know how to use your spreadsheet quickly and well for statistics and regression (yes, I'm looking at you too Log graphs and Data Transformations. Not confusing RV and EV variables).

Whenever in doubt, even with the simplest 'find the median' question, just use your CAS ;D That's pretty much what I can think off on the top of my head :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: pugs on September 09, 2019, 09:09:56 pm
Further needs so much more love ;D.
Best things to know about your CAS are the shortcuts! Always remember them and try not to look at the keyboard when typing numbers in, trust me, it saves so much time once you get the hang of it! (Might do a mini post during the holidays on some clever tricks!).
The more you know about the CAS, the better, saves so much time during assessments! Clearing your CAS before a SAC/exam is a must too. It stops it from lagging and is much more efficient. Also making sure your 'float' setting is set to a number quite high to reduce rounding errors.

Financial is pretty much your Financial Solver. I'm not too sure if people know this, but your CAS works the same as your basic computer operations, like ctrl z! You can do ctrl c and ctrl v to copy and paste, which is great for finance solver (especially those two-step process problems).
If you are doing the Geometry module, using Numerical Solve on CAS and not 'solving' anything by hand (solving for x etc) is a massive time saver. Just write the equation you input on the CAS on your assessment paper and just solving on CAS for the variable. Making sure your CAS is on the right settings (approx and degrees would be best!). 8)
For matrices, defining anything that looks like it will be repeated on in later questions and whatever you do, never clear your CAS till the end, just in case you want to go back and look at your previous working out.
Data analysis, make sure you know how to use your spreadsheet quickly and well for statistics and regression (yes, I'm looking at you too Log graphs and Data Transformations. Not confusing RV and EV variables).

Whenever in doubt, even with the simplest 'find the median' question, just use your CAS ;D That's pretty much what I can think off on the top of my head :)
wow thank you so much for all the awesome tips!!

one of the biggest fears i have regarding the cas is that i'll define the wrong term and use the wrong number/equation etc in all of the calculations skksk but you're right i rly need to define matrices !!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 13, 2019, 09:08:22 pm
New Update and having a really good week for far! Just only 1 week left till school ends. Only 50 Days left before the Further Maths Exam 1 and I'm slightly keeping on track!

On the weekend, I attended an orientation for the NYSF (National Youth Science Forum) and got to meet those that got selected. Next year for a little over a week, I'm going to ANU in Canberra to experience a specific science area, most likely engineering or physics! I got a scholarship to go and I'm super excited! I highly recommend that if you are a Year 11 in 2020 to apply for this! It's a very selective process, but its an opportunity of a lifetime.

☆Product Design☆ - This is my favourite subject at the moment and we just finished our design options which I did digitally for the first time! For someone who usually draw stick figures, I think its a pretty good job. 8) I'm thinking of doing my 3/4 Folio digitally for next year so this unit is like a 'trial' to see if this would suit me. I just started sewing this kimono inspired outfit today, tackling the endless squares for the obi pieces. Here is a work in progress pic~
(https://i.imgur.com/kArzO34.png)
☆Further Maths☆ - I am on a mission to complete as many practise exams as possible before the holidays start. At our school they don't tell us our rankings which makes me super curious and slightly scared. For those that keep asking, yes I did name my journal 'CASual' because I love my CAS so much :P. Other than that, loving this subject!( If you have any Further Exam tips I would love to know!) ;D

☆Physics☆ - Just finished my Physics Motion SAC this Tuesday and I think I went better than expected. I really like learning about Physics, its just that I'm really bad when it comes to assessments T-T. :'(

☆English☆ - Good old comparative essays, my favourite ::). My teacher is super sweet and is very engaging, making me slowly start to like English again. Although I dislike this subjects with a passion, it is actually the best subject in terms of results weirdly enough.

☆Methods☆ - No SACs will Term 4 which is a relief. We are just on antidifferentiation of polynomials at the moment.

☆Chemistry☆ - For our redox unit SAC, we are doing an investigation/lab work which is a good change! Finally Chemistry has gotten a bit more interesting and is more enjoyable than it was before.

The AN VCE lectures start next weekend (which happens to be on my birthday). Who am I going to see there? ;)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: caffinatedloz on September 13, 2019, 10:11:59 pm
New Update and having a really good week for far! Just only 1 week left till school ends. Only 50 Days left before the Further Maths Exam 1 and I'm slightly keeping on track!
The holidays are approaching. Only mere days to go. Good luck for you further exam! It sounds like you're on top of things!

The AN VCE lectures start next weekend (which happens to be on my birthday). Who am I going to see there? ;)
I'll be there for the last weekend!! What about you? ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 20, 2019, 09:12:36 pm
The holidays are approaching. Only mere days to go. Good luck for you further exam! It sounds like you're on top of things!
I'll be there for the last weekend!! What about you? ;D

I'll be there for the first and last weekend! ;D. I'll be floating around the study spaces and especially near the free food area ;)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on September 28, 2019, 02:10:27 pm
It's the grand final today! Who are you guys going for today? ;D
So its nearly the end of the first week of holidays and to me, that went way to quickly. I've been procrastinating this week on school work and trying to revive my dead hobbies. Time for a quick update on my subjects!

☆Product Design☆
I've just started on making my mini yukata costume for my sewing project! I mainly took an hour or two in Adobe photoshop to get the pattern the correct size and make sure it was able to overlap (this was super difficult and I got mad so many times) but in the end, it worked out! The pattern is made so that no matter how you overlap it, it will always work! I then started to draw the pattern onto my beautiful 5 meters worth of fabric by hand with a fabric marker. It took about 5 hours but I'm really happy with the results! Now its just mainly sewing the pieces together. I'm trying to finish making my product during the holidays as it gives me time to do my folio as well as work on practise exams for my 3/4 subject.
(https://i.imgur.com/fvQ8ivb.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/Ryr30jR.jpg)

☆Further Maths☆
My beautiful Further ~ 8). I love this subject so much I think I may be able to do good if I stop procrastinating so much. Right now it's mainly just practise exams, which I hope to get at least 40 done before the school term starts again. Our school doesn't tell us our rankings, but one of the teachers 'accidentally' told me than I'm rank 1 our of 140+ students. Its sort of surprising since at this school, you are not allowed to do a 3/4 maths in year 11 (I came from another school and moved to this one. Yes that's right, I'm like the only Yr 11 doing Further in the cohort its really sad) which is now being reconsidered. Other than that, everything is going really well!

Here is a comparison of the Further Exam book VS Psych book for reference  :o
(https://i.imgur.com/kc9zV2u.jpg)
☆Physics☆
Right now, I'm severely disliking Physics. Everything is terrible in this subject and I wished I just picked Spesh at the start of the year T-T. Really regret not giving Spesh a go (don't be like me guys). Motion is however interesting to learn, I'll give it that.

☆English☆
I have 3 essays due before the start of the term and I've only done plans for them with one full essay nearly finished. Someone please help my procrastination before it goes out of hand. I'm slowly starting to like this subject, even though I hate it, it's my best subject (even better than Further RIP). Hopefully the scores stay the same for next year!

☆Methods/Chemistry☆
I don't like this subject but I don't hate it. It's kind of weird because I'm not very interested with the current topics and it's sort of boring me. Maybe later on in the year there might be a better topic!

A few weekends ago, I went to an event called Madman Anime Festival where I was able to debut one of my projects that I've been working on for months. The whole costume is handmade (and digitally printed) and I'm quite proud of how it turned out! If you want to have a little peak here it is. ;)
Rare cosplay photos on AN
(https://i.imgur.com/9gmQBZz.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/z4rFUwi.jpg)
IG: @ashmicos if you want to see more behind the scenes progress photos of this costume!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on October 05, 2019, 05:05:39 pm
How do you make your designs so neat and flawless?? Even using protractors & rulers I doubt I could get that level of precision.

What is it that you like about further?
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on October 05, 2019, 09:12:33 pm
How do you make your designs so neat and flawless?? Even using protractors & rulers I doubt I could get that level of precision.

What is it that you like about further?

I really don't know how the design came out so neat but it was mainly done with a really strategic plan I made in Photoshop a few hours before I started hand drawing it on! Protracters and a good 50cm ruler really does help with hand-drawing the design on, but its mainly just having a good amount of patience and treating each piece equally! I really do love sewing which may be a reason why I actually treated it well and most likely why it looks as neat as it does. Here is a pic of the design I made in Photoshop before risking it onto my real fabric piece!
(https://i.imgur.com/YFDZIS1.png)
There are dotted lines I've made through each star so you can see if there are any lines that can be made in 'one go' such as the one on the top left of the highest star all the way to the bottom right of the lower star! Doing stuff like this makes it easier for me to draw it on and with a nice ruler and protractor along the way, you can make it look pretty flawless! 8)

I love Further for so many reasons! I've always been a visual person that likes order, so when I first learned about Data and Statistics I loved it. I'm the type of person that struggles to memorise stuff (people that do Bio, Psych, Revs or a Language really are amazing) and I like to look at patterns which is why Further sort of just clicked to me! Not only that, but since you can bring a bound reference and CAS into both exams, it doesn't test you on how well you can memorise but rather how close to perfection you can get using the basic skills. There has always been a part of me that would like to be a statistician so me and Further get along like best buds. ;D. I really just like the idea of predicting stuff from different types of data especially seeing it visually represented makes me jump in excitement. Wordy subjects have always been complicated to me and mathematical equation/pattern just makes it so much easier to truly understand what's going on ???. It also stops you to make silly little mistakes as well as it easy to apply to real-life (and its helpful other subjects) 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on October 26, 2019, 08:20:11 pm
Update: 26/10/2019

Here is a mini update on my 3/4 because I haven't posted in a while!

☆Further 3/4☆
So my Further exam is next Friday and I don't feel too worried. I was expecting to be a lot more nervous and panicking by now? ???. I also finished making my bound reference a few weeks ago too, The crazy thing about it is that it's only 5 pages including the front and back page! I'm really proud of how this came out and I think it may be a confidence booster for the exam. My goal at the start of the year was to have as many pages as I could so it would act as a safety net, but now I've realised that the formula sheet pretty much has everything so there is no need to worry.  The front page of my bound reference is actually a drawing I did for my teacher for her birthday, so I thought it would be a nice touch since I won't be able to see her in the exam ;) (If she can't come into the exam I'll bring her in spiritually ;D).

Here are some sample pages of what my bound reference looks like 8)
(https://i.imgur.com/a8zqHNj.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/YznQVNZ.jpg)

I'm honestly just really surprised at how I've progressed in this subject. I never thought it would go this well. Now its just preparing myself mentally for the exam. Do you guys have any tips to relax before the big day? :D

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: caffinatedloz on October 28, 2019, 04:32:51 pm
Oh my goodness, your bound reference is so gorgeous!! Five pages sounds perfect as it will actually be useful in the exam because you won't have to go flipping through pages and pages to find what you need. Good luck!! <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Snow Leopard on November 01, 2019, 06:22:43 pm
How'd do you find the Further exam, ashmi?
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on November 02, 2019, 06:13:04 pm
How'd do you find the Further exam, ashmi?

I did really well! It was a good exam with a nice variety of questions, however, it was much easier than previous years so I'm expecting one hell of an exam 2 ;D

Usually I panic before an exam like this, but one of my teachers taught me a really good technique to stay calm and focus really easily. When I walked into the exam room (this was my first 3/4 exam), I didn't feel nervous at all, in fact, I felt really calm and somewhat excited! I was able to get the exam done in 40 min with 50 min of editing time which I used by redoing the exam all over again, with plenty of spare time to triple check all my answers. One of my teachers at my school is a Further VCAA examiner and she made a list of all the answers for Exam 1 which I checked and it sounds like a 40/40 8). (I'm just hoping that my exam booklet matches the bubbles I shaded on the MCQ sheet now ;)).

Right now I'm just chilling and not doing any more work for Further except reading the study design or looking at my bound ref. I'm quite curious what questions will be on Exam 2 this Monday coming. Overall I really liked the exam this year!

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Nexica on November 02, 2019, 07:45:48 pm
One of my teachers at my school is a Further VCAA examiner and she made a list of all the answers for Exam 1
If you still have the list - what did she put as the answer for Q7 in Matrices? That question killed me  :'(

Also, congratulations on your (hopefully) 40/40 on exam 1!  ;D Best of luck on Exam 2 this Monday.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on November 02, 2019, 08:15:57 pm
If you still have the list - what did she put as the answer for Q7 in Matrices? That question killed me  :'(

Also, congratulations on your (hopefully) 40/40 on exam 1!  ;D Best of luck on Exam 2 this Monday.

For Ques 7 on Matrices, myself and my teachers all got A! It asks "How many ways can Y get a message to W by sending it directly to one other person?". By using the word 'other', the question is implying it goes through a middle person.

The idea was to understand that:
Y -> (Someone) -> W
When you just list all the possible people Y can go it's only W, X and Z.
The possibilities for W to receive a message were either from U, V or Y.
Because the question is asking for a middle person and not directly, you can eliminate option Y -> W, therefore, none of the above is correct! (The answer is 0).

My teachers believe that the trap was for students to misinterpret the question and think of direct links rather than a middle person. There was nothing to do with dominance anything. It just wanted to check you understood what the matrix itself meant and also if you slowly read the question during reading time!  ;D

Hope that helps and good luck on Monday!
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Post by: ashmi on November 03, 2019, 04:47:52 pm
Time for another update! Totally not to procrastinate on work hahaha.

So I've got Further Exam 2 tomorrow and somewhat excited to get it done. I'm not feeling the good vibe coming from this exam but I guess we will see how that goes. :) Since Exam 1 was much easier than usual, I'm slightly scared to see what type of hard questions they will have. I'm going to try and aim for full marks considering how Exam 1 went! Also for my Further buddies out there, good luck and how did you guys go for Exam 1? ;D

I'm also currently debating if I should drop Physics and pick up Algorithmics? ??? If you do Algorithmics or Physics,I would love to hear your opinion on the subject because I'm quite uncertain about what to do. I'm not really enjoying Physics right now and just looking for some better options.

For Product Design, I nearly have finished sewing my Yukata! My folio is due next week and hopefully, I might be productive and post some pictures more pictures on here :D
(https://i.imgur.com/iTcpKT4.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/GrWMb9A.jpg)
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Post by: Geoo on November 07, 2019, 10:41:08 pm
Wow, that is amazing! How long did that take you too make it? The colour choice is really nice, and having a small sliver of green makes it different!
Kinda jealous that you have a dress form...... ;)

How was exam 2, did you think you went ok?

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Post by: Snow Leopard on November 08, 2019, 06:49:19 pm
How did Exam 2 go, ashmi?
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Post by: ashmi on November 08, 2019, 08:37:53 pm
Wow, that is amazing! How long did that take you too make it? The colour choice is really nice, and having a small sliver of green makes it different!
Kinda jealous that you have a dress form...... ;)

How was exam 2, did you think you went ok?

It took about 5 hours to draw the pattern on and about 4 hours of sewing the pieces together! Dress forms are honestly such a lifesaver. I can't live without one anymore ;D. Highly recommend the cheap ones from Lincaft and Spotlight. Got a super nice range of different colours.

How did Exam 2 go, ashmi?

Exam 2 went alright, but definitely not my best. I finished the exam in about 40 minutes with 50 minutes editing time to redo the exam which was super nice :). However, I walked out of the exam realising that I put the wrong starting value for a recurrence relation (the easiest question in Further Maths) and was kind of bummed out for the rest of the day. :'(

I'm just really upset that I already know I've lost a mark and that chance of a 50 Study Score sort of went down the drain instantly. I'm pretty sure that all my other answers are correct though! So it looks like its about 59/60 for exam 2. I heard a lot of people saying that the didn't finish the exam or that it was completely different to the other years so I'm not too sure if that still gives me a shot at 50? I just really hope that my score is above my goal which is 45 (but deep down its 47). Overall, the exam went alright! Could have been a lot worse ;)

I'm sort of being hit with Further nostalgia now and I already miss this subject! It feels especially weird keeping your CAS on exact mode with radians too, definitely not used to it after constantly having to change it for Further. ;)
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Post by: ashmi on November 18, 2019, 01:10:12 pm
~Update! 18/11/2019~

So with my 3/4 exams done and dusted it is time for me to seriously cram my 1/2 subjects!

I've just finished my English exam which was a comparative essay and an argument analysis. It went alright and I'm super happy to get it done and dusted. English has gone really well this year and I'm actually quite surprised how well my essays have been improving, didn't think it was going to go this smoothly. :D

Tomorrow I have both a Methods and PDT exam back to back.... Thankfully the Methods Exam 2 is all to do with the CAS which I am pretty happy about! (Thank you Further Maths for giving me CAS confidence) I haven't really studied as much as I would like, but thankfully the CAS can do a lot of things (that's right I'm look at you Polynomial Tools solver 8)) which solves my poor arithmetic problem and now I can focus more on complex understanding. I'm quite excited for the Product Design exam as it has a drawing component, it will hopefully be a good, relaxing exam after Methods.

I have a Physics exam this Wednesday and at this point in time, I have absolutely given up on torque. I was really enjoying Physics till this AOS appeared and it has completely ruined this subject. :'( Pretty glad though its nowhere to be seen in Unit 3/4.

Chemistry on the other hand is this Friday and thanks to Further Maths for all of Unit 4 having a SAC on the days I also have a Chemistry SAC has completely ruined my schedule. I'm glad and ready to get this exam out of the way and start Unit 3 content though!

Fun fact: I love any mint chocolate! Especially mint slices and mint kit-kat! Usually that is what I would eat as a snack before I go into any exam. It's sort of part of my exam ritual. ;)
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Post by: whys on November 18, 2019, 04:00:34 pm
Oh god someone who likes mint chocolate... chocolate and mint DO NOT go together :(

Also you seem to have went really well with further, congrats! Also I know how it feels to lose a mark on an easy question, but you’ve done your best and it’s difficult to avoid silly mistakes 100% of the time! And I feel you with 1/2 subjects - I crammed for chemistry all on sunday and I’m cramming for methods today. Surely a day for each 1/2 is enough revision? ::)
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Post by: ashmi on November 18, 2019, 04:12:24 pm
Oh god someone who likes mint chocolate... chocolate and mint DO NOT go together :(

Also you seem to have went really well with further, congrats! Also I know how it feels to lose a mark on an easy question, but you’ve done your best and it’s difficult to avoid silly mistakes 100% of the time! And I feel you with 1/2 subjects - I crammed for chemistry all on sunday and I’m cramming for methods today. Surely a day for each 1/2 is enough revision? ::)

Whys, I think it might be time for you to try some good quality choc mint ice cream then! ;)
We can be the cramming Methods buddies together! I can feel you on a spiritual level there. At this point in time, one day looks pretty decent to revise all of Unit 2. :P
Do you have any more upcoming Unit 2 exams? Honestly, right now, let's just cram together and hope that everything turns out alright!
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Post by: whys on November 18, 2019, 04:19:53 pm
Whys, I think it might be time for you to try some good quality choc mint ice cream then! ;)
We can be the cramming Methods buddies together! I can feel you on a spiritual level there. At this point in time, one day looks pretty decent to revise all of Unit 2. :P
Do you have any more upcoming Unit 2 exams? Honestly, right now, let's just cram together and hope that everything turns out alright!

Nope... I will reiterate, mint and chocolate never go together and never will.

I had english last friday, which was meh. I had methods tech free and chemistry today. I lost one mark on methods tech free, which i’m super cut about (I knew the answer but in the exam room I was being dumb, as always) so now my hopes of 100% are gone. Oh well, maybe I can do well on methods tech able tomorrow. Lastly, I have bio on friday. Then, freedom!!!

(honestly cramming is the way to go, who even puts effort into their 1/2s anyways right) :D
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Post by: ashmi on November 18, 2019, 04:30:22 pm
Nope... I will reiterate, mint and chocolate never go together and never will.

I had english last friday, which was meh. I had methods tech free and chemistry today. I lost one mark on methods tech free, which i’m super cut about (I knew the answer but in the exam room I was being dumb, as always) so now my hopes of 100% are gone. Oh well, maybe I can do well on methods tech able tomorrow. Lastly, I have bio on friday. Then, freedom!!!

(honestly cramming is the way to go, who even puts effort into their 1/2s anyways right) :D

That feeling when you know you could have gotten the answer right but in that instantaneous moment you stuff up. Whys I feel you on a deep spiritual level there! At least there is next year to aim for 100% on the exam ;). Good luck with your Methods exam tomorrow! (Make sure you know all the really cool calculator stuff such as dividing polynomials and the other cool jazz).
Also, good luck for Friday's Bio exam! ;D
The light to freedom is just at the end of the tunnel! We just have to survive till Friday :D
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Post by: caffinatedloz on November 18, 2019, 05:14:38 pm
Nope... I will reiterate, mint and chocolate never go together and never will.

lies lies lies

I'm quite excited for the Product Design exam as it has a drawing component, it will hopefully be a good, relaxing exam after Methods.
What kind of things do you do in product design? Is the exam about the process of designing products in general or the products you have designed specifically? ;D
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Post by: ashmi on November 18, 2019, 05:31:06 pm

lies lies lies
What kind of things do you do in product design? Is the exam about the process of designing products in general or the products you have designed specifically? ;D

It's good to see another choc mint enthusiast Laura! ;D. Sorry Whys :P

In our product design exam, half of the exam is a design! We are given a mini scenario and we have to design an outfit which meets the needs of the end-user. They might have constraints, which are must-haves such as pockets our has to be made in a certain colour with considerations, which are other types of options. Its usually a piece of clothing you have to design and you need to make it as best as you can for the end-user (like a customised piece they would like)! You also have to list the type of fabric used as well as 'difficult techniques'. ;D

It's a really fun exam and honestly feels like you are doing a part of your folio but in a timed condition.  ;)
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Post by: caffinatedloz on November 18, 2019, 05:34:25 pm
It's a really fun exam and honestly feels like you are doing a part of your folio but in a timed condition.  ;)

That does sound like a lot of fun! You'd have to be really creative (and good at drawing)! How do you study for an exam like that? ;D
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Post by: brothanathan on November 18, 2019, 05:44:24 pm
I actually really like choc-mint :D
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Post by: ashmi on November 18, 2019, 05:45:53 pm
That does sound like a lot of fun! You'd have to be really creative (and good at drawing)! How do you study for an exam like that? ;D

It really is so much fun! My go to 'studying' for this subject is to do some late-night binge shopping for clothes! I usually just do some online shopping and look at different colour combinations as well as looking at different fabrics they might use, its nice to get a good idea of the different ways in which a garment can be constructed.
Sometimes a good 10 min croquis sketch is good to get you into the mindset. ;D

I actually really like choc-mint :D
Great minds think alike! ;)
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Post by: ashmi on November 20, 2019, 11:03:08 pm
~Update! 20/11/2019~

With the final unit 3/4 exams done for the year congrats to those that all got through it! 8)

Here is a little snapshot of how my week has currently gone!

Methods:
Just had a CAS exam for this on Tuesday and it surprisingly went alright! Was expected to be average in it but it turns out I did a lot better than expected. (Thank you CAS for saving my poor arithmetic once again ;D). I'm pretty glad that Unit 2 is done and dusted. I'm quite ready right now to dive straight into Unit 3 during the holidays.

PDT:
Had this exam straight after Methods and was super relaxing. :) The prompt outline for this exam was to design a costume/cosplay for a person attending a comic convention which I thought was pretty creative. This is probably my favourite subject at the moment and I'm really enjoying how everything has worked out this year. I'm really keen to get started on the inspiration for my final unit 3/4 folio and I'm currently leaning to making it a digital folio.

Physics:
Just did the exam today and I'm so glad it's over. The whole exam was pretty much motion with a practical investigation task which was not too bad. I have really been dreading this subject and I'm really happy to start afresh because I've been so confused all year with how everything works.  I plan to do as much of Unit 3 as possible during the break so I have a better understanding for next year!

Chemistry:
The exam is this Friday and at this point, I am cramming as much as I can possibly do. ::) I have completely neglected this subject and I'm just really excited to get it done so I can move on with a fresh start!

Fun fact - I can consume multiple cups of iced coffee in one sitting! I'm pretty much a coffee machine and love a good hot latte (and a chocolate éclair). In my spare time, I've recently gotten back into digitally drawing and really need to stop procrastinating and buy a new drawing tablet. ;D
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Post by: caffinatedloz on November 21, 2019, 05:34:21 pm
Good luck with your chem exam tomorrow! (Is it your last one? ;D) Love to see you post some digital art if you're comfortable. I think it's so cool and certainly a skill I don't possess! ;D
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Post by: ashmi on November 24, 2019, 05:36:59 pm
Good luck with your chem exam tomorrow! (Is it your last one? ;D) Love to see you post some digital art if you're comfortable. I think it's so cool and certainly a skill I don't possess! ;D

Yes, that was the last exam and I'm so relieved! ;D I've been having a really chill weekend and talking to friends without any stress which is amazing.
Of course, you can see some of my digital art! I might start posting some more in my VCE journal in the future? (Maybe during these holidays as there won't be much for me to post on this journal anyway~)

I'm mainly getting back into making mini Chibi drawings, however, I'm hoping to expand back to full character designs! 8). The two below were little drawings I made for my teacher which I ended up going with the first one! You tend to make a lot of discarded designs when you digitally draw sometimes too~ (Why not give it a go Laura? It's super fun!)

(https://i.imgur.com/oPq8vFI.png)

(https://i.imgur.com/CeaAJGO.png)
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Post by: ArtyDreams on November 24, 2019, 06:46:03 pm
OMG those drawings are super cute!!

I seriously applaud anyone who can do digital art. I'm a traditional artist myself but digital art kills me. You're super talented :)
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Post by: ashmi on November 24, 2019, 08:57:10 pm
OMG those drawings are super cute!!

I seriously applaud anyone who can do digital art. I'm a traditional artist myself but digital art kills me. You're super talented :)

Thank you so much! I seriously can't do traditional art at all so that's why I go with digital (we love ctrl z saving the day!). 8)
I'm terrible when it comes to painting traditionally as I have a tendency to spill stuff onto my artwork :P
What type of art do you like to do? It's great to see some more arty type people on AN! ;D
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Post by: caffinatedloz on November 25, 2019, 02:41:17 pm
Oh my goodness; they are the cutest drawings I think I have ever seen. I can't draw (either on paper or digitally). I don't know how you've had the time during VCE, but I hope you find a way to keep it up next year!

Have you got headstart at the minute? Enjoy the summer and I look forward to seeing heaps more art!
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Post by: ashmi on November 25, 2019, 09:08:14 pm
Oh my goodness; they are the cutest drawings I think I have ever seen. I can't draw (either on paper or digitally). I don't know how you've had the time during VCE, but I hope you find a way to keep it up next year!

Have you got headstart at the minute? Enjoy the summer and I look forward to seeing heaps more art!

Aww thanks Laura! ;D
There is always time to do stuff in VCE! It's just a matter of time management and carefully structuring your week so you have time to relax and pursue other areas of interest :D. I did struggle at first to find time to do these drawings, but having a little planner for the week really helps show that you can make time to enjoy yourself. Highly recommend getting a good planner and always making sure you leave out time for yourself, trust me you will feel so much better when studying for your subjects afterwards! (The Muji Planners are amazing to use. Also if you can draw a stick figure, I count that as drawing 8))

Yep also have headstart too~ It's only for this week and so for it has been pretty chilled. I really love the fact that now I've only got 5 subjects and can focus much more on them and have extra time left over to do some extension or to relax and do some drawing! (Or realistically having artist's block and then scribbling something random) :P
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Post by: ArtyDreams on November 25, 2019, 09:29:20 pm
Thank you so much! I seriously can't do traditional art at all so that's why I go with digital (we love ctrl z saving the day!). 8)
I'm terrible when it comes to painting traditionally as I have a tendency to spill stuff onto my artwork :P
What type of art do you like to do? It's great to see some more arty type people on AN! ;D

I love mandalas, as theyre super relaxing to create, as well as animals :)
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Post by: ashmi on December 01, 2019, 06:19:44 pm
Update: 1/12/2019

So it's finally December and we all made it through! Exams are done and now we can all cruise our way to victory till the ATAR/Study Score release date in 11 days... ::)

A little quick update of how my week has gone!

This week was head-start where we got to meet our new teachers and get our beautiful holiday homework.
I find that the Unit 3 content so for has been much more interesting than everything so far in Unit 1 and 2 which is going to be amazing for next year. I'm actually really excited to start afresh again and try some new techniques that I have learnt this year which will hopefully go better than this year. (I'm looking at you Physics :P).

My school also had presentation night last Tuesday, which I was able to receive the Academic Excellence award for Further Maths (Unit 3/4) and Product Design (Unit 1/2). ;D I was sort of expecting Further due to being rank 1, however, Product Design caught me by a big surprise! Going to aim to get both English and Product Design next year. ;)

My goals for these holidays are to get back into sewing some new clothes and costumes again! I currently have a stack of fabric that I'm trying to see what I can make out of it. I might do a few progress pictures of my sewing in this VCE journal 8)

Also really looking forward to the AN Meetup this December too! Is anyone else going to it?
What do you guys have planned for these holidays?

Fun Fact: I have a new addiction for the cute plushies from Miniso. They are absolutely adorable and the material it is made of is so soft! (My inner PDT coming out there). I'm also someone that loves Pastel colours or the red and black aesthetic~  ;D
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Post by: caffinatedloz on December 08, 2019, 04:56:04 pm
Congratulations on your awards! I think I'll go to the AN meetup sometime in the afternoon! Hopefully, I'll see you there! I love my Miniso plushie. Which ones do you have? Have you got any Christmas ones? ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 08, 2019, 07:10:25 pm
Congratulations on your awards! I think I'll go to the AN meetup sometime in the afternoon! Hopefully, I'll see you there! I love my Miniso plushie. Which ones do you have? Have you got any Christmas ones? ;D

We will definitely bump into each other at the meetup! So excited to see you there! I have the dog, cat and the blue penguin Miniso plushies and I love them to bits! I don't have any Christmas ones but now that you mention it, it may be time I went back and did a mini shopping spree ;D. Do you have any Miniso plushies and if so which ones? :D
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Post by: caffinatedloz on December 08, 2019, 07:11:32 pm
We will definitely bump into each other at the meetup! So excited to see you there! I have the dog, cat and the blue penguin Miniso plushies and I love them to bits! I don't have any Christmas ones but now that you mention it, it may be time I went back and did a mini shopping spree ;D. Do you have any Miniso plushies and if so which ones? :D
Glad to hear it! I have the dark grey dog! ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 09, 2019, 08:38:47 pm
Update: 9/12

It is the start of the week and a perfect time to update! So far I've been on holidays and it has been an awesome time to talk to friends (if you are reading this, you know who you are) and just relaxing in general.

Before I get onto the school stuff, I've finally bought a new drawing tablet!!! After much procrastination, I can finally draw a bit better now! (Thanks Bluetooth for saving lives). I did a mini, rough sketch today but I'm debating if it's worth finishing? Do you think I should colour it in too? Here is a picture by the way! (Give me your thoughts on it :D)

(https://i.imgur.com/kBb8h46.png)

For the past few days, I've mainly just tried to finish most of my holiday homework and start learning the content of Unit 3 for all my subjects just to get a taste of what it is going to be like next year. A little bit nervous about our scores coming out on Thursday too. Here is a little mini breakdown of what I've been doing recently!

Physics:
I have no clue what structural change I've had for this subject, but I went from being average to actually finally understanding what I'm doing. I've nearly finished a whole Area of Study (AOS 3 Motion) and hopefully will start learning AOS 1 (Fields) sometime this week. I'm mainly just taking a break from this subject and trying to learn a little bit at a time so next year I'm fully understanding the more difficult parts.

Chemistry:
So right now I'm about half way done with AOS 1 (Energy) and so far I'm actually enjoying Chem. It has been quite boring during Unit 1/2 so it's really nice to finally be doing something interesting! I've just finished my holiday homework the other day and now have nothing to do but study for this subject till the end of the holidays.

English:
Stasiland, Never Let Me Go, Rear Window and Women of Troy. Watching and reading all this is pretty much my life in a nutshell so far.

Product Design:
I'm on a mission to find an end user that wants me to make the craziest costume alive. My aim for next year is to get into Top Designs!

Methods:
Mainly just finishing holiday homework and starting on the first few chapters of my textbook as light revision.

That's it for me today! Might post tomorrow or the day after with some more art progress!
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Post by: yesh.weerakkody on December 09, 2019, 10:58:28 pm
Wowoza that artwork thingy thooooo!! Also good luck for results day!! I’m sure you’ve done amazingly and keep up the updates! :D
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Post by: Evolio on December 11, 2019, 09:31:53 am
That's amazing, Ashmi!
You're so talented!
 ;D
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Post by: Joseph41 on December 11, 2019, 09:56:45 am
Sorry if you've mentioned this, but what tablet specifically do you use? Really incredible outcomes. Very talented, indeed!
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Post by: ashmi on December 11, 2019, 10:39:20 am
That's amazing, Ashmi!
You're so talented!
 ;D

Awww thank you so much! ;D I've worked really hard to try and get a little bit better at this and hopefully you guys might see some improvements in the future!

Sorry if you've mentioned this, but what tablet specifically do you use? Really incredible outcomes. Very talented, indeed!

I recently just bought a Wacom Intuos tablet with Bluetooth! I've been dying to get one that doesn't have cables attaching to my monitors/computer and it is really convenient for when I want to just impulse draw. I was about to buy one with a digital screen but then realised I probably could use it for my school work too, so I ended up going with the one without the digital screen (just to save my eyes :P). The program I'm using to draw now is Clip Studio Paint! (I used to use Paint Tool Sai).
You guys are all too kind, thank you so much! Will definitely post a lot more of my random artworks into this journal! 8)
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Post by: ashmi on December 11, 2019, 11:31:06 pm
Update 11/12 - Part 2

Ashmi's Artwork Catastrophe Update:
I have literally been drawing all day (which has probably been the most productive drawing time of my life) and we have another art piece to add to the collection. Just did a base layer for this and will hopefully add some more details to it tomorrow! This was another very impulse drawing of mine but a great way to relax and destress. ;D
Not too sure how I feel about tomorrow but I guess I will be waking up bright and early to see the results of our study scores/ATARs (while also trying to finish this piece at the same time) :P
Note: The automatic colouring on this new painting program is so weird

(https://i.imgur.com/TSyGwcm.png)
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Post by: Geoo on December 11, 2019, 11:54:49 pm
I really love your art style, can't wait for the finished piece!
How long does it normally take for you to draw a piece on your new tablet?
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Post by: Snow Leopard on December 12, 2019, 04:20:52 pm
How'd you go ashmi? ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 12, 2019, 04:38:39 pm
I really love your art style, can't wait for the finished piece!
How long does it normally take for you to draw a piece on your new tablet?

Thank you so much! Usually takes a few hours (maybe 2 to 5 ish) depending on the type of piece it is! The more detailed ones though just to do the lineart would take a few days! ;D

How'd you go ashmi? ;D
Not too good with the results :'(
Got a 44 in Further and I'm really disappointed in myself. I have sort of had a mental breakdown for the whole day and eventually went to school to see my teachers (who actually cried with me). I really wanted this subject to be a primary 4 subject (really wanted that 45) but at this rate, it is looking like a 10% sadly. In all honesty, I'm just really upset and hopefully I can move forward and try to get better scores in my other subjects (looking at you PDT and English for 50s :P. I'm not giving up on you two.)
My new goal for 2020 is to try and get all my subjects above Further! I doubt this will happen but it is worth giving it a go!
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 12, 2019, 06:26:17 pm
Hi Ashmi,

I've been reading your journal for a while. First of all, your artwork is incredible, can't wait to see more!!!

Not too good with the results :'(
Got a 44 in Further and I'm really disappointed in myself. I have sort of had a mental breakdown for the whole day and eventually went to school to see my teachers (who actually cried with me). I really wanted this subject to be a primary 4 subject (really wanted that 45) but at this rate, it is looking like a 10% sadly. In all honesty, I'm just really upset and hopefully I can move forward and try to get better scores in my other subjects (looking at you PDT and English for 50s :P. I'm not giving up on you two.)
My new goal for 2020 is to try and get all my subjects above Further! I doubt this will happen but it is worth giving it a go!
It really sucks not to get the score you hoped but a 44 is still amazing (don't lose sight of this) and you've got a great attitude for next year!

Enjoy and embrace those holidays!
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Post by: ashmi on December 12, 2019, 06:57:44 pm
Hi Ashmi,

I've been reading your journal for a while. First of all, your artwork is incredible, can't wait to see more!!!
It really sucks not to get the score you hoped but a 44 is still amazing (don't lose sight of this) and you've got a great attitude for next year!

Enjoy and embrace those holidays!

Hi Chocolatemilkshake! (such a cool name 8))
Thank you so much! Glad to see that there are people that enjoy my impulse artworks ;D.
I'm sort of struggling to come to terms with this score and I really don't know what to do or expect for my other subjects. I'm not going to lie, but I am really lost on what I should be aiming for next year. Just really hoping my other subjects can pull through and do better than this year!

(By the way, it is so good to see another KLD 2020 scholar! If there are events in the future we have to meet up sometime! ;D)
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Post by: Snow Leopard on December 12, 2019, 07:28:14 pm
Not too good with the results :'(
Got a 44 in Further and I'm really disappointed in myself. I have sort of had a mental breakdown for the whole day and eventually went to school to see my teachers (who actually cried with me). I really wanted this subject to be a primary 4 subject (really wanted that 45) but at this rate, it is looking like a 10% sadly. In all honesty, I'm just really upset and hopefully I can move forward and try to get better scores in my other subjects (looking at you PDT and English for 50s :P. I'm not giving up on you two.)
My new goal for 2020 is to try and get all my subjects above Further! I doubt this will happen but it is worth giving it a go!
Hey ashmi,
It's okay to feel disappointed about your SS but I just want to chip in to say that 44 is an amazing SS that you should definitely be proud of!
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Post by: yesh.weerakkody on December 12, 2019, 09:24:08 pm
Aww... it’ll be okay Ashmi. Next year you’ll definitely achieve your subject goals!! You go get that 50 is PDT and English!!! ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 12, 2019, 10:19:01 pm
Hey ashmi,
It's okay to feel disappointed about your SS but I just want to chip in to say that 44 is an amazing SS that you should definitely be proud of!

Aww... it’ll be okay Ashmi. Next year you’ll definitely achieve your subject goals!! You go get that 50 is PDT and English!!! ;D

Thank you so much for your support! I've been an emotional train wreck the whole day and have never felt like so much of a failure. Thank you to those that stick around and comment on this journal every once in a while, you are pretty much the only reason I'm getting through this. (Yes, especially the frequent ones that always reply or like my posts. You know who you are and I love you guys ;D).

I actually moved schools to do PDT as a subject! (Really didn't want to do it as distance ed so here I am now). My goal from last year was to aim for a 50, and today, I have realised I'm not leaving the 2020 school year without it! I really want to get my PDT artwork into Top Designs for 2021, so I'm going to try my best and aim high! I'm also going to try for English too (realistically aiming 45) but you never know what's going to happen.
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Post by: chopsticks on December 12, 2019, 10:55:32 pm
Thank you so much! Usually takes a few hours (maybe 2 to 5 ish) depending on the type of piece it is! The more detailed ones though just to do the lineart would take a few days! ;D
Not too good with the results :'(
Got a 44 in Further and I'm really disappointed in myself. I have sort of had a mental breakdown for the whole day and eventually went to school to see my teachers (who actually cried with me). I really wanted this subject to be a primary 4 subject (really wanted that 45) but at this rate, it is looking like a 10% sadly. In all honesty, I'm just really upset and hopefully I can move forward and try to get better scores in my other subjects (looking at you PDT and English for 50s :P. I'm not giving up on you two.)
My new goal for 2020 is to try and get all my subjects above Further! I doubt this will happen but it is worth giving it a go!

Congrats for finishing Year 11! I know how it feels to not get a score as well as expected (although 44 is really good to me at least)
Good luck for next year, I definitely know you will smash VCE next year!!!

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Thank you so much for your support! I've been an emotional train wreck the whole day and have never felt like so much of a failure. Thank you to those that stick around and comment on this journal every once in a while, you are pretty much the only reason I'm getting through this. (Yes, especially the frequent ones that always reply or like my posts. You know who you are and I love you guys ;D).

I actually moved schools to do PDT as a subject! (Really didn't want to do it as distance ed so here I am now). My goal from last year was to aim for a 50, and today, I have realised I'm not leaving the 2020 school year without it! I really want to get my PDT artwork into Top Designs for 2021, so I'm going to try my best and aim high! I'm also going to try for English too (realistically aiming 45) but you never know what's going to happen.

I know it feels upsetting but a 50 is for sure possible. Good luck in your new school and aim higher because you will achieve better! Get those 50s!
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Post by: Nexica on December 12, 2019, 11:02:24 pm
Thank you so much for your support! I've been an emotional train wreck the whole day and have never felt like so much of a failure. Thank you to those that stick around and comment on this journal every once in a while, you are pretty much the only reason I'm getting through this. (Yes, especially the frequent ones that always reply or like my posts. You know who you are and I love you guys ;D).

I actually moved schools to do PDT as a subject! (Really didn't want to do it as distance ed so here I am now). My goal from last year was to aim for a 50, and today, I have realised I'm not leaving the 2020 school year without it! I really want to get my PDT artwork into Top Designs for 2021, so I'm going to try my best and aim high! I'm also going to try for English too (realistically aiming 45) but you never know what's going to happen.
Congrats on your score in Further Maths. I know it was slightly below your goal, but it's still amazing, and you should be proud of yourself :)
Also, good luck with PDT/English - get that 50! ;D An advantage of doing a 3/4 in Year 11 is being able to try harder in your subjects next year to push a result you aren't happy with into your bottom 2.
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Post by: ashmi on December 12, 2019, 11:23:03 pm
Congrats for finishing Year 11! I know how it feels to not get a score as well as expected (although 44 is really good to me at least)
Good luck for next year, I definitely know you will smash VCE next year!!!

I know it feels upsetting but a 50 is for sure possible. Good luck in your new school and aim higher because you will achieve better! Get those 50s!

Awww, thank you chopsticks! I absolutely adore reading your journal and I can't wait to see some new updates throughout next year! I promise you I will do everything I can to get at least one 50~ (I'm going to make PDT suffer so much the examiners gotta give me that 50). Good luck for Methods and Revs next year! ;D *sending my love*.

Congrats on your score in Further Maths. I know it was slightly below your goal, but it's still amazing, and you should be proud of yourself :)
Also, good luck with PDT/English - get that 50! ;D An advantage of doing a 3/4 in Year 11 is being able to try harder in your subjects next year to push a result you aren't happy with into your bottom 2.

Congrats on your Further score Nexica/Nate! That is IMPRESSIVE! Finding it really hard to accept my score (especially when your teacher looks really sad. That hits home :'() so I'm honestly just really down and disappointed in my efforts. You are pretty much right with it being a bottom 2 in the end! That is actually a neat way of looking at it, I always had the mindset of making the Year 11 subject the primary 4. Never actually considered making it a bottom 2 till now. I'm going to need the luck for PDT/English! (Especially English. Please bless me with your 50 luck).

Now it is time for us to suffer through English, Chem, Physics and Methods together! :P (Also, what do you think is your strongest subjects out of the 4 by the way?)
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Post by: Nexica on December 12, 2019, 11:44:04 pm
Congrats on your Further score Nexica/Nate! That is IMPRESSIVE! Finding it really hard to accept my score (especially when your teacher looks really sad. That hits home :'() so I'm honestly just really down and disappointed in my efforts. You are pretty much right with it being a bottom 2 in the end! That is actually a neat way of looking at it, I always had the mindset of making the Year 11 subject the primary 4. Never actually considered making it a bottom 2 till now. I'm going to need the luck for PDT/English! (Especially English. Please bless me with your 50 luck).

Now it is time for us to suffer through English, Chem, Physics and Methods together! :P (Also, what do you think is your strongest subjects out of the 4 by the way?)
Thank you for the congrats, and you have been blessed with the 50 luck, use it wisely~

Methods is definitely my strongest subject out of the 4. I love the content in it. Good luck with English/Chem/Physics/Meth btw :)
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Post by: ashmi on December 12, 2019, 11:56:51 pm
Thank you for the congrats, and you have been blessed with the 50 luck, use it wisely~

Methods is definitely my strongest subject out of the 4. I love the content in it. Good luck with English/Chem/Physics/Meth btw :)

Thank you for your blessing!~ ;D
Why did I have a funny feeling you were going to say Methods? Maths might just run in the Nate family I guess ;) (That feeling when you have permanently changed your CAS settings to radians and exact is so weird)
Good luck with your future subjects! You will do amazing in them! *Sending you some Physics/Chem lucky vibes*
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 13, 2019, 06:43:30 am
Hi Chocolatemilkshake! (such a cool name 8))
Thank you so much! Glad to see that there are people that enjoy my impulse artworks ;D.
I'm sort of struggling to come to terms with this score and I really don't know what to do or expect for my other subjects. I'm not going to lie, but I am really lost on what I should be aiming for next year. Just really hoping my other subjects can pull through and do better than this year!

(By the way, it is so good to see another KLD 2020 scholar! If there are events in the future we have to meet up sometime! ;D)

Yes, I was actually inspired to put that KLD in my signature by you! Definitely should xx
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Post by: ashmi on December 13, 2019, 07:20:59 am
Yes, I was actually inspired to put that KLD in my signature by you! Definitely should xx

Let's go KLD Gang of 2020!! 😂
I put mine in my signature just to find other people in the same graduating class, and it seems like it has worked!
Next time when there is an event (going to assume the 3/4 lectures or something earlier) we are definitely meeting up ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 14, 2019, 11:11:56 am
Update: 14/12

So first up the AN meetup is tomorrow! Who am I seeing there? ;D
With 2020 nearly approaching I thought it would be good to set some goals for the future year! I really don't have a number that I want to achieve for my study scores (except PDT which is set in stone) rather I want to be able to achieve certain subject related goals.

Product Design and Technology: [Aim: 50]
VCAA loves art subjects so much that they think it is super funny for us to work on a 9 month folio and scale us down like wildfire ::). Aiming for full marks on folio and as high as I can manage on SACs and the final exam.
The funny thing about this subject though is that there is a lot of Chemistry base knowledge needed to fully understand the materials. (Looking at you recycled polyethylene terephthalate backpacks and polypropylene polymers from 2017 + 2018 PDT exam). A lot of people tried to get me to drop this subject for Specialist Maths so this is pretty much my drive to getting the highest score possible in this subject.

Physics: [Aim: 44+]
If there is one thing I want to do right next year, it is to get every single special relativity and magnetic flux question correct in the end of year exam. My goal for this subject is to truly understand. I would really like a 40+ at least for this subject but really I would like to beat a 44 if I can make it. (My teacher made a bet with my Methods teacher that I would do better in Physics. Let's see who wins 8))

English: [Aim: As close to 50 as physically possible]
I really want my essays to have a richer variety of vocabulary starting from now! Really the only thing stopping me right now from achieving this goal is my vocabulary and flow of my essays. I feel like out of all my subjects, this is probably one of the only subjects where I could get high marks in. I would like 100% on all SACs and always finding a new area to improve on after every assessment. Got about 10 months to figure my vocab problem out so hopefully I can become much more proficient in this area.

Methods: [Aim: 41/44+?]
I want to feel confident walking into any assessment that is without a CAS. My thinking is right but my general arithmetic is terrible so the goal is to fix this! I don't have a very specific study score goal for this subject, rather I just want to try my best. Methods is probably one of my favourite subjects for next year, so hopefully I can get some good use out of it.

Chemistry: [Aim: 40+?]
I don't have a defined goal for Chemistry? :-\ I just want to do my very best and see where that goes! On the other hand, Chem is actually really good for PDT as it makes it easier to describe the characteristics of material composition. The more I understand Chem, the easier it will be to get higher marks in the PDT exam so it's a good win/win situation.

Next year I really want to walk out of every SAC/Assessment task and feel like that is the very best I could possibly do. I want to understand my subjects really well while also enjoying the challenge they provide! I would also like to next year make some new friends (AN community help me out here please!) and possibly even make a study group to get different interpretations of our subjects. (If anyone does Methods/Chem/Physics/English and wants to make a study group where we share stuff or ideas you know who to dm) :D.
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Post by: Bri MT on December 14, 2019, 12:24:22 pm
I love the approach of not just looking at study score goals but what specifically you want to work on. In regards to English, there used to be a few active vocab threads - maybe you could start one up again?

See you tomorrow :)
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Post by: ashmi on December 14, 2019, 05:28:18 pm
I love the approach of not just looking at study score goals but what specifically you want to work on. In regards to English, there used to be a few active vocab threads - maybe you could start one up again?

See you tomorrow :)

Trying a new approach with looking at my subjects for next year hoping that it is going to inspire me to do better rather than cause a whole pack of unnecessary stress. :)
It might actually be a good time to start up a new English thread soon then! It would probably keep me on track and hopefully will improve my writing (and maybe others)  ;D
Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!
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Post by: ashmi on December 14, 2019, 10:42:33 pm
Update: 14/12
Ashmi's Artwork Catastrophe update:

I usually don't like having such close journal entries, but I have some really exciting stuff! I finally have gotten my Adobe Lightroom subscription back!! ;D Now that the holy grail application is here, I've been able to do some lighting touch-ups/photo-editing again!

My friend recently just finished Year 12 and she did amazingly in PDT (so proud of her) and here are some pictures that I took for her final folio piece~
My friend made the costume for an end-user (happens to be my other friend) and we were able to take some interesting photos for her folio. I have just gotten back to looking at the other discarded photos (surprisingly they look pretty good now) and lightly edited the massive backlog of photos that have been sitting on my computer for ages.

Costume maker/designer: IG @merakiicos
Model: IG @petite_newbie
Photographer/editor: @ashmicos


(https://i.imgur.com/x2RBF3n.png)

(https://i.imgur.com/xFCMlSE.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/ecTWE5F.jpg)

Bonus photos: Behind the scenes picture of me setting up to do some photography (yes this is exactly where the inspiration came for my profile picture) ;)
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/R8AcDYL.png)
Sneaky photo by IG @athiril
(https://i.imgur.com/fem7A6i.png)
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Post by: yesh.weerakkody on December 15, 2019, 12:03:01 am
Update: 14/12
Ashmi's Artwork Catastrophe update:

I usually don't like having such close journal entries, but I have some really exciting stuff! I finally have gotten my Adobe Lightroom subscription back!! ;D Now that the holy grail application is here, I've been able to do some lighting touch-ups/photo-editing again!

My friend recently just finished Year 12 and she did amazingly in PDT (so proud of her) and here are some pictures that I took for her final folio piece~
My friend made the costume for an end-user (happens to be my other friend) and we were able to take some interesting photos for her folio. I have just gotten back to looking at the other discarded photos (surprisingly they look pretty good now) and lightly edited the massive backlog of photos that have been sitting on my computer for ages.

Costume maker/designer: IG @merakiicos
Model: IG @petite_newbie
Photographer/editor: @ashmicos


(https://i.imgur.com/x2RBF3n.png)

(https://i.imgur.com/xFCMlSE.jpg)

(https://i.imgur.com/ecTWE5F.jpg)

Bonus photos: Behind the scenes picture of me setting up to do some photography (yes this is exactly where the inspiration came for my profile picture) ;)
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/R8AcDYL.png)
Sneaky photo by IG @athiril
(https://i.imgur.com/fem7A6i.png)
Wow damn those look good!! Specially the contrast (idk exactly understand photography and editing but it looks really nice! :D)
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Post by: ashmi on December 15, 2019, 04:43:24 pm
Wow damn those look good!! Specially the contrast (idk exactly understand photography and editing but it looks really nice! :D)

Thank you so much! We tried to go to a location that would have a really good contrast with her outfit to make her stand out in the photos. Seems like it worked out in the end ;D (The lighting also magically just came at the right place and right time so that helped bring some contrast you could say into the photos)
Will definitely post some more photos like these hopefully in the future! *stay tuned* 8)
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Post by: ashmi on December 18, 2019, 09:26:57 pm
Update: 18/12

So first off before I go into anything, thank you so much to those that were at the meetup on Sunday! It was lovely to meet you all and it was definitely a very enjoyable experience! (That Uno game was seriously so good and those cookies...YUM)

For those that are reading this right now and are in the class of 2020 or younger, what do you plan to study once you leave high school and why do you want to study it? With Uni offers out today for the Year 12s, it sort of got me thinking that I still really don't know what on earth I want to truly study. I've been tossing up the ideas of statistics and mathematical physics for a long time but then there is that arty part of me that wants to do design (I guess engineering would probably be the best in this situation). If you have any good ideas of eliminating options let me know!

Ok so moving onto the more interesting school subject stuff~

PDT:
Ok so my goal for 2020 is to get into VCE Top Design for 2021 and let's be real, who wouldn't want to have their VCE Folio and Product displayed in a museum? Probably won't happen but who knows.
On the other hand, I finished learning all of Unit 3 + Unit 4 and now I'm just starting to get inspiration for my final piece I'll be making for my project! Right now, my end-user is just trying to figure out which Pokemon she wants to model for next year. Hopefully we can finalise on one soon so I can make some visualisations! (I'm so excited to make a costume and a massive weapon ;D)

So here are the potential options my end-user is picking out of~ This is definitely going to determine my folio colour scheme for the next 10 months.
(https://i.imgur.com/9wGyoC3.png)

Physics: (♡I LOVE PHYSICS SO MUCH♡)
So I have officially finished learning AOS 3 (Motion) and AOS 1 (Fields)! Just going to do AOS 2 now and I'm all set for Unit 3. Currently just trying to compile a whole pack of SAC revision material as well as filtering through the old Physics study design for some more questions I can work on throughout the year. I've also been stalking the NSW Physics exams as they have some good questions on projectile motion and fields in general. (If anyone does Physics and wants a list of stuff that overlaps from our study design in other states DM me). I am really enjoying Unit 3 of Physics so far and I might be able to even finish Unit 4 before next year even begins! 8)

Chemistry:
One AOS down, another AOS to go for Unit 3! The whole idea of fuels and energy was quite simple to understand, considering most of it was actually from 1/2. Chemistry is actually going pretty smoothly and so far is much easier than 1/2? Everything is flowing really nicely in Chemistry and sort of links together very well!

Methods:
Only 3-4 chapters in and have barely done any work for this subject. Aiming to catch up a little next week! I'm so sorry for neglecting you Methods

English:
I have officially lost count of how many times I have watched Rear Window. (This movie is surprisingly addictive to watch). I've also have been re-reading my English books (Never let me go and Stasiland) and trying to pick out some interesting ideas to write for future essays. I've also tried to expand my vocabulary for Argument Analysis so it makes it much easier for me to focus on ideas rather than constantly worrying about my essay flow.

Well that's it for me for this update! How is everyone else going? Also is anyone going to the AN Lectures in January? If so, we should meet up sometime!
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 18, 2019, 09:53:50 pm
Update: 18/12

So first off before I go into anything, thank you so much to those that were at the meetup on Sunday! It was lovely to meet you all and it was definitely a very enjoyable experience! (That Uno game was seriously so good and those cookies...YUM)

For those that are reading this right now and are in the class of 2020 or younger, what do you plan to study once you leave high school and why do you want to study it? With Uni offers out today for the Year 12s, it sort of got me thinking that I still really don't know what on earth I want to truly study. I've been tossing up the ideas of statistics and mathematical physics for a long time but then there is that arty part of me that wants to do design (I guess engineering would probably be the best in this situation). If you have any good ideas of eliminating options let me know!

Ok so moving onto the more interesting school subject stuff~

PDT:
Ok so my goal for 2020 is to get into VCE Top Design for 2021 and let's be real, who wouldn't want to have their VCE Folio and Product displayed in a museum? Probably won't happen but who knows.
On the other hand, I finished learning all of Unit 3 + Unit 4 and now I'm just starting to get inspiration for my final piece I'll be making for my project! Right now, my end-user is just trying to figure out which Pokemon she wants to model for next year. Hopefully we can finalise on one soon so I can make some visualisations! (I'm so excited to make a costume and a massive weapon ;D)

So here are the potential options my end-user is picking out of~ This is definitely going to determine my folio colour scheme for the next 10 months.
(https://i.imgur.com/9wGyoC3.png)

Physics: (♡I LOVE PHYSICS SO MUCH♡)
So I have officially finished learning AOS 3 (Motion) and AOS 1 (Fields)! Just going to do AOS 2 now and I'm all set for Unit 3. Currently just trying to compile a whole pack of SAC revision material as well as filtering through the old Physics study design for some more questions I can work on throughout the year. I've also been stalking the NSW Physics exams as they have some good questions on projectile motion and fields in general. (If anyone does Physics and wants a list of stuff that overlaps from our study design in other states DM me). I am really enjoying Unit 3 of Physics so far and I might be able to even finish Unit 4 before next year even begins! 8)

Chemistry:
One AOS down, another AOS to go for Unit 3! The whole idea of fuels and energy was quite simple to understand, considering most of it was actually from 1/2. Chemistry is actually going pretty smoothly and so far is much easier than 1/2? Everything is flowing really nicely in Chemistry and sort of links together very well!

Methods:
Only 3-4 chapters in and have barely done any work for this subject. Aiming to catch up a little next week! I'm so sorry for neglecting you Methods

English:
I have officially lost count of how many times I have watched Rear Window. (This movie is surprisingly addictive to watch). I've also have been re-reading my English books (Never let me go and Stasiland) and trying to pick out some interesting ideas to write for future essays. I've also tried to expand my vocabulary for Argument Analysis so it makes it much easier for me to focus on ideas rather than constantly worrying about my essay flow.

Well that's it for me for this update! How is everyone else going? Also is anyone going to the AN Lectures in January? If so, we should meet up sometime!


Wow sounds like you are super on top of your work! Especially PDT (how have you already finished the course!?)! Not really any idea what I want to do after school. Probably biomedicine as I loved biology this year and chemistry is my favourite subject.
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Post by: ArtyDreams on December 18, 2019, 09:58:19 pm
Sounds like you've had a productive week Ashmi! You've actually motivated me to go and do some school work now ha ha.

What lectures are you planning to go for? I've so far got Chem down for the 15th.
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Post by: ashmi on December 18, 2019, 10:30:21 pm
Wow sounds like you are super on top of your work! Especially PDT (how have you already finished the course!?)! Not really any idea what I want to do after school. Probably biomedicine as I loved biology this year and chemistry is my favourite subject.

In all honesty, I have no clue how I finished everything for PDT :P. I sort of just sat down and literally read the whole textbook in one hit. Thankfully most of the things in there I have actually learnt in previous years and all I really needed to know was some fancy processes for making clothes to a large industrial scale. (If you do Chemistry, you can save yourself a lot of work when it comes to materials. Didn't even realise how useful Chem was till I saw polyethylene terephthalate in my PDT textbook).

Biomedicine sounds like a really good choice since you love Chem and Bio! Do you have an idea what uni you wanted to study it at?

Sounds like you've had a productive week Ashmi! You've actually motivated me to go and do some school work now ha ha.

What lectures are you planning to go for? I've so far got Chem down for the 15th.

*sending inspirational signals to you* Don't worry, I was procrastinating really badly the other week so I'm trying to make up for it now. ::)
I have Chem of the 15th too!! We should definitely meet up up sometime on the day! ;D

My schedule right now is:
Jan 13th - Physics
Jan 14th - Methods + Eng
Jan 15th - Chem

Who am I seeing in January??? ;D
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Post by: Geoo on December 18, 2019, 10:34:42 pm
I was thinking of just doing a bachelor of science majoring in immunology (I love diseases, especially the extremely deadly pathogens) as I would love to work at the CDC, or in chemistry. I may go into dietetics, but the job market is SOO bad.
It's amazing that you have got so much pre studying done! I really need to get on the bandwagon, but time keeps going by quicker....

I want to go to the lectures, but i'm getting my wisdom teeth out on the day it starts, and I rather not leave the house as a chipmunk....

It will be awesome to see your portfolio throughout the year, I hope you keep uploading your work!
At least we will be in the same boat of taking all heavy subjects, and have that one the scales down massively. I mean PTD scales down just as much as food studies, it insane...
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Post by: ashmi on December 18, 2019, 11:04:18 pm
I was thinking of just doing a bachelor of science majoring in immunology (I love diseases, especially the extremely deadly pathogens) as I would love to work at the CDC, or in chemistry. I may go into dietetics, but the job market is SOO bad.
It's amazing that you have got so much pre studying done! I really need to get on the bandwagon, but time keeps going by quicker....

I want to go to the lectures, but i'm getting my wisdom teeth out on the day it starts, and I rather not leave the house as a chipmunk....

It will be awesome to see your portfolio throughout the year, I hope you keep uploading your work!
At least we will be in the same boat of taking all heavy subjects, and have that one the scales down massively. I mean PTD scales down just as much as food studies, it insane...

Immunology sounds so cool! Where did you plan to study it at? (Melb Uni? Monash?)
I actually haven't realised how much work I've actually done till I was writing in my journal tonight actually. (PDT, Physics and Chem feels more like a hobby rather than a subject which is weird) Our time is actually disappearing so quickly and we are nearly at Christmas, let alone the end of the year :o
You probably don't want to be going out of the house when you are getting your wisdom teeth out. *sending healing powers*  At least you will get a copy of the lecture slides! Hopefully, I'll see you for Term 2 holidays then ;D (The chipmunk bit had me laughing way too hard)

I'll definitely be uploading a lot of my folio for this year into this journal for sure! I might even have a few pages of visualisations done by the end of the week if I can get my PDT contract finalised.
VCAA really hates us and our arty subjects don't they? Like it takes so much work to do a folio (PDT SACs and Folio is 70% of SS) and then our exam decides the scaling of our folios? It is so bizarre and PDT and Food Studies scale down by at least -7 which is insane! :'( Even with scores that are 46+, it scales down so badly still. We can suffer together Geoo :P
*A silent moment to all the VCE Art/Design/Tech students out there suffering from scaling*
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 19, 2019, 06:57:25 am
In all honesty, I have no clue how I finished everything for PDT :P. I sort of just sat down and literally read the whole textbook in one hit. Thankfully most of the things in there I have actually learnt in previous years and all I really needed to know was some fancy processes for making clothes to a large industrial scale. (If you do Chemistry, you can save yourself a lot of work when it comes to materials. Didn't even realise how useful Chem was till I saw polyethylene terephthalate in my PDT textbook).

Biomedicine sounds like a really good choice since you love Chem and Bio! Do you have an idea what uni you wanted to study it at?

Probably Melbourne or Monash, I have no idea what to choose and kind of have been neglecting it.
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Post by: ArtyDreams on December 19, 2019, 08:51:36 am


Oh yeahhh.....gotta love Art subjects though ha ha. Lucky for me, Art doesnt get scaled down too much, if I score high enough it should stay the same.

But yeah..its so annoying how they can scale down out folios if we just do poorly on the exam.....

I'm *planning* on doing the BSci @ Melbourne Uni, just to keep my options open, as I'm still so indesisive, and hopefully moving towards Biomedical Engineering.

And yay! Hopefully will see you at the lectures in Jan  ;D
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Post by: ashmi on December 19, 2019, 09:53:49 am
Probably Melbourne or Monash, I have no idea what to choose and kind of have been neglecting it.

You have plenty of time to decide! Got a good 6 months to figure it out in the end ;D


Oh yeahhh.....gotta love Art subjects though ha ha. Lucky for me, Art doesnt get scaled down too much, if I score high enough it should stay the same.

But yeah..its so annoying how they can scale down out folios if we just do poorly on the exam.....

I'm *planning* on doing the BSci @ Melbourne Uni, just to keep my options open, as I'm still so indesisive, and hopefully moving towards Biomedical Engineering.

And yay! Hopefully will see you at the lectures in Jan  ;D

I'm also planning to do Bsci at Melb Uni so if you do rock with that, I guess we will see each other around! :P (Bioengineering sounds so good!)
Let's all pray that we all do good in our Art/Design based subjects to avoid the monstrous scaling that is paired with it. Art subjects definitely need much more love than they deserve! Will see you in Jan for the lectures! :D
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Post by: ashmi on December 23, 2019, 11:56:36 pm
Update: 23/12

I just realised that Christmas is less than 2 days away. Even more surprising, the year is about to end in just over a week. Anyone doing anything interesting this Christmas? Also, does anyone have any tips with sticking with your New Year's Resolution? (I am a terrible culprit for not staying on track)

For pretty much the last 5 days, I've been working on making a start to my PDT Folio!
Just got a confirmation from my end-user on what Pokemon she decided to go with (Leafeon) and so far there has been some sort of progress (My folio kind of looks like choc-mint ice cream). I ended up playing the Pokemon game for my end-user (which I played when it was first released back in 2008 ish) and nostalgia has hit me like a truck. My emotions were everywhere once I finished playing the game and now there are a few ideas swirling in my head. I'm excited to get some designs done soon! (Hopefully once I stop procrastinating).

After playing the game again which I haven't seen in almost 10 years, I realised some of the game's settings look similar to a particular part of Victoria. I visited a lot of places to do some research and get some inspiration for my folio, one of the places being Portarlington. Once I finish with these research pages I might upload them into this journal? (The game setting in this particular city and Portarlington look almost exactly the same in a way).

I've also been having a lot of problems trying to make the final theme of this folio look appealing. After multiple attempts of experimenting with different designs, I ended up rolling with a really simple green bar like theme? I'm not too sure if this works (or even looks good) so if you have any suggestions to make the folio stand out I would love to know!

Some example pages of my folio currently~
(https://i.imgur.com/0FHjyIc.png)

(https://i.imgur.com/j7sF0KI.png)
I've been debating what to make my front cover of my folio look like and so far the only idea I have is this (happens to be my friends that made a cosplay this year for PDT and it sort of fits the theme of nostalgia so I might end up keeping it)
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Post by: ArtyDreams on December 24, 2019, 08:54:14 am
Oh this folio is so cool!!! Its so interesting to see a completely digital folio as all the ones I've seen are traditional.

I really like the colour scehem and format. Its simple, but because its simple it doesnt draw away from the images and writing on the page.
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 24, 2019, 09:42:43 am
Love the folio so far  ;)
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Post by: ashmi on December 24, 2019, 10:25:19 am
Oh this folio is so cool!!! Its so interesting to see a completely digital folio as all the ones I've seen are traditional.

I really like the colour scehem and format. Its simple, but because its simple it doesnt draw away from the images and writing on the page.

After much debate throughout the year, I did end up deciding to do my folio digitally! I was a tad bit scared not doing a traditional one as I have only seen one digital folio (which happened to be in Top Designs this year) that has actually worked, but at the same time, I wanted my folio do have a different feel to it. My drawing skills are much better when done digitally than the traditional method which is sort of weird, but hopefully, it works with me next year! Also, digital folios are so nice that if you make a mistake, it is really easy to fix (I did a traditional folio for Unit 1 and as soon as I made a mistake when writing it was horrifying to fix it). If you plan to apply for Top Designs, it makes it so much easier in the application process

Looks like I'll keep the simple colour scheme now! Thank you so much for your feedback ;D

Love the folio so far  ;)
Thank you~~~
Let's hope the quality doesn't get any worse from here on out :P
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Post by: AngelWings on December 24, 2019, 12:48:41 pm
Also, does anyone have any tips with sticking with your New Year's Resolution? (I am a terrible culprit for not staying on track)
If you have a lot of goals, or just some big goals that can be split into mini-goals, how about making them into a bingo card?

You could set up a grid on an A4 sheet of paper, writing small, achievable goals in each box. Add a number in a corner, stating how many times you need to do that goal before you can cross that box off. Each time you achieve any goals on the page, you can put a tally mark in that box. Once you have hit the number in the corner, cross the box off. Then, like a normal game of bingo, your aim is to have an entire row, column or diagonal crossed off by the end of the year.

To add difficulty, try to make similar goals as far away from each other on the grid and if it’s a small, simple goal, make it so that you have to do a lot of times e.g. 50. (Same goes for habits you want to create.)

The hardest part of this is not lying to yourself and doing this regularly enough that you keep yourself accountable.

I did this at the beginning of 2019 with a 7 x 7 grid and I stuck this sheet somewhere I’d see it regularly, with a pen nearby. It kind of worked; I achieved majority of the mini goals like drinking more water each day and getting more steps in a day than last year, with me about to hit bingo very soon (possibly today). I’m hoping to make a new bingo card today for 2020 and carry this on, as I found it quite helpful, so maybe this will work for you too. :)

I've also been having a lot of problems trying to make the final theme of this folio look appealing. After multiple attempts of experimenting with different designs, I ended up rolling with a really simple green bar like theme? I'm not too sure if this works (or even looks good) so if you have any suggestions to make the folio stand out I would love to know!
It looks great! Sometimes simple is good.  :D
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Post by: ashmi on December 24, 2019, 05:31:05 pm
If you have a lot of goals, or just some big goals that can be split into mini-goals, how about making them into a bingo card?

You could set up a grid on an A4 sheet of paper, writing small, achievable goals in each box. Add a number in a corner, stating how many times you need to do that goal before you can cross that box off. Each time you achieve any goals on the page, you can put a tally mark in that box. Once you have hit the number in the corner, cross the box off. Then, like a normal game of bingo, your aim is to have an entire row, column or diagonal crossed off by the end of the year.

To add difficulty, try to make similar goals as far away from each other on the grid and if it’s a small, simple goal, make it so that you have to do a lot of times e.g. 50. (Same goes for habits you want to create.)

The hardest part of this is not lying to yourself and doing this regularly enough that you keep yourself accountable.

I did this at the beginning of 2019 with a 7 x 7 grid and I stuck this sheet somewhere I’d see it regularly, with a pen nearby. It kind of worked; I achieved majority of the mini goals like drinking more water each day and getting more steps in a day than last year, with me about to hit bingo very soon (possibly today). I’m hoping to make a new bingo card today for 2020 and carry this on, as I found it quite helpful, so maybe this will work for you too. :)
 It looks great! Sometimes simple is good.  :D

This is an amazing idea!! I absolutely love the idea of making it into a bingo card. It sounds like a really fun way to stay on track with your goals ;D (Might actually get my friends to try doing this too so we all have a yearly mini-bingo game of goals)
Thank you so much for sharing this, will definitely create one and use it for my 2020 goals :)
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Post by: AngelWings on December 25, 2019, 01:19:40 pm
This is an amazing idea!! I absolutely love the idea of making it into a bingo card. It sounds like a really fun way to stay on track with your goals ;D (Might actually get my friends to try doing this too so we all have a yearly mini-bingo game of goals)
Thank you so much for sharing this, will definitely create one and use it for my 2020 goals :)
No worries! Glad it helped. In true creative fashion, you could make it as pretty/ neat as you like and customise it as much as you like. If it's not too personal, feel free to share yours here, if you like, and we can keep you accountable! (By the way, I did get bingo yesterday.)
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Post by: Geoo on December 25, 2019, 09:16:29 pm
Immunology sounds so cool! Where did you plan to study it at? (Melb Uni? Monash?)
I actually haven't realised how much work I've actually done till I was writing in my journal tonight actually. (PDT, Physics and Chem feels more like a hobby rather than a subject which is weird) Our time is actually disappearing so quickly and we are nearly at Christmas, let alone the end of the year :o
You probably don't want to be going out of the house when you are getting your wisdom teeth out. *sending healing powers*  At least you will get a copy of the lecture slides! Hopefully, I'll see you for Term 2 holidays then ;D (The chipmunk bit had me laughing way too hard)

I'll definitely be uploading a lot of my folio for this year into this journal for sure! I might even have a few pages of visualisations done by the end of the week if I can get my PDT contract finalised.
VCAA really hates us and our arty subjects don't they? Like it takes so much work to do a folio (PDT SACs and Folio is 70% of SS) and then our exam decides the scaling of our folios? It is so bizarre and PDT and Food Studies scale down by at least -7 which is insane! :'( Even with scores that are 46+, it scales down so badly still. We can suffer together Geoo :P
*A silent moment to all the VCE Art/Design/Tech students out there suffering from scaling*

Sorry for the late reply, I didn't see it until now. I'm still not sure where I want to study. I haven't seen either campus (so I will make sure to go to an open day next year) so I'm not sure on that, and another decision I have to make is commute. Melb is 2 hours and monash is 1 hour from where I live. So it really depends on if I can make that commitment to commute, although I really like Melbourne uni looking from the outside.
Yeah hopefully the term 2 holidays! Haha, I will take all of the healing, apparently it is going to take a while to heal so...

Anyway, i'm looking forward to you uploading your folio works throughout the year, and yes, we can suffer and make it through VCAA's scaling!!!! But in all seriousness it is really insane how much VCAA scales us down, and that really sucks for it to come down to an exam, especially since it is written work not taking into account all the hard effort it took to draw all the assessments throughout the year. Our exam is worth 40%, and doesn't take into account all of the cooking we do...  But good luck  ;)
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Post by: ashmi on December 25, 2019, 10:42:43 pm
No worries! Glad it helped. In true creative fashion, you could make it as pretty/ neat as you like and customise it as much as you like. If it's not too personal, feel free to share yours here, if you like, and we can keep you accountable! (By the way, I did get bingo yesterday.)

Congrats for the bingo! Must be super exciting to finish the game! ;D
My bingo card is mainly goals to get me out of the house or stuff that I really enjoyed doing this year and would (hopefully) like to continue next year. AN, can you help me to make sure I stay on track? I've been procrastinating on the 'learning and making foam armour' one since 2017
I'll probably add some more but so far here is what I have. :P
(https://i.imgur.com/EGrVLaP.png)

Sorry for the late reply, I didn't see it until now. I'm still not sure where I want to study. I haven't seen either campus (so I will make sure to go to an open day next year) so I'm not sure on that, and another decision I have to make is commute. Melb is 2 hours and monash is 1 hour from where I live. So it really depends on if I can make that commitment to commute, although I really like Melbourne uni looking from the outside.
Yeah hopefully the term 2 holidays! Haha, I will take all of the healing, apparently it is going to take a while to heal so...

Anyway, i'm looking forward to you uploading your folio works throughout the year, and yes, we can suffer and make it through VCAA's scaling!!!! But in all seriousness it is really insane how much VCAA scales us down, and that really sucks for it to come down to an exam, especially since it is written work not taking into account all the hard effort it took to draw all the assessments throughout the year. Our exam is worth 40%, and doesn't take into account all of the cooking we do...  But good luck  ;)

That 1 hour commute time for Monash sounds super tempting (My situation is actually the opposite, Melb Uni around 35min and Monash 2hrs+🤣).
Open day is going to be such a good time to explore around the campus and hopefully get some free stuff! I'm lining up for that Melb Uni Teddy Bear as soon as it is open. *Sending an extra wave of magical healing powers for those wisdom teeth. You are going to need it*

I'm so excited to see what you can come up with in Food Studies! If only VCAA had another way to assess our products other than an exam (an interview would be pretty cool).
The food you make I'm sure is going to look and taste absolutely delicious ;D. Make sure you post some photos so we can see what we are all missing out on ;).
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Post by: ashmi on December 30, 2019, 01:33:57 pm
So before I go to NYSF on the 1st and with 2020 fast approaching, I thought it might be time to update a bit about myself and my goals as a lot has changed since I've started this journal. ;D 

~2020 Introduction~
Hi everyone and those that are new to this journal! I'm Ashmi, but really everyone calls me Ash. Next year I'm going into year 12 as the class of 2020 (Honestly, the best number to have on your Year 12 jackets).

Fun/interesting facts about me:
✰ I love anything with choc mint!
✰ You will never see me without my CAS, Pocky or an iced coffee at any point in my life.
✰ Pastel colours are my fav, but I also like the black and red combo~
✰ I have really bad grass allergies.
✰ I moved schools for one VCE subject.
✰ I have played every Pokemon game that has existed. (I love my Dark type Pokemon)
✰ I'm addicted to collecting artbooks/character-design books from video games.
✰ I'm terrible at drawing traditionally but can somehow draw digitally.
✰ Surprisingly, I'm a cosplayer and photo-editor.

~Subjects for 2020~
Next year, I'm doing Product Design and Technology (PDT), English, Physics, Chemistry and Methods!
 
Wait.....PDT?

Yep, PDT seems like the odd subject out of the bunch. A lot of people think I'm a maths/science-based person, but really I've always have been passionate in the arts/design subjects. (I'm just really put off doing more thanks to VCAA's terrible scaling)

~Plans after school and goals for 2020~
Now this is exactly where things get complicated. I'm being pulled in multiple directions by Mathematics, Science and Design but after much debate, it is looking like the middle ground would be engineering? It is really the only thing I could do that has enough Design, Mathematics and problem solving all in one! I'm pretty interested in Electrical engineering, but I also have my eye on mechanical with aerospace and mechatronics 8)

My dream course at the moment is Bachelor of Science at Melbourne Uni/Masters of Engineering. The ATAR I'm aiming for is anything above 96. Will I get there? I honestly don't know, probably not. Am I going to try? Absolutely!

On top of that, I would also really love to get into Top Designs for 2021 (or at least shortlisted). Just the idea of having your folio and product up on display in a museum sounds pretty cool and I would really love if I could get my costume up there one day!

In terms of subject goals, the only one that is set in stone is an aim of 50 for PDT. I sort of made a bet with a friend that if I don't get at least a 47+ for PDT, a 40+ for Chemistry and a 44+ for English, I will be thrown into an ice bath. (I'm going to hope I do well enough for this not to happen. I really dislike the cold).

Well, that's it for now! See you guys again for the next update in 2020!
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Post by: Jimmmy on December 30, 2019, 01:45:15 pm
Hi Ash!

Great summary and good way to lead into 2020....can't believe how quickly this year went and I'm sure you'll feel similar next year, but try to embrace it!

That bet sounds kinda mean...unless you choose a day like today for the ice bath, in which case it sounds like your friend is trying to do you a favour! In any case, I have a feeling you won't have to worry about it  :)

NYSF sounds interesting! What's it about?
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Post by: ashmi on December 30, 2019, 02:15:12 pm
Hi Ash!

Great summary and good way to lead into 2020....can't believe how quickly this year went and I'm sure you'll feel similar next year, but try to embrace it!

That bet sounds kinda mean...unless you choose a day like today for the ice bath, in which case it sounds like your friend is trying to do you a favour! In any case, I have a feeling you won't have to worry about it  :)

NYSF sounds interesting! What's it about?

Hey Jimmy!
In a way, I'm sort of excited for 2020 and hopefully it will be a good year!
I completely forgot to say the other side of that bet so let me explain that 🤣. On the day of the ATAR release, if she doesn't get the same scores in Viscom, English and Chem (we share similar subjects) she would go into the ice bath! If both of us don't reach one of the requirements, then we either both go into the ice bath together or we both get thrown into the river next to our school by the rowing team. 😂👌 (I would rather take the ice bath). Hopefully, this inspires us to do our best and at least if we don't make it, the ice bath won't be so bad since it should be summer by then!

NYSF (National Youth Science Forum) is a type of science program for those entering year 12! It is about a 12-day program and is focused on the idea of STEM and aim for people who want to study something related to science in uni. For NYSF, you either go to Canberra (ANU) or Brisbane (University of Queensland) and you focus on a particular area, in my case, I chose to do engineering and advance manufacturing! For my group, we get to go on lab visits, take part in workshops, lectures galore and pretty much visit the facilities and learn from mentors.

Getting into NYSF is a whole other story. It is very selective (open to all of Australia) to get into the program and requires a whole pack of applications (both academic and extra-curricular) and a few interviews but definitely worth it in the end! You can also get a scholarship to go or get endorsed by a rotary club if you struggle to pay the full amount (I was able to get a full scholarship to go because of this).

If anyone reading this is going into Year 11 next year and plan to do something related to STEM, I highly recommend that you apply to the program! I might do a mini review about NYSF and the application process when I come back. If anyone wants to know a bit more about the program, just let me know! ;D
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Post by: ArtyDreams on December 30, 2019, 03:01:45 pm
Hi Ash!!!!

That bingo card looks amazing!! I think I might have to adopt one of those into my life to keep myself accountable haha  ;D

It was interesting to read your goals - I can say theyre pretty similar to mine!! I'm also trying my best to get into TopArts next year!! I agree, itll be soooooo cool to see our folios on display for everyone to see!!

Have fun at NYSF!! It really sounds like a great program to be apart of  :D
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 30, 2019, 05:42:58 pm
Nice intro into 2020 Ashmi! Can’t wait to read your journal next year  ;) Also good luck with your goals, with hard work there is a very high chance you’ll smash them (at least your bet gives you good motivation!)
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Post by: ashmi on December 30, 2019, 06:42:21 pm
Hi Ash!!!!

That bingo card looks amazing!! I think I might have to adopt one of those into my life to keep myself accountable haha  ;D

It was interesting to read your goals - I can say theyre pretty similar to mine!! I'm also trying my best to get into TopArts next year!! I agree, itll be soooooo cool to see our folios on display for everyone to see!!

Have fun at NYSF!! It really sounds like a great program to be apart of  :D

Hi Arty! ;D
You should make a bingo card too if you have the chance! If you feel comfortable posting your goals, I would love to see them sometime :D
If your folio gets accepted into Top Arts for 2021, guess who is going to be the first person on the day to run in and find your folio🤣. It would be amazing if we could both get our folios in!!
If you can, please post some folio pictures as I would love to see them!

Nice intro into 2020 Ashmi! Can’t wait to read your journal next year  ;) Also good luck with your goals, with hard work there is a very high chance you’ll smash them (at least your bet gives you good motivation!)

Hey Choco! ;D
Hopefully, I'll work smart enough to be able to achieve my goals!😂
As negative as this sounds, I've sort of come to a conclusion that if I work hard, I don't ever seem to reach any goals no matter how much I try to break them down into smaller chunks? Like I can get close, but never actually get there? 2020 please bless me with some luck so I can actually achieve at least one main goal😭. Also, thank you and good luck to you too~
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 30, 2019, 06:55:57 pm
Hey Choco! ;D
Hopefully, I'll work smart enough to be able to achieve my goals!😂
As negative as this sounds, I've sort of come to a conclusion that if I work hard, I don't ever seem to reach any goals no matter how much I try to break them down into smaller chunks? Like I can get close, but never actually get there? 2020 please bless me with some luck so I can actually achieve at least one main goal😭. Also, thank you and good luck to you too~


YES ASH! I BELIEVE in you SO MUCH and you can totally do it! When results come out next year I'll totally be holding out for your 50 in PDT!!!!!

Also, not sure why I'm writing this but I have a (bizarre) fear of birds. At the moment we are bird sitting and I held one! If I can do that you can do anything  8)
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Post by: ArtyDreams on December 30, 2019, 08:02:28 pm
Hi Arty! ;D
You should make a bingo card too if you have the chance! If you feel comfortable posting your goals, I would love to see them sometime :D
If your folio gets accepted into Top Arts for 2021, guess who is going to be the first person on the day to run in and find your folio🤣. It would be amazing if we could both get our folios in!!
If you can, please post some folio pictures as I would love to see them!

Thanks Ash!!! It will be amazing!! I'll be sure to do the same at Top Designs if that happens  ;D
Yep! I'm planning to post my goals sometime soon - you made me motivated to get on to it ha ha.

Cant wait to follow your journal into next year  :)
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Post by: milanander on December 30, 2019, 11:51:43 pm
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I'm just really put off doing more thanks to VCAA's terrible scaling
Feels lmao 😥

All the best for this year Ashmi! And I absolutely love how you’re aiming high for PDT! It’s tough but also a really rewarding subject especially for engineering and design and it will give you a great head start in comparison to those who know all the STEM-related theory inside out without any practical knowledge or experience. Good luck for this year and for top designs!!
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Post by: Snow Leopard on December 31, 2019, 11:49:49 am
You can also get a scholarship to go or get endorsed by a rotary club if you struggle to pay the full amount (I was able to get a full scholarship to go because of this).
Sorry for the dumb question :-[, but what is a rotary club?
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Post by: ashmi on December 31, 2019, 12:48:20 pm
YES ASH! I BELIEVE in you SO MUCH and you can totally do it! When results come out next year I'll totally be holding out for your 50 in PDT!!!!!

Also, not sure why I'm writing this but I have a (bizarre) fear of birds. At the moment we are bird sitting and I held one! If I can do that you can do anything  8)

This is like the most inspirational thing I have ever read.😂 I'm just going to hope that I get extremely lucky in the exam and that it is going to be a 50. (Watch it be like 46 or something).
If you ever need someone to protect you from birds just summon me at any time! (How do you deal with going outside then with a fear of birds? Like what do you do about it? :o) Thank you for the motivational support and hopefully, everything works out!

Thanks Ash!!! It will be amazing!! I'll be sure to do the same at Top Designs if that happens  ;D
Yep! I'm planning to post my goals sometime soon - you made me motivated to get on to it ha ha.

Cant wait to follow your journal into next year  :)

I'm excited to see your goals soon then! ;D
Let's help each other to make sure we actually stay on track to completing the majority of our goal!

Feels lmao 😥

All the best for this year Ashmi! And I absolutely love how you’re aiming high for PDT! It’s tough but also a really rewarding subject especially for engineering and design and it will give you a great head start in comparison to those who know all the STEM-related theory inside out without any practical knowledge or experience. Good luck for this year and for top designs!!

First of all, good luck with your Viscom folio!! I'm sure it is going to be amazing at let's make sure that VCAA actually gives us what we deserve. The one thing I do love about folio subjects as you said is the practical part of it! (STEM subjects + art/design = BOOM🤣) Good luck for you too and let's get our work into Top Designs!

Sorry for the dumb question :-[, but what is a rotary club?

Not a dumb question at all! Rotary is basically a non for profit organisation that strives to make the place we live in better while giving opportunities to people to do something big who may have not been able to do it by themselves. The main theme of Rotary is "Service above self" and then there is a 4-way test each Rotarian stick by.

In terms of NYSF, NYSF highly recommends that you apply with a rotary club which would be one near your local school or home. Your school may actually be involved with a rotary club and it would be a good place to start to see if they would like to endorse your application. It would be really good if you could get involved in a club or even if you know a few people from it. (My old primary school teacher was part of the club and that's how I got my application endorsed).

NYSF and Rotary Australia work together to give young people who are particularly interested in Science a chance to be able to pursue it through this program! Do note, Rotary does not have any obligation to pay for your trip though. In my case, I got half of it funded by rotary and the other half from a scholarship provided by NYSF. The main idea of Rotary is to give without expecting anything back!

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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 31, 2019, 01:06:41 pm
This is like the most inspirational thing I have ever read.😂 I'm just going to hope that I get extremely lucky in the exam and that it is going to be a 50. (Watch it be like 46 or something).
If you ever need someone to protect you from birds just summon me at any time! (How do you deal with going outside then with a fear of birds? Like what do you do about it? :o) Thank you for the motivational support and hopefully, everything works out!

Thanks!! Well, if you ever see a person running below a bird with their hands over their head you’ll know it was me.

All good, can’t wait to follow your journal next year   8)
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Post by: Snow Leopard on December 31, 2019, 02:35:28 pm
Not a dumb question at all! Rotary is basically a non for profit organisation that strives to make the place we live in better while giving opportunities to people to do something big who may have not been able to do it by themselves. The main theme of Rotary is "Service above self" and then there is a 4-way test each Rotarian stick by.

In terms of NYSF, NYSF highly recommends that you apply with a rotary club which would be one near your local school or home. Your school may actually be involved with a rotary club and it would be a good place to start to see if they would like to endorse your application. It would be really good if you could get involved in a club or even if you know a few people from it. (My old primary school teacher was part of the club and that's how I got my application endorsed).

NYSF and Rotary Australia work together to give young people who are particularly interested in Science a chance to be able to pursue it through this program! Do note, Rotary does not have any obligation to pay for your trip though. In my case, I got half of it funded by rotary and the other half from a scholarship provided by NYSF. The main idea of Rotary is to give without expecting anything back!
Thanks so much for the through explanation :)
I guess I'll need to start doing a bit of research into this!
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Post by: ashmi on December 31, 2019, 03:18:12 pm
Thanks!! Well, if you ever see a person running below a bird with their hands over their head you’ll know it was me.

All good, can’t wait to follow your journal next year   8)

I guess springtime definitely isn't your favourite time with all the magpies around then :P
Also, when are you making a VCE Journey Journal Choco?👀👀👀 (I really want to read what you do and your journey too~)

Thanks so much for the through explanation :)
I guess I'll need to start doing a bit of research into this!

No problem! If you have any more questions just message me and I'll help out!
I'll probably make an NYSF review and application process post when I get back from the trip! *Stay tuned*
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Post by: Snow Leopard on December 31, 2019, 09:08:54 pm
I'll probably make an NYSF review and application process post when I get back from the trip! *Stay tuned*
Sure will :)
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Post by: ashmi on January 08, 2020, 12:11:58 pm
Update: 8/01/2020

Hi guys I'm back again and I'm absolutely tired from NYSF. Our session was cut short due to the hazardous air quality in Canberra and resulted in us all getting evacuated from our session but even so, we did a jam pack of amazing things during the time we had there.

So during NYSF (National Youth Science Forum) I was part of the Engineering group called Newton (we were the best group not going to lie). During our time here, we went to many workshops, lectures and oddly enough, a whole pack of discos every night. When we could go outside, it was to places like Questacon (wooohooo) and even a live lecture to the Australian Antarctic Division. Although we all had to leave early and couldn't do much for our STEM visits such as visiting the engineering campus and other places, we all had one of the best time of our lives.

I've made so many life-long friends that I will never forget and have never been surrounded by so many bright and down to earth people all pursuing their passion in science. This was a short and sweet journey with lots of laughter and when we went back home to different cities, lots of tears began. I already miss my Newton group so much and I can't wait to see you all again.

On the bright side, ATAR Notes lectures start next week! Who am I seeing there?
It's time for me to catch up on a lot of work before the lectures start and I'll make a proper NYSF Review and Application process later~

See you guys later!
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 08, 2020, 01:28:05 pm
Wow I can’t believe it got cut short cause of air quality  :'(. Sounds like you had a great time despite that though, would love to hear more.  :D
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Post by: ArtyDreams on January 08, 2020, 01:51:48 pm
Glad to hear you had a great time Ash, despite it being cut short!!

Would love to hear more about your adventures  :D
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Post by: ashmi on January 12, 2020, 10:15:23 am
Wow I can’t believe it got cut short cause of air quality  :'(. Sounds like you had a great time despite that though, would love to hear more.  :D

Glad to hear you had a great time Ash, despite it being cut short!!

Would love to hear more about your adventures  :D

Yeah, the air quality got so bad that Canberra became rank 1 in the world for the worst air quality😂. I'm currently suffering post-NYSF depression and it is really hitting home right now (not to mention I've gotten sick too👌). I don't think I've ever gotten so emotional leaving friends that I just met before and I'll definitely be updating my journal later today to do a proper mini-review and when I can find the right forum to post in, a mini guide for applying to the program! *stay tuned everyone*

On the other hand, is anyone going to the AN lectures this week? Would love to meet up with you guys ;D
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Post by: angrybiscuit on January 12, 2020, 07:12:55 pm
Ahh! NYSF sounds amazing!
I was pushed to go by my teachers from school but couldn't find an endorsement by a Rotary club and at some point, I couldn't be bothered... but I really, really regret it now!
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Post by: ashmi on January 12, 2020, 09:58:21 pm
Ahh! NYSF sounds amazing!
I was pushed to go by my teachers from school but couldn't find an endorsement by a Rotary club and at some point, I couldn't be bothered... but I really, really regret it now!

You would have enjoyed it so much!😭
Finding a Rotary Club can be super hard and is quite a tedious process at times so I understand where you are coming from. I'm sure there will be other opportunities out there so don't worry, there is plenty more to come ;D
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Post by: ashmi on January 17, 2020, 08:13:29 pm
*Update: 17/01*
 
With school less than 2 weeks away, it's probably time I updated this journal to make sure I get back on track with my work (and hopefully to stop procrastinating). Not much has happened since I've been back from NYSF and if you are going into Year 11 this year, I highly recommend that you check out my guide to applying for the program!
☆NYSF - National Youth Science Forum | Mini-Guide☆
 
I did attend the AN lectures this week and thank you to those that recognised me and said hi! During the AN lectures, I was also able to reunite with some of my long lost NYSF buddies and was able to meet some new people. Also a huge shout-out to those awesome AN people at the front desk looking after the mini book shop. (Looking at you Joseph41 and literally lauren ;D)
 
It wasn't until I was at these lectures that I realised how big the AN community has grown over the past few years! It was double what it used to be in the past and I'm honestly shocked at how many resources there are now. Well anyway, here is a mini breakdown of how my subjects have been!
 
✰ English ✰
I finished reading/watching all my English texts for this year and have been making some detailed mind-maps to link concepts together. In addition to that, I've done some Argument Analysis practise pieces just to see what I can improve on during the year (mainly being my vocabulary and trying to make my writing more concise). For my comparative texts, I'm doing Stasiland and Never Let Me Go which both texts have been quite interesting to read. I was expecting to not enjoy these texts, but they have both been surprisingly good (especially Never Let Me Go which the plot was something I would have never suspected). I'm looking forward to starting the new school year and getting started on some essays! I hope that between now and the end of the holidays I can continue to improve on my writing skills so I can focus more on ideas during the year.
 
✰ Product Design and Technology ✰
PDT is going AMAZING right now 8). I just finished interviewing my end-user for my final project and have been able to identify what type of costume my end-user would like. My end-user profile is complete and I'm currently just drafting up a new design brief which should be done by tonight! (If I stop procrastinating). Since I was able to study ahead and finish learning the theory for Unit 3 and 4 for this subject, it now has given me a lot of free time to perfect my folio (for Top Designs) and focus on creating a well-constructed costume! My end-user would like her cosplay to resemble an outfit similar to the fantasy style archers. I'm excited about constructing an outfit with different armour pieces, a bow and arrow with also some replica daggers based on a fantasy theme. With a bit of brainstorming and some more visualisations, I might be able to get a fully rendered design done soon!
 
✰ Methods ✰
For once, I'm feeling pretty good about Methods! I've mainly done a light study over Unit 3 and so far don't have any problems with it. In the past few weeks, I've abandoned my dear CAS calculator completely and I'm seeing some massive improvements when it comes to doing Methods without a CAS. Surprisingly, I've gotten much faster at general arithmetic and I'm not making the same mistakes I used to anymore. Hopefully, I can keep this up and I might even be able to eliminate my fear of doing Maths without a calculator before the end of year exams.
 
✰ Chemistry ✰
I'm about halfway into AOS 2 for Chemistry and overall, I am happy with my progress! There has been a lot going on study wise for this subject and it seems like it is starting to pay off now. The topic of Fuels and Energy I find it enjoyable. I might be weird in saying this, but I'm finding Unit 3/4 so far much easier than 1/2?
 
✰ Physics ✰
I've officially finished learning all of Unit 3! (WOOHOO!!)
I love AOS 3 Motion and AOS 1 and 2 have been super interesting to learn also! Physics last year was something I didn't enjoy, but it seems like it has redeemed itself. Physics has been enjoyable to study and when I get back to school, this is going to be the subject I want to focus on understanding perfectly. Loving this subject right now, but let's see what happens to my attitude as soon as I get back my first SAC results.
 
On a side note, I've recently have gotten addicted to this certain drink at Maccas. Recently, I've been ordering iced chocolate with extra whip cream and lots of crushed Oreos and it tastes like heaven, I LOVE IT. It's like eating mini ice cream in a way but with a super nice drink. ;D

Thanks for tuning in to this episode of my journey journal😂
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Post by: ArtyDreams on January 17, 2020, 08:44:34 pm
Oooooooo looks like you've done a good amount of work as preparation!! Its actually super motivating to see  ;D

And yessssss......we love Physics  :D

Glad you had a great time at the lectures!! (and I cant wait to see how your PDT final turns out!!!)
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Post by: ashmi on January 17, 2020, 09:07:31 pm
Oooooooo looks like you've done a good amount of work as preparation!! Its actually super motivating to see  ;D

And yessssss......we love Physics  :D

Glad you had a great time at the lectures!! (and I cant wait to see how your PDT final turns out!!!)

We gotta love the good old Physics ;D
I can't believe that I couldn't find you at the lectures!😂. We literally just missed each other by a bit too. (Our organisation skills are terrible).

I'm excited to see some more progress pictures of how Art is going for you! (Your work is going to be so amazing it's gonna get into Top Arts I can feel it ;D)
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 17, 2020, 09:52:39 pm
Thanks for tuning in to this episode of my journey journal😂

Nice Ash! It seems like you've got a fantastic start on the year. As Arty said, I'm really looking forward to seeing your final design (ahh it's going to be awesome, I know it!!!  :o ;D ;D)
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Post by: TigerMum on January 18, 2020, 10:20:30 am
Wow! I wish I had the motivation to do that much work over the holidays! Seriously, you should be super proud of that effort.  ;D
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In the past few weeks, I've abandoned my dear CAS calculator completely and I'm seeing some massive improvements when it comes to doing Methods without a CAS.
That's a great idea, I normally try and do all the exercises without a calculator because I feel pretty confident in my ability to punch some numbers into a computer, so it's time better spent improving my 'by hand' skills.
Great to see you enjoyed your time at NYSF, that looked like a blast! Best of luck for the year ahead, I'm sure you'll smash it!!  :) :)
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Post by: ashmi on January 18, 2020, 01:45:12 pm
Nice Ash! It seems like you've got a fantastic start on the year. As Arty said, I'm really looking forward to seeing your final design (ahh it's going to be awesome, I know it!!!  :o ;D ;D)

Thank you so much Choco! I'm looking forward to not procrastinating and whipping up some amazing drawings
I'm actually doing visualisations right now so it may be possible I finish sketching a design before school starts! ;D

Wow! I wish I had the motivation to do that much work over the holidays! Seriously, you should be super proud of that effort.  ;D That's a great idea, I normally try and do all the exercises without a calculator because I feel pretty confident in my ability to punch some numbers into a computer, so it's time better spent improving my 'by hand' skills.
Great to see you enjoyed your time at NYSF, that looked like a blast! Best of luck for the year ahead, I'm sure you'll smash it!!  :) :)

It's been a while since I've done maths by hand so having this mini-break from my CAS seems to have done some good! I'm mainly doing everything by hand except certain extended response questions where it's pretty much impossible to do by hand and so far it's working ;D. The only catch is now it takes me forever to plug things into my CAS...
Good luck for Methods this year! You are going to do amazing, I can feel it! ;D
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Post by: whys on January 19, 2020, 10:18:39 pm
Wowie, looking at that previous post at all the work you've done on the holidays makes me feel like I've truly done nothing (which is true).

But seriously, congrats! I could have never gotten that far! (I'm a procrastinator at heart and I'm going to end up trying to finish all holiday homework in the last few days before school...)
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Post by: ashmi on January 19, 2020, 10:52:50 pm
Wowie, looking at that previous post at all the work you've done on the holidays makes me feel like I've truly done nothing (which is true).

But seriously, congrats! I could have never gotten that far! (I'm a procrastinator at heart and I'm going to end up trying to finish all holiday homework in the last few days before school...)

Don't worry, being a procrastinator is good because they will find an easy way to do the job quickly.😂

The main reason I'm trying to do some work early (excluding breakdown from results) is because of one of my subjects *cough* PDT *cough*. It's going to take forever to sew the costume and make all the details perfect so I'm just trying to make life easier for later? ??? (I don't even know if this is going to help me but we will see sooner or later)

I'm definitely going to start procrastinating by the end of the week and I'm so looking forward to it ;D
Other than procrastinating, have you done anything relaxing during the holidays? My plan is to binge eat before school begins🤣
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Post by: brothanathan on January 22, 2020, 12:58:13 pm
Respect for finishing Unit 3 AND 4 PDT in a matter of weeks. Outstanding effort  ;D
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Post by: ashmi on January 28, 2020, 07:57:31 pm
☆Update: 28/01/2020☆

Hey everyone! Welcome back to another episode of Ashmi's Catastrophe Journal!

So with school for me literally being tomorrow (thankfully I only have 2 periods WOOHOO), it's probably time I did another update of my current life.

First of all, if anyone is doing Further Maths 3/4 and would like some tips for constructing bound references or using CAS, I made a mini-guide here: ☆Further Maths | Guide☆ . I would like to update it soon with some examiner tips/what people usually make mistakes on so check it out every once in a while~

Some random things going on in my life:
   • Our school's Year 12 formal got cancelled :'(
   • Also, our school doesn't want us to have pockets in our Year 12 Jumpers
   • Currently debating how well the 'no phones' policy is going to work in school
   • Was able to drink the recommended amount of water for 3 weeks straight! :)

Subject Progress during holidays:

☆PDT☆
I've been having art-block and have been only able to do some mini sketches (visualisations) to put into my folio. I really wanted to have a full rendered design done but overall, I'm pretty happy with how everything has turned out. I've only done a few visualisations, but so far so good! I have Product Design tomorrow so I'm really excited to get back on track with my stuff. Here one batch of visualisations that I need to put into my folio template (Let's hope I can get 5 of these!)

(https://i.imgur.com/q15aVcV.png)

☆English☆
This subject has been pretty good to me recently. I've just been reading and annotating again while trying to make connections with my comparative texts. With this, I'm trying to learn a few more words each day (especially for language analysis) and hopefully I can start improving more when I get back to school!

☆Methods☆
It feels weird to not have to charge your CAS constantly, like really weird. Methods has been an interesting subject for me because I'm finding it to be much easier than the previous year, almost as if everything has just clicked into place. Maybe it's because there is less 'word problems' or just the method to solve a particular question you sort of know from the very start. I don't know where methods is going to take me this year but I'm so excited for AOS 4 Probability that's for sure!

☆Chemistry☆
Loving fuels, galvanic cells and pretty much everything in AOS 1! AOS 2 is interesting too and I can't wait to do some Chem at school!

☆Physics☆
Hahahaha, physics. I love you yet I hate you so much. This is again, a weird subject and I'm just going to let life take its course and hopefully it doesn't destroy me too much this year. Unit 3 of Physics is my favourite and I'm hoping to stay positive in this subject through the year.

That's the final update before the academic year starts! Let's see if I can get through this school week!
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Post by: ArtyDreams on January 28, 2020, 08:04:14 pm
Have fun starting school tomorrow (whilst I sit at home until Tues...). I'm excited to see where the year takes you!!

Folios looking super great too! I'm loving the colour scheme.

Yessss the science subjects are so interesting in Year 12...Year 11 seems like such a drag now that I look back! Especially Chem..

No phones policy? Thats interesting!

Have a lovely night  :D

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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 29, 2020, 07:25:48 am
The guide is awesome Ash and LOVING the folio work so far  ;D Have a great day at school today
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Post by: ashmi on January 31, 2020, 09:27:32 pm
Have fun starting school tomorrow (whilst I sit at home until Tues...). I'm excited to see where the year takes you!!

Folios looking super great too! I'm loving the colour scheme.

Yessss the science subjects are so interesting in Year 12...Year 11 seems like such a drag now that I look back! Especially Chem..

No phones policy? Thats interesting!

Have a lovely night  :D

Woah Tuesday! Lucky to have a few days left to relax ;D
Something magical has happened to all the science subjects because unit 3/4 is so far much more interesting than 1/2. A bit weird but loving the way it's going right now.
Our school is now implementing the No Phones Policy this year from the government and I just realised that I seriously need to buy a watch. Some of my classrooms don't have clocks and it gets quite annoying opening your computer to check the time :P
Tell us how your first day goes on Tuesday :)

The guide is awesome Ash and LOVING the folio work so far  ;D Have a great day at school today

Thank you so much Choco! I did have a really good day even though the weather was way too hot ;D. I look forward to seeing more of your journal soon ;)
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Post by: Ionic Doc on January 31, 2020, 09:55:49 pm

Something magical has happened to all the science subjects because unit 3/4 is so far much more interesting than 1/2. A bit weird but loving the way it's going right now.

Yes, this magic is wonderful and I hope it stays this way throughout the year.

Are you going to get an analogue watch or digital?  :D
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Post by: ashmi on February 01, 2020, 12:38:29 pm
Yes, this magic is wonderful and I hope it stays this way throughout the year.

Are you going to get an analogue watch or digital?  :D

Most likely an analogue watch so I can bring it into the final exam ;D. I'm going to go watch hunting this weekend so hopefully, I can find something nice that will last the whole year.

How are you finding your subjects and the new year Ionic Doc? Also, does anyone else have any interesting experiences with the 'Mobile Phone' ban? (Would love to hear about it! :)))
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Post by: Ionic Doc on February 01, 2020, 01:19:07 pm
Most likely an analogue watch so I can bring it into the final exam ;D. I'm going to go watch hunting this weekend so hopefully, I can find something nice that will last the whole year.

Good Move.

How are you finding your subjects and the new year Ionic Doc?

Great so far. I love learning all the content in every single one of my subjects. I know it's bound to soon get rough and hard in certain parts of the year but I still won't ever stop enjoying the experience of learning. STEM subjects will never get me bored.  ;)


Also, does anyone else have any interesting experiences with the 'Mobile Phone' ban? (Would love to hear about it! :)))

My school has had this policy for the last two years. In the year they introduced it everyone thought it was like a temporary rule that wouldn't really be reinforced. We were all wrong. Teachers would literally make students empty out there pockets and if you had your phone on you they would take it up. Your parents would then need to come and pick the phone up after school at the reception. My school is crazy strict about it and everyone now knows to leave there phones in their lockers.

Is your school gonna be this strict?
Have you gotten much homework this week? I've already been  bombarded with work

 
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Post by: ashmi on February 01, 2020, 02:40:56 pm
Great so far. I love learning all the content in every single one of my subjects. I know it's bound to soon get rough and hard in certain parts of the year but I still won't ever stop enjoying the experience of learning. STEM subjects will never get me bored.  ;)

So long as you can keep your motivation and enjoyment in the subject you will be alright!
We are all in this together so if you ever feel like you struggling, there are many of us in the same boat so don't give up and enjoy the ride ;D

My school has had this policy for the last two years. In the year they introduced it everyone thought it was like a temporary rule that wouldn't really be reinforced. We were all wrong. Teachers would literally make students empty out there pockets and if you had your phone on you they would take it up. Your parents would then need to come and pick the phone up after school at the reception. My school is crazy strict about it and everyone now knows to leave there phones in their lockers.

Now that is next level strict! We just have to have our phones in our lockers before 8:50am till 3:10pm. (You could have it on you but it needs to be out of sight). If your phone happens to ring once even during lunch, they confiscate it and now it's an automatic 2hr detention. Certain VCE art subjects (so far only Media and possibly studio arts/PDT) can have their phones but only for certain dates during the school year. We are definitely not as strict as that but so far on the first few days there have been multiple confiscations.

Have you gotten much homework this week? I've already been  bombarded with work

We have gotten homework and already have a Physics SAC less than 2 weeks from now. 😢 (The bombardment of work is just the beginning of the storm. Let's hope we make it through!)
For Chem, we are done with Fuels choices and next week starting Thermochem/universal gas equation. Methods we have a test on Monday covering linear (matrices), exponentials, logs and circular functions (then moving straight to transformations?). Physics is finishing off one more small section and preparing for SAC. English is a whole pack of analysing and planning for creative.
PDT is the only subject I have nothing for so far😂 (I hope it stays that way for a bit)

Imagine the homework load during late August... *shivers*
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Post by: ashmi on February 02, 2020, 10:13:32 am
☆Update: 2/02☆

Just finished the first 3 days of school and multiple random things have happened. First off, my whole timetable changed and now I'm with completely different teachers from Head-Start (which happens to be all my fav teachers woohoo!!)

We got our lockers on the first day back, and now I'm just making a list of food supplies to put inside. I didn't realise how big the lockers were and I think I could stash away a good month's worth of food.
So far on the list its biscuits, long life milk, milo, pocky and a whole pack of instant noodles. 🤣
(If you guys have any recommendations on stuff please tell me! Looking for food ideas.)

On the first day, we had a quick Year 12 assembly and then I had 2 periods, English and PDT for the day (when you don't have a clock around you get so disorientated with time). I also have a really nicely placed free period at the end of every Wednesday so I just took a tram down to the State Library. (Was so tempted to just go home but I knew I wouldn't do anything). I also have 2 free periods on Mondays so I don't have to be at school till 12pm! It's been such a good week and I'm really happy with the progress in all my classes.

The next two days pretty much consisted of Chemistry, Methods and Physics which was really fun! My only full days are Tuesdays and Fridays which I'm really happy about. (Whoever made the timetable thank you)

Ok now to the mini update for subject-specific stuff:

Physics:
I have a Physics SAC in less than 2 weeks from now on Motion. I also have Year 12 Camp just before the Physics SAC so I have no clue how this is going to work. Physics has been quite interesting and I know that this SAC is going to be very hard so I better get cracking.

Chemistry:
Just finished Fuels and onto Thermochem next week. My Chemistry teacher is amazing and I'm so glad to have her. She makes Chemistry so funny that it's physically impossible to forget what she says during class. I really love the effort she puts in to try and link Chem to our daily lives.

Methods:
Got a test on circular functions, logs, exponentials and matrices tomorrow (no CAS). I'm feeling pretty good about it and I'm not worrying that much. Methods has been really good so far and I'm so excited for AOS 4 Probability (I LOVE Probability).

English:
This class has pretty much been analysing our book and planning for our creative piece. It's a pretty chilled class and we all just want to get the creative done and dusted so we can focus on the next piece (Text Response).

PDT:
My teacher and end-user has just signed my contract! (Muhahahaha they are bound to me for the next 8 months). We are just starting our folios and also getting ready for an early SAC just after Physics.

That's it for today's update! See you guys in the next episode!😂
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Post by: chopsticks on February 03, 2020, 08:19:16 pm
Wow, I just logged on after a while and so much has already been happening for you! Tests and sacs already?

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completely different teachers from Head-Start (which happens to be all my fav teachers woohoo!!)
Lucky! My teachers this year are pretty mediocre

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I'm so excited for AOS 4 Probability (I LOVE Probability).
Woah, that's a first to someone who likes probability. I mean, I don't mind it but I certainly prefer circular functions and calculus

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If you guys have any recommendations on stuff please tell me! Looking for food ideas.
Whenever our school would sell those snowball treats, my friends and I would buy them in bulk and store them in our lockers XD
Good times

It's great to know you're enjoying Year 12 so far (just hearing the number 12 makes me dread rn lol)! Good luck for everything, not that you will need it :)
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Post by: ashmi on February 04, 2020, 07:47:15 pm
Hey Chopsticks! ;D
Thank you so much for stopping by to read my journal!

Wow, I just logged on after a while and so much has already been happening for you! Tests and sacs already?
Lucky! My teachers this year are pretty mediocre
Woah, that's a first to someone who likes probability. I mean, I don't mind it but I certainly prefer circular functions and calculus

Yeah there has been a bombardment of SACs already :'( (My Physics teacher loves giving us 3 SACs in term 1!). Let's hope that next year you have amazing teachers. :D
Probability is so underrated. (It is so much fun once you finally understand it and its hard to go back). Circular functions and calculus I do agree is pretty cool too. ;D

Whenever our school would sell those snowball treats, my friends and I would buy them in bulk and store them in our lockers XD
Good times

It's great to know you're enjoying Year 12 so far (just hearing the number 12 makes me dread rn lol)! Good luck for everything, not that you will need it :)
Oh yum! I think I'm going to add this on my list for my next grocery study period shop 🤣. Buying in bulk is such a good feeling and knowing you have a collection of quality food in your locker is the best!
Thank you Chopsticks! I'm definitely going to need your luck so keep sending some over😂.
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Post by: ashmi on February 17, 2020, 08:31:59 pm
☆Update: 17/02☆
 
Woohoo back for another update! A lot has happened in the past week. First of all, I just came back from a Study Camp and I'm seriously out of whack. (I'm deprived of my beautiful coffee). I also was able to contact the Rotary Club that sponsored me for NYSF and surprisingly they have invited me to the International Rotary Breakfast! I'm looking forward to seeing my Rotary club again and also possibly seeing some NYSF Melbournians too. I sort of want to do an exchange too through NYSF, but sadly all the times where they have events on in Singapore and Germany happen to be when VCE exams are.
 
On the other hand, here is some other interesting stuff that has happened:
   • I found this super good ice cream shop in Docklands that sells some of the best choc-mint ice creams that I have ever had. (Hear that whys? You should totally join me for some :P.)
   • I bought a whole pack of Muji pens the other day and have never felt so satisfied.
   • I made memes for my Physics teacher and now he puts them in the Physics room.
   • My cat is secretly plotting something. I can feel it.
   • Very odd thought here, but when I was catching a tram down to the State Library, I have never noticed how amazing Melbourne architecture is. (Especially Flinders Street. Never noticed it during morning/afternoon peak).
 
Ok now onto the actual school stuff!
 
Physics:
Haha, it's PANIC TIME!!
I have a SAC this Friday and then less than 2 weeks later another one! I'm ready to cry because of tension and no matter how much I try, tension just doesn't want to cooperate with me. On the other hand, I LOVE projectile motion, so I guess it balances out in the end. I'm not feeling a good vibe about this SAC, but I'm hoping that my Physics teacher doesn't destroy me too much... ::)
 
Chemistry:
Had a mini-test (sort of like a learning checkpoint thingy) the other day and somehow got 56/57! Thank you Thermochem and now we are doing Gas Laws. We had a practical task today which was about fuels and was super fun! Chem so far has been so good but let's watch my mood change as soon as a SAC comes around the corner.

English:

~PANICKING FOR CREATIVE SAC~
We are doing Women of Troy as our creative piece and I don't think I have ever tried so hard to make a story in the form of Euripides plays. (Trying so hard to make the language style the same as Euripides). I have about 300 words left to finish my draft and then I have the Statement of Intention to do straight after. I am hoping this SAC turns out well and that it is or pretty close to full marks. The SAC is due next week and straight after we have the beautiful Argument Analysis!
 
PDT:
2 SACS in two weeks, one this Wednesday and one next week Monday morning.
Can Ashmi survive? To be continued. 8)
 
Methods:
Nothing is happening in Methods and I'm really glad that's the case! We are now doing transformations and then there will be a SAC soon. Feeling pretty good about Methods!
 
Recently, I've also been looking at different universities courses and possible majors to do. I'm still pretty set on doing the Bachelor of Science/Masters of Engineering combo at Melbourne, but I'm everywhere when it comes to picking a major.
I've been thinking of doing Electrical systems and also doing subjects in the bioengineering systems so when I do get to Masters, I can choose between Electrical and Biomedical? I don't know how Biomedical came into my head, but it has and now it's stuck there with Electrical. It's still a long way away so I would like to see what I end up putting on my VTAC preferences.
 
Well, that's it for this weeks update of Ashmi's Journal! Stick around for the next update sometime soon! ;D
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on February 17, 2020, 09:09:31 pm
Nice to hear from you Ash! Congrats on smashing the chemistry mini test  ;D

What did you do on study camp? Like is it study 24/7 or do they do different activities and stuff?
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Post by: ashmi on February 17, 2020, 10:17:56 pm
Nice to hear from you Ash! Congrats on smashing the chemistry mini test  ;D

What did you do on study camp? Like is it study 24/7 or do they do different activities and stuff?

Thank you Choco!! ;D
Study camp was surprisingly not 'study' camp😂. (Well it sort of was in a way)
We did activities like study skills, time management and then some more fun stuff like Zumba ;D
It was more of a bonding camp and just figuring out stuff like ideas to run the school better, hearing from past students, guest speakers and just having a relaxing time.
I barely had time to study (hence why I'm panicking now woohoo!), it was more like 'procrastination' camp but in a good way!
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Post by: ArtyDreams on February 17, 2020, 10:37:34 pm
Awesome update Ash!! *sending lots of good vibes your way for your upcoming SACs*

I'm loving following your journey its motivating haha. That camp sounds like it was super fun too!

Have a great week  ;D
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Post by: Bri MT on February 17, 2020, 11:30:36 pm
re: tension

A generally good approach is:

1.  Draw a diagram
2. Find the acceleration of the whole system. You can do this by adding all the masses and forces acting on the system together (keep in mind that some forces may be acting in the opposite direction and thus negative) & using f/m = a. Recognise that the acceleration of each component of the system will be the same as the acceleration of the system
4. identify that mass(es) that the tension is pulling on using your diagram from step 1.
5. use f=ma to find the net force on those masses (a is from step 3 and m is from step 4)
6. Add/subtract as appropriate other forces acting on those masses from the net force to identify the magnitude of the tension force.
7. Check you have presented the tension using the right units and fully answered the question
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Post by: ashmi on February 18, 2020, 10:32:32 am
re: tension

A generally good approach is:

1.  Draw a diagram
2. Find the acceleration of the whole system. You can do this by adding all the masses and forces acting on the system together (keep in mind that some forces may be acting in the opposite direction and thus negative) & using f/m = a. Recognise that the acceleration of each component of the system will be the same as the acceleration of the system
4. identify that mass(es) that the tension is pulling on using your diagram from step 1.
5. use f=ma to find the net force on those masses (a is from step 3 and m is from step 4)
6. Add/subtract as appropriate other forces acting on those masses from the net force to identify the magnitude of the tension force.
7. Check you have presented the tension using the right units and fully answered the question

Thank you so much, Bri! ;D
This makes it a lot clearer on how to approach these types of problems (I have had major issues when finding more than 1 tension. An example would be 3 boxes and 2 ropes attached in between). Hopefully, with a bit more practise tension shouldn't be too much of an issue!

Awesome update Ash!! *sending lots of good vibes your way for your upcoming SACs*

I'm loving following your journey its motivating haha. That camp sounds like it was super fun too!

Have a great week  ;D

Thank you so much, Arty! Going to need the good vibes definitely! (Sending you an equal amount of luck too ;D)
Camp was really fun (even though we didn't do much). Hope you have a good week! :D

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Post by: chopsticks on February 19, 2020, 08:07:50 pm
I just came back from a Study Camp and I'm seriously out of whack.
I'm probably very late but how was it? Was it a lot of fun or a bit more on the stressful side?

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I bought a whole pack of Muji pens the other day and have never felt so satisfied.
I never really knew the hype revolving Muji pens until my friends got them for me for my birthday. Ever since, my filthy notes took a great turn.

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My cat is secretly plotting something. I can feel it.
As someone with a cat, I can relate. Since I moved, I've been away from my cat a few days and I think he's already got it all planned. My mom told me he's been in my room for a while and also spending time alone at the basement (that's where all the wicked things happen though).

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Very odd thought here, but when I was catching a tram down to the State Library, I have never noticed how amazing Melbourne architecture is. (Especially Flinders Street. Never noticed it during morning/afternoon peak).
That's an very different opinion to someone who goes past almost everyday. I just notice the amount of bird poop and get scared from all those birdies flying around.

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I have a SAC this Friday and then less than 2 weeks later another one! I'm ready to cry because of tension and no matter how much I try, tension just doesn't want to cooperate with me. On the other hand, I LOVE projectile motion, so I guess it balances out in the end. I'm not feeling a good vibe about this SAC, but I'm hoping that my Physics teacher doesn't destroy me too much... ::)
Good luck!!! I believe in you and I know you will do great. Definitely helps when you genuinely enjoy the content/

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Had a mini-test (sort of like a learning checkpoint thingy) the other day and somehow got 56/57! Thank you Thermochem and now we are doing Gas Laws. We had a practical task today which was about fuels and was super fun! Chem so far has been so good but let's watch my mood change as soon as a SAC comes around the corner.
Great to know chem has been working out for at least one of us XD Teach me your ways!

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The SAC is due next week and straight after we have the beautiful Argument Analysis!
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2 SACS in two weeks, one this Wednesday and one next week Monday morning.
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We are now doing transformations and then there will be a SAC soon.

Good luck for all of your sacs. I know how annoying it is to have them scheduled near each other (some of my friends have their Bio and Jap sac on the same day). Stay strong and ace all of them!!!

Both my 3/4 sacs happen to be next term (including Methods). I'm surprised your Methods sac is coming up so soon. Either way, good luck again!

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Recently, I've also been looking at different universities courses and possible majors to do. I'm still pretty set on doing the Bachelor of Science/Masters of Engineering combo at Melbourne, but I'm everywhere when it comes to picking a major.
I've been thinking of doing Electrical systems and also doing subjects in the bioengineering systems so when I do get to Masters, I can choose between Electrical and Biomedical? I don't know how Biomedical came into my head, but it has and now it's stuck there with Electrical. It's still a long way away so I would like to see what I end up putting on my VTAC preferences.

That's a really cool course. Meanwhile, I'm growing ever so indecisive about what I want to do. It's good to know you know exactly what you want to do (if only I was actually dead set on a course).

I've said this a million times already but good luck, good luck, good luck! Believe in yourself and remember to take care, even if it's doing small things like taking a break or having a nap. You will get through this and ace everything :)
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Post by: ashmi on February 19, 2020, 09:46:10 pm
I'm probably very late but how was it? Was it a lot of fun or a bit more on the stressful side?
Very stressful because I couldn't do any work on it🤣. A very fun camp but wasn't really for me as the workshops were already stuff I felt comfortable in. Other than that pretty good!

I never really knew the hype revolving Muji pens until my friends got them for me for my birthday. Ever since, my filthy notes took a great turn.
Muji is a blessing to this world, saving poor handwriting and turning it into eligible words :P. Physically cannot go back anymore to normal pens.

As someone with a cat, I can relate. Since I moved, I've been away from my cat a few days and I think he's already got it all planned. My mom told me he's been in my room for a while and also spending time alone at the basement (that's where all the wicked things happen though).
He is definitely up to something crafty. I guess it's just a matter of time to see what he comes up within the next few days ;D ('Cat updates with Chopsticks' should be a whole other journal😂).

That's an very different opinion to someone who goes past almost everyday. I just notice the amount of bird poop and get scared from all those birdies flying around.
Ok now that you have put it like this I fully agree with you :P. I go past it every day too but now that you highlighted that, I don't think I can look at Flinders the same way again.

Good luck!!! I believe in you and I know you will do great. Definitely helps when you genuinely enjoy the content/
Great to know chem has been working out for at least one of us XD Teach me your ways!

Good luck for all of your sacs. I know how annoying it is to have them scheduled near each other (some of my friends have their Bio and Jap sac on the same day). Stay strong and ace all of them!!!

Both my 3/4 sacs happen to be next term (including Methods). I'm surprised your Methods sac is coming up so soon. Either way, good luck again!
Aww Chopsticks thank you!!!
Honestly, for Chem, I haven't been writing any notes, rather, I just do a whole pack of practise questions (Literally the only reason I'm getting through this. Application > Remembering Content). *Sending positive Chem Vibes* I know you can do it Chopsticks! I BELIEVE IN YOU.

Lucky to have a Methods SAC next term!! Our SACs are being split up and are more frequent (I don't know if that's a good thing but I guess we will find out). Good luck for your SACs too Chopsticks!!

That's a really cool course. Meanwhile, I'm growing ever so indecisive about what I want to do. It's good to know you know exactly what you want to do (if only I was actually dead set on a course).

I've said this a million times already but good luck, good luck, good luck! Believe in yourself and remember to take care, even if it's doing small things like taking a break or having a nap. You will get through this and ace everything :)
Don't worry Chopsticks, you still have plenty of time! If you told the 2019 me that I wanted to do Electrical + Biomed Engineering, I would have laughed my head off ;D. Still not 100% on it but so far, it's the only course that involves stuff I like? Right now, I'm just trying to pick something that covers a range of stuff I enjoy (physics, chem, maths, design) and if I do decide to change, at least it means I've given everything else a go and that certain things work/doesn't work for me. I'm definitely very far from being dead set Chopsticks but just keep in mind that a flexible course is a really good choice if you don't have a specific thing you want to do.

I will send you a wave of GOOD LUCKS any day!!
GOOD LUCK!!!
Treat yourself and look after your health Chopsticks! I'm pretty sure you will be fine and do some amazing things this year. (You are the one that will be acing stuff!)
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Post by: ashmi on March 01, 2020, 06:41:33 pm
✰Update: 1/03✰

First day of the month and I'm pretty overdue for another update for this journal. Within the past few days a lot has happened, a little too much for my liking. This week, I'm going to the International Women's Day Breakfast and also Luna Park (thank you Physics!). Also pretty excited to visit the Top Designs exhibition later this month too! ;D

Here is what has been happening outside my school life:
   • A lot of photo-editing. No joke, I have about 30 photos to edit in the past few days but it will be so worth it in the end.
   • I went to the Japanese Summer Festival at Fed Square last weekend! (And in cosplay too~)
   • My Muji pens have run out... :'(
   • Had really good Korean BBQ the other day.
   • I have been addicted to "Rachie's Kawaki wo Ameku English cover" and I cannot stop repeating it. (I can relate to this song spiritually right now). Also, Sam Luff's Veil and Rumor by Police Piccadilly have been so good!

Also, since you have read this far, here is a photo I finished editing this morning! It's from the Japanese Summer Festival last weekend,
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I don't know how the photographer (@tee_do_photo) I work with makes me look good but he does somehow🤣
If you like to support me on this type of stuff highly recommend checking out my IG page @ashmicos~
(https://i.imgur.com/GXJKfq6.png)

Ok now onto the school life! This is where things start to derail really badly.

I admit, I haven't looked after myself at all. I feel like everything I do is not enough and that I won't get the scores I need to get my first preference. I really do feel like everything is spiralling out of control, but there are certain subjects right now that are holding it together.

✰Physics✰ (Incoming rant)
Ok, this is the subject that is causing me so much grief and frustration right now. I did a SAC on this last week and I was really down for the following week because I thought I did really badly. Turns out I got lucky and somehow barely got into the 90% - 100%. The score might be on the lower end of the scale, but I'm just really glad it didn't come out any worse. I have another SAC for Physics this Wednesday on Springs and I'm less prepared for this one than the first one I had. I'm not going to lie here, I am absolutely terrified for this. No matter how hard or how much work I do for this subject, I never get a good result for it, I don't know why either and it is taking a lot of time and I'm starting to neglect other subjects that have higher potential.
My main problem with this subject is SPRINGS. I have had so much trouble with them and literally the other day had a nightmare on Springs (it was horrific). I don't understand that when you rearrange formulas for the spring constant, that when you do it with energy and force it comes out with different answers. Also, graphing Energy-time graphs (I understand how to do Energy-Displacement but oh boy energy-time graphs). I am not feeling good for this SAC at all, springs are going to be the death of me at this rate.
Ok there is my rant for Physics done and dusted.

✰PDT✰
Why hello PDT my fav subject right now! 8) Had a SAC for this last Monday and I'm pretty sure I did well in it. We are onto the research stage for the folio and I have begun to print out small sections of my folio one at a time. Will post a few pics when it comes together soon. Our class is having a competition on who will reach 100 pages in their folio first (thanks to this girl who got premier's in 2018 for setting a high standard). I'm about 20 pages in so far which is not too far away from the goal but I'm excited to see who will reach the goal first.

✰English✰
Had a SAC last Friday for this and I think it turned out pretty good! It was a creative SAC and I wrote my response in the writing style of Euripides which was challenging (and sort of risky move) but it looks like it worked out. Next up Argument Analysis

✰Chemistry✰
Chem SAC in two weeks from now on AOS 1 and not finding it too challenging at the moment. I'm having a bit of problems remembering the Fuels types (have a memory of a goldfish) but everything else is okay. I've had some pretty good results for Chem so far which I'm hoping will be the same for my upcoming SAC.

✰Methods✰
Oh look it's Methods, aka the subject I've been neglecting. SAC is in 3 weeks and the content has been really enjoyable (hence why I have barely done any work). Nothing is really happening in this subject, but oh wait I have to run from my excursion from Top Designs and somehow magically get back to school on time to do this SAC. The second last day of term is going to be hectic for me.

That's it for this update! Thanks for reading if you made it this far! 8)
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Post by: brothanathan on March 04, 2020, 11:06:26 pm
✰Update: 1/03✰


✰PDT✰
Why hello PDT my fav subject right now! 8) Had a SAC for this last Monday and I'm pretty sure I did well in it. We are onto the research stage for the folio and I have begun to print out small sections of my folio one at a time. Will post a few pics when it comes together soon. Our class is having a competition on who will reach 100 pages in their folio first (thanks to this girl who got premier's in 2018 for setting a high standard). I'm about 20 pages in so far which is not too far away from the goal but I'm excited to see who will reach the goal first.

How's the 200 pages goin? (please tell me you're doin better than Rachie)
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Post by: yesh.weerakkody on March 09, 2020, 12:56:39 pm
Heyoo! Finally caught up with all the missed entries wow! Also 100 PAGES OR 200 PAGES WTHH! That’s like an actual full length thesis right?! Good luck, I’m sure you’ll ace it!  ;D
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Post by: ashmi on March 09, 2020, 02:51:38 pm
How's the 200 pages goin? (please tell me you're doin better than Rachie)

Heyoo! Finally caught up with all the missed entries wow! Also 100 PAGES OR 200 PAGES WTHH! That’s like an actual thesis full length thesis right?! Good luck, I’m sure you’ll ace it!  ;D

The aim is to get to 100 pages and I do agree with you yesh.weerakkody, it is starting to look more like a design thesis rather than a folio...

A lot has been going on with it and this weekend has mainly been focused on trying to finalise the first 20 pages before I move onto the next criteria!
*Stay tuned for a journal update soon as I'll post some sample folio pages*
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Post by: ashmi on March 09, 2020, 08:59:40 pm
✰Update: 9/03✰
Update time!! (Before I get started, anyone part of KLD 2020 that is going to the 'Day Zero' Event? I want to meet some new people!)

Ok, last week was seriously jam-packed. So much happened I don't even know where to start. Well for starters I went to the International Women's Day Breakfast at Crown and was probably one of the most entertaining social events I've been too. I got to meet a girl who is actually on exchange from Switzerland who is part of my Rotary club (and actually does PDT WOOHOO). I also signed up to do more volunteering through my Rotary Club and got to meet the people that helped sponsor me for NYSF. We went to Luna Park on Friday to 'feel the force' and had a blast/

Now here is a mini-summary of what's been happening outside of school:
   • I finished editing a whole pack of photos! Only down side is that I'm still waiting to get my Adobe subscription renewed by the school.
   • I've been trying to finish making a few cosplays and also trying to figure out which new ones to make next. (I have a stack of characters to choose from and so far, have no clue who to do next)
   • The new song I've been addicted to is Nano's 'Inside My Core' and I'm eagerly waiting for a full version.
   • I'm really craving mint chocolate. Like really badly craving (especially ice-cream)
   • VCE Physics lecture at Melb Uni begin this week!! I'M SO EXCTIED LIKE, YO FINALLY THEY ARE BACK!

So how am I feeling? Confused. Lost. Unsure of what to do.
It's mainly got to do with picking future courses and I'm sort of having that STEM vs Art problem again. Part of me wants to do a design course, like game design and then part of me wants something STEM based. Right now engineering is really the only thing that has the best of both worlds but time will tell I guess!

Ok, now a really brief update on subjects:

✰Physics✰
Hahaha Physics. Had a SAC on Springs last Wednesday and my lord, I have just realised my hatred for drawing sine graphs that model acceleration/time of a spring. (It takes so much time to make that smooth curve if you get what I mean?). Other than that, Physics is GOLD. I love the content in this subject and it's so interesting to learn about! I do have a SAC again on the very last day of school...

✰PDT✰
Hello PDT! A lot has been happening and my folio is already starting to be bigger than it should be...
I'm really excited to start printing everything out and I'm really liking how it is all coming together.
Right now everything is everywhere.
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Some sample pages. Haven't finished but shows you what I've been up too.
(https://i.imgur.com/PT6mmQz.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/2Au4oJE.png)

✰English✰
With the SAC done last week I feel so relieved and now we are doing Argument Analysis. I have a piece due tomorrow and I've barely started so that's what I'm going to do now.

✰Chemistry✰

I have a SAC next week. Someone help me please. Guess who is cramming? Yep it's Ashmi.
Overall, Chem has been pretty good but I'm definitely not looking forward to the upcoming SAC. (I don't even feel prepared at all).

✰Methods✰
Not cramming yet as this SAC is the second last day of school. I will be next week though~
Probably should do a one-page summary sheet for the SAC soon now that I'm writing in this journal.

Pretty boring update but that is all that really happened last week. See you guys later! ;D
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on March 10, 2020, 05:23:39 pm
The folio pages are beautiful Ash! And yay that your physics SAC is over :)

Update time!! (Before I get started, anyone part of KLD 2020 that is going to the 'Day Zero' Event? I want to meet some new people!)
Ok, last week was seriously jam-packed. So much happened I don't even know where to start. Well for starters I went to the International Women's Day Breakfast at Crown and was probably one of the most entertaining social events I've been too. I got to meet a girl who is actually on exchange from Switzerland who is part of my Rotary club (and actually does PDT WOOHOO). I also signed up to do more volunteering through my Rotary Club and got to meet the people that helped sponsor me for NYSF. We went to Luna Park on Friday to 'feel the force' and had a blast/

Kind of keen for the KLD event but not sure what lecture I'd want to attend, do you have an idea for which one you want to do?

Also Luna park sounds fun and that's fantastic that you are volunteering, very inspiring ;D

Have a great rest of the week  8)
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Post by: ashmi on March 10, 2020, 06:10:29 pm
The folio pages are beautiful Ash! And yay that your physics SAC is over :)

Kind of keen for the KLD event but not sure what lecture I'd want to attend, do you have an idea for which one you want to do?

Also Luna park sounds fun and that's fantastic that you are volunteering, very inspiring ;D

Have a great rest of the week  8)

Hey hey Choco!! ;D

Thank you for your kind words!😭💕. Means a lot to know someone out there likes my folio! Oh lord I'm so glad that Physics is done but I have another one in two weeks haha.

For the KLD event, I put as my first preference 'Engineering System Design 1' (cause Ashmi over here loves her maths and design in one place) and then for second preference I put 'Introduction to Mathematics'. (I didn't really see myself being able to sit through a lecture about Australian wildlife.... Give me an update when you pick which lectures you are going too! :D)

Luna Park was amazing, especially the bit where we forced our Physics teacher onto the twin dragon boat ride that goes up and down (he has a massive fear of heights).

Thank you so much Choco for checking in and I hope you have an amazing week too! ;D
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Post by: angrybiscuit on March 10, 2020, 06:44:24 pm
For the KLD event, I put as my first preference 'Engineering System Design 1' (cause Ashmi over here loves her maths and design in one place) and then for second preference I put 'Introduction to Mathematics'. (I didn't really see myself being able to sit through a lecture about Australian wildlife.... Give me an update when you pick which lectures you are going too! :D)
Just going to jump in to say that I have Engineering Systems design as my first preference too! Then Introduction to Microeconomics... hope to see you there! :D
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Post by: ashmi on March 10, 2020, 07:58:30 pm
Just going to jump in to say that I have Engineering Systems design as my first preference too! Then Introduction to Microeconomics... hope to see you there! :D

Ok angrybiscuits, we seriously need to meet up in advance! ;D (It's rare to see anyone on the forums that is part of KLD. I'm going to be slightly sad if we actually miss each other)
This is gonna be one epic meetup, I can feel it 🤣.
I really hope to see you there! (Watch me flood your dms along with Choco in the days leading up to the event. Good choice with picking Engineering Systems by the way. Microeconomics actually sounds kinda interesting now that you mention it)

Also, if anyone else is part of KLD and is going to the event, we would love to see you there~
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Post by: Bri MT on March 11, 2020, 02:07:11 pm
(It's rare to see anyone on the forums that is part of KLD. I'm going to be slightly sad if we actually miss each other)

I was part of KLD and it was a Kwonger that introduced me to AN but maybe I don't count because I'm in uni now :P

I feel like there should be a bunch of KLD ANers ...  would be weird if it was only the two of you
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Post by: ashmi on March 11, 2020, 03:57:52 pm
I was part of KLD and it was a Kwonger that introduced me to AN but maybe I don't count because I'm in uni now :P

I feel like there should be a bunch of KLD ANers ...  would be weird if it was only the two of you

I'm sure there are a few Kwongers which are still hiding somewhere deep in the AN Forums... :P (Hopefully we will find you eventually ;D) (You count as a wise KLD don't worry)

AN sounds like the perfect hotspot for KLDs so maybe they are here but not really here (if you get what I'm saying!)
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Post by: TigerMum on March 11, 2020, 09:36:33 pm
That KLD event sounds really fun! I'm in KLD Class of 2021 and we have an event, "A Day at Melbourne", on April 4. We have to choose 2 sessions from these different workshops and lectures and I've put down the Engineering and Economics sessions as my first two preferences. Hope you enjoy yours, it should be a lot of fun!  :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on March 12, 2020, 08:25:19 am
That KLD event sounds really fun! I'm in KLD Class of 2021 and we have an event, "A Day at Melbourne", on April 4. We have to choose 2 sessions from these different workshops and lectures and I've put down the Engineering and Economics sessions as my first two preferences. Hope you enjoy yours, it should be a lot of fun!  :)

*Adds TigerMum to the KLD roll call*🤣

Oh my lord, I remember the"Day at Melbourne" event and it was so good! You are going to have so much fun and it is a great time to socialise with others. (And yo the food is good too).
I really hope you enjoy the day and make some new friends! (Let's see if there is anyone on AN part of the 2021 class :P)
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Post by: ashmi on March 22, 2020, 10:36:17 am
✰Update: 22/03✰

It's been a while since I've updated this journal. I can't believe how much stuff happens in between these journal entries sometimes but now I'm just going to get straight to the point. This virus is seriously putting a lot of unnecessary stress onto everything. Our school will probably go virtual soon by the looks of it, and I'm not looking forward to it. A good chunk of my subjects need face-to-face learning or some equipment that I don't have at home, which is seriously going to take its toll (I'm looking at you PDT and Physics). We are all in this together at least!

Currently, I have a Methods test (not a SAC but a moderation test) on Thursday and also a Physics SAC on Friday, however, if they really do plan to end school early on the Friday, I'm extremely worried my teacher is going to push the Physics SAC to a Wednesday which I am really not prepared for. Everything is really spiralling our of control.

Ok now onto the subject based stuff!

✰Physics✰
So some good things and bad things. Good thing was on my Spring SAC, I only lost a mark!! If I was a tad bit calmer during the SAC I probably would have picked it up but overall, I'm quite happy with the results.

We have a SAC on circular motion and special relativity this upcoming Friday (well I hope), and special relativity is sort of not cooperating with me right now. I'm just going to finish checkpoints on Special Rel today and then get straight into some more practise questions before the SAC! This subject is probably the one I'm most worried about because I find it almost impossible to learn if I don't see a tutorial/demo and with the school closing idea, Physics will probably become my ultimate worst subject.

✰PDT✰
Oh lord, I don't even know where I start with this subject. I'm really worried about my folio and overall making my final product. Due to the virus, everyone is stockpiling and it is also having a toll on the sewing/art supplies I'm planning to use to make my final product. I need to make a final design option soon (which takes a really long time to get a perfectly rendered design), get it approved by my end user and then hunt down the fabric before there is nothing left. It also means that I might have to fork out some money to pay for an overlocker to get my product to meet the criteria I set up for it.

Nearly everything that I've set up for this subject is crumbling. I'm sort of cornered to the point where I have to start mad-rushing my folio to get fabric and not only that pay for a whole new overlocker because I doubt my school will lend it (we only have 3 overlockers between our PDT class). Worst case scenario I run off to my friends house to use it but at least I have a basic sewing machine!
Also, the Top Designs exhibition got cancelled this year and I can sympathise with all those students that tried so hard to get in and only to not have their products looked at by the general public. It's quite heartbreaking when you think about the struggle it took to get to the end of the Top Designs shortlisting.

✰Chemistry✰
Nothing much is happening in this subject. We are finishing off batteries for redox and electrolysis. We did do a SAC the other day and I pretty sure I lost marks just because I wasn't calm during the SAC (already have lost 2 marks on stuff I could do if I was calm and hoping that my score is above 45/50).
Can't say much right now but this is really one of the only subjects that if it was to go virtual school, it would work.

✰Methods✰
Cramming for a Methods Test now and worksheets are everywhere. Stay tuned to see if Ashmi survives.

✰English✰
Got my creative SAC mark the other day and it looks like 100%! Really glad English is at least being good to me and now I'm also cramming to get a new Argument Analysis which is due on Tuesday.

Also, outside all of this, I'm having massive doubts about all my subjects and if I could go back in time, I probably would have done a completely different mix of subjects. My ATAR goal is also slipping away much more quickly and now I'm thinking I'm just going to have to aim for my second preference. With this whole epidemic, PDT if suffering the most (which is also my 'carrier' subject and pretty much my only hope of getting to the dream ATAR). With the whole school closing down soon and all, it just makes all the goals I've put to myself this year absolutely unachievable. So yeah, everything is going down the drain sadly.
I feel especially sorry for the students that do solely folio subjects, it must be super hard on them already. I hope everyone else is going alright and take care of yourself. 💕

(Also, very weird question, but is anyone else using Microsoft Teams?  ;D)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on March 22, 2020, 11:38:20 am
Hey ashmi! That really sucks about PDT, but don't give up hope! The ATAR is a ranking, so if you are facing these problems, so is everyone else. I definitely believe you can achieve your goals - don't give up! And congrats on doing well in physics and English ;D. It would be interesting to see how folio subjects would be done if schools were in lockdown in the future, but at least everyone is in the same boat.

(Also, very weird question, but is anyone else using Microsoft Teams?  ;D)
My school has been using Microsoft teams for 2 years+ as a replacement for another online program we had been using in in year 9. We use it for everything haha - chatting (the main one lol), study groups, asking teachers questions after hours (literally teachers are always online it's crazy), announcements from teachers/principal, announcements from clubs, lost and found property, library announcements, resources for each subject etc. It's really handy! We'll be using teams as well if school goes into lockdown through the meeting option for each subject. I think lots of schools will be using teams/zoom since they're really easy to use. I prefer teams since you can upload things onto it and you can send announcements and chat to each other privately/create group chats/study chats. I really hope we don't have to move to online though, it'll be a massive disadvantage (albeit for everyone).

Good luck for the rest of your SAC/methods test, and the rest of the week in general!
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Post by: Geoo on March 22, 2020, 12:32:46 pm
Nice to hear from you Ashimi!
I'm in a similar boat as you are when it comes to PTD. I need lots of food products for Food Studies so I 100% relate to running out of supplies. Is there any way you can hire/rent an overlocker for a few weeks? I got mine at Aldi when they did a special, they are quite expensive otherwise from places like spotlight and linecraft even with sales.. Is there a local sewer in you area you could borrow off either?

I think alot of people are in thinking the same way when it comes to ATAR's, this is just such an odd situation were in, so at least there is some solidarity in that. Lets hope all the panic buying stops soon! Enjoy your last week at school (which will probably be the last for a while...)
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Post by: ashmi on March 22, 2020, 01:04:43 pm
Hey ashmi! That really sucks about PDT, but don't give up hope! The ATAR is a ranking, so if you are facing these problems, so is everyone else. I definitely believe you can achieve your goals - don't give up!

Hey whys! That means a lot to me right now and hopefully, everything works out :'( ;D. (I'll try not to give up, but in the back of my mind it's sort of just sitting there... (I need that thought gone asap🤣).

I prefer teams since you can upload things onto it and you can send announcements and chat to each other privately/create group chats/study chats. I really hope we don't have to move to online though, it'll be a massive disadvantage (albeit for everyone).
Awesome to see someone else that uses Teams! (I love the private study chats so much)

Nice to hear from you Ashimi!
I'm in a similar boat as you are when it comes to PTD. I need lots of food products for Food Studies so I 100% relate to running out of supplies. Is there any way you can hire/rent an overlocker for a few weeks? I got mine at Aldi when they did a special, they are quite expensive otherwise from places like spotlight and linecraft even with sales.. Is there a local sewer in you area you could borrow off either?

I think alot of people are in thinking the same way when it comes to ATAR's, this is just such an odd situation were in, so at least there is some solidarity in that. Lets hope all the panic buying stops soon! Enjoy your last week at school (which will probably be the last for a while...)

Hey Geoo! ;D

I can't imagine how hard it would be to do Food Studies considering that all the supplies are running out in a blink of an eye. (Stuck in the same boat together with limited supplies). I tried looking at places were I could get an overlocker but really the cheapest one right now is Spotlight sadly... ($300 which is not too bad?). I have a backup person I can go to use an overlocker but they are on the other side of town, which probably means I would have to stay a night to finish my PDT product. Not the worst situation ever but will definitely take a toll.

Right now, we are in one of the weirdest situations and I'm quite confused about how we are all going to get through the school year (Like are we even going to graduate??). The panic buying hopefully will die down soon, meaning we can get back to buying the stuff we need for our school projects!

Good luck Geoo and take care of yourself! ;D
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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on March 22, 2020, 01:22:50 pm
Hey Ash!

Thanks for the update, I'm really love reading this journal!
It sucks about PDT and I can't imagine being half way through a final before being told that you might not be able to have access to the technology you need to finish it. Hopefully it works out :) (On another note, can I just say your cosplay (on your insta) is INCREDIBLE! I can't wait to see that talent in your final!

Congrats on english and physics (so proud  ;D ;D). Also I feel you in chemistry (a subject very easy to panic in aha) - was that your first SAC or have you already had two?

All the best, looking forward to another update  ;)
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Post by: ashmi on March 22, 2020, 02:16:56 pm
Hey Choco! Thanks for checking in~ ;D
Thanks for the update, I'm really love reading this journal!
It sucks about PDT and I can't imagine being half way through a final before being told that you might not be able to have access to the technology you need to finish it. Hopefully it works out :) (On another note, can I just say your cosplay (on your insta) is INCREDIBLE! I can't wait to see that talent in your final!
Yeah it sort of sucks for all the folio/material-based subjects right now but hopefully everything works out in the end! (Ahhh thank you very much for your kind words! Hoping it shines through with my final PDT product)

Congrats on english and physics (so proud  ;D ;D). Also I feel you in chemistry (a subject very easy to panic in aha) - was that your first SAC or have you already had two?

Chem aka the subject of PANIC ;D.
That was my first Chem SAC of the year so I was sort of expecting to not do very well in it, but hopefully, the electrolysis SAC is much better!
Thanks Choco and I'm looking forward to seeing another update on your journal soon~ :D
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Post by: ashmi on March 29, 2020, 05:56:49 pm
✰Ashmi's Artwork Catastrophe Mini-Update 29/03✰

Currently, I have 'art-block' and I thought it might be nice to give you a mini art update!
So if you have been following my VCE journey, you might know that I do a folio subject called Product Design and Technology ;D.
Well, let me say one thing, the folio that contributes to about 50% of my study score, that I work myself to death for is not a folio anymore...umm how should I put it?
 
That thing is looking like a full-on THESIS. (Just with a lot of pictures🤣). I kid you not.
In PDT, there are 10 Criterions that a folio needs to fulfil by September each year. I am nearly finished with Criterion 2 and already I have 30 A3 pages of work. I think I might even have a 100-page folio before I even get to Criterion 7 at this rate. I also need to buy another folio too cause my current one is nearly full

Here are some of the pages of visualisations that I've been working on this week and hopefully by the end of the day I can finish drawing another 3 more pages with my end-user feedback! (And even better, if I can start Criterion 3!)
(https://i.imgur.com/vkh8m3Y.png)

Some more unfinished pages in the spoiler:
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/YbJ0t8K.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/8WZes58.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/4Ybp64c.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/ck94jEs.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/x30yqDJ.png)

That's it for now! Once art block is gone I'll go back to drawing~ :D
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Post by: ArtyDreams on March 29, 2020, 06:17:11 pm
Yay another update!! And always great to see an art related one!

Your folio is looking great Ash! The aesthetic is so satisfying to see - cant wait to see your final too!
(And can totally relate to folios ending up being wayyyy to long lol - I'm sure you'll be rewarded for your efforts!)

Hope you overcome your artblock soon  ;D

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Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on March 29, 2020, 07:56:54 pm
INCREDIBLE ASH! The folio is looking amazing, thanks so much for sharing it with us  ;D! You are putting so much work in and it is SO paying off!!! Loving the theme!

Can't wait to see more  8)
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Post by: ashmi on April 07, 2020, 08:16:36 pm
✰Update: 7/04✰

So it's been a while since I've last updated this journal soooooooo time for you guys to hear what's been going on in my life!

First off: Corona
I have officially hibernated in the comfort of my room and have barely gone outside (I know that's really bad) except to go to the doctors these holidays. Prepping for virtual school is going to be interesting, especially with the new school term beginning next week.

Oki doki so onto some subject specific stuff now~

✰Physics✰
Got a SAC on special relativity next week which will most likely be online (Moodle WOOHOO). This subject, is definitely going to be one of the hardest subjects to understand this year due to the whole idea of not going to school, but I'm committed to get it working! I've finished Unit 3 content and have done a light skim over Unit 4. I'm focusing more on practise exam questions since I feel like working too far ahead won't really work in this situation. Once I'm done writing in this journal, I'll try doing some more questions on Special Relativity than move straight onto Fields/Electrical Power.

✰PDT✰
Oh lord, this is definitely one of the worst hit subjects alongside the other folios subjects. My folio has become a thesis and there is a possibility that it might not be reflected in my study score this year due to the current situation. My PDT squad from school are trying to make sure that we climb this mountain together and helping each other whenever one of us gets stuck with our folio. It's been a bumping ride, and once I help finish proofreading one of the last folios from my class, I can safely say we have all passed Criterion 2!
We have a SAC next term, and since no one knows what to do, I have lowkey taken control of the class and currently am making some practise materials so my friends can have something to work with. (Time to look at past exams woohooo). The design options I barely have started yet, mainly because I haven't had any inspiration. Maybe this weekend I might get up to something!

✰Methods/English/Chem✰
Literally nothing is happening in these subjects. For Chem, I managed to finish all of Unit 3 the other day and might do a bit of Unit 4? (Like revision). I'm mainly just doing practise exam questions for these subjects and just trying to work with what I have! I really like Chem right now due to electrolysis (I have an unnatural obsession with electricity) and it links nicely with Physics too in a way.  I've got a SAC for English Argument Analysis soon and I've been trying a few new methods in which I tackle articles with multiple pieces. It's working... A bit? With some feedback soon though I'm sure I will be alright and able to improve! Methods has been the same as always and everything is going pretty smoothly~

So how have I've been feeling these holidays?
Not too bad actually. I've been alright and maybe a good night sleep will do me some good.
Spoiler
I am not alright actually.
Well, quite a bit of stuff is going on in my life but I'm handling it quite well on the surface. With the idea of Year 11 results being used as a Plan B, I haven't been feeling too good. Its sort of like shattering my goal right there on the spot and um now I feel like aiming for my second preference is going to be tough. Just hoping none of us has to go down that path anytime soon and that exams do go ahead. (It would be better for all of us).
I need to start organising files for my SEAS application (cat 4), but I don't really know how it's going to work with the whole Coronavirus problem? I have friends that have a lot of things to apply for in SEAS and I really hope that they can get it normally this year like every other year. Would the SEAS application change to accommodate for Corona or will it be the same conditions as it always was?
Well, I've sort have lost all hope in getting into my first preference and I don't know why? It's like there is no end to the journey, its just a path that goes on endlessly into the darkness and repeats itself. Being in isolation hasn't done much good, except maybe a good sleep schedule at best. At the back of my mind, I feel like I put all this effort in for nothing, that it's going to be a repeat of last year's subjects and scores. It's like no matter how effectively I work, or how much I do in order to prepare myself for anything, it never seems to come out with the results I need to get me where I need to go? I guess this year won't be any different from the last.
One thing that seems to have become clearer in my life though is what I want to do in the future. I'm pretty dead-set positive I would like to do engineering now and still heavily leaning towards Electrical (Maybe biomedical too a little ;D). My goal, is to make sure that I do get the scores where I need to go but it's looking like a rocky journey now, maybe a little impossible even. I really wished this mindset of mine would just kick itself out of my head sometimes >:(. I mean, a 96 ATAR would be an absolute dream for me, but being the person I am, I probably won't get there (happens all the time and I wished for once it wouldn't be this). The only other course I would want to do needs an ATAR of 85 (maybe 78 depending on Acess Melb accepting SEAS applicants) and that even is starting to look unrealistic. I don't know what has happened to my mindset in the past few days but it's been crushed like an Oreo. (I'm actually craving an Oreo so badly :P). And then there are questions like, if you are low ranked in an average cohort and do well on the exam (like full marks), what would be the highest possible study score you could get? I don't even know what's going on anymore but hopefully, it clears up!

How have you guys been going with your holidays? I bet by the time we come out of quarantine, we are going to have some amazing cooks. ;D
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Post by: Evolio on April 07, 2020, 08:35:52 pm
Hey Ashmi!  ;D

Don't give up hope on that degree! YOU WILL GET THERE! I know that you've got this! As you say to me, I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!  ;D Seeing how well you did last year, your amazing work ethic and the hard work you do , I know that you can achieve that 96 ATAR.

It's a very weird situation we're in but we're all here to support and we'll keep each other up and fighting so that we reach our goals even though we feel that we won't achieve them. In the end, all we can do is try and if we try hard enough, that WILL pay off.

YOU GOT THIS.
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Post by: eloisegrace on April 07, 2020, 08:41:08 pm
Wow, you have certainly been busy. I definitely think that doing some exam practice now will benefit. Even though I'm in year 11, exposing myself do different VCAA questions for my 3/4s has been very helpful!

That sounds horrible in terms of PDT. Corona has hit us all hard, but that really would be a pain! Your folio pics on this journal have been incredible and I admire your creativity and obvious talent (I have never been good at art)! Also, how is methods going? I am little worried about it and I just want to see where everyone else is up to.

We all believe in you! You can always get into your dream course. As long as you stick at it, you can do anything. The fact that you are already ahead in your subjects bodes well for the rest of the year!

What have you been doing to relax? From 2 weeks of experience at the end of term 1, virtual school is quite tiring and you need some downtime.

Can't wait to read more of your journal 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: moonchild on April 07, 2020, 10:37:51 pm
How have you guys been going with your holidays? I bet by the time we come out of quarantine, we are going to have some amazing cooks. ;D

Hey Ashmi,, hope you are okay, we're all in this together! you've got this - don't stress too much just do the best you can! I'm also in the same boat, im not too happy with plan b being that our yr 11 scores may be used,, but all we can do now is do the best we can and hope everything will be okay :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on April 07, 2020, 10:45:52 pm
Hey ashmi,

I totally understand! But you aren't alone. We're all here for you, and we will get through it together. When I first heard the news, I felt like my hopes and dreams of getting into medicine was done for. It felt like a punch in the gut. I felt like a 99+ ATAR was impossible at that moment, and my mind was whirling with thoughts of backup options and the 'I'll probably end up in an office job I hate' mentality which was not a healthy thought. I sat back a little, and thought about it. We are all in, more or less, the same boat, and it is our job to adapt to the needs of our world and our country, and do our part to make it safer for us all. It's alright to feel not okay. We have our downs, and that is okay. But it is how we rise from our falls that sets us apart, and it is in our power to sit down and try our best in our studies in our best interests. We will have to adjust, but we can still do it. We can persevere, and we will make it through to the end. Every storm cloud does pass, after all - but not without a little rain! I believe in you ashmi, and the resolve of the class of 2020 will forever be a memory we can look back on later on.
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Post by: ArtyDreams on April 08, 2020, 08:15:06 am
ashmi - you WILL reach your goals!! you WILL do amazing!! Its okay to feel a little down and demotivated (aren't we all) but I'm SO positive that you will come out of this and do amazing!! Just keep your head in the game and we'll support you no matter what.

I BELIEVE IN YOU. YOU WILL GET THERE  :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on April 08, 2020, 09:04:52 am
Hey Ash,
I agree with all the other positive comments above ^^ You are incredible, you work so hard and deserve amazing things! We are all with you 100% and it is totally okay to feel like you're not going to make your goals, we all do sometimes. But I know that you'll persist and achieve awesome things at the end of 2020 despite the challenges we all are facing at the moment.

You are honestly one of the most valued members of the class of 2020 AN gang and we all believe in you  ;D ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 08, 2020, 10:13:40 am
I've just come back to read this journal and my lord, I did not expect any of this.
Thank you so much Evolio, eloisewebster, brothanathan, moonchild, whys, Arty and Choco! I feel 1000% better after reading your comments and I think I'm slowly getting back on track to a healthy mindset ;D.

Hey Ashmi!  ;D

Don't give up hope on that degree! YOU WILL GET THERE! I know that you've got this! As you say to me, I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!
You will not believe how much this actually means to me Evolio🤣. I really do mean it though, it means a hella lot! (I BELIEVE IN YOU TOO!)

Wow, you have certainly been busy. I definitely think that doing some exam practice now will benefit. Even though I'm in year 11, exposing myself do different VCAA questions for my 3/4s has been very helpful!

That sounds horrible in terms of PDT. Corona has hit us all hard, but that really would be a pain! Your folio pics on this journal have been incredible and I admire your creativity and obvious talent (I have never been good at art)! Also, how is methods going? I am little worried about it and I just want to see where everyone else is up to.

We all believe in you! You can always get into your dream course. As long as you stick at it, you can do anything. The fact that you are already ahead in your subjects bodes well for the rest of the year!

What have you been doing to relax? From 2 weeks of experience at the end of term 1, virtual school is quite tiring and you need some downtime.

Can't wait to read more of your journal 8)
Hey, eloisewebster! ;D
I find that doing VCAA exam questions to be therapeutic in a way? I really love doing exam questions (I mean who doesn't?🤣). I'm super proud of you for being able to do two 3/4s, specifically two maths! For Methods, everything has been going pretty well surprisingly, managed to do nearly a whole chapter of checkpoints last night somehow. We are going to start Calculus next term and don't worry, you will be 100% ok! Just stay on top of everything and Methods will be a little bit easier! Also, thank you so much for your kind words 🥺💕.

For relaxing, I have been drawing a little bit here and there, but as usual, barely making any progress😂. Here is a pic of what I've mainly been attempting to draw in the past few days~
(https://i.imgur.com/5qEXdLX.png)

Hey Ashmi,, hope you are okay, we're all in this together! you've got this - don't stress too much just do the best you can! I'm also in the same boat, im not too happy with plan b being that our yr 11 scores may be used,, but all we can do now is do the best we can and hope everything will be okay :)

Hey moonchild! Thanks for checking in and I'm really grateful you have taken the time to reply! Everything is sort of alright on this end and hopefully, we all can get the best result out of this situation. (I don't know why either, but reading your reply reminds me of Barney the purple dinosaur.....)

Every storm cloud does pass, after all - but not without a little rain! I believe in you ashmi, and the resolve of the class of 2020 will forever be a memory we can look back on later on.
Hey whys! ;D
I really like this mentality you have here! :o
Hopefully, the storm cloud does pass in the end and there will be a little bit of light to guide us all through to the end. I feel a lot better after reading your comment (super motivation btw) and now, at least it seems possible to get to the end? I think the picture below pretty much sums up everything in a nutshell.

Spoiler
My mind and how I'm feeling vs what I would actually like to feel
(https://i.imgur.com/P1c9Mvs.jpg)
It's closer to the bottom pic today than it was yesterday though!
(https://i.imgur.com/rdMc2oH.png)

ashmi - you WILL reach your goals!! you WILL do amazing!! Its okay to feel a little down and demotivated (aren't we all) but I'm SO positive that you will come out of this and do amazing!! Just keep your head in the game and we'll support you no matter what.

I BELIEVE IN YOU. YOU WILL GET THERE  :D

Hey Ash,
I agree with all the other positive comments above ^^ You are incredible, you work so hard and deserve amazing things! We are all with you 100% and it is totally okay to feel like you're not going to make your goals, we all do sometimes. But I know that you'll persist and achieve awesome things at the end of 2020 despite the challenges we all are facing at the moment.

You are honestly one of the most valued members of the class of 2020 AN gang and we all believe in you  ;D ;D
Arty and Choco, I want to say, YOU TWO ARE AMAZING! One of the best motivational comments I have read and thank you so much!💕 After reading all this, I do feel so much better and the goal is getting a tad bit clearer in the fog.💖
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 21, 2020, 08:28:37 am
✰Update: 21/04✰
 
Welcome back to another journal entry of "I don't know what I'm doing but let's just walk ahead and pray for the best".

With the new situation and learning from home, I am so happy with the extra free time! On a school night, I usually get home about 5:30/6ish so it's great to have so much time to do things ;D. Virtual school has been so much fun and I'm finding it easier to get work done on time (and sleep early too). Other than that, I do miss the social interaction of the classroom and being able to walk outside freely for no reason.

And second of all, how on EARTH did this journal surpass 17,000 views? Like who is reading this mess? Either-way, thank you so much to those that have supported this journal.
Ok, now onto the subject stuff!

✰Physics✰
Oh well hi Physics. I hate yet love you so much. I had a SAC on Special Relativity and Circular Motion the other day, and my lord I knew the topic so well but those SAC questions were completely WILD. I don't think I've prepared myself so much for a SAC before (literally did exams questions from 2000) and still don't think I got above 90%. At least I know at the end of year exam the question will be 1000% easier.

Well other than that, motion is DONE. SEE YOU AT THE END OF THE YEAH MUHAHAHA.

We are doing fields right now and that topic is so much nicer. Really excited for the rest of Unit 3 and hopefully things go better for the upcoming SACs and that I can just get into the A+ boundary. I really would like at LEAST a 40 for Physics but with the Ashmi luck.... That might be a tight squeeze.

✰PDT✰
Hey PDT! I have a SAC for you in less than 3 weeks hahaha.
My folio has been going alright and I'm just waiting for an authentication check from my teacher. I got my first SAC back the other day and got 98%. A bit upset considering it was a one mark difference but other than that it's all good! (I'm gonna try get that 100% for the next SAC 8))
*Stay tuned to see Ashmi cramming her design options*

✰Methods✰
I have a test for you this Thursday....

But seriously, Methods is going SO GOOD! Everything has been great and I've just being doing a lot of practise exam questions here and there. I love the extended response questions and I get so excited when I can use my CAS. (That sounds super weird but yeah I have a CAS obsession if you haven't noticed by the journal name).
There has been something I've been wanting to say about this subject for a long time, but OH MY LORD IT'S SO MUCH EASIER THAN FURTHER.

Further looked so hard compared to this subject and I have absolutely no clue why. I think it's because Methods is much more straightforward? It's a bit weird, but I'm glad it's like this! I have a good feeling this is going to be one of those subjects that does well for once.

✰Chemistry✰
I LOVE ELECTROLYSIS

Ok so Chem has been going alright. It's probably my worst subject alongside Physics but surprisingly not that bad. I did do as well as I wanted in my first Chem sac (93%) but at least there is much better SACs coming up that I can hopefully make up for it!
I found the Fuels part of Chem to be super hard yet I'm finding this redox stuff to be much easier? Redox and Electrolysis has by far been my fav thing to learn and it's really satisfying to study. (Hoping the end of year exam is filled with Redox and Electrolysis please~)

✰English✰ 
SAC next week on Argument Analysis and guess who doesn't feel prepared at all? That's right, I've barely done anything except mini-essay pieces here and there. (Excluding class stuff). My whole plan for the rest of the week is to write full on essays and get them marked for feedback. I'm going to aim for 100% (cause why not?) and now I'm going to get started on some lovely essays.

Spoiler
Ok here is the negative bit/weird part cause I don't want to ruin it with the nice positive bit of the journal.
I don't know what's happened to me again, but it sort of feels like I'm taking one step forward and two steps backwards? I do wonder sometimes if this work is going to pay off, but there is always that little bit that says "Yeah, no sweetie that ain't happening". The other Chem teacher literally gave me so much hope yesterday and said that if you keep your average above 90+, you are likely to get a 40+ SS based on his statistics from teaching Chem, so I magically feel a little bit more motivated after that! My new goal for Chem is to challenge myself and to get my average up to 95% (which is going to be super difficult but that's what life is!).

Also, is it super common for people to do tutoring these days? I was having this interesting debate with a friend and it turns out that in my friend group everyone gets tutored for at least one subject except me😅. I find that at different schools, tutoring is either really common or not common at all.
At my school, it's really common to get tutoring for EAL/English, Spesh and Languages so what is it like at your school? (Similar subjects or completely different ones?). Do people tend to get tutoring for subjects they are weak at or some other reason? This whole debate happened yesterday when my friend explained how nearly everyone but one person in her Spesh class gets tutoring for Spesh *insert shocked Ashmi face* (I knew it was common, but I didn't think it was THAT common. Big eye opener).

Oh yes, one more thing before I end this journal entry, there has been this song I've been addicted to recently (especially the lyrics). I feel like this goes well with my current mood and this journal entry so I'll just leave it here:
(『秒針を噛む』 by ずっと真夜中でいいのに。)

Diving into ashes to bite the second hand,
Crushing the gong sound,
Inside my daydream,
But it will not break,
It will not stop,
Proceeding without knowing what's even 'real'

I want to remove it,
To hide it,
And forget it's there,
Even knowing no one would understand anyway,
I don't want your 'apologies' because,
I do not need empty words and lies that cannot be saved.


Well that's a wrap for another journal entry episode! Stay tuned to hear more soon~ ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on April 21, 2020, 11:19:41 am
At my school basically no one got tutoring but for my DECV subject sometimes it seemed like I was the only one who didn't.


The way you talk about talk subjects I find it hard to believe that you won't do well. It seems like with all the stress going on you're catastrophising a little (one of my "favourite" hobbies in year 12) and panicing yourself despite the evidence not supporting that.  Please do what you can to support your wellbeing. Being sleep deprived etc makes it easier to fall into those thinking traps & in my experience these can be a sign of burnout. Are you able to take a break at all?  Structure in some time for yourself?

Best of luck; you've got this
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 21, 2020, 11:52:31 am
Hi Bri and thanks for stopping by ;D

It seems like with all the stress going on you're catastrophising a little (one of my "favourite" hobbies in year 12)

This. This is it. What you said here I think is exactly the problem I've been stuck with.

I really find it hard not stress about things and really have no idea how on earth to control it.
Do you have any techniques or advice on how to stay calm? I've tried taking breaks and getting exercise/spending time with family, but I don't really know how to control the stress. (It could be because of trying to get my sleep schedule back on track or lack of proper food but is there anything you know that could work?). It's sort of like the cloud that just hangs over you and you have no clue how to get rid of it.

(If anyone has really good calming techniques or anything at all, I would love to hear about it so I can try them! :D)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on April 21, 2020, 11:56:45 am
Yay its another update!! I love reading your journal entries ah ha - always makes me motivated and happy!

I totally feel you on the learning from home bit - apart from missing classroom interactions a bit I actually like it!!

Ah Physics - a subject we both love at hate at the same time - congrats on finishing motion though! Def a big relief ah ha. I'm postive that you WILL reach your goals in this subject! You've got this.

Also Congrats on the PDT mark!! So excited to see what this subject brings for you in the future!

ANd good luck with everything else thats happening! I'm positive you WILL do well in Eng and Methods  ;D (I genuinely miss methods lol - enjoy it while it lasts ah ha)

In terms of tutoring, I've never gotten tutored for anything for my entirety of schooling. Not to mention, I'm def not blitizing in my subjects either and some extra help could be beneficial - however, I'm not interested in getting it. I personally find that by learning myself, I'm learning more skills and content thoroughly without slacking off if you know what I mean. It does help that most people around me don't get it either, maybe around 20% of my Spec class does, but that's moreso the people who are genuinely struggle and do need that extra assistance.

Trust me, if you keep on top of everything and stay motivated, you can do whatever you dream. You dont need a tutor to do well, just keep at it, and dont let the others make you feel bad about yourself. You've got this! I believe in you!!

Have an awesome week Ashmi - looking forward to a future update!

PS - not sure if anything I said in this post makes sense ah ha - I've got too many thoughts in my head lol
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 21, 2020, 12:14:00 pm
Heyo Arty!!

I get just as motivated and happy as you do when I see you update your journal!

I totally feel you on the learning from home bit - apart from missing classroom interactions a bit I actually like it!!

Ah Physics - a subject we both love at hate at the same time - congrats on finishing motion though! Def a big relief ah ha. I'm postive that you WILL reach your goals in this subject! You've got this.

Also Congrats on the PDT mark!! So excited to see what this subject brings for you in the future!

ANd good luck with everything else thats happening! I'm positive you WILL do well in Eng and Methods  ;D (I genuinely miss methods lol - enjoy it while it lasts ah ha)

Arty thank you for your support 🥺💕
I feel 100% times better after hearing that from someone as amazing as you! I can literally feel the positivity radiating from you right now.

In terms of tutoring, I've never gotten tutored for anything for my entirety of schooling. Not to mention, I'm def not blitizing in my subjects either and some extra help could be beneficial - however, I'm not interested in getting it. I personally find that by learning myself, I'm learning more skills and content thoroughly without slacking off if you know what I mean. It does help that most people around me don't get it either, maybe around 20% of my Spec class does, but that's moreso the people who are genuinely struggle and do need that extra assistance.

This is really interesting! At my old school, no one got tutored for anything whereas at the school I go to know, it's super common and almost weird to see no one gets tutored. (I literally have enough data from all my friends to make a full practical investigation🤣. As you can see, I really want to do a data analysis task SO BAD like imagine how much depth you can do to for this issue). It's nice to see different opinions and I totally agree with the 'learning more skills' idea! I've just been super curious about this as I do tutor some people for Further in my spare time, and each one has different ideas of why they get tutored (it's quite nice to see their different perspectives).

Thanks, Arty and I hope you have a fabulous week too!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Sine on April 21, 2020, 01:14:39 pm
Spoiler
Ok here is the negative bit/weird part cause I don't want to ruin it with the nice positive bit of the journal.
I don't know what's happened to me again, but it sort of feels like I'm taking one step forward and two steps backwards? I do wonder sometimes if this work is going to pay off, but there is always that little bit that says "Yeah, no sweetie that ain't happening". The other Chem teacher literally gave me so much hope yesterday and said that if you keep your average above 90+, you are likely to get a 40+ SS based on his statistics from teaching Chem, so I magically feel a little bit more motivated after that! My new goal for Chem is to challenge myself and to get my average up to 95% (which is going to be super difficult but that's what life is!).

Also, is it super common for people to do tutoring these days? I was having this interesting debate with a friend and it turns out that in my friend group everyone gets tutored for at least one subject except me😅. I find that at different schools, tutoring is either really common or not common at all.
At my school, it's really common to get tutoring for EAL/English, Spesh and Languages so what is it like at your school? (Similar subjects or completely different ones?). Do people tend to get tutoring for subjects they are weak at or some other reason? This whole debate happened yesterday when my friend explained how nearly everyone but one person in her Spesh class gets tutoring for Spesh *insert shocked Ashmi face* (I knew it was common, but I didn't think it was THAT common. Big eye opener).
In terms of tutoring, I've never gotten tutored for anything for my entirety of schooling. Not to mention, I'm def not blitizing in my subjects either and some extra help could be beneficial - however, I'm not interested in getting it. I personally find that by learning myself, I'm learning more skills and content thoroughly without slacking off if you know what I mean. It does help that most people around me don't get it either, maybe around 20% of my Spec class does, but that's moreso the people who are genuinely struggle and do need that extra assistance.

Trust me, if you keep on top of everything and stay motivated, you can do whatever you dream. You dont need a tutor to do well, just keep at it, and dont let the others make you feel bad about yourself. You've got this! I believe in you!!
Like others have said tutoring is definitely not 100% necessary for someone to do well. There are definitely examples of those who didn't get tutored and still do relatively well and those with tutors not doing so well. However, as a whole on a population level, I would think it does help a student do better. It is definitely one of the contributing factors (amongst many others) on why those who are of a high SES are more likely going to have higher ATARs.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on April 21, 2020, 01:34:39 pm
Hi Bri and thanks for stopping by ;D

This. This is it. What you said here I think is exactly the problem I've been stuck with.

I really find it hard not stress about things and really have no idea how on earth to control it.
Do you have any techniques or advice on how to stay calm? I've tried taking breaks and getting exercise/spending time with family, but I don't really know how to control the stress. (It could be because of trying to get my sleep schedule back on track or lack of proper food but is there anything you know that could work?). It's sort of like the cloud that just hangs over you and you have no clue how to get rid of it.

(If anyone has really good calming techniques or anything at all, I would love to hear about it so I can try them! :D)

You're absolutely welcome :)

Some people find mindfulness/meditation exercises useful, and generally mental and physical wellbeing are closely tied together. It sounds like you've been implementing some good things already with exercise, socialisation etc. so that's good :) What's been most useful for me was seeking counselling which helped me process some of the underlying stuff and break out of some of the patterns driving my stress. Earlier this year I reached out to Monash Online Counselling and they linked me a few resources like moodgym and reachout tools. You could also try things like headspace etc. to talk to a counsellor.

Hope this helps!


Edit: I didn't get any tutoring and achieved my 98+ goal so just adding to the chorus saying it's def possible to do well without it even though tutoring can be really helpful :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on April 21, 2020, 06:55:21 pm
\With the new situation and learning from home, I am so happy with the extra free time! On a school night, I usually get home about 5:30/6ish so it's great to have so much time to do things ;D. Virtual school has been so much fun and I'm finding it easier to get work done on time (and sleep early too). Other than that, I do miss the social interaction of the classroom and being able to walk outside freely for no reason.
I do agree with the free time bit, however, I'm not sure if it is just me but I find it so hard to motivate myself to do homework/study after class! I also do miss the social aspect a ton🥺

✰PDT✰
Hey PDT! I have a SAC for you in less than 3 weeks hahaha.
My folio has been going alright and I'm just waiting for an authentication check from my teacher. I got my first SAC back the other day and got 98%. A bit upset considering it was a one mark difference but other than that it's all good! (I'm gonna try get that 100% for the next SAC 8))
*Stay tuned to see Ashmi cramming her design options*
You can do this!! I've had a look through your folio and it seems incredible! And 98% on a SAC is UNREAL! You go get that 50 girl 💕💕

But seriously, Methods is going SO GOOD! Everything has been great and I've just being doing a lot of practise exam questions here and there. I love the extended response questions and I get so excited when I can use my CAS. (That sounds super weird but yeah I have a CAS obsession if you haven't noticed by the journal name).
There has been something I've been wanting to say about this subject for a long time, but OH MY LORD IT'S SO MUCH EASIER THAN FURTHER.

Further looked so hard compared to this subject and I have absolutely no clue why. I think it's because Methods is much more straightforward? It's a bit weird, but I'm glad it's like this! I have a good feeling this is going to be one of those subjects that does well for once.

I am SO glad that methods is working out well for you! For me, methods feels astronomically harder than further. This could be due to my teachers but idk why I find methods a lot harder and more strenuous this year. Also, any extended response tips would be very useful haha. We had a diagnostic circular functions test (from NEAP so it was v hard) and I feel like I failed the extended response...

Also, is it super common for people to do tutoring these days? I was having this interesting debate with a friend and it turns out that in my friend group everyone gets tutored for at least one subject except me😅. I find that at different schools, tutoring is either really common or not common at all.
At my school, it's really common to get tutoring for EAL/English, Spesh and Languages so what is it like at your school? (Similar subjects or completely different ones?). Do people tend to get tutoring for subjects they are weak at or some other reason? This whole debate happened yesterday when my friend explained how nearly everyone but one person in her Spesh class gets tutoring for Spesh *insert shocked Ashmi face* (I knew it was common, but I didn't think it was THAT common. Big eye opener).
At my school, it is SUPER common for people to have tutoring. In my methods class last year, about 16 out of 22 had tutoring. Most people get tutoring to get ahead. Most of my methods class learnt 1/2 in year 10, 3/4 in year 11 etc. I don't really know why people do this and I think tutors should only really be needed if you are struggling with a subject. But honestly, do NOT worry about other people getting tutoring. At the end of the day, hard work really does pay off. You have been working so SO hard and I KNOW you can reach your goals 🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: J_Rho on April 21, 2020, 09:22:32 pm
With the new situation and learning from home, I am so happy with the extra free time! On a school night, I usually get home about 5:30/6ish so it's great to have so much time to do things ;D. Virtual school has been so much fun and I'm finding it easier to get work done on time (and sleep early too). Other than that, I do miss the social interaction of the classroom and being able to walk outside freely for no reason.
Yes!! I feel this, but there are definitely days where it can be counter-productive (oh I'll do it later cause i have the time), but agree that the extra free time is amazing cause, in reality, teachers seem to not set enough work to last the entire period (to account for mucking around and them talking lots?) so its nice to finish work 'early' and get some revision in or chill before your next class

✰Methods✰
There has been something I've been wanting to say about this subject for a long time, but OH MY LORD IT'S SO MUCH EASIER THAN FURTHER.
What. what are we all missing? are you god? how is this possible?

✰English✰ 
SAC next week on Argument Analysis and guess who doesn't feel prepared at all? That's right, I've barely done anything except mini-essay pieces here and there. (Excluding class stuff). My whole plan for the rest of the week is to write full on essays and get them marked for feedback. I'm going to aim for 100% (cause why not?) and now I'm going to get started on some lovely essays.
You're doing better than me I've only written the 2 essays I had to do in class haha, I love how prepared and dedicated you are like can i have some of your dedication in persistence please thanks haha

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 22, 2020, 03:06:18 pm
Hey Ashmi! I absolutely love your journal!! :))

Re: tutoring - I know people IRL who got tutored in all SIX of their subjects, at really expensive rates too (I'm talking $60-90 an hour) throughout year 11 and 12, and ended up with 60-70 ATARs; I know people who didn't get any tutoring and scored 99+.

I got tutored in 2 of my subjects - chem (because I didn't do 1/2 and having a tutor made it easier to catch up), and methods (because everyone I knew was getting tutored so I got peer pressured lol). I found them helpful, but at the same time, if you have the motivation and self-discipline to set goals for yourself and go out of your way to find extra resources, I wouldn't say it is necessary.

The other benefit of tutoring I can think of is having someone there who has went through it before to answer questions even outside of class and just to provide guidance in revision etc. But I think that's only something you'd get from private tutoring.

Congrats on your sick chem score! All the best for your methods test this Thursday! Can't wait for your future updates! ^-^
Hey colline! ;D
Oh my lord I feel so honoured that you are even reading this journal, let alone enjoying it🥺💕

I really like the idea of how you pointed out how its the concept of having someone there who has been through the same experience! I can totally see how that would help someone, both emotionally and academically in a sense. Thank you so much for saying your idea of the advantages/disadvantages of tutoring and I've never heard of someone getting tutored on all of their subjects and getting 70 ATARs (I don't even know anyone who doesn't get tutored and has gotten above 99+ before either🤣).

Thank you so much colline and there definitely will be more updates soon so stick around! :D

Like others have said tutoring is definitely not 100% necessary for someone to do well. There are definitely examples of those who didn't get tutored and still do relatively well and those with tutors not doing so well. However, as a whole on a population level, I would think it does help a student do better. It is definitely one of the contributing factors (amongst many others) on why those who are of a high SES are more likely going to have higher ATARs.

Hi Sine! ;D
Thank you for taking the time to write this up! Yeah, I can see how being more on the higher end of the SES has its advantages here and there. It was something that I noticed which was a significant difference when I moved schools in Year 11, specifically from the west to eastern suburbs. (Was quite flabbergasted at the differences)

You're absolutely welcome :)

Some people find mindfulness/meditation exercises useful, and generally mental and physical wellbeing are closely tied together. It sounds like you've been implementing some good things already with exercise, socialisation etc. so that's good :) What's been most useful for me was seeking counselling which helped me process some of the underlying stuff and break out of some of the patterns driving my stress. Earlier this year I reached out to Monash Online Counselling and they linked me a few resources like moodgym and reachout tools. You could also try things like headspace etc. to talk to a counsellor.

Hope this helps!


Edit: I didn't get any tutoring and achieved my 98+ goal so just adding to the chorus saying it's def possible to do well without it even though tutoring can be really helpful :)
Hey Bri! :D
Thank you so much for the links! Will definitely give these a shot later to try out. I think something that works out well for me is documenting my problems and I'll give using the links a go too :D

I do agree with the free time bit, however, I'm not sure if it is just me but I find it so hard to motivate myself to do homework/study after class! I also do miss the social aspect a ton🥺
You can do this!! I've had a look through your folio and it seems incredible! And 98% on a SAC is UNREAL! You go get that 50 girl 💕💕

I am SO glad that methods is working out well for you! For me, methods feels astronomically harder than further. This could be due to my teachers but idk why I find methods a lot harder and more strenuous this year. Also, any extended response tips would be very useful haha. We had a diagnostic circular functions test (from NEAP so it was v hard) and I feel like I failed the extended response...
At my school, it is SUPER common for people to have tutoring. In my methods class last year, about 16 out of 22 had tutoring. Most people get tutoring to get ahead. Most of my methods class learnt 1/2 in year 10, 3/4 in year 11 etc. I don't really know why people do this and I think tutors should only really be needed if you are struggling with a subject. But honestly, do NOT worry about other people getting tutoring. At the end of the day, hard work really does pay off. You have been working so SO hard and I KNOW you can reach your goals 🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕
Hi eloisegrace!
*sending motivational vibes* you can do it!!! Handy tip, make sure you reward yourself when you stick on schedule with food obviously

It's super weird because I found Further to be easier last year, however, this year I can 100% confirm that Methods is much easier for me to understand. I think absolutely amazingly on the extended response! (Don't worry ;)). Awww thank you for your kind words and the same goes to you too! (I'm 1000000% positive you are doing to do so well!)

Yes!! I feel this, but there are definitely days where it can be counter-productive (oh I'll do it later cause i have the time), but agree that the extra free time is amazing cause, in reality, teachers seem to not set enough work to last the entire period (to account for mucking around and them talking lots?) so its nice to finish work 'early' and get some revision in or chill before your next class
What. what are we all missing? are you god? how is this possible?
You're doing better than me I've only written the 2 essays I had to do in class haha, I love how prepared and dedicated you are like can i have some of your dedication in persistence please thanks haha
Hi J_Rho :)
It can be a little bit counter-productive here and there I do agree ;D. I literally have no clue why Methods is easier but I would be very happy if it would stay this way 8). Please take some of my persistence because I have way too much of it🤣
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: TigerMum on April 22, 2020, 05:25:29 pm
Hey ashmi,

Always great to see a journal update from you, nice to see you are going well in all your subjects!  :)
I just thought I would comment on the thing about tutoring (heads up, I have never received any tutoring). I certainly think there are benefits to tutoring, (as many people have already explained better than I ever could), but I would like to make sure of a couple of things.
a) Tutoring is not a prerequisite for success in VCE; I know several people who had zero tutoring throughout their entire schooling life who received high 99s. Success ultimately lies on the individual and their work ethic, and purely based on the way you speak about school and your subjects on this journal, you clearly have a very high work ethic and pride yourself on your school work.
and
b) At the end of the day, it should be your choice as to whether having a private tutor would be beneficial to you in VCE. If you decide that it would be, I would hope that that decision is yours, and not influenced by other people. Please don't feel like you have to do something just because other people are doing it!  :)

Anyway, hope you enjoy the rest of your week, and best of luck for your upcoming SACs!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 26, 2020, 08:35:28 pm
Hi TigerMum!

(I'm so sorry I've just seen your reply :'( )

Hey ashmi,

Always great to see a journal update from you, nice to see you are going well in all your subjects!  :)
I just thought I would comment on the thing about tutoring (heads up, I have never received any tutoring). I certainly think there are benefits to tutoring, (as many people have already explained better than I ever could), but I would like to make sure of a couple of things.
a) Tutoring is not a prerequisite for success in VCE; I know several people who had zero tutoring throughout their entire schooling life who received high 99s. Success ultimately lies on the individual and their work ethic, and purely based on the way you speak about school and your subjects on this journal, you clearly have a very high work ethic and pride yourself on your school work.
and
b) At the end of the day, it should be your choice as to whether having a private tutor would be beneficial to you in VCE. If you decide that it would be, I would hope that that decision is yours, and not influenced by other people. Please don't feel like you have to do something just because other people are doing it!  :)

Anyway, hope you enjoy the rest of your week, and best of luck for your upcoming SACs!
Thank you so much for your input!
I don't know if what I'm about to say makes sense, but at my school, there is a weird sense of "tutoring peer pressure"? This is really obvious in the language and spesh classes (probably could include EAL/English and Physics into this too), especially where this weird culture exists? Apparently it's really common at my school and me being totally naive just noticed it🤣. (Even if I wanted to do tutoring I'm definitely not in the position to afford one). It's very weird going from a school where barely anyone gets tutored to a school where left, right and centre the conversations are like "I have tutoring on the weekend with my (subject) tutor". I probably just haven't adapted to the cultural norm of my school :-\, eitherway everything should be all good :D.

Good luck for any assessments you may having coming up TigerMum and I hope you have an amazing week! (Also I would love to see you update your journal sometime)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 26, 2020, 10:44:16 pm
✰Update: 26/04✰

We are back baby with another journal update! Welcome to the land of "I don't know what's going on but that's fine cause I have a sewing needle and that's more powerful than the pen vs the sword🤣"*
*Disclaimer, do NOT threaten people with your sewing needles and store away correctly please. (Unless they think the laws of Physics is not true than I give you every permission to poke this person)

So what have I been doing recently? Binge eating and cramming for SACs. Yep, it's SAC season at my school and within the next 3 weeks I have about 5 SACs... Hahahahaha.
Anyway, let's move onto the juicy subject specific stuff!

✰Physics✰
Hi. It's you again.
I treasure you so much yet hate you with a burning passion.

Ok all that aside, let's get onto some stuff that's been going on with this subject. So I got my Special Rel + Circular Motion SAC back and here is a quick roll call of how it went:

Drawing a space/time diagram? Here! Invariant of Special Relativity? Here~ Very complicated synchrotron with multiple vectors to solve the minimum speed so someone wouldn't go flying? Here! Speed of light?... Speed of light are you here?...

Yep, Ashmi over here in her SAC forgot to say the speed of light was . The most obvious thing I didn't say in one of my worded answers (will never say 'c' again).

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/ntOyDtd.jpg)
*The weirdest rant you will ever here coming through*
So my teacher has the audacity to chuck in stuff not in the study design in the SAC (and this is a bold statement but the Spesh Physics questions are easier than my teacher's SACs). He makes the SACs so challenging so no one can get 100%, and to be honest, I really like his approach because I know that every time I walk into his assessments, I'm going to get wrecked, and when I mean get wrecked, I mean PULVERISED. I like it though, because I'm always on edge, and no matter how much work you do beforehand, you literally stand no chance. (Well if you did checkpoints, past study design exams and read conceptual Physics I could probably guarantee you will get at least 55%).
I think my Physics teacher has found my journal on here too, and if you really have, it's GAME ON. I'm am absolutely determined to get one SAC that is 100% and I know you are going to do everything in your power to prevent that from happening, but YOLO I'm going to play your game and WIN.
Other than that, I survived (at last) and have someone managed to get an average high enough to be able to lock in 29/30 for outcome 3. Thank the lord of Physics looking after me and please bless me with more luck so I don't get slaughtered on the Physics battlefield for the upcoming Fields SAC.

✰PDT✰
Yo Yo Yo it's PDT!
So I'm studying right now for an upcoming SAC and other than that, I have a massive art block which is preventing me from starting any design options. Hoping it goes way soon though because I can see exactly what the future holds if I don't do something soon.

✰Methods✰
Cram time let's go!! Got a Methods SAC in two weeks and I'm going to be flat out working. I got a range of my score from a test I did the other day and somehow got between 90 - 100%. Considering how terrible at basic arithmetic I am and doing things without a CAS, this was a mini surprise!
Just going to hope that my actual SAC is also in that range too...

✰English✰
I have a SAC this Thursday and I am NOT prepared. I am going to continue to write essays like wildfire, get feedback, repeat and pray for the best. Wish me luck.

✰Chemistry✰
This is the weird subject. We have a SAC next week, but its going to be a bit weird. They plan to make the whole SAC MCQ, however, one you pick an answer and move on you CANNOT change it again. This scares me, a lot. The idea of not being able to change your answer or see the other questions when you want to skip a question and come back later terrifies me.

Spoiler
Mood song extract of today's journal update goes to:
再会 by  はるまきごはん

So this is how we live a life, right?
Living is not just breathing, right?

They two don't know common things
nor regret solitarily
They are indescribably beautiful
Together they can keep
the loneliness of the setting sun in mind
on their long trip to the blue planet

The final bell rings
They two will be left behind
The adults are sure they are insane
They two are surely alive
Like the scattered petals,
the dancers in the sweet wind in spring,
such ending suits them both
Farewell to this boisterous world
They keep holding hands for
the reunion which never comes again

That's it for today's episode! Stick around for more in the future! 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on April 26, 2020, 11:04:28 pm
Heyyy ashmi! Go to sleep!

You with physics sounds exactly like me with English - I have such a love-hate relationship with it :(. But, we shall persevere and beat our teachers/VCAA/whoever! (And can I just say, that Pingu reference was great). Also, I did something similar in my bio SAC. I can do the hard stuff but I always forget the easy stuff... which sucks. We can share our pain!

Art block sucks, but I'm sure you'll get out of it soon! Good luck with your PDT SAC - I'm sure you'll ace it! Congrats on methods btw - you should be super proud! Good luck with your English SAC - boy do you have a whole lot of SACs coming up!

That chem thing scares me too - not being able to go back???!!!! :0 But I'm sure you'll do well. Everyone's in the same boat, so give it your best shot and good results will find its way to you!

Have a great week, and good luck with everything :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on April 27, 2020, 06:47:17 am
Hey Ash,

Thanks for the update :) Congrats with the physics and YES, go for that 100%, we believe in you!  Art block would suck but I know you'll get there soon and it will be aMaZInG, can't wait to see more of the folio.
Good luck with your many sacs. Sounds like a busy week but I know you'll ace it  8)


Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Evolio on April 27, 2020, 08:46:13 am
Hello Ashmi! Yay, another update!  ;D

CONGRATULATIONS on that Physics SAC Mark! That's a fantastic score!

Looks like you have a lot of SACs but I know you're going to do amazing on them!

Have a nice day and looking forward to the next update! 😊
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 27, 2020, 10:21:27 pm
Heyyy ashmi! Go to sleep!

You with physics sounds exactly like me with English - I have such a love-hate relationship with it :(. But, we shall persevere and beat our teachers/VCAA/whoever! (And can I just say, that Pingu reference was great). Also, I did something similar in my bio SAC. I can do the hard stuff but I always forget the easy stuff... which sucks. We can share our pain!

Art block sucks, but I'm sure you'll get out of it soon! Good luck with your PDT SAC - I'm sure you'll ace it! Congrats on methods btw - you should be super proud! Good luck with your English SAC - boy do you have a whole lot of SACs coming up!

That chem thing scares me too - not being able to go back???!!!! :0 But I'm sure you'll do well. Everyone's in the same boat, so give it your best shot and good results will find its way to you!

Have a great week, and good luck with everything :)
Hey whys! ;D OMG It's a reply from whys
Why were you up so late hmmmm?? :P

I think we are living parallel lives or something 🤣. Pingu is officially going to be my new mascot for this journal so you are going to see a lot more of the small guy to express my emotions (meme style of course 8)).
Silly little mistakes are the biggest PAIN to any study. Thank you so much for blessing me with your good luck and hopefully, everything turns out alright :). Have a fabulous week!

Hey Ash,

Thanks for the update :) Congrats with the physics and YES, go for that 100%, we believe in you!  Art block would suck but I know you'll get there soon and it will be aMaZInG, can't wait to see more of the folio.
Good luck with your many sacs. Sounds like a busy week but I know you'll ace it  8)
Hey Choco! ;D Thanks for stopping by to read this mess journal ;D

Physics is making my inner competitive side boil so badly and right now, my motor is just ready to pulverise anything😂. Thank you so much for your kind words and I hope you have an amazing week yourself too!

Hello Ashmi! Yay, another update! 😁

CONGRATULATIONS on that Physics SAC Mark! That's a fantastic score!

Looks like you have a lot of SACs but I know you're going to do amazing on them!

Have a nice day and looking forward to the next update! 😊
Hey Evolio!😄
YES EVOLIO REPLIED

Thank you so much and good luck to any assessments you have coming up too! You have got this 8)
Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy the rest of your week~
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on April 30, 2020, 06:14:03 pm
✰Mini-Update: 30/04✰

Quick Mini Update!

✰English✰
Spoiler
I can kiss that 40 study score good bye now. It's official.

I did so badly in that Argument Analysis SAC. Poor expression, terrible analysis and much worse than any of the practise essays I wrote in the past. I'm definitely not get 90%, let alone 80%.
How I feel right now? Absolutely terrible and it puts much more pressure on my other subjects. It really does feel a little bit like the end of the world considering its worth 40 marks of the study design and that just makes me feel even worse. I don't know what to do now so I guess I'll let this subject slide for now. It's even worse that is literally just sitting on my desk and already on the first page I can point out so many errors with it.
What does this mean? Well now two very specific subjects (*cough PDT and Physics*) are currently my lifeline 'be all or end all' subjects. It's just putting into perspective that I'm going to have to do insanely well in my other subjects in hope to compensate for poor English. (But as you guys all know Ashmi has terrible luck so no matter how much I do it's going to turn out bad anyway). I really hope my English end of year exam can make up for that SAC...

(https://i.imgur.com/lD50nAA.png)
This is literally me trying to do PDT and Physics but thinking about English.

✰Methods✰
Because we can't have all negative thoughts in one journal update Methods is coming back to save my butt. So recently I did a diagnostic test for Methods the other day and in a previous update I said it was between 90 - 100% and expecting low 90s. Well, I got my official corrected paper back today and my lord, I really didn't expect that score that was staring back at me. It was a LOT higher than expected (lost only a mark) but I don't feel like celebrating due to English... T-T

That's it for now! I'm going to finish doing some good old Physics problems ^-^.

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/jwnnPQz.jpg)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on April 30, 2020, 06:27:08 pm
I can kiss that 40 study score good bye now. It's official.
No, you will NOT kiss that 40 ss a goodbye. You will persevere, you CAN do this. It's never too late to improve. The people who truly fail are the ones who give up after their failures, not realising how close they were to success. Please, don't give up! I'm rooting for you :D

I did so badly in that Argument Analysis SAC. Poor expression, terrible analysis and much worse than any of the practise essays I wrote in the past. I'm definitely not get 90%, let alone 80%.
As long as you learn from your SAC and don't do it again, you will be fine on the exam. I know exactly how you feel - you KNOW you could have done better because you have done better, but you just can't reproduce it in the actual thing. But, do not lose hope! Do well on your other SACs and you most definitely can mitigate a 'bludge' SAC score. Also, I'm sure you didn't do as bad as you think, and even if you did, it's all a learning experience. Don't think too much of it. Everything I said was very hypocritical, but saying it made me realise how much time I wasted mourning a very poor English SAC score. Don't do the same! Find your mistakes, fix them, and move on. If it's not doing well on a SAC - why is this? Why could I not write an essay of the same quality as before - stress, mind blanks...? If you can identify it, you're halfway through fixing it. I believe in you ashmi, and I believe we can both do well in English if we put our mind to it. We CAN, so we WILL. I'll hold you up to that 40+ ;)

This is literally me trying to do PDT and Physics but thinking about English.
Love the Pingu reference, once again. I think I tangentially recall the specific episode when Pingu was angrily making that card...

Also, congratulations on that envious methods mark! It is definitely something you should celebrate at one point or another :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on April 30, 2020, 06:42:43 pm
That was the exact feeling I felt when I did my argument analysis. I ended up with a 28/40, which brought me to tears after all the effort I put into the practice SACs I did. Like me, you'll have other opportunities to shine in English, and an exam. You will get there, it may take some hard work and some extra pressure, but you can get there!

Plus it is just one SAC, so hopefully if we both don't screw up the others too much we will be okay :)

Don't let your english score bring down that awesome methods achievement (Can i please borrow your skills?). That's a fantastic mark, and you should 100% be proud of it.
Enjoy the upcoming weekend, and try not to be so hard on yourself.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on April 30, 2020, 06:43:32 pm
No. English will not bring you down. You CAN DO IT!!
In all seriousness, pleaseeeeeee dont let one score get you down - its so normal to have an 'off' day, and I think we all that with English! You will persevere and I'm totally sure you will achieve your goals in this subject - keep at it!!

And super congrats on that Methods score!! Yay!!
Gotta love physics and creative subjects after english ha ha - also that pingu reference is everything lol.

 :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: brothanathan on April 30, 2020, 07:22:16 pm
As the saying goes: If you don't fail, you don't learn. I know it's easier said than done, but we can't dwell on some indefinite 2020 English SAC. How's the Chem going?
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on April 30, 2020, 07:44:08 pm
As already said ^^ you've got this Ash! I totally understand how it feels right now, always sitting in the back of your mind, but it will get easier after a couple of days! As whys said, I'm sure you did better than you think (it's so easy to be super critical of your work) and getting a "bad" mark on one sac DOES NOT mean your english study score is doomed, plus remember this
Got my creative SAC mark the other day and it looks like 100%!
You're dedicated, a hard worker and I know it'll pay off in the end. Persistence is key and we believe in you!

Besides that, congrats on the methods result  8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 02, 2020, 08:24:12 am
(I'm so sorry guys I literally forgot this journal existed)

No, you will NOT kiss that 40 ss a goodbye. You will persevere, you CAN do this. It's never too late to improve. The people who truly fail are the ones who give up after their failures, not realising how close they were to success. Please, don't give up! I'm rooting for you :D
As long as you learn from your SAC and don't do it again, you will be fine on the exam. I know exactly how you feel - you KNOW you could have done better because you have done better, but you just can't reproduce it in the actual thing. But, do not lose hope! Do well on your other SACs and you most definitely can mitigate a 'bludge' SAC score. Also, I'm sure you didn't do as bad as you think, and even if you did, it's all a learning experience. Don't think too much of it. Everything I said was very hypocritical, but saying it made me realise how much time I wasted mourning a very poor English SAC score. Don't do the same! Find your mistakes, fix them, and move on. If it's not doing well on a SAC - why is this? Why could I not write an essay of the same quality as before - stress, mind blanks...? If you can identify it, you're halfway through fixing it. I believe in you ashmi, and I believe we can both do well in English if we put our mind to it. We CAN, so we WILL. I'll hold you up to that 40+ ;)
Love the Pingu reference, once again. I think I tangentially recall the specific episode when Pingu was angrily making that card...

Also, congratulations on that envious methods mark! It is definitely something you should celebrate at one point or another :)
Hey whys! (I'm coming to join your English boat too for the rest of the year. Please let me come on board)
First of all, thank you for liking the Pingu reference 🤣👌. Right now, I feel like I'm on Titanic and forced to kiss it goodbye but your wise words are giving me a sense of hope now. I think it was just a very bad day for me to do the SAC which makes me feel 100% worse cause it's something that would have been better on any other ordinary day. To top it all off, with the new study design changes, it's not looking too good but I will attempt to persevere!
Thank you for taking the time to right this up whys!

Plus it is just one SAC, so hopefully if we both don't screw up the others too much we will be okay :)

Don't let your english score bring down that awesome methods achievement (Can i please borrow your skills?). That's a fantastic mark, and you should 100% be proud of it.
Enjoy the upcoming weekend, and try not to be so hard on yourself.
Thank you geoo! ;D
I really hope I don't screw the others up too... (Yes you can take my methods skills any day🤣).

No. English will not bring you down. You CAN DO IT!!
In all seriousness, pleaseeeeeee dont let one score get you down - its so normal to have an 'off' day, and I think we all that with English! You will persevere and I'm totally sure you will achieve your goals in this subject - keep at it!!

And super congrats on that Methods score!! Yay!!
Gotta love physics and creative subjects after english ha ha - also that pingu reference is everything lol.

 :D
Pingu is officially my life now and no one can tell me otherwise😂.
I think all my kinetic energy has transferred into gravitational potential energy right now and I'm hoping it all converts to KE so I can get that max velocity for English🤣. (As you can see Physics is taking over my life). I feel a lot better after hearing this so thank you very much Arty!

As already said ^^ you've got this Ash! I totally understand how it feels right now, always sitting in the back of your mind, but it will get easier after a couple of days! As whys said, I'm sure you did better than you think (it's so easy to be super critical of your work) and getting a "bad" mark on one sac DOES NOT mean your english study score is doomed, plus remember this You're dedicated, a hard worker and I know it'll pay off in the end. Persistence is key and we believe in you!

Besides that, congrats on the methods result  8)
Oh my lord Choco, I completely forgot that SAC score from the other term actually exists😂. (Thank the lords of creative writing)
I really want to think that I'm being super critical on my work, but after the first SAC I remember walking out feeling good while this SAC I've walked out feeling horrible
I really do hope one bad score doesn't mean I'm doomed, but with the idea of the new study design and how Unit 3 is worth so much more I'm having a few doubts now... :-\ :'(
Thank you Choco for taking the time to reply cause I feel a bit better now after the doom and gloom ;D.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 08, 2020, 02:05:18 pm
✰Mini-Update: 8/05✰

If the world is made up of secrets... What does it mean to be truly right?

(https://i.imgur.com/YYl5nY9.png)

We are back with another update! How have we all been so far with nearly a month back into the remote schooling term?
Time to get onto the subject specific stuff!

✰Physics✰
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/w28E7x1.png)
Me enjoying Physics???? What miracle is this? :o
Oh boi it's you again! MY SAVIOUR! MUHAHAHAHAHA

So we are just finishing off fields right now and our SAC is quite soon so that means I'll be spamming practise questions like there is no tomorrow. I really like Physics and this is really one of the only subjects that I want to study no matter what the scenario is. I can't seem to get bored and there is so many things to learn about (like my lord Gauss and Biot-Savart laws are so cool yet they are not in the study design).

✰Chemistry✰
This subject has caused havoc in our cohort. On Monday, we had our Chem SAC and by the sounds of it, it was responded too 'weirdly' and maybe a little poorly. The teachers are not giving out the averages for once (which makes sense cause it can't be authenticated/moderated) so no one knows if things went good or bad. Either way, this electrolysis/redox sac went well and I'm sort of happy with the results. Could have been better but it's an improvement from the Fuels sac so I'll take it!

✰Methods✰
Methods. Hey bro. Thank you for not slaughtering me yet. Let's keep it this way for a little longer please?

I have another diagnostic test two weeks from now, and your girl here is terrified, but I know it should be alright! I'm really hoping for some challenging questions that make me want to rip my hair out and since it's going to be CAS active, I think my prayers might be answered.

I want to be pulverised in this subject just like Physics does to me because it's becoming quite problematic as I feel like I'm not being challenged enough? Like I'm never on edge and it's hard to make extended response questions for Methods in comparison to Physics?

On a plus side, I started making my final bound reference! My goal for this BR (as the same with Further) is to give me some company during the exam just in case I start panicking so I think the appropriate thing to do is drumroll please:

*drumroll*
Spoiler
ADD MEMES!

That's right, this bound reference is going to be MEMES WONDERLAND!
✰PDT✰
SAC soon. Theory galore. That's it. No sewing just yet!

✰English✰
I don't want my Argument Analysis sac to come. Stay away from me English, please let me enjoy text response in peace.

Spoiler
Personal Update:
Oh my lord where do I start here?

Oki doki let's start with my sewing/cosplay cause my lord, so much has happened. So I did a bit of reflecting on 2019, and I've just realised how far my sewing/crafting skills have really come. A lot of sewing happened last year and somehow someone from literally across the world saw my costumes and made an article so Ummm that's a first? Here!

So what does this mean? Well since I've been neglecting my cosplay train quite a bit during Year 12, it's time to get back onto it! Not too sure what I want to sew for myself yet but we have a few ideas below.
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/25mrWmi.jpg)
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/pSo86q4.png)
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/Vk9wfEH.jpg)
My goal before the end of this month, is to start on ONE of these costumes! (Please keep me accountable for this guys). I really want to get one done from start to finish this time as I always seem to give up halfway.
 
Also to add onto this personal update, I've started to look a bit more into future courses to study and with the BSci + Masters engineering combo at MelbUni, I'm also somewhat interested in their BSci + Masters Teaching combo? I don't really know why, but there is like a weird aura drawing me towards it. I've also started looking at different pathways and readjusting goals (cause I might be a tad bit unrealistic with my ATAR goal and my own abilities). That doesn't mean I'll stop aiming for that 96 (which would take a miracle). We are still roaring over here and I love a good challenge! ;D

I'm also pretty positive right now I definitely want to do something maths/science-related which makes things a bit easier.
So yep that's today's update! Thanks for reading if you got this far ;D
Also, I've attached my Methods Bound Ref for your amusement.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Coolgalbornin03Lo on May 08, 2020, 03:08:17 pm
I love your bound reference!!!! I wish I could use it for my methods sac in two weeks :( is yours coming up soon? Glad to hear the Chem sac went great! My teachers are also reluctant to release averages for some reason......I wonder what will happen with validation tasks.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on May 08, 2020, 03:35:40 pm
So we are just finishing off fields right now and our SAC is quite soon so that means I'll be spamming practise questions like there is no tomorrow. I really like Physics and this is really one of the only subjects that I want to study no matter what the scenario is. I can't seem to get bored and there is so many things to learn about (like my lord Gauss and Biot-Savart laws are so cool yet they are not in the study design).
Hey ashmi! It's great you're liking physics a lot :D. Physics to you is like bio to me right now haha. There's just so much interesting stuff to learn and it's impossible to be bored!

Either way, this electrolysis/redox sac went well and I'm sort of happy with the results. Could have been better but it's an improvement from the Fuels sac so I'll take it!
Congratulations! It's always a good feeling to know you've done well on a SAC.

Methods. Hey bro. Thank you for not slaughtering me yet. Let's keep it this way for a little longer please?
Haha. It's great you're enjoying methods! It is a pretty chill subject. 8) Also, memes in your bound reference? YES! Thanks for giving me that great idea - now my bound reference is going to become a meme fest.

I don't want my Argument Analysis sac to come. Stay away from me English, please let me enjoy text response in peace.
I'm the exact opposite! :D I hate text response and would take AA any day. But I mean I really don't like English in general anyway... so I'm one to talk...

Also to add onto this personal update, I've started to look a bit more into future courses to study and with the BSci + Masters engineering combo at MelbUni, I'm also somewhat interested in their BSci + Masters Teaching combo? I don't really know why, but there is like a weird aura drawing me towards it. I've also started looking at different pathways and readjusting goals (cause I might be a tad bit unrealistic with my ATAR goal and my own abilities). That doesn't mean I'll stop aiming for that 96 (which would take a miracle).
I love those costume ideas - can't wait to see what you end up making! And it's great you're becoming clearer regarding what you want to do in uni. I wholeheartedly believe in you! You can definitely achieve your ATAR goal if you put your mind to it.

Thanks for the awesome update, and have a great weekend!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 08, 2020, 03:55:09 pm
I love your bound reference!!!! I wish I could use it for my methods sac in two weeks :( is yours coming up soon? Glad to hear the Chem sac went great! My teachers are also reluctant to release averages for some reason......I wonder what will happen with validation tasks.

Hey Coolgalbornin03Lo! ;D

Yeah I've got a few Methods tests coming soon, but the official SAC has been pushed back because of authentication reasons. I probably should say that my bound reference I attached is literally my WHOLE bound reference right now....😅(If you find that file useful by all means use it!). I might add more but I think that should be enough with the formula sheet! It's a bit hard to release scores out when they can't authenticate it so it's understandable.

Hey ashmi! It's great you're liking physics a lot :D. Physics to you is like bio to me right now haha. There's just so much interesting stuff to learn and it's impossible to be bored!
Congratulations! It's always a good feeling to know you've done well on a SAC.
Haha. It's great you're enjoying methods! It is a pretty chill subject. 8) Also, memes in your bound reference? YES! Thanks for giving me that great idea - now my bound reference is going to become a meme fest.
I'm the exact opposite! :D I hate text response and would take AA any day. But I mean I really don't like English in general anyway... so I'm one to talk...
I love those costume ideas - can't wait to see what you end up making! And it's great you're becoming clearer regarding what you want to do in uni. I wholeheartedly believe in you! You can definitely achieve your ATAR goal if you put your mind to it.

Thanks for the awesome update, and have a great weekend!
Hey hey whys!! ;D (OMG whys has replied again)

I'm so glad to hear that you are enjoying Bio!! Literally the best feeling when you like a subject and just cannot stop learning about it :D. Please come join the meme BR train! I would love to see some creative Bound References if you do make one (The memes are going to be the best bit). If there is one thing I can 100% agree with you on, it's that English is a big = NO.
I'm going to actually wash some spare fabric I have lying in the house tonight and hopefully get started on making some cool stuff soon! It's been a while since I've made something which isn't for school work so this will be a nice break.
🥺🥺🥺Thank you whys for your kind words and as you say, I will persevere!🤣👌
Have a nice weekend whys!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: TigerMum on May 08, 2020, 04:24:43 pm
omg it's an ashmi update!
✰Physics✰
Oh boi it's you again! MY SAVIOUR! MUHAHAHAHAHA

So we are just finishing off fields right now and our SAC is quite soon so that means I'll be spamming practise questions like there is no tomorrow. I really like Physics and this is really one of the only subjects that I want to study no matter what the scenario is. I can't seem to get bored and there is so many things to learn about (like my lord Gauss and Biot-Savart laws are so cool yet they are not in the study design).
Awesome to see that you are destroying Fizix, you are going to do absolutely amazing in this subject! incoming 50 I reckon  ;D ;D
✰Methods✰
I want to be pulverised in this subject just like Physics does to me because it's becoming quite problematic as I feel like I'm not being challenged enough? Like I'm never on edge and it's hard to make extended response questions for Methods in comparison to Physics?

On a plus side, I started making my final bound reference! My goal for this BR (as the same with Further) is to give me some company during the exam just in case I start panicking so I think the appropriate thing to do is drumroll please:

*drumroll*
Spoiler
ADD MEMES!

That's right, this bound reference is going to be MEMES WONDERLAND!
I know what you mean about methods, I just want some stupidly hard questions to get me working because I worry that I may become complacent. And memes in your bound reference is quite interesting! over here having not even started my bound reference oops :o
Also I can agree that English is just a no, I'm so happy that I'm doing English Language, I find it sooo much more interesting.
Spoiler
Holy cow, your cosplay is ridiculously good! That's so awesome that you got onto a website, you really deserve it!  :)

Also, it's good you're continuing to explore your career options. Best of luck with whatever you choose to do, I believe in you!  :)

Thanks for the update and good luck for your upcoming SACs!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on May 08, 2020, 04:47:58 pm
Incredible ash! Wow wow wow, your cosplay ideas look amazing can't wait for them to come to life! I'm actually in love with your style. As a person who has been oblivious to cosplay pretty much my entire life, I love looking at your unique ideas and photos! So talented  ;D

Congrats on your chemistry sac!!!!  ;D Very well deserved as I know you have been putting a lot of work in (Is it combined with the fuels sac or separate ones for Unit 3)? 8)

Also, super cool that you know where you want to head with uni and have been doing some more research into courses. I look forward to seeing where you end up after high school, wherever it is I know it will be amazing!

incoming 50 I reckon  ;D ;D
YES YES! Couldn't agree more
Have an awesome weekend ashmi
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 08, 2020, 08:02:11 pm
Awesome to see that you are destroying Fizix, you are going to do absolutely amazing in this subject! incoming 50 I reckon  ;D ;D
YES YES! Couldn't agree more
I don't know what planet or frame of reference you guys are looking from🤣
It would take a miracle to even get a 44 in FiZiXs, let along a 50 would be out of this world. You guys are the ones that will be getting 50s!

omg it's an ashmi update!
I know what you mean about methods, I just want some stupidly hard questions to get me working because I worry that I may become complacent. And memes in your bound reference is quite interesting! over here having not even started my bound reference oops :o
Spoiler
Holy cow, your cosplay is ridiculously good! That's so awesome that you got onto a website, you really deserve it!  :)

Also, it's good you're continuing to explore your career options. Best of luck with whatever you choose to do, I believe in you!  :)

Thanks for the update and good luck for your upcoming SACs!
You know things are good when TigerMum decides to reply
If there is one thing we share in common, it's that Methods needs to get some more hard questions! I am 100% devoted to having a bound reference full of memes this year. (Bruh I feel like you are the type of person to go into the Methods exam without a BR and still smash it. 1000% wiser than me lol).
Thank you for the kind words TigerMum🥺and I hope you have a great weekend!
Incredible ash! Wow wow wow, your cosplay ideas look amazing can't wait for them to come to life! I'm actually in love with your style. As a person who has been oblivious to cosplay pretty much my entire life, I love looking at your unique ideas and photos! So talented  ;D

Congrats on your chemistry sac!!!!  ;D Very well deserved as I know you have been putting a lot of work in (Is it combined with the fuels sac or separate ones for Unit 3)? 8)

Also, super cool that you know where you want to head with uni and have been doing some more research into courses. I look forward to seeing where you end up after high school, wherever it is I know it will be amazing!

Have an awesome weekend ashmi
UwU Choco has replied!🍫

I'm so glad to see you have learnt something new about the hidden cosplay culture! It's not something you see every day and thank you for the nice comments🥺🥺🥺. (Stay tuned to see some sewing action soon~)

For the Chem Redox/Electrolysis SAC, it's separate from the Fuels SAC (so think 2 different SACs ). I think this might have been one of the very first assessments where effort actually paid off?
I'm going to continue to look at more options for uni courses in the days to come and I'm quite intrigued to see where things go.
Thank you Choco for taking the time to reply and have a beautiful weekend!! ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 24, 2020, 10:51:30 pm
✰Update: 24/05✰

Hey everyone! I'm back again for another update. (After quite a lengthy period of time).
I've sort of neglected this journal in the past few weeks due to a lot of stuff but YOLO here is the juicy subject specific stuff for you guys sitting around at home!

The song I've been addicted to this week Part 1

✰My sweetheart Physics✰
Hey beautiful. You are drop dead sexy you know that? No seriously quarantine must have done something to my head because no matter what we study for Physics, everything seems so appealing? I CANNOT get enough of this subject and I find myself subconsciously wanting to study this subject 24/7. It has gotten to the point where sometimes I will stay up late reading "Conceptual Physics" for no reason at all. I don't know what has happened to me in this year and if you have been reading my journal you would know I had a burning hatred to this subject last year...

Ok that aside, I had my Fields SAC 2 days ago. Did it go well? Hell yeah. Did I get full marks? Hell no. Am I going to try and get full marks in the next SAC on Induction? You betcha. *Stay tuned to see me fail at that goal miserably*. Ya girl here plans to run straight into the Physics room when school starts on Tuesday and experiment with EVERYTHING.

I don't know what is up with this subject, but oh lord I LOVE IT AND LET'S KEEP THIS TRAIN ROLLING!

✰Chemy boi✰
Yo it's Chem. Equilibrium, SAC, two weeks, hahaha this is going to be funny.
Even better, the Chem teachers want to put Redox into the Equilibrium SAC so that means more to study! (Oh someone please save me).
So yeah, the plan is to finish the short answer Qs from Checkpoints and get cracking on some other past exams.

✰CASY + Methods✰
So ummm I had a test for this on Thursday and it went well! Bless my CAS for looking after me as always and bless whoever made the extended response cause I could do a pack of questions off the bat with matrices. I would have loved to seen some harder extended response questions but I guess that will be waiting on me for the upcoming SAC soon.

✰Draw till you drop PDT✰
Literally as the name says. I've been drawing and trying to fight art block. My folio is due in less than 2 weeks to add onto the many problems, but everything should turn out well in the end!

I probably should also say, I had a SAC on Tuesday and my lord, I was super prepared and all, but one thing I was not prepared for was the fact is was out of 70 MARKS?!
Like yo 70 marks for ONE SAC. BOI I HAD A MINI HEART ATTACK. Other than that, it went really well and I'm quite keen to see where I can improve.

✰Eww English✰
Did badly on my A.A SAC and there is absolutely no recovering from that, especially with the new study design updates. Bye bye having a comeback in English and hello misery. Other than that, I'm still going to try my best for my other sacs and pray I don't ever get another off day again... I think everything is going to be ok in the end.

Spoiler
Here comes the raw stuff because I don't like to have a rose-coloured journal. You might get put off reading this so I urge you to turn back. This has been eating me up for a very long time and I think it might do me some good to write about it.

So for the past few weeks, I've been thinking, well maybe reflecting a tad bit and it's been really getting at me. I don't really know where to start so I'll probably start at last year. Further Maths.

To start us off on this story, I did Further 3/4 in Year 11. Lets just say I worked my butt off where I was having mental breakdowns left, right and centre. This was probably the only subject I've done in my life to date that I've truly understood inside and out, nothing like any of the other subjects I do now. So yeah, the teachers had high hopes and let's just say I became an absolute failure when the scores came out.

What has this resulted in? Nearly every Further teacher in the school ignoring my existence to the point where I would say 'good morning' they would just glare at me and continue walking off. Even better on Year 12 camp when they would downright refuse to talk to me. Like I get it. I understand that I'm a failure for not getting a 50 and that all my work means nothing. I understand that the 80 prac exams you gave me did nothing. I understand that the extra help you would give me during your lunch breaks and afterschool didn't pay off. I know I'm nothing more than a speck of dust. The only teacher that actually believed in me every step of the journey was my own Further teacher and without her, I would have broken down a long time ago🥺.

I think what really gets me the most out of all this is the fact I have no clue to this day where I went wrong. When people say 'you should do more prac exams', 'you weren't good enough', 'you should have tried harder' like what on earth am I meant to do? Was I suppose to be studying constantly in my life? Was I really suppose to have done over 120 prac exams? Was I suppose to be just 'fit enough' on the day of exams? I love getting feedback to help me grow as a learner, but when there is nothing to improve when I really did everything I could to give my best shot, why did I get such a low score? (I don't want a perfect score, I just want something that reflects effort)

To make it all worse, I love comparing myself, in a very unhealthy way. Take Physics for example, I don't get full marks in SACs and every time I don't I always constantly get flashbacks to my past self with Further literally working myself to death to get full marks. To top it all off, my mind sort of goes 'Well since you are not getting anywhere near the scores you got last year for your 3/4 you definitely won't ever get higher than 44' and that makes me snap. I know its not true logically, but somehow the voices in my mind refuse to listen >:( . I've trapped myself into a black hole, and there is definitely no way I'm getting out anytime soon. I have no confidence anymore, I've stopped a lot of my hobbies, gone into my own social insolation, daily emotional breakdowns one after another and thought about things I shouldn't be thinking about. I'm usually good at getting back up whenever I have problems, but this has been the first one where I can't seem to get back up no matter how much I try. Maybe at the end of the year, I might finally return to my old self...or fall deeper into this new persona I've created.

But yeah, that's where my mind has been for the past 6 months. It's just a game of the voices in my head.

OH LORD THAT WAS A LONG PASSAGE. I feel better writing that at least, that's a start.

If you got this far, this is what I've been jamming too in the past 24hrs (I absolutely love the lyrics)


See you guys in another update sometime in the future! :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on May 24, 2020, 11:29:34 pm
Hello ashmi! I appreciate your willingness to expose some of your raw thoughts. I understand that you may not have been in a good place when receiving your further results because of your expectations and the expectations around you, and that even now it hurts. I'd like to give you a simple analogy - when you play any board game with the intention of winning, you will end up being arrogant if you win and jealous if you lose. That is the nature of board games - it is not really based on your talent, and there will always be a component of luck involved. If you go into the game without an intention to win, and simply play the game and do what you can, you will be indifferent to whether you win or lose because you went in with the intention to learn, not to win. In the same way, you may, of course, aim for a certain score, however expecting a 50 was extremely unfair on you. This is not because you didn't deserve it or could not achieve it, but because getting a 50 is simply not in your hands and there is always an element of luck. You could get a 50 on one exam, and on another you could get a 45. I'm sure you already know this, but I wanted to remind you that it is important to take it as an experience, rather than a marker of your knowledge. It's unfair that your teachers treat you that way - you should ignore them and not take that to heart. Instead, focus on yourself and keep doing what you do. You are a very intelligent person, and a mere score does not dictate your intelligence. Sometimes the outcome may not reflect the effort you put in, but this does not mean the effort you put in was not enough, or that the outcome given to you was one you deserved. You are not a failure, ashmi. Please do not give up, because oftentimes those that give up after a perceived loss were only a fingertip away from success. I am sure that in due course, you will regain your confidence. You shouldn't let this one 'disappointment' take over and prevent you from doing the things you love, because ultimately it is in your hands to decide what you consider a disappointment and what you don't.

I hope you have an awesome week back at school!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: TigerMum on May 24, 2020, 11:41:43 pm
✰Update: 24/05✰
Hey everyone! I'm back again for another update. (After quite a lengthy period of time).
Hey ashmi, great to see another update from you before we head back to school! :) Are you looking forward to the recommencement of classes on campus, or are there some things that you will miss? 
✰My sweetheart Physics✰
Awesome to see you are absolutely smashing Physics, isn't it so amazing when a subject doesn't feel like work at all! Keep it up, you are definitely going to reap the rewards!  :)

✰Draw till you drop PDT✰
Great job on your SAC, I'm sure you shredded that boi to pieces. Best of luck with your folio, I can't wait to see how it turns out!
Spoiler
First of all, props to you for sharing this, it takes guts to talk about these sorts of things. Next, I would like to assure you of something: you are NOT a failure and you are NOT useless, you are VALUED and you MATTER, regardless of whatever happens this year relative to your expectations. I know people say this all the time, but the ATAR does NOT define who are you, it does NOT determine your worth, it doesn't determine your intelligence nor does it define the effort you put into Year 12. You do not have to explain to anyone why you may not have received some scores that you were aiming for and you don't have to prove your worth to anyone.
In relation to what you said about comparing yourself, that's completely normal, I also have similar thoughts whenever I completely screw up an easy test or something. I think it's important to gain some perspective on these things, the grades that you get in some high school subject are ultimately not going to affect your life that much. I don't say this to discourage you from trying but just so you can understand that you do not have to put yourself through hell and back over school.
I am extremely confident that you will achieve your goals this year, whatever they may be, I'm more than happy to chat about anything and there are so many people here who will support you.


Look after yourself and best of luck for your return to school!  :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on May 25, 2020, 12:18:28 am
Hey Ashmi!

It's sooo nice to finally get another update! Super happy that you're enjoying physics!, it's always great to have the one subject you love to bits, I feel the same way about chem! Maybe this is just the tech subjects, but food studies is the same, it's weird! When you say your portfolio needs to be handed in, does this mean your portfolio is finished for the year?

Spoiler
What you are going through right now is exactly the same as what my mind is currently putting me through. It always happens in the middle of the year, yay. I can 100% relate to comparing my past subject scores with my current ones. My SACs scores for some of my subjects are no where near as good as my SACs scores were for bio. I always think to myself, if I got a 38 in bio, putting in a ridiculous amount of time and energy into studying, and still ended up with THAT score, how in the world am I going to do with the current SACs scores I have been getting. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, as cliche as it sounds. I like to think that each subject has it's own ups and downs, and there can be many other influences in life that can affect how everything goes. For me, my health screwed me over on exam day, so I couldn't perform at my best, even after doing mountains of practice exams. You are doing amazing right now, and I know it is very easy to start thinking of the past and wonder why this or that happened (it doesn't help that your teachers are avoiding you, that's just unprofessional).
Try to just focus on what your doing now, and keep going at it, I know you'll do amazing at what ever you do! Your study score or your ATAR is just a snapshot of a period of time, and some of those moments in time don't always work out. Your performance last year isn't reflective of your performance this year, just keep doing the best you can and I know you'll get there. 
Have fun with your first week back!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Sine on May 25, 2020, 12:39:46 am
Re: Raw Thoughts
Spoiler
Adding to what whys, TigerMum and Geoo has already outlined I have always had the belief that scores within the mid-40s to 50 are quite interchangeable between students depending on how they felt on the day and whether they made those careless mistakes on the day or not. For FM this is enhanced given how tight it is at the top end. A lot of this is just luck.  For the most part, anyone who scores a 50 could easily have scored a 45 on another day. For somewhat subjective subjects like Biology (where the wording is really important) or English that variability could also have absolutely nothing to do with a student such as which assessors you got for your exam, how they were feeling when they marked the exam, exams they saw before yours etc

I know this won't magically fix how you are feeling at the moment but hopefully gives a different perspective. This isn't a totally unique situation to be in. From what I have seen in the past generally, time is the biggest factor for students to begin to either accept that they did everything they could given their circumstances or just tend to forget about these sort of things when they go onto life after high school where they have other things on their mind.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on May 25, 2020, 06:58:14 am
Hey Ash!
Thanks for the update :) As everyone else has already said...

Spoiler
You are not a failure. In fact, you are SO far from a failure. You are such a hard worker, and totally inspirational to me and many other people on AN. When I first found your journal I couldn't help thinking how cool and intelligent you were. I know people have already said it, but getting a 45-50 in Further is so much about tiny mistakes and luck. Compared to other subjects where you can lose a tonne of marks and still get 50, in further you literally have to full mark the exam. I understand that it's not a problem that you can fix with the snap of your fingers but keep working at it! You've got this and you can and will get through VCE. Try to pick up some of you hobbies again and give yourself a break from school too. 

Congrats on your physics and PDT sacs. Also, FOLIO due in two weeks, that's crazy but you are going to smash it.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Evolio on May 25, 2020, 08:12:11 am
Hey Ashmi. Yay, another update!!  ;D

It's really great that you're enjoying Physics! It's great that you have a subject like that where you want to keep doing it forever!
That's great about Methods! I can relate, doing extended response without CAS, would be a nightmare. Can't even imagine it.
It's really great you Physics and PDT sac you went well!

Spoiler
First of all, it's really great that you're writing down these raw thoughts because it makes you aware of them, and it's really great that you're not just ignoring them and hoping for the best. Also, I know you feel like you are a 'failure', but you are not. The real failures are the ones who don't get back up after not meeting their goals, but you're resilient, strong and determined, and so you got back up. You're trying to achieve your goals rather than giving up and not trying anymore. It's terrible to read about this but we should just do the best we can. I know this is very cliche and commonplace, but that's all we can ever do and sometimes we reach our goals and sometimes we don't, even though we felt like we did the best we could. Keep fighting and I know you're going to smash those goals and do amazingly fantastic in your subjects this year! You're a very hard working person and I know that you can achieve what you want! Also, about your teachers, they really shouldn't be doing that, and you should just ignore them and focus on your goals. Don't let them get you down.
I feel this way all the time and it majorly sucks. I feel like no matter how much effort I put in, I'm always going to get horrendous scores, and never improve. You're not alone! But, we need to keep trying even though we think we're not going to do well, because that's really the only chance we'll ever get. If we don't try, then it's impossible we're going to achieve our goals. YOU GOT THIS, ASHMI!! I'll be cheering you on the whole way!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on May 25, 2020, 08:51:29 am
Yay its another update from ashmi!!!!

So awesome (and very inspiring) seeing that physics is going well for you! Its such a great subject!

***sending lots of artistic inspiration for your folio***
I'm so positive you will overcome artblock and completely ace your folio! Can't wait to see it done! Trust me, its such a relief when a folio is finished, but such a rewarding feeling!

Spoiler
Just adding on to everyone else, DO NOT doubt YOUR abilities based on the way your teachers are acting towards you. You are much more than that, and your abilities cannot be defined by simple number.  I absolutely love reading about your VCE adventures, because you're so inspirational and positive, and I truly thank you for that. The amount of practise exams you do doesn't define your abilities either, anything can happen on the day! I'm sure you will get over this soon, and its totally okay for feeling like this though, its totally normal! And you'll come out of this hole stronger and more determined to do well! Go ashmi!!

Hope you have an amazing week back at school!!  ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on May 25, 2020, 07:45:02 pm
Hey whys, TigerMum, Geoo, Sine, CM, Evolio and ArtyDreams! Thank you for your positivity and your logical/emotional support❤️. I barely know any of you, but here you are taking the time to read one of the messiest journals on AN and still type up a response and I really can't thank you all enough.

whys🦁:
Hello whys!
Welcome back to this mess of a journal where I expose my vulnerable thoughts to the anonymous people of the internet.
I love the board game analogy you used! I just wished that I could play for the sake of learning and lose without getting stepped on by those who shove their expectation onto me...
I just wished I could enjoy learning with no strings attached, is that too much to ask? (Maybe this is why I like Physics, cause there is no catch)
I try to ignore certain teachers, but it can be very hard when your locker is right next to the Further office (Thankfully my locker is getting moved due to corona spacing issues; a miracle has happened yay)

Thank you for the straightforward and supportive words whys and I hope you have a great week when you go back to school!
TigerMum🐅:
First off my bro TigerMum, why on earth were you awake at that hour of the night? Teach me your ways.

Definitely going to miss the sleeping in and the amount of extra time available! The main thing I'm looking forward too, is giving my eyes a break from looking at the computer screen too much and the science experiments.

Thank you so much for your supportive words and the offer to chat. 🥺🥺🥺It's reassuring to hear that someone else has similar issues with comparing (man I thought it was just another one of my whack thoughts).
Hope you have a lovely week TigerMum and have fun at school!
Geoo🎂:
Yo yo yo it's my tech buddy Geoo!!😃

When I say handing it in, it means finishing off what we call the first 3 criteria's out of 10! Usually criteria 5 - 9 will be making the product and the criteria's before and after is theory for it. I think my official folio handing in date where everything has to be done is the first week of September?

Geoo, we must be living parallel lives or something. I actually did think I was alone in my train of thought till I read your story, and I've got to say, I think we may be the same person but in different dimensions. You are so inspirational Geoo with your dedication to your subjects that I'm starting to feel motivated?? Either way, thank you for sharing your perspective of your story and good luck for the first week back!
Sine💿:
Hi Sine!
I honestly feel much better after reading your comment, its a logical approach and perspective, something that I needed to hear. I really did think this thought process would go away a long time ago, and I'm just really frustrated that it's still with me in May, the middle of the year...

Eitherway, thank you so much for taking the time to write your reply up!😊
Choco 🍫:
Hey hey Choco!😃

I think I need to whip out an Uno Reverse Card here cause I gotta say YOU were so inspirational to me when you popped up on AN! I feel 10000000% more motivated now after reading what you had to say. Thank you for understanding Choco and I'll try to pick up some hobbies again.🥺 (Yes having a folio due in two weeks is a struggle as it will probably smash me to bits but not without me smashing it first 🤣)

Thank you so so much Choco and have a fab week!
Evolio 🐘:
Hey Evolio! Thank you for stopping by to this chaotic mess.

Also, thank you for sharing your own feelings of the same issue. It really does suck to feel all down and all, but they way you put it makes it seem more bearable? You are so hardworking yourself and a total inspiration to me. 😭(I will be the one with the pom poms cheering you on!)
Thank you Evolio for taking the time to write up a reply and have a great week!
ArtyDreams🐨:
Yay it's ma Physics buddy Arty!

I hope your folio is going well Arty and that you have been doing great yourself!
I think you may have just summed up my whole problem in a nutshell... I've never thought about it in that way till you have mentioned it. You are definitely right with the 'doubt' bit and it's something that I don't think I've been able to fix this year. Thank you Arty for the kind words and I shall somehow get out of the hole! (Well assuming my escape velocity doesn't exceed the speed of light)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on May 26, 2020, 11:06:48 am
Hey whys, TigerMum, Geoo, Sine, CM, Evolio and ArtyDreams! Thank you for your positivity and your logical/emotional support❤️. I barely know any of you, but here you are taking the time to read one of the messiest journals on AN and still type up a response and I really can't thank you all enough.

whys🦁:
Hello whys!
Welcome back to this mess of a journal where I expose my vulnerable thoughts to the anonymous people of the internet.
I love the board game analogy you used! I just wished that I could play for the sake of learning and lose without getting stepped on by those who shove their expectation onto me...
I just wished I could enjoy learning with no strings attached, is that too much to ask? (Maybe this is why I like Physics, cause there is no catch)
I try to ignore certain teachers, but it can be very hard when your locker is right next to the Further office (Thankfully my locker is getting moved due to corona spacing issues; a miracle has happened yay)

Thank you for the straightforward and supportive words whys and I hope you have a great week when you go back to school!
TigerMum🐅:
First off my bro TigerMum, why on earth were you awake at that hour of the night? Teach me your ways.

Definitely going to miss the sleeping in and the amount of extra time available! The main thing I'm looking forward too, is giving my eyes a break from looking at the computer screen too much and the science experiments.

Thank you so much for your supportive words and the offer to chat. 🥺🥺🥺It's reassuring to hear that someone else has similar issues with comparing (man I thought it was just another one of my whack thoughts).
Hope you have a lovely week TigerMum and have fun at school!
Geoo🎂:
Yo yo yo it's my tech buddy Geoo!!😃

When I say handing it in, it means finishing off what we call the first 3 criteria's out of 10! Usually criteria 5 - 9 will be making the product and the criteria's before and after is theory for it. I think my official folio handing in date where everything has to be done is the first week of September?

Geoo, we must be living parallel lives or something. I actually did think I was alone in my train of thought till I read your story, and I've got to say, I think we may be the same person but in different dimensions. You are so inspirational Geoo with your dedication to your subjects that I'm starting to feel motivated?? Either way, thank you for sharing your perspective of your story and good luck for the first week back!
Sine💿:
Hi Sine!
I honestly feel much better after reading your comment, its a logical approach and perspective, something that I needed to hear. I really did think this thought process would go away a long time ago, and I'm just really frustrated that it's still with me in May, the middle of the year...

Eitherway, thank you so much for taking the time to write your reply up!😊
Choco 🍫:
Hey hey Choco!😃

I think I need to whip out an Uno Reverse Card here cause I gotta say YOU were so inspirational to me when you popped up on AN! I feel 10000000% more motivated now after reading what you had to say. Thank you for understanding Choco and I'll try to pick up some hobbies again.🥺 (Yes having a folio due in two weeks is a struggle as it will probably smash me to bits but not without me smashing it first 🤣)

Thank you so so much Choco and have a fab week!
Evolio 🐘:
Hey Evolio! Thank you for stopping by to this chaotic mess.

Also, thank you for sharing your own feelings of the same issue. It really does suck to feel all down and all, but they way you put it makes it seem more bearable? You are so hardworking yourself and a total inspiration to me. 😭(I will be the one with the pom poms cheering you on!)
Thank you Evolio for taking the time to write up a reply and have a great week!
ArtyDreams🐨:
Yay it's ma Physics buddy Arty!

I hope your folio is going well Arty and that you have been doing great yourself!
I think you may have just summed up my whole problem in a nutshell... I've never thought about it in that way till you have mentioned it. You are definitely right with the 'doubt' bit and it's something that I don't think I've been able to fix this year. Thank you Arty for the kind words and I shall somehow get out of the hole! (Well assuming my escape velocity doesn't exceed the speed of light)

I know I'm tuning in late but:

my reply

Perception is a tricky thing, especially when it comes to subjective things like glares. I'm not there so I don't know what's going on, but it's possible that for some of the teachers (especially after initially having bad reactions) you have been more avoidant around those teachers and more tense and they're picking up on that vibe which is why they're acting "off". It's also easy to see people as judging you about something when you're self-conscious about it. Your teachers might not be judging you as much as you think.

Something I've learnt is that it's easy to attribute others' behaviours to ourselves even when that's not the case. Someone might not talk to you because they're annoyed at you, or because they don't know what to say, or because they feel self-conscious, or because they're busy, or because they have so much going on in their head in that moment processing another person is hard.

Maybe they are judging you for further but it could be easy to think that even if they weren't.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on June 08, 2020, 08:15:40 pm
✰Update: 8/06✰

Hey AN! I think this is the first time I haven't gone on AN in two weeks... (Catching up with the amazing journals on here has been super hard). Life has gotten in the way and I've been overwhelmed by everything but I'm back with another journal update!  8)
(https://i.imgur.com/uokDj6a.gif)

Songs of this journal update goes to:
I couldn't decide on one🤣

✰I live in my school's Physics room✰
So on the first day back at school, the very first place I went to was the Physics room. That's right, I bypassed food and my locker for the physics room. 100% worth it.
We have been learning electromagnetism and induction (AOS 2) and there was something I got really fascinated about. Mother nature doesn't like change and creates a "force" (not exactly a force but for simplicity) to oppose changes in magnetic flux, so I thought, hmmmm how can I use this to my advantage? Well after seeing an experiment with a metal ring go flying because of this idea I was like, YO LET'S MAKE SOMETHING THAT SHOOTS SOMETHING. (My inner gamer coming out here)

And thus, for the past two weeks of my life, I've been trying to construct this device that whenever I change something, I can project something metallic. It wasn't until last Friday where my Physics teacher explained that it looked like I was trying to make a railgun...
So yeah, long story short I've been trying to make a small scaled railgun and shoot random things with it.

Other than that, I've gone completely off topic with the VCE course and was like" I wanna learn rotational mechanics" so that's where I've been.... I know what I'm about to say sounds really lame, but now I can spin a bicycle wheel and tell you what's going on.😂
We have a SAC next term on electrical power which is a big relief (less to worry about) and so far so good!

✰Chemy Chemy Chem Chem✰
Had a SAC afterschool last Thursday. Didn't go as well as I wanted but I'm glad it's over and that means moving onto the Scientific Investigation! I'm relieved to finally have that SAC off my mind and move onto other more important things and hopefully improve in the future! Someone remind me why I picked this subject again? I needed Spesh maths more than this...

✰CAS has entered the chat✰
HELLO MY LITTLE CAS BABY WHAT'S UP?
So our official Methods SAC has been moved?? To next term??? WHAT?
We have just been having tests here and there but nothing official. I really have no clue what's going on but will update when I know something. There is one thing I do know though and that is the fact I have another Methods Test in 2 weeks. Fun times! Other than that, things seem to be going smoothly.

✰Drawing? What's that? PDT✰
Hahahahaha.... Hey mate. Long time no see.
So let's start with that 70 mark SAC I had the other day. Ya girl over here somehow managed to get full marks and I still don't know how but WOOHOOO I'll take it! So yes, after my mini celebration I got back onto drawing design options. My folio got checked last week and so far was so good! Now, I just have to finalise everything so I can start on working drawings soon.

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/tQljlqc.png)
Some drawings I've been working on recently. One of them may actually be the real thing I make UwU

✰Yo Rear Window English✰
I'm not going to even comment on this subject cause nothing is happening. I'm not joking this subject is so boring and I can't even engage with it. I want it to disappear ASAP but then again I know I need to do well or I'm screwed. I'm really hoping I can bring up my average after that A.A SAC so at least I can stand a chance at end of year exams.

Life/Goals and you name it mini-update:
So a lot has happened since I've been off AN. Let's talk positive though.
I think the first big thing is that now, I now firmly know what I wanna do in 2021. I want to study electrical engineering, and that is final. Turns out that my Physics teacher is an E.E and after talking to him, something sort of "clicked" in me, something felt "right". I can't describe this feeling but after feeling lost for a long time, this is it, I have finally found it. I have a goal and my lord it feels good to know there is something to chase after.

So YAS that's the good bits. Moving onto the more shocking realisation bits. Hahaha... I just looked at the VTAC statistics for the courses I'm considering, and both look quite...daunting?

I mean looking at the UniMelb Bachelor Sci/Masters Eng was already terrifying enough with its median being 98.15 but then I looked at the BSci and median 91.85... I'm scared, it looks tough.
Other than that, I've finally gotten back onto my feet after what seems forever and I'm ready to tackle the challenge once again. I need to keep going forward and that's exactly what I'm gonna do! I am not looking back now and I've got my eyes staring straight ahead. I'm going to drag myself over to my goal even if it kills me. I am getting there slowly and I'm trying but I WILL get there. I AM GOING TO MAKE IT...somehow Ok that sounds so cheesy
Spoiler
*Make way negative Ashmi coming through*

Personal life-wise, everything has been a bloody mess, especially in the past few weeks.

I think the one thing I can talk about which isn't dark in this journal though, is the idea that for the past few days, my parents have been trying to stop me from studying something STEM-related? They know I hate finance and business yet no matter how much I say no, they are very... persistent. Yeah, that's the best word for this scenario. Persistent.
I've tried reasoning with them multiple times, but it seems they don't want to accept what I'm saying? I'm paying for my course anyway so I don't know why you guys are angry? I think I sort of got the idea with what they were saying when it comes to 'good paying', but I'm not really all about the money? I more about the enjoyment and being happy concept? I think it will go away with a bit of time and they are going to have to accept it anyway cause these science/maths subjects makes me happy.

This journal itself has also become my "recovery mechanism". It holds no other purpose than to stop me from going insane, and so far, it has stopped me countless times from falling too deep. I'm grateful that somewhere on the internet, I can write and write and write without no one ever finding out who I really am. Maybe it's the idea that on here, I don't need to be an illusionist. One day, this journal might help someone out, but in the meantime, it's here to talk about the weird, wonderful and the wild stuff.

OKI DOKI LEMME MOVE ON BRO.
Something good happened today, I got another tutoring job for Further! I'm really happy to be teaching as it forces me to be social and actually communicate which is a plus! There is something I love about teaching others... not sure what it is though. Might find that out in the future.

Goals for now:
> Get into at least BSci at MelbUni (and be the first person on my Dad's side to have a tertiary education whoop whoop! Even better the BSci + Masters Eng)
> Smash some Physics Unit 3 exams
> Get PDT together and mass print folio out.
> Go to Muji and treat myself for once.
> Start studying like wildfire to make sure PDT doesn't swallow me whole for my other subjects.
> Just hope that I've done enough to get me to that next step in life.
That's it for today's update! I have started sewing some costumes and I'm hoping to do some more crafty stuff this weekend (Might show a pic of the product when it's done too) ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: J_Rho on June 08, 2020, 08:33:51 pm
✰Update: 8/06✰
YAYYYYYYYYYYYY an update! I'm glad you are getting back into the swing of things and figured out what you want to do with your life, you will not only make it but smash it too ash!
I understand the pressures of 'persistent' parents, and although I'm not having the same issue as you, I get it and I promise they will come around, they just have to realise that STEM is what truly makes you happy ♡
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on June 08, 2020, 08:44:35 pm
Yay Ash I am so excited that you have updated your journal! One of my fav's here on AN!

I am so proud of all your efforts and I know you can smash your next SACs (full marks for PDT is incred!) 🥰

I completely understand your issue, but remember this is your life and I know you can smash VCE and get into your desired course ❤️😆
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on June 08, 2020, 09:59:14 pm
100% on PDT THAT'S AMAZING! Congratulations I'm so proud and you so deserve it - I hope you're celebrating!  ;D

It's great to see you've gotten back on your feet again Ash. Your passion for physics and desire to become an electric engineer is so cool and super inspiring! You know it already but keep at the STEM subjects and keep doing what you love. I hope that your parents come round eventually and realise what an incredible hard-working child they have; that it doesn't matter what field you go into, as long as you love it and are giving it your all (which you are  ;))

Good job on all the sacs and all the best for the ones to come. Loving the drawings  ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on June 09, 2020, 07:16:49 pm
Congratulations on your PDT marks, I'm so happy for you! It's so inspiring to see your passions for engineering through this journal, I'm absolutely positive you'll be able to reach your uni goals! Keep smashing it and you'll do amazing things.
I understand the struggle with your parents, but I'm hoping they'll come around as they see how you are so passionate about this.

Can't wait to see more from you, really keen to see some art!!!!  ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on June 09, 2020, 10:10:18 pm
J_Rho🦋
OMG is that J_Rho?! I feel so honoured!
Thank you for stopping by to this mess and a huge thank you for your positivity! I'm hoping the 'persistent' nature goes away soon and hopefully they do come around.
Your words mean a lot and I know I keep repeating myself but thank you🥺.

Hope you have a fab week J_Rho!
Eloisegrace🌤
It's El!🥰
Hello and welcome back! (Btw, I love your journal so much I can't even begin to tell you how much of a fav it is)
The amount of encouragement in this is woah too much for me. Thank you so much for taking the time to write up a reply and you have defs made my day!

Enjoy the rest of the week El!
Choco🍫
NOW HERE IS MY FAV BUDDY CHOCO! (I love you so much that words cannot even describe it).

First of all, yes, I have celebrated with a whole pack of sweets! Honestly, I don't know where this passion has come from but hopefully it stays for a while. Thank YOU for being the lovely and encouraging person you are and you have seriously made me feel 100% better. (Might I add, at this point of reading your comment and the previous ones I've been crying)

Have a wonderful week Choco!
Jeydanaazli💫
Oh would you look here? It's MY ANIME BRO!
Hey Jeyda welcome to this bottomless mess filled with anime galore! (yes, my fav Haikyuu boi is Oikawa)

At this point of reading everyone else's comments, I was already crying, but your comment just set that rate to rapid crying. Thank you thank you thank you for your kind words and I hope you find it somewhat entertaining to see what's going on in this mucked up life of mine! I'm really hoping that come around in the future but for now I guess I'll keep on at it!

I shall post more art soon don't worry. Thank you for stopping by Jeyda and have a beautiful week!

✰Super Mini-Update: 9/06✰

This isn't anything major, but I just wanted to share with you guys some weird pics of what the back of the Physics room at my school looks like thanks to me playing around...
Very irrelevant update so feel free to skip past this. Might be good for those that might want to study Physics or just wanna know what goes on in this rabbit hole.
Spoiler
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/FRcZnwO.jpg)
First off is me playing around with a bar magnet (red one) and trying to strengthen the magnetic field with the two magnets attached perpendicular to the bar magnet. I think the two magnets on the side are possibly neodymium magnets? (Might be a bit weaker than that though) I also played around with wrapping the coil around multiple times and when you rotate it in a magnetic field, it's able to turn the light in the corner on. (Both DC and AC). Summary = Rotate = change = let there be LIGHT. I must say though, trying to separate those magnets nearly made me loose a finger...

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/3lm82wm.jpg)
On the right hand side here was the 'thing' I was talking about when it comes to shooting metallic objects. Yeah... This was the railgun thingy I was trying to make on a more 'larger' scale.
If you guys do Chem, think of it as equilibrium or L.C.P, when I try to push the metal ring down, the 'device' tries to create a 'force' up to counteract this change. Nature does not like change, hates it with a passion actually.
It's not on in this pic, but if it was, that metal ring would go FLYING, well, assuming that it's a closed circuit. As soon as there is a slit it will no longer work as a current can't be passed through. I can't really go too far as no one will understand what on earth I'm saying but it's got to do with magnetic forces and induced currents. (For my physics friends it's always good to wear a bracelet into the exam)

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/2EtjqFo.jpg)
And last but not least, the super sexy oscilloscope. It looks surprisingly new considering how old it is. I have been mesmerised by the amount of sinusoidal waves recently and there is something in particular I like about this handy device. I would totally love to have something like this but these things are pricey! For this mini demo, it was connected to AC and then we had someone with a bike pedal. The faster you pedal , the higher the amp and the shorter the period. This particular graph is showing the time vs voltage or for you Physics bois at home, the emf. I was sort of just playing around with the idea of how quickly I could change magnetic flux and this happened.

I'm so sorry for rambling on that long but MY LORD this topic is soooooooo good! I absolutely love this electromagnetic induction going on and there is so much to play with. I might of had a near miss with electrocuting myself today or crushing my hand with some super strong magnets hidden in the back of the Physics room but I'm ready to see the next adventure waiting for me! (As you can see, this work area is a MESS)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on June 20, 2020, 10:03:17 am
✰Update: 20/06✰

Hey AN! For those familiar with my journal welcome back and to those that are new welcome abroad to one of the messiest, out of control journals on here. So this month is going super quick, a little too quick but that's good in a way as that means the holidays are coming soon. Oki now onto the juicy update you guys are probably keen for:

Song of the week goes to:


✰Physics✰
I don't actually have much to say for this subject other than the fact it's going great! Our SAC is like Methods, the first week back of next term on Induction. I'm not feeling super prepared right now so my aim this week is to finish off some exam-style questions and then try to fully understand the concepts and how they are applicable in real life. I've also started a few weeks ago my big Unit 3 exam booklet which I'm hoping to get done by the end of the holidays.

I feel like I'm gambling every time I do this subject. Sometimes the stuff you put in comes out with great rewards whereas other times you put things in it gives you nothing. Other than that, I'm pretty happy with this subject and although I know I'm not ranked well in the class (probably somewhere in the middle) I'm just hoping I can do well enough in exams so my score is good enough for what I want to do in the future.

✰PDT✰
On Tuesday, I handed in one of the biggest folios I've ever made in my life. I think just for the first 3 criteria I had over 45 pages and that doesn't seem like a lot till you look at the folio. I am super happy that is done. That mini-thesis has been on my mind for a good 6 months and it feels so nice for it to leave. Next week, we are working on working drawings and production planning so we can start making our product next term! I've also started doing exam revision for this subject because content-heavy stuff like this is my biggest weakness and will definitely be a subject I need to put a decent amount of effort into.

✰Methods✰
Methods is going GUCCI!
We have our SAC first week back of next term, and I think this is one of those subjects I have under control for once. I'm just going to finish off some exam questions and try finding some harder extended response questions. I might also make my own mini prac SAC to see if I really understand what I'm doing.

✰Chemy✰
I have officially accepted at this point that this subject is going to be a 10% increment.
Chem is going pretty decently for a subject that I don't even need. (If I could go back in time, someone make me do Spesh. At least I know I'll enjoy it in uni)
We did our practical investigation the other day and bless it for being a data analysis task cause I got full marks! After my mini celebration (sad it's only worth a bit) I went back to the organic chem.

I'm not expecting anything from this subject and I do have a few regrets picking it, but as they say, you got to ride the wave!

✰English✰
I'm trying. I'm seriously trying with everything I have but this subject doesn't want to budge. Our text response SAC is next term thankfully and it gives me time to hopefully reflect on my current methods and see if I can improve. (really wished I changed to Englang now...)
I am absolutely terrified of this subject and this is definitely going to drag my whole ATAR down at the rate it's going. Even at my best, it's not going to cut it for this subject. Feedback is super hard to get from my teacher as she has such a long delay in getting an essay back so this means I probably should get some done before next week so I've got time to get feedback and improve!
I am not giving up just yet but let me say I've slowly started to accept that I'm not getting into my first preference. I am going to get better at this subject, but I do wonder at what cost?

Study Scores:
(I'm copying this from Choco's, whys' and El's journey journal so thank you for the idea! Completely forgot about type of stuff)

Subject likely raw scores at the rate things are going:

English: 35 (This is a tad bit unrealistic)
PDT: 44 if the exam is hard
Chemy: 35
Fizixs: 35-39
Methods: 35-39

Likely ATAR based on this: 92.20 - 94.25

With my current life circumstances I'm in, I would be pretty happy with this as it would get me into my second preference! (It also means I would be the first person to have a tertiary education from one side of the family and honestly, I think that would be one of my biggest achievements)
(See 'Uni thoughts' for more :D )
My Dream Scores and ATAR that I will cry over:

English: 37 I will probably need to perform a demonic ritual to achieve this.
PDT: 45+
Chemy: 38?
Fizixs: 44? This would take a miracle and a sacrifice to VCAA.
Methods: 40 Again, another sacrifice, this time my CAS and Bound Reference

Likely ATAR based on this: 96.45+

University thoughts:
So at our school, we had the big tertiary talk. First thing off the bat we were told to do was to take the time to explore our options for the future which essentially is looking at uni courses. With this in mind, I sort of wandered around everywhere online to look at realistic courses that I may be interested in and sort out some preferences. I've started accumulating a list of courses, however, the more I look into this type of stuff, the further away it looks?

What preferences are currently looking like
(https://i.imgur.com/pSljFsP.png)
I'm just really hoping for No.2 BSci @ Melbuni at this point. I'm finding it really hard to fill up the 8 slots and probably will just leave it at 6 till I can figure something else out.  :-\

The big question I have is, 'How does transferring from one uni to another work?'. I'm just a little bit confused if its easier or harder than VCE and does the uni you attend before you transfer have any significant impact to you if you decide to transfer elsewhere? (E.g. Going from RMIT to MelbUni vs Monash to MelbUni).

I'm struggling to plan out pathways just in case I don't get into BSci @MelbUni (which is one of my dream courses) and I'm not too sure what to do? I've tried talking to my careers counsellor but she sorts of shrugs me off and says I'm most likely going to get the scores I need for the course, but anything can happen. I can't find any threads on AN about this type of stuff and most of the journey journals that I've read previously get into their first preference so I was wondering if anyone might know maybe a link to something or have first-hand advice about this?

Also, some good news. After the news that came out today about uni fees changing (Engineering going down 20% and commerce going up 28%), my parents have come around super quickly and now are not as furious with me wanting to do something science-related. (Yay it's a miracle! You won't believe how happy I am).

I've also decided after the Physics exam (24th Nov), I am shredding everything relating to VCE (unless I can sell it or someone wants it) and starting FRESH. I plan to get rid of nearly everything I own and just start with an empty room which has no more than a bed and a desk. I'm planning for a massive Kmart/IKEA run and just thinking about it makes me excited... Right now, I crave freedom so badly. It's just taking such an emotional/physical toll, I'm just ready to get out of VCE and finally start my life over again. I would like to have a massive reset and that is something that I'm looking forward to when the day comes.
That's it for today's journal entry! See you all next time ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on June 20, 2020, 05:51:47 pm
ashmi!! always so good to see your updates!
PDT sounds so exciting!!! 45 pages of a portfolio seems like so much to me, I'm so proud of you for smashing through it! really can't wait to see everything you come up with next term  ;D

regarding uni - if your careers counsellor isn't that helpful I'm guessing that the unis themselves could help you with your questions about pathways. from what I've seen, RMIT are pretty supportive with pathways and their online help service could possibly answer some of your questions. maybe try reaching out to Melbourne's student support as well? also, I'm sure asking around in the uni chat here on AN could help a lot.

I've also decided after the Physics exam (24th Nov), I am shredding everything relating to VCE (unless I can sell it or someone wants it) and starting FRESH.
i've already started the countdown for you lmao. i bet that first night's sleep after everything is cleared and clean will be the best you've had ahahah can't wait to do the same thing next year tbh

holidays is so soon, make sure you enjoy your well deserved break! <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on June 20, 2020, 07:14:25 pm
✰Physics✰
I don't actually have much to say for this subject other than the fact it's going great! Our SAC is like Methods, the first week back of next term on Induction. I'm not feeling super prepared right now so my aim this week is to finish off some exam-style questions and then try to fully understand the concepts and how they are applicable in real life. I've also started a few weeks ago my big Unit 3 exam booklet which I'm hoping to get done by the end of the holidays.
Yay! I am so happy that this subject is going well for you! Your love for physics definitely shines through this journey and I know you will do so well!

✰PDT✰
On Tuesday, I handed in one of the biggest folios I've ever made in my life. I think just for the first 3 criteria I had over 45 pages and that doesn't seem like a lot till you look at the folio. I am super happy that is done. That mini-thesis has been on my mind for a good 6 months and it feels so nice for it to leave. Next week, we are working on working drawings and production planning so we can start making our product next term! I've also started doing exam revision for this subject because content-heavy stuff like this is my biggest weakness and will definitely be a subject I need to put a decent amount of effort into.
A folio of 45 pages! That is so much omg! Legit so proud ash🥰🥰

✰Methods✰
Methods is going GUCCI!
We have our SAC first week back of next term, and I think this is one of those subjects I have under control for once. I'm just going to finish off some exam questions and try finding some harder extended response questions. I might also make my own mini prac SAC to see if I really understand what I'm doing.
YAY WE LOVE WHEN METHODS GOES WELL hahahahaha. Good luck for your SAC, I know you can do it and making your own SAC is so dedicated and I didn't even think or that (I wouldn't have been bothered to either haha I'm so lazy)

Spoiler
I know VCE is hard, but I am so certain that you will achieve what you want! Even if you don't get them (which isn't going to happen because you are so damn smart and hardworking, there is always other options and I am sure that you will get to where you want to study.
Random, but I am also heavily considering a bachelor of science with grad pack at Melb Uni so twinnies😆 *prays for anywhere near the 98 atar for physio that ain't gonna happen lmao
Also, I completely get what you mean by wanting a fresh start after VCE. VCE is tough, very tough, and I know you can do it. Having the excitement of a massive shopping spree could legit get me through anything and I pretty sure you feel the same  ;)
Have a great week Ash!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on June 21, 2020, 08:03:19 pm
ashmi!! always so good to see your updates!
PDT sounds so exciting!!! 45 pages of a portfolio seems like so much to me, I'm so proud of you for smashing through it! really can't wait to see everything you come up with next term  ;D

regarding uni - if your careers counsellor isn't that helpful I'm guessing that the unis themselves could help you with your questions about pathways. from what I've seen, RMIT are pretty supportive with pathways and their online help service could possibly answer some of your questions. maybe try reaching out to Melbourne's student support as well? also, I'm sure asking around in the uni chat here on AN could help a lot.
i've already started the countdown for you lmao. i bet that first night's sleep after everything is cleared and clean will be the best you've had ahahah can't wait to do the same thing next year tbh

holidays is so soon, make sure you enjoy your well deserved break! <3

OMG IT'S JEYDA!🥰 ;D (I'm honoured you are even reading this journal)

Thank you very much for your kind words on PDT! I'm hoping there will be some more action soon and hopefully I finish my product soon. I also completely forgot that there were online help services (my mind is so used to covid closing everything. Obviously hasn't adjusted yet) and I think that probably will be my next point of call! I'm very excited for 155 days to go by so I can finally be free and give my room the well deserved clean it desires.

Enjoy your last week of school Jeyda ;D

Yay! I am so happy that this subject is going well for you! Your love for physics definitely shines through this journey and I know you will do so well!
A folio of 45 pages! That is so much omg! Legit so proud ash🥰🥰
YAY WE LOVE WHEN METHODS GOES WELL hahahahaha. Good luck for your SAC, I know you can do it and making your own SAC is so dedicated and I didn't even think or that (I wouldn't have been bothered to either haha I'm so lazy)

Spoiler
I know VCE is hard, but I am so certain that you will achieve what you want! Even if you don't get them (which isn't going to happen because you are so damn smart and hardworking, there is always other options and I am sure that you will get to where you want to study.
Random, but I am also heavily considering a bachelor of science with grad pack at Melb Uni so twinnies😆 *prays for anywhere near the 98 atar for physio that ain't gonna happen lmao
Also, I completely get what you mean by wanting a fresh start after VCE. VCE is tough, very tough, and I know you can do it. Having the excitement of a massive shopping spree could legit get me through anything and I pretty sure you feel the same  ;)
Have a great week Ash!

Hey El!🥰

Ahhh thank you thank youuuu. Absolutely agree with you that we love the feeling when Methods IS ACTUALLY GOING WELL🤣.

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Ummm bro, just because I'm hardworking doesn't mean I'm going to get in🤣. We gotta plan out those pathways just in case something down the track goes horribly wrong (you never know but hopefully it doesn't become a reality).

First of all, I 100% believe that you are going to get that 98 hands down. (Melb Uni TWINZIESSS *High fives*). The grad packs are very nice to look at and woah Physio sounds really good! (I would love to hear more about the Physio in your next journal update whenever that comes around). I'm ready to do a massive shopping spree at my fav stores and I'm going to have a shopping spree like there is no tomorrow (especially at Ikea).
Have a lovely week El!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on June 27, 2020, 10:07:19 pm
✰Update: 27/06✰

Hello hello AN! Welcome back to another journal entry where I have no clue what's going on or what I'm doing with my life but that's fine! I will attempt to try and describe my messy life story but in the meantime, sit back and get some popcorn ready cause this is going to be one interesting update. (Not really but you get what I mean)

Song of the week goes to:
Emotions of the week summed up into one piece: Minami's "Hollowness"
✰Physics/Fizixs✰
Accomplishments/fun-facts since the last journal update:
✧ I may have electrocuted myself again. Yay. My relationship with this subject is quite electrifying..... Ok I will stop.
✧ I've just learnt my Physics teacher literally made the 2014 VCAA Physics exam. Like not just vetted the exam (which he usually does), he legit made that particular paper from scratch. I have always wondered why the 2014 Grade Distribution for the A+ cut-off was so low compared to other years🤣.
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✧Adding onto the previous point, I've also learnt he went to Harvard at some point in his education. Oh yeah he also made "things" (I really don't know how to describe it but its BIG and has wires EVERYWHERE) for CERN too. Moral of the story, I feel extremely dumb as a student and these holidays I'm going to work my butt off to make sure I'm not that much of a disappointment.

Overall Physics:
I really really really really really really really like you~~~
Physics has been going really well and I'm loving the content that is coming straight out of it. It's engaging, fun and actually pretty useful compared to some of the other stuff I learn. 10/10 would recommend this subject.

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/BHgSkzA.jpg)
The transformer goes sparky sparky. Gotta say I love this topic of electricity and it's way too much fun. I've lost track of how many times I come to the Physics room at my school now. I just really like making things randomly explode out of nowhere and just seeing how the Physics behind it works.

✰PDT✰
Accomplishments/fun-facts since the last journal update:
✧Successfully acquired a hatred to my drawing tablet
✧Still cannot draw a straight line. Definitely going to get 100% for end of year exams now surely. ::)
✧Production? Yeah that's non-existent. I might get to that later.

Let's just say for this subject crunch time begins starting from Monday morning.

✰Chemy for the STEMY bois✰
Accomplishments/fun-facts since the last journal update:
✧ Still a 10% subject. Nothing is changing the fact it is anymore.
✧ Organic Chem? Please stay away from me you reincarnated demon. Give me back Redox I don't want to do this.
✧I have tried boiling up some water for my coffee using a bunsen burner. My teacher wouldn't let me have the coffee *RIP Ashmi's beloved coffee* :'(

Chemy = Ashmi doesn't like you.
I'm trying my best right now but this subject is a big no. I need that massive red NO button from Officeworks specifically for this class. The one thing I've learnt this year is that I absolutely hate memorising things, and this subject sadly is one where I'm forced to do so (I wish you were like Physics... Why can't I just understand rather than remember all these weird things for no reason). Definitely not pursuing anything Chem related in uni that's for sure.

✰Methods✰
Accomplishments/fun-facts since the last journal update:
✧ Ya girl is getting along with her CAS very nicely. It's going to be our 3 year anniversary soon.
✧ I have received 100 digital exams dating back to the dark ages of 1996 VCE. Someone save me from this subject I'm scared. Please get me out of here before my teacher or her bottles of cordial drown me. :-X
✧ Waiting eagerly for probability to save my butt for end of year exams.

This subject is definitely my most chill subject besides English and I find the content very enjoyable and much easier than Year 11? (weird).
I really like you too Methods. You are very chill with me and the content is GREAT.

✰English✰
Accomplishments/fun-facts since the last journal update:
✧Class party on Friday filled with coffee and fairy bread
✧ I have written and done many planned prompts for Rear Window
✧ Still my worst subject but we are getting there

I swear, if I need to look at Rear Window frame by frame one more time I'm just going to book myself the next plane ticket out of Melb.

✰Holiday Homework:✰
Spoiler
PDT: Study for SAC 3rd week back (Fix Workbook/Textbook/mistakes log)
   • Working Drawings
   • Production Plan
   • Risk assessment
   • Construction skirt
   • Construction Prop
   • Exam prep cause we are on our last SAC.

Physics: SAC first week back
   • Rewrite examiners report mistakes into my mistakes log
   • Checkpoints: Finish off Transmission of electricity
   • Unit 3 Exam Booklet (15 exams)
   • TSSM Practise exams (9 exams)
   • Triple check study design to make sure anything I've learnt for Unit 4 beforehand is still relevant
   • Get mentally prepared to start cracking trial exams in another month or two

Methods: SAC first week back
   • Finish bound reference
   • Checkpoints: Finish Extended Response
   • Practise SACs (4)
   • Finish a quarter of exam booklet (6 exams)
   • Start on the 100 digital exams cause and pray I can get through enough.
   • Review and add to mistakes log.

Chem: 4th week back SAC
   • Review mistakes log and study design
   • Finish organic Chem
   • Checkpoints O-Chem
   • Prac Exams (6)
   • Unit 3 Prac exams (4)

English: 2nd Week back SAC
   • Essay prompt deconstruction (5 minimum)
   • Essay fully completed (min 3)
   • Reread comparative texts (2 books)
   • Do some Argument Analysis prep.
A few days ago, we got these massive exam revision booklets and I have no clue how to survive. I probs won't even get half of this done but I may as well try!
Thanks for reading and have a great weekend everyone! ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Coolgalbornin03Lo on June 27, 2020, 11:05:46 pm
Wow your doing so many exams....I feel like I’ve already wasted time learning today! I thought I’d do 15 in total for a subject but your doing that this soon, your bound to ace all your subjects!!!!!!!!

Also completely understand hating memorising organic Chem :( is it just reaction pathways your memorising? I tried so hard not to memorise them and I’m not sure if I learnt or memorise in the end but HEY the SACs over.

And oh my gosh rear window! I did that as text response and yeah this movie seems....how can I put this....dry? Like the movies great BUT there’s no thing I can personally connect to like how do I know why Hitchcock chose a mysoginistic character to violate privacy authorial intent?

Enjoy your holidays ashmi!! 😊
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on July 01, 2020, 07:08:40 pm
Coolgalbornin03Lo✨✨
Wow your doing so many exams....I feel like I’ve already wasted time learning today! I thought I’d do 15 in total for a subject but your doing that this soon, your bound to ace all your subjects!!!!!!!!

Also completely understand hating memorising organic Chem :( is it just reaction pathways your memorising? I tried so hard not to memorise them and I’m not sure if I learnt or memorise in the end but HEY the SACs over.

And oh my gosh rear window! I did that as text response and yeah this movie seems....how can I put this....dry? Like the movies great BUT there’s no thing I can personally connect to like how do I know why Hitchcock chose a mysoginistic character to violate privacy authorial intent?

Enjoy your holidays ashmi!! 😊
Hey Elle!

The only reason I'm doing exams is being our school gave us these big fat bound booklets of exams🤣. I sort of have to plan ahead a little because I have this massive fear I won't get my final costume sewn in time for PDT which is due the second week of September! I'm very far from acing anything but thank you for believing in me🥺.

The pathways for organic chem have been a nightmare and I just hate not being able to 'derive' it ugghhh. Rear Window has been quite boring in a way but I much prefer to write about a movie than a book! The only way I'm getting by is by looking at Lisa's costumes and how it reflects certain values🤣

Thank you Elle for commenting and have a great holiday!🥰
✰Mini-Update: 1/07✰
Current Mood:
(https://i.imgur.com/pXI5OHM.png)

Quick summary of how these holidays have gone so far with my holiday homework recap to keep me accountable:

✧I have desperately tried and failed to explain to a friend for 2 days straight the story of the game Kingdom Hearts (I would be surprised if someone knew this🤣). The one thing I could explain was the 'Persona' series and I tried to explain 'Final Fantasy' but that was just as bad as KH.
✧I have hit rock bottom nostalgia with the Pokemon series. I sort of want to redecorate my room to be Pokemon-themed after exams...
✧ Procrastination has become my best friend. I haven't done a great deal of getting ahead with study as I would like. Yay!
✧ Holidays are going way too quickly for my liking.
✧The only subject I've done decent work is Physics. (I'm doomed for English + Chem)
✧I've just realised my Methods and Physics sacs are back to back on the first week back to school. This is perfect.
✧My sleep schedule doesn't exist and I have been living off chocolate + coffee
✧Muji grid B5 notebooks + looseleaf + pens + Lihit Lab binders are life.
✧I missed the Spotlight 40% fabric sale. There goes making some new cosplays.
✧Why have I magically become obsessed with polaroid cameras and Kanken backpacks? Thanks, PDT.

Homework Checklist
PDT: Study for SAC 3rd week back (Fix Workbook/Textbook/mistakes log)
   • Working Drawings
   • Production Plan
   • Risk assessment
   • Construction skirt
   • Construction Prop
   • Exam prep cause we are on our last SAC.

Physics: SAC first week back
   • Rewrite examiners report mistakes into my mistakes log
   • Checkpoints: Finish off Transmission of electricity
   • Unit 3 Exam Booklet (15 exams. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15)
   • TSSM Practise exams (9 exams)
  • Triple check study design to make sure anything I've learnt for Unit 4 beforehand is still relevant
   • Get mentally prepared to start cracking trial exams in another month or two


Methods: SAC first week back
   • Finish bound reference
   • Checkpoints: Finish Extended Response
   • Practise SACs (4: 1,2,3,4)
   • Finish a quarter of exam booklet (6 exams: 1,2,3,4,5,6)
   • Start on the 100 digital exams cause and pray I can get through enough.
   • Review and add to mistakes log.

Chem: 4th week back SAC
   • Review mistakes log and study design
   • Finish organic Chem
   • Checkpoints O-Chem
   • Prac Exams (6)
   • Unit 3 Prac exams (4)

English: 2nd Week back SAC
   • Essay prompt deconstruction (5 minimum: 1,2,3,4,5)
   • Essay fully completed (min 3: 1,2,3)
   • Reread comparative texts (2 books)
   • Do some Argument Analysis prep.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on July 12, 2020, 08:19:58 pm
✰Update: 12/07✰

Welcome to another messy journal update by yours truly. If you are new here, time to turn back and for those that have already become addicted to this journal welcome back to another episode!
I hope you guys have made the most of your holidays and how are you all feeling for term 3?

Song of this journal update goes to:

✰Physics✰
Got a SAC this Friday and I'm not feeling good. Physics isn't my friend right now and there are just so many things to do but so little time. So our SAC is on electromagnetic induction + electricity which I must say is a fantastic topic, however, I make so many little mistakes when it comes to transmission of electricity. Putting that all aside, I love the content in Physics and yes there may be tricky things here and there, but I absolutely love the challenge! 😎 (And then being absolutely crushed and trying again).

*Ashmi vs Electricity. Stay tuned to see who wins*

(https://i.imgur.com/EFMQ2Q9.jpg)
Also, last night I was stuck with this weird Physics question that I couldn't solve. It was a really great bonding moment with my friends trying to get somewhere in this problem even though I may have mucked up sleep cycle but that's fine! Got to love sharing OneNote together and desperately writing lines of proof hoping you will get somewhere. (I am so sorry Evolio and whys. I'm the world's biggest hypocrite)

✰Methods✰
I have double-the-trouble Methods SACs this Thursday and next Monday. I'm feeling super good haha.
The objective is to get through as many questions as I physically can and make sure that while I'm at it I finish a few exams in my big exam bundle sitting on my desk. After these two SACs we are moving straight onto probability wooohoo!!

✰English✰
SAC next week Thursday after the second Methods SAC. My next two weeks are going to be hell on a plate. Rear Window is great though and my essays are much better than before so that's a start! My only problem is going to be replicated the same type of quality in an timed environment...
The aim for this week is to get some more essays done and hopefully get some more feedback. English is definitely my weakest subject right now and it is quite hard to do well in (I can already foresee myself stuffing up end of year exams). I'm trying my best sweetheart please let me have a chance of getting into my dream course 😢.

✰PDT✰
Got a SAC on the third week while I'm trying to scramble and sew this whole costume together.😎 I have less than a month to officially sew everything and I don't know how I'm going to do it. (Watch me mad sew like there is no tomorrow for the next month). Because of this subject, I've had to start practise exams early for my other subjects or else I'm definitely going to get behind....
Excluding that, my proficiency in this subject is not the best (in fact none of my subjects I have a deep enough understanding to do well enough) but I'm going to keep trying and just hope my best effort is enough to at least get me somewhere! I don't see myself doing remarkable well in this subject or any of my subjects right now, but hopefully, if I keep learning from my mistakes, staying organised and just enjoying myself I'll get somewhere... Right?😢Please let me do well enough in PDT so I can at least have some control over my future next year. (I can feel Further 2.0 vibes coming from this subject and I don't like it. Stay away from me please)
Other than that, I love you PDT and I'm excited about the weird and wonderful this Term 3!!

✰Chemmy✰
Bless Chem for having a SAC on the fourth week of the term. I couldn't be more thankful!😃 Chem is good but not good right now. I hate MEMORISING. Oh my lord I wish I could just understand things and be able to 'derive' (why can't you be like Methods/Physics).
I'm having so much regret picking this subject and I really wished I went with my gut feeling at the start of the year and changed to Spesh maths... (Kinematics in Spesh looks like so much fun...). I will definitely have to take a bridging subject when I start uni to make up for not doing Spesh which I guess is both a positive and a negative? Since Further left my life last year I've craved maths so badly I think it's becoming a mini addiction (which would also explain why I love Physics so much this year).

Back to Chemmy, I don't like you bro but that might be because I haven't gotten to the juicy stuff yet but I'm keen to learn something interesting soon!

Mini reflection of NYSF?
This is just for my own personal reference for when I reread this whole journal again at the end of the year. Maybe best you skipped it cause it's one lengthy read!
Spoiler
Man, you really want to read what's in this spoiler, don't you?
Spoiler
Nice try you are going to have to keep clicking more
Spoiler
Ok this is the last one before I jump straight into the NYSF train ride.
Spoiler
*It's not negativity for once WOOOHOOO!*

It's been 6 months since NYSF has ended. To those that have no clue what NYSF is, think of it as a selective nerd science camp with some of the most beautiful people you will ever meet + disco style.

I have never hit rock bottom as hard as I have this week. Not demotivated rock bottom, but like an emotional nostalgia rock bottom. When I first heard about NYSF, I thought it was just an average science camp, and when I was picking interest groups, I was sort of interested in engineering so I picked that. What I didn't know was that this engineering group (we were called Newton haha) would give and teach me so...much.

Many things happened from 12:36am evacuation from ANU (bushfire smoke getting into the building), late night disco parties, very competitive science competitions, toothbrush parties, singing for no reason in the dining hall, the riddles that would never stop, running around like lunatics in a shopping centre, bombarding QuEsTaCoN, Formal 2.0,  the many science lectures and even the Newton's dressing up as the bachelor/bachelorettes and somehow winning best group.

The main highlight of this program was the people. Now, the Newton group I was in, the other 11 people in it were the most down to earth people I've ever met in my life. I still don't know how I was able to be a part of this, how out of the 1700 people that applied, I somehow managed to slip past and sometimes my mind wanders off and I think to myself "how did someone like me manage to get this opportunity?". I'm nothing special, but man I got lucky, real lucky.

We may have had our program cut short to only 7 days, but to me, those were the best 7 days I've had in my life to date.

Ok, so that happened and for the past week I've been catching up with my close buddies to see how they are going, and nostalgia hit me like a truck. This week has been filled with NYSF webinars which I must say were amazing and finally being able to all come together to see each other's faces has definitely been a highlight of these holidays. The one thing I'm really looking forward to the fact a lot of people from my interest group is planning to study in Melbourne next year! I am SO looking forward to seeing them all in person again and it's definitely something I'm excited to see at the end of this tunnel, the VCE journey.

So what's the goal now? Get out of VCE with that 85 ATAR! 96 if I sacrifice myself to VCAA I am going to make sure I get to the end of this year alive!!! I need to seriously flush this negativity down the drain
That's a wrap for this journal update! Hope to see you guys sometime soon ;D. For the Yr 11/12s, hope you have a good first day tomorrow!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on July 12, 2020, 08:46:42 pm
Physics isn't my friend right now.
Aww that sucks, but hopefully you'll be back to being best friends with physics in no time! I remember when I did electricity and electromagnetism in unit 1, and it was something that I really couldn't rap my head around. More so magnetism than electricity (I think it came from confusion with my chem knowledge when I couldn't understand how electrons could move out of their fixed electron shells, in order for them to move to create a flow of electrons to generate electricity...). Anyway I wish you luck on your SAC, i'm sure you'll do great! Out of interest, what is your favourite area of physics that you have studied? For me it was nuclear, particle and astrophysics, which aren't in unit 3/4 if my knowledge is correct (it was a reason why I didn't want to continue on).

Good luck with the sewing piece I can't wait to see it! I think that's the hard bit about portfolio subjects, all the time it takes to work on the pieces!
I know the feeling when it comes to memorising. It's so nice to just understand and apply, which I think a decent chunk of chem is, but the organic chem with all the memorisation, especially in unit 4 course work it's crazy. It makes me wonder how I was able to get through bio..... If I could, I'd give you an SD card for your brain! Good luck, and I hope your first week back is great, and go smash those SACs!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on July 12, 2020, 09:11:19 pm
Hey ashmi! God, if only term 3 WASN'T filled with SACs... (how nice would that be!)

Like Geeo has said, I hope you and fiziks become best friends soon.

(I am so sorry Evolio and whys. I'm the world's biggest hypocrite)
Insert angry Pingu. You need to get your sleep! Especially now that school is nearing and we have to wake up earlier (at least I do) it's super-duper important that you stick to a (somewhat) consistent sleep schedule.

Anyhow, I'm so glad you finally updated. You seem absolutely on track for methods (oh, how I wish I could say the same!), and I'm sure you'll smash your SACs. Good luck! And your mood with English is my mood with English exactly. I wish I just didn't do English. Thinking about a world without having to write annoying essays over and over seems like bliss. Anyways, that's an alternate reality that will never come true. :'( In fact, I've got my notebook open in front of my laptop with a half-written essay staring right back at me... (yep, I'm going to keep procrastinating actually finishing writing this).

PDT seems so cool! I could never do a folio subject haha, it's so much time and effort! I seriously commend you for keeping up in the first place, let alone actually doing well. You've got this - I believe you'll do really well in PDT. Also chem is a mood - I like it but I suck at it and I put no time into studying it. So, at least you do that. :P Only 2 more terms of chem, then you're free!

Also - NYSF seems super cool, and you make me wish I had applied back then as well! It's great you'll be able to catch up with your friends once all the restrictions ease completely (whenever that will be). I also definitely reckon you can get a 96 ATAR! You've got this Ash. 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on July 12, 2020, 09:24:30 pm
✰Physics✰
Got a SAC this Friday and I'm not feeling good. Physics isn't my friend right now and there are just so many things to do but so little time. So our SAC is on electromagnetic induction + electricity which I must say is a fantastic topic, however, I make so many little mistakes when it comes to transmission of electricity. Putting that all aside, I love the content in Physics and yes there may be tricky things here and there, but I absolutely love the challenge! 😎 (And then being absolutely crushed and trying again).

*Ashmi vs Electricity. Stay tuned to see who wins*
Hey Ash! You can do this. I love your passion for physics (wish I had a passion like that). Also I can so relate to the Ashmi vs Electricity series, that's the same as Eloise vs Methods hahaha. Let's hope we both win :)!

✰Methods✰
I have double-the-trouble Methods SACs this Thursday and next Monday. I'm feeling super good haha.
The objective is to get through as many questions as I physically can and make sure that while I'm at it I finish a few exams in my big exam bundle sitting on my desk. After these two SACs we are moving straight onto probability wooohoo!!
You can do it ashmi! Two Methods SACs is a lot but I know you are able to do it. I am very glad you are looking forward to probability, hahaha I could only wish. I am dreading it  :'( :'(

Mini reflection of NYSF?
This is just for my own personal reference for when I reread this whole journal again at the end of the year. Maybe best you skipped it cause it's one lengthy read!
Spoiler
Man, you really want to read what's in this spoiler, don't you?
Spoiler
Nice try you are going to have to keep clicking more
Spoiler
Ok this is the last one before I jump straight into the NYSF train ride.
Spoiler
*It's not negativity for once WOOOHOOO!*

It's been 6 months since NYSF has ended. To those that have no clue what NYSF is, think of it as a selective nerd science camp with some of the most beautiful people you will ever meet + disco style.

I have never hit rock bottom as hard as I have this week. Not demotivated rock bottom, but like an emotional nostalgia rock bottom. When I first heard about NYSF, I thought it was just an average science camp, and when I was picking interest groups, I was sort of interested in engineering so I picked that. What I didn't know was that this engineering group (we were called Newton haha) would give and teach me so...much.

Many things happened from 12:36am evacuation from ANU (bushfire smoke getting into the building), late night disco parties, very competitive science competitions, toothbrush parties, singing for no reason in the dining hall, the riddles that would never stop, running around like lunatics in a shopping centre, bombarding QuEsTaCoN, Formal 2.0,  the many science lectures and even the Newton's dressing up as the bachelor/bachelorettes and somehow winning best group.

The main highlight of this program was the people. Now, the Newton group I was in, the other 11 people in it were the most down to earth people I've ever met in my life. I still don't know how I was able to be a part of this, how out of the 1700 people that applied, I somehow managed to slip past and sometimes my mind wanders off and I think to myself "how did someone like me manage to get this opportunity?". I'm nothing special, but man I got lucky, real lucky.

We may have had our program cut short to only 7 days, but to me, those were the best 7 days I've had in my life to date.

Ok, so that happened and for the past week I've been catching up with my close buddies to see how they are going, and nostalgia hit me like a truck. This week has been filled with NYSF webinars which I must say were amazing and finally being able to all come together to see each other's faces has definitely been a highlight of these holidays. The one thing I'm really looking forward to the fact a lot of people from my interest group is planning to study in Melbourne next year! I am SO looking forward to seeing them all in person again and it's definitely something I'm excited to see at the end of this tunnel, the VCE journey.

So what's the goal now? Get out of VCE with that 85 ATAR! 96 if I sacrifice myself to VCAA I am going to make sure I get to the end of this year alive!!! I need to seriously flush this negativity down the drain
That's a wrap for this journal update! Hope to see you guys sometime soon ;D. For the Yr 11/12s, hope you have a good first day tomorrow!
Seems like NYSF is a great program and I am seriously considering at least applying for it. I am really sad that my French Exchange isn't going ahead due to COVID but hopefully domestic travel will go ahead and the NYSF can go ahead in January :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on July 13, 2020, 09:39:25 pm
Aww that sucks, but hopefully you'll be back to being best friends with physics in no time! I remember when I did electricity and electromagnetism in unit 1, and it was something that I really couldn't rap my head around. More so magnetism than electricity (I think it came from confusion with my chem knowledge when I couldn't understand how electrons could move out of their fixed electron shells, in order for them to move to create a flow of electrons to generate electricity...). Anyway I wish you luck on your SAC, i'm sure you'll do great! Out of interest, what is your favourite area of physics that you have studied? For me it was nuclear, particle and astrophysics, which aren't in unit 3/4 if my knowledge is correct (it was a reason why I didn't want to continue on).

Good luck with the sewing piece I can't wait to see it! I think that's the hard bit about portfolio subjects, all the time it takes to work on the pieces!
I know the feeling when it comes to memorising. It's so nice to just understand and apply, which I think a decent chunk of chem is, but the organic chem with all the memorisation, especially in unit 4 course work it's crazy. It makes me wonder how I was able to get through bio..... If I could, I'd give you an SD card for your brain! Good luck, and I hope your first week back is great, and go smash those SACs!
Hey Geoo!! 😄🥰 (I love seeing a reply from you)

Me and Physics right now are on that rocky road but after being at school today it seems like we might be making some progress together. There is less tension between the two of us and I'm hoping that tomorrow's Physics class fixes it! (You are so dead right when you say we will be back in no time).
Electricity is actually quite hard when you don't have any foundation (me) and all the concepts are just super weird isn't it? Chem and Physics clash with each other in the best and worst ways sometimes😂. For me, I absolutely love Mechanics/Kinematics + Electricity! There is something about those topics I'm easily drawn too (possibly the fact it's super easy to demo in real life). Particle physics is so interesting and it's a shame it isn't on the study design (like imagine being able to learn about all this super cool random particles woah).

Folio subjects are definitely underrated in VCE. I'm excited to see more of your Food Tech creations in the future too! (They always look so good). If you can send an SD card for my brain Geoo I will happily pay for priority mail 🤣. Memorisation = big no, just no.

Thank you so much Geeo for your kind words (🥺) and I hope you have a great week!

Hey ashmi! God, if only term 3 WASN'T filled with SACs... (how nice would that be!)

Like Geeo has said, I hope you and fiziks become best friends soon.
Insert angry Pingu. You need to get your sleep! Especially now that school is nearing and we have to wake up earlier (at least I do) it's super-duper important that you stick to a (somewhat) consistent sleep schedule.

Anyhow, I'm so glad you finally updated. You seem absolutely on track for methods (oh, how I wish I could say the same!), and I'm sure you'll smash your SACs. Good luck! And your mood with English is my mood with English exactly. I wish I just didn't do English. Thinking about a world without having to write annoying essays over and over seems like bliss. Anyways, that's an alternate reality that will never come true. :'( In fact, I've got my notebook open in front of my laptop with a half-written essay staring right back at me... (yep, I'm going to keep procrastinating actually finishing writing this).

PDT seems so cool! I could never do a folio subject haha, it's so much time and effort! I seriously commend you for keeping up in the first place, let alone actually doing well. You've got this - I believe you'll do really well in PDT. Also chem is a mood - I like it but I suck at it and I put no time into studying it. So, at least you do that. :P Only 2 more terms of chem, then you're free!

Also - NYSF seems super cool, and you make me wish I had applied back then as well! It's great you'll be able to catch up with your friends once all the restrictions ease completely (whenever that will be). I also definitely reckon you can get a 96 ATAR! You've got this Ash. 8)
Hey hey whys! 🥰🥰
(I love seeing a reply from you cause I know it's going to be one juicy read😎)

Just as I've said to Geoo above, I and good old 'fiziks' are making progress. It's slow, but I'm sure with a bit more exposure to my Physics room we can be best buds again! I laughed way too hard when I saw 'angry pingu' 🤣🤣🤣. I promise that this week I'll try to get my sleep schedule back on track (yay 6am I love you too sweetheart) and that I think is going to be my new goal this week!

Nah whys I'm pretty sure Methods is going alright for you too! (Note: Just ordered my bound reference for printing at Officeworks. The only productive methods of the day haha). I swear we must be two peas in a pod or something when it comes to English. Honestly, if English essays would just disappear in our world we would be in a better place. We will forever be daydreaming of a world that will never happen😔. I have a essay on my computer starting at me too... which I hopefully am going to attempt after writing this! (nah I'm going to procrastinate).
I must admit PDT is super cool! But as the same time it's super draining and it really does make me question why I picked to do a folio subject. (Please check on your folio friends we might be slightly dying on the inside🤡🤡). 2 more terms of chem to go!! (just another 4 months yay)

whys you are like my personal cheerleader with your supportive words🥺🥺🥺. Thank you so much and I hope you have a great week!!

Hey Ash! You can do this. I love your passion for physics (wish I had a passion like that). Also I can so relate to the Ashmi vs Electricity series, that's the same as Eloise vs Methods hahaha. Let's hope we both win :)!
You can do it ashmi! Two Methods SACs is a lot but I know you are able to do it. I am very glad you are looking forward to probability, hahaha I could only wish. I am dreading it  :'( :'(
Seems like NYSF is a great program and I am seriously considering at least applying for it. I am really sad that my French Exchange isn't going ahead due to COVID but hopefully domestic travel will go ahead and the NYSF can go ahead in January :)

Hey El! 🥰

I would love to see an episode update of Eloise vs Methods! (Watch me go grab some hot popcorn and get comfy in my chair). Hopefully I'll survive past this Methods SAC and see the light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know why but there is something I like about probability (sorry functions I don't really like you). Please do consider applying to NYSF because it is definitely one of the best experiences you will ever get! (If it runs that is). If you are really passionate in science than NYSF will definitely be a highlight of your year hands down. If you need help with NYSF just give me a buzz!

Thank you El for stopping by to this journal and your encouragement🥺. Make the most out of this week!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on July 13, 2020, 10:11:04 pm
YAYYYYY I love an ashmi update!!!

Like everyone has said before..........Physics will make up with you in no time. I seriously admire your passion for this subject so so so so so much and I wish I could say the same! I'm so positive you will reach all your goals in this subject, because having a strong passion for something makes everything so much easier!!

I wish you the BESTTTTTT of luck in Methods and Eng - Eng is such a drag but I'm sure you'll be fine!! And yay! I'm glad methods is wokring for you!!

Ahhhhh the dreaded folio subject - we love it and hate it so much - but so rewarding. I'm sending you all my artistic powers and I;m sure you'll get your costume done in time!! I'm so excited to see your finished outcome!!

**sending you a magic chemical potion to make you love chemmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy**

Awesome update Ash and have an awesome first week back of term!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on July 14, 2020, 11:42:35 am

✰Mini-Update: 1/07✰
Current Mood:
(https://i.imgur.com/pXI5OHM.png)

✧I have desperately tried and failed to explain to a friend for 2 days straight the story of the game Kingdom Hearts (I would be surprised if someone knew this🤣). The one thing I could explain was the 'Persona' series and I tried to explain 'Final Fantasy' but that was just as bad as KH.



LATE reply but I understand this!

I haven't seen the DLC stuff for KH3 and only know part of the KHUx story line (and none of dark roads) but aside from that I get KH.

Which FF game were you trying to explain?

KH3 / KHUx spoilers
I know that Ventus was a leader of the dandelions but I'm not sure what's happened to then have the events referenced in Birth by Sleep with Xehanort dropping him off??

Maybe I'm just forgetting things but I want to learn what that gap is
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on July 16, 2020, 10:49:23 pm
ArtyDreams
YAYYYYY I love an ashmi update!!!

Like everyone has said before..........Physics will make up with you in no time. I seriously admire your passion for this subject so so so so so much and I wish I could say the same! I'm so positive you will reach all your goals in this subject, because having a strong passion for something makes everything so much easier!!

I wish you the BESTTTTTT of luck in Methods and Eng - Eng is such a drag but I'm sure you'll be fine!! And yay! I'm glad methods is wokring for you!!

Ahhhhh the dreaded folio subject - we love it and hate it so much - but so rewarding. I'm sending you all my artistic powers and I;m sure you'll get your costume done in time!! I'm so excited to see your finished outcome!!

**sending you a magic chemical potion to make you love chemmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy**

Awesome update Ash and have an awesome first week back of term!!

Hey hey Arty!😃

I don't really know what's up with Physics myself (especially since I hated it so much last year) but our relationship together is improving quite quickly and there is something about it that I absolutely love? I really don't know what it is, but I hope it stays 🤣

Folio subjects are so hard (I don't know how you are coping with your art folio) but they are definitely rewarding at the end when you can see all your work in one place! I'm excited to see more of your artwork soon!! I would love it if you can send some good old chemmy magical love potion this way if you can because I'm seriously losing all sense of reality in this subject🤣.

Thanks Arty for replying and enjoy the rest of the week!

Bri MT
Hey Bri!🐢🐢

I was trying to explain the Final Fantasy I & II: Dawn of Souls for the Game Boy! I spent a whole day talking about the original plot of FF 1 and then the second day explaining FF 2, but by then they probably had too much information put onto them in the course of 48 hours😂 (I think they were more confused about the gameplay rather than the actual plot). We were originally talking about JRPG, then FF came into the conversation and we started talking about this...

I haven't seen the DLC stuff for KH3 and only know part of the KHUx story line (and none of dark roads) but aside from that I get KH.
We are exactly the same with this point because the stuff you haven't seen is the stuff I've also haven't seen🤣. (My plan after exams is to catch up on everything because I'm so behind. I've only seen a bit of gameplay from others here and there for those ones you've mentioned)

To sum up how I attempted to explain KH to them it was:
>Keys everywhere
>Donald heal me PLEASE
>RIP Goofy KH2
>Mickey is the good guy
>This can't be real
> It's only KH if the characters are falling constantly.
>And last but not least, no one actually fully knows what's going on half the time

Either way, great to know we got some culture on the forums😃. Enjoy the rest of your week Bri!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Fluffysama_ on August 02, 2020, 08:23:09 pm
✰Update: 8/06✰

Hey AN! I think this is the first time I haven't gone on AN in two weeks... (Catching up with the amazing journals on here has been super hard). Life has gotten in the way and I've been overwhelmed by everything but I'm back with another journal update!  8)
(https://i.imgur.com/uokDj6a.gif)

Songs of this journal update goes to:
I couldn't decide on one🤣

✰I live in my school's Physics room✰
So on the first day back at school, the very first place I went to was the Physics room. That's right, I bypassed food and my locker for the physics room. 100% worth it.
We have been learning electromagnetism and induction (AOS 2) and there was something I got really fascinated about. Mother nature doesn't like change and creates a "force" (not exactly a force but for simplicity) to oppose changes in magnetic flux, so I thought, hmmmm how can I use this to my advantage? Well after seeing an experiment with a metal ring go flying because of this idea I was like, YO LET'S MAKE SOMETHING THAT SHOOTS SOMETHING. (My inner gamer coming out here)

And thus, for the past two weeks of my life, I've been trying to construct this device that whenever I change something, I can project something metallic. It wasn't until last Friday where my Physics teacher explained that it looked like I was trying to make a railgun...
So yeah, long story short I've been trying to make a small scaled railgun and shoot random things with it.

Other than that, I've gone completely off topic with the VCE course and was like" I wanna learn rotational mechanics" so that's where I've been.... I know what I'm about to say sounds really lame, but now I can spin a bicycle wheel and tell you what's going on.😂
We have a SAC next term on electrical power which is a big relief (less to worry about) and so far so good!

✰Chemy Chemy Chem Chem✰
Had a SAC afterschool last Thursday. Didn't go as well as I wanted but I'm glad it's over and that means moving onto the Scientific Investigation! I'm relieved to finally have that SAC off my mind and move onto other more important things and hopefully improve in the future! Someone remind me why I picked this subject again? I needed Spesh maths more than this...

✰CAS has entered the chat✰
HELLO MY LITTLE CAS BABY WHAT'S UP?
So our official Methods SAC has been moved?? To next term??? WHAT?
We have just been having tests here and there but nothing official. I really have no clue what's going on but will update when I know something. There is one thing I do know though and that is the fact I have another Methods Test in 2 weeks. Fun times! Other than that, things seem to be going smoothly.

✰Drawing? What's that? PDT✰
Hahahahaha.... Hey mate. Long time no see.
So let's start with that 70 mark SAC I had the other day. Ya girl over here somehow managed to get full marks and I still don't know how but WOOHOOO I'll take it! So yes, after my mini celebration I got back onto drawing design options. My folio got checked last week and so far was so good! Now, I just have to finalise everything so I can start on working drawings soon.

Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/tQljlqc.png)
Some drawings I've been working on recently. One of them may actually be the real thing I make UwU

✰Yo Rear Window English✰
I'm not going to even comment on this subject cause nothing is happening. I'm not joking this subject is so boring and I can't even engage with it. I want it to disappear ASAP but then again I know I need to do well or I'm screwed. I'm really hoping I can bring up my average after that A.A SAC so at least I can stand a chance at end of year exams.

Life/Goals and you name it mini-update:
So a lot has happened since I've been off AN. Let's talk positive though.
I think the first big thing is that now, I now firmly know what I wanna do in 2021. I want to study electrical engineering, and that is final. Turns out that my Physics teacher is an E.E and after talking to him, something sort of "clicked" in me, something felt "right". I can't describe this feeling but after feeling lost for a long time, this is it, I have finally found it. I have a goal and my lord it feels good to know there is something to chase after.

So YAS that's the good bits. Moving onto the more shocking realisation bits. Hahaha... I just looked at the VTAC statistics for the courses I'm considering, and both look quite...daunting?

I mean looking at the UniMelb Bachelor Sci/Masters Eng was already terrifying enough with its median being 98.15 but then I looked at the BSci and median 91.85... I'm scared, it looks tough.
Other than that, I've finally gotten back onto my feet after what seems forever and I'm ready to tackle the challenge once again. I need to keep going forward and that's exactly what I'm gonna do! I am not looking back now and I've got my eyes staring straight ahead. I'm going to drag myself over to my goal even if it kills me. I am getting there slowly and I'm trying but I WILL get there. I AM GOING TO MAKE IT...somehow Ok that sounds so cheesy
Spoiler
*Make way negative Ashmi coming through*

Personal life-wise, everything has been a bloody mess, especially in the past few weeks.

I think the one thing I can talk about which isn't dark in this journal though, is the idea that for the past few days, my parents have been trying to stop me from studying something STEM-related? They know I hate finance and business yet no matter how much I say no, they are very... persistent. Yeah, that's the best word for this scenario. Persistent.
I've tried reasoning with them multiple times, but it seems they don't want to accept what I'm saying? I'm paying for my course anyway so I don't know why you guys are angry? I think I sort of got the idea with what they were saying when it comes to 'good paying', but I'm not really all about the money? I more about the enjoyment and being happy concept? I think it will go away with a bit of time and they are going to have to accept it anyway cause these science/maths subjects makes me happy.

This journal itself has also become my "recovery mechanism". It holds no other purpose than to stop me from going insane, and so far, it has stopped me countless times from falling too deep. I'm grateful that somewhere on the internet, I can write and write and write without no one ever finding out who I really am. Maybe it's the idea that on here, I don't need to be an illusionist. One day, this journal might help someone out, but in the meantime, it's here to talk about the weird, wonderful and the wild stuff.

OKI DOKI LEMME MOVE ON BRO.
Something good happened today, I got another tutoring job for Further! I'm really happy to be teaching as it forces me to be social and actually communicate which is a plus! There is something I love about teaching others... not sure what it is though. Might find that out in the future.

Goals for now:
> Get into at least BSci at MelbUni (and be the first person on my Dad's side to have a tertiary education whoop whoop! Even better the BSci + Masters Eng)
> Smash some Physics Unit 3 exams
> Get PDT together and mass print folio out.
> Go to Muji and treat myself for once.
> Start studying like wildfire to make sure PDT doesn't swallow me whole for my other subjects.
> Just hope that I've done enough to get me to that next step in life.
That's it for today's update! I have started sewing some costumes and I'm hoping to do some more crafty stuff this weekend (Might show a pic of the product when it's done too) ;D

okay first, I saw Haikyuu and my heart literally dropped wuwuwu so cuteeee, i love the gifs you have damn you got some treasure and!!! congrats for SAC?!! I'm so happy for you woop woop and even though 91 seems so far, I totally already believe in you and it sounds like you're uber into physics so I know you're totally gonna get it !!! go! go! let go! lets go! aSH-mi!!! (used the date kou chant!)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on August 02, 2020, 11:51:26 pm
Fluffysama_
okay first, I saw Haikyuu and my heart literally dropped wuwuwu so cuteeee, i love the gifs you have damn you got some treasure and!!! congrats for SAC?!! I'm so happy for you woop woop and even though 91 seems so far, I totally already believe in you and it sounds like you're uber into physics so I know you're totally gonna get it !!! go! go! let go! lets go! aSH-mi!!! (used the date kou chant!)
Hey Fluffysama!!

(https://i.imgur.com/45ZdqeS.gif)

Haikyuu is literally the best thing to have in our lives🤣. As soon as I read Datekou, the chant instantly came into my head and I cannot get it out of my head anymore😂. If you can't tell already, I am one huge Oikawa (and Kuroo) fan so you will be seeing more of them in this journal to come. I need to seriously read the HSC forums more (and get back onto your journal )because it sounds like there is some good anime culture on that side!

Thanks for stopping by to this journal Fluffysama and have a great week ahead~

✰Update: 2/08✰

Hey everyone. It's been a while. I haven't been active on AN for quite a bit now and I'm slowly looking at the tons of unseen posts that has piled up (the journey journals have been popping too I must say. Congrats to everyone that have finished SACs recently and those who are still chipping away at work I'm so proud of you all!).

There is so much I want to say and every time I try to do a journal update, I just sit at the computer for a good hour and can't really begin to type anything. Today is a little bit different though because I've actually produced something. Just letting you know, this is going to be a really messy update.

Where on earth have I been?
First things first, corona. My school got shut down last week. We got a notification about 1am on Monday morning  where we were told to not come to school. If I didn't check my phone before I left for the station (had a SAC scheduled period 1), I would have caused myself a whole pack of trouble. So yeah, we were in remote learning before the big news today happened. Contact tracing is still going on in the background and it seems like a Yr 12 student has contracted the virus. At my school, many of my classmates aren't coping well (especially since lots of people left stuff in their lockers) and the art/tech students have been hit quite badly cause no one can finish making their projects or their folios are stranded at school (the amount of tears is unreal).

With the news today about remote learning, I'm looking forward to the amount of extra time I can use on making my PDT product at home to help decreases stress in time for exam prep. Right now, the best words to describe how I'm feeling (stealing these words from little bro you know who you are) is 'feeling detached from your own body'. I just feel like nothing but a mere machine and that's pretty much a summary of how my life has been going since the last update.

Now song of this journal update~
Spoiler
The song:
The soundtrack that's been on my endless repeat list:
We are chucking this in here too because of nostalgia
✰Methods✰
Did badly in my Methods SAC. I've already gotten my score back and it's the lowest score I've received all year for any of my subjects. There were two parts to this SAC, and although I stuffed up badly on the first one, somehow in the second part (which is worth more marks thank lord), I managed to top my class? (Possibly the cohort too but they are still cross-marking). It made my score average in the end but still it was quite a disappointment. What I've learnt: I need to stop panicking because I do better when I stop caring than when I do care.
Am I upset? Yes. Can the end of year exam bring up my score? I hope.

✰Physics✰
Update: Me and Physics have recovered from our rocky relationship and have become best buds again.

So after the terrible emotional breakdown from the Methods SAC on Thursday (2 weeks ago), I carried those negative emotions into my Physics SAC... Yay. Not as bad as Methods but still the quality of my answers were quite poor. I already knew walking out that I lost two marks and let's say I was absolutely devastated. (This SAC was also out of 30 marks too to give you an idea). Had a good old crying breakdown on the weekend.

Electricity won the battle this time around...however I also won part of the battle too. My score was the highest in the cohort and my teacher said I should be really proud and seriously stop beating myself up for SAC performance. I had mixed feelings, but then I realised that everything gets moderated anyway by the exam regardless of how poorly or well you do so those happy and sad feeling didn't really last for more than 2 min. I went back to learning waves straight after that.

Something really good that happened though before remote learning was that we got to make Chladni figures! Yes, our eardrums may have died a little because of the high pitch frequency (I kept hearing things for a good 24hrs after that) and we may have annoyed other classes around us, but we got to make these super cool patterns! Physics has really been the only good thing that has happened since the last update.

✰Chemmy✰
Chemmy is going somewhat well. SAC was suppose to be tomorrow but since we are stuck in remote learning, it has been cancelled. I'm glad in a way and I'm excited to see what remote learning brings. Either way, I had little expectations from this subject from the very start but I'm going to keep trying my best and see where that takes me!

✰PDT✰
Had my SAC in remote learning and it went well. I've also started making my costume so stick around for future, more positive updates to see some pics.

✰English✰
Had my English SAC and it didn't go the best, but it didn't go badly. Had great ideas but the way I expressed things were poor so that's something I'm really hoping I can fix up and improve by the end of the year. My goal: To find a way to make my writing shorter and more 'fluent' in time for exams.

Spoiler
✰Thoughts on life/school/new expectations✰
Hi, welcome to the exclusive Ashmi negativity corner. Do you wanna be positive? Time to close this spoiler tab and pretend it never existed. If not, then welcome and I hope you enjoy your stay!

I hate to be that type of person, but I'm just ready to leave school.

I don't have that much connection to the school I'm at, and in all honesty, I just don't want to be here anymore? I can't really describe what I'm feeling (maybe you sort of feel it too), but I want to move on. We are now in August. Has my expectations changed at all? Yes. A lot has changed. Personal life wise, things have gotten worse, that's all I'll say.

SEAS application wise, running around half of Melbourne to get documentation and find people for statement of support has been hard but now, I can say I've got all the supporting material I need! I'm really relieved to have something crossed off my list after having it sit there for such a long time, my main problem right now is trying to fit everything under that thing character limit. As a super talented someone said (you know who you are) "never underestimate the power of words" and I don't know how, but that hits deep. You can bet that I'm going to be on my computer tomorrow at 9am ready to put this application in.

Let's move onto something else that's going to cause havoc. I am becoming too obsessed with every mark on SACs I get and it's becoming very unhealthy. I give my best effort, I genuinely mean that, but if you know me well, my best doesn't get me very far. I'm about to disappoint quite a few of you that have been supporting me through this whole journal but I really hope you understand.

You know that 96 ATAR goal to get into Bsci/Masters Eng @UniMelb?
The current goal has been changed to 85. Technically I need about 78 with SEAS, but I'm hoping I can get above 85 (maybe 88 to be absolutely certain) to get into Bsci @UniMelb.

This was not a decision that I took lightly. I didn't just wake up one morning with a "yeah that's it" mindset. I thought about this for a long time and I realised, I can't ask myself more than I'm capable of. There is also another pretty big reason for the sudden change. I was looking at maybe a teeny tiny potential of possibly studying physics to a higher level and the catch is, if I do Bsci majoring in Physics, I can qualify for both Masters Electrical + Masters Physics but if I do Bsci majoring in Electrical systems, I can only qualify for Masters Engineering. (I kinda wanna study Quantum Mechanics too ngl). If I'm being honest, an 85 sounds hard, especially in the new circumstances we are all together in. (To those guys aiming for 99s it's like you are on another planet!)

Something good that has happened recently is one of my friends gave me a cute pack of Mildliners so I've started up a IG pages for posting some notes I've made! It's been really good at helping me calm down and destress (and getting me away from actual work haha). My cat has also been doing this weird 'surveillance' thing recently where she will jump onto the fence and sit there for hours looking at the neighbours (she doesn't want to play with me anymore...). I guess it's good for us cause its our cheap and dodgy version of a camera system.

So that's it for today's weird update. I'm super sleepy but at the same time, my will to watch KH gameplays will ultimately be the reason I stay up a little longer. Might also take a mini-very brief break from AN to get my life together so I might just be floating around the forums for a little bit before diving back into the action. Thank you for supporting this journal and I hope to see you all around💖
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on August 03, 2020, 06:48:46 am
First of all you're actually amazing Ash and I love your updates so much!

Where on earth have I been?
First things first, corona. My school got shut down last week. We got a notification about 1am on Monday morning  where we were told to not come to school. If I didn't check my phone before I left for the station (had a SAC scheduled period 1), I would have caused myself a whole pack of trouble. So yeah, we were in remote learning before the big news today happened. Contact tracing is still going on in the background and it seems like a Yr 12 student has contracted the virus. At my school, many of my classmates aren't coping well (especially since lots of people left stuff in their lockers) and the art/tech students have been hit quite badly cause no one can finish making their projects or their folios are stranded at school (the amount of tears is unreal).
Wow! This transition would have been hard (especially since it happened so quickly). (I can't even imagine being a student who chose to do a folio subject and then not having access to a folio). Have you got all your PDT stuff at home though? How's the final going (like how long to go?) I'm super excited to see pictures.

It's okay to be disappointed about methods, but the fact that you topped one of the parts proves that you can do it (so congratulations for that!) I totally understand you about the SAC (stupid mistakes love me too) but you can definitely still bring it up with the end of year exam.

Also CONGRATS on top of the class in physics (you are going to ACE this subject!). Your teacher is right, it's all moderated at the end of the year anyway so the fact that you received the best score really means that those small marks you lost have almost no consequence! (And you won't make the same mistakes on the exam). I love your positivity and passion for physics and am honestly in awe of your physics brain (gosh I would have no idea).

Spoiler
First I feel you about school. Sometimes I'm so over it and really just want to dive into uni life (especially with the year we've had), so you are definitely not alone in your feelings :)

I totally understand the need for new expectations and it's important that you prioritise your health and your feelings. If aiming for a course which requires a lower ATAR helps with that, then we are with you all the way! I'm sure it will still be an incredible experience and the fact that you can qualify for both Masters Electrical + Masters Physics is awesome. An ATAR of 85 is something you are more than MORE THAN capable of (in fact, you are still in with a great chance of hitting that 96 too). I think you should feel proud of your decision to choose Science at Melbourne, because it's your decision and ultimately you know what's best for you. I just encourage you to do what you want to do (and if that means changing back to your original goal in the future or after ATARs are released, then go for that too!) You've got this Ash! 

Thanks for the update Ash and all the best for online learning  8)

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on August 07, 2020, 11:01:37 am
 Hi Ashmi! Just binged your journal and I love it! Your PDT products are AMAZING! I could never be as creative haha
Great job in topping Physics and I love how inspired you are for both STEM AND Design subjects. I hope you are doing well in these dark times and I look forward for the next update  ;D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on August 30, 2020, 02:43:46 pm
✰Update: 30/08✰

*Ashmi posting a journal update*
AN:
(https://i.imgur.com/hCxhxM4.jpg)
Hey guys I'm back from the dead! Its been a while since I've been on AN and it seems like a lot of interesting things have happened. Either way, I'm excited to read some of the new posts after this journal update!

Song of this journal update:
✰Let's talk VTAC/Uni✰
Spoiler
Well hi, welcome back to this mess. This section is going to be a 'blob' of random thoughts so feel free to skip on past.

So on the first day VTAC opened, I made my account and then the following day I put preferences/SEAS in. So at first I put in Bsci/Masters Eng @Unimelb as my first preference [which my friend convinced me to put on as it was a 'lifelong' goal through VCE] and then following just a Bsci @Unimelb.

I thought nothing of it, my mindset being 'It's perfect", "there is no need to change it at all", "this is right". I just told myself that this is the right way to go as Bsci/Masters Eng has everything I could have wanted, the maths, the design and the science all in one place. It sounds flawless.

As the days followed, no matter how well that first preference fits my personality, everything felt so wrong.

I brushed it off, thinking it was just 'me and my thoughts' you know? But then more days passed, the feeling was still there. "Maybe I'm just feeling off that's got to be it" I kept repeating to myself. Then weeks passed, nothing changed.

Something was wrong, and I didn't know why.

So I did a massive brainstorm, scrambling to figure out why it felt wrong.
Was it because the ATAR was too high?
Am I scared to jump into this course?

Now if you have read this journal for long enough, you would know recently I wanted to change to just a stand alone Bsci. At first I thought I changed just because the ATAR is lower and there are 'more' options which would relieve pressure [that's true] but something still felt a bit off.

And then I came to this idea.
Was it because I don't want to do engineering anymore?
I thought about this for a quite a while. No that wasn't right, I still want to do engineering. So what on EARTH was the problem?

And then at that instant moment, I felt like I found the last missing puzzle piece. That missing puzzle piece has been staring me in the face for so long, in fact, it's been there the whole time, I just haven't taken the time to slow down and notice it.

Teaching

Long before I started this VCE journey journal, I was considering teaching as a career. The big question now was "Why did I not think of this earlier?" Well, after tracing my footsteps through the past 2 years, there was not one point in time where I was NOT a student tutor of some sort. Maybe the reason why I haven't given it much thought was that I felt fulfilled with the type of 'teaching' I already do?

Part of me still wants to do teaching, and this my friends is where the warzone begins. Do I do Engineering and make teaching a small side job or do I go full on teaching?

So I sat down and thought about it, maybe overdid it a little.
Some very rough ideas of possible options:

   1. Go with original combo plan of Bsci [electrical systems] /Masters Eng [electrical]
   2. Bsci [physics] -> Masters in Physics
   3. Bsci [physics] -> Masters Eng [electrical] (extra year though)
   4. Bsci [physics/electrical systems] -> Masters of Teaching
   5. Bsci [electrical] -> Masters Eng [electrical] *making this decision later on in life.

After going around in countless circles, I got to some sort of an endpoint.
I hoped back onto today VTAC and you bet I WHOOPED that first combo off my preference and put 1st a standard Bsci. Everything started to feel 'right'.

Ok Ashmi, is it Engineering or Teaching you are going to pursue now?
(https://i.imgur.com/GGSrzDo.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/jSVuEht.jpg)
In short: I'm going to attempt to do both. Will that work? I don't know. But that's alright because I have my whole life ahead and I can jump to different careers!

So what do I need now? That sweet 88 ATAR for guaranteed entry.
✰Life✰
Spoiler

The negative things:
Since the last journal update, my own mental health hasn't been the greatest. I never thought it would be so low and I'll admit, there have been some bad thoughts here and there. I have reached out for some help and it's been a progress of baby steps to getting 'back on track'. Family life has been quite hard too since half of them have caught corona and are in the hospital. Some will be alright but I know some won't make it. It's just been a hard time emotionally. Things can't get worse than they already are. This is what's on my plate, but I need to make it work with me. I need to snap out of,  keep running forward and if I fall down again, I need to get the hell back up and keep moving.

It's weird, being so desperate to obtain an end goal but knowing at the back of your mind it won't happen no matter how much you try. There is always that persistent resistance that just won't go away. However, as they say in Physics, if there is some sort of resistance, it's time to increase your driving force to overcome that. At this point, this motor of mine would combust anything, even if its not fuel. I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing, I'll guess time will tell.

My last 2 SACs I've done [Chem and Physics] have not gone well [even more sad because it's poor Physics] and I don't even know how exams are going to 'moderate' SAC scores. I am going to pray at this point somehow I can get close to full marks on the Physics exam to save my score. Rankings have definitely fallen down quite a bit I can tell [we don't know where we are ranked at my school]. I'm not too sure how rankings is going to work this year, but better to focus on the things you can control rather than the things you can't.

The goal: To get as close as I physically can to getting full marks on the Physics exam.

The good things:
WHOOP WHOOP somehow your girl over here managed to get onto the NYSF interviewing committee! For those that applied to NYSF, if you managed to get an interview and your interview date is either on the 12th or 13th September you may see me floating around on Zoom haha [or even better you may get interviewed by me]. I'm so excited to see some enthusiastic science people and I already know it's going to be hard choosing only 10 -20 out of those that do the interview on the weekend sadly. So many NYSF memories are flooding back as I'm writing this out.
✰School✰

Just going to talk about English today because this has been bothering me all day.
So for my comparative books, I'm doing Stasiland and Never Let Me Go.
Quick summary for those that don't know NLMG, it's about young children [clones] being raised with their sole purpose of donating their organs in the future.

When I first read NLMG I didn't have too much interest in it, however today I decided to watch the film. As soon as the end credits started rolling though, I juts sat there in silence, thinking and thinking.

I have never had so many piercing questions flooding my mind all at once.
"What does it truly mean to be human?"
"Where do I draw the line between what is morally right and wrong?"
"What is being 'humane'?"
"How far does one have to go to prove their have a soul?"

Very weird feelings and questions everywhere but either way, I'm excited to be writing some essays on this book!

I have a Chem SAC tomorrow morning and I don't feel prepared and a Physics SAC on Friday which isn't looking too good either. I'm just going to try my best and make sure I don't make the same mistakes again in the exam!

CM
Hey hey Choco!!
Yeah the folio problem was a super big problem but about 3 weeks later we were given permission to retrieve our stuff. [Massive relief]. I'm actually sewing the final thing right now and they were able to give us an extension till the last week of term to be able to construct our final product and have our folio done. It's been a bit of a bumpy ride but we are all in this together and I'm glad things didn't get any worse.
Choco your words are so full of optimism and I honestly don't know what to say🥺. Thank you so so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺. [You are like my guardian angel]
Potato
Hey Potato!!
First of all, how on EARTH did you binge read this whole journal???! There are so many pages in it I cannot imagine how long it would take to read the whole thing.
Thank you so much for the super encouraging words 🥺🥺🥺[and of course you can be creative, it's just a matter of finding what works for you!].

So yep that's it for today's journal update. See you guys all around sometime.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on August 30, 2020, 03:08:16 pm
hi ashmi! it's good to see your journal pop up again!!
also i may or may not have turned on the notifs for this journal but that will remain a mystery
the way you've described NLMG seems super interesting, i might have to check it out even though i'm not studying it!

Spoiler
With vtac/uni stuff, I'm so certain that whatever you choose to do, you can do it. And hey, I think learning is a lifelong process. Whether you choose engineering or teaching at first, that doesn't mean you can't do the other at some point down the track. On another note, I'm so sorry to hear about your family, I really wish you guys the best through these tough ass times. It sucks, it couldn't suck any more than it does, but even if it feels like rock bottom, things can only go up from here, right? Reaching out is so important and I really am proud of you for making that decision, I know it probably wasn't too easy. My pm's on AN and insta are always open for a chat <3

good luck for your chem and physics sacs, do your best and it'll be over and done with before you know it  !!! (:
looking forward to ur next update !!!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on August 30, 2020, 04:50:03 pm
Hi ashmi  ;D
You have no idea how fast I clicked when I saw your update ahahah
Reading your passion for teaching was so inspiring!

Spoiler
I'm really really sorry to hear this about your family. AN is here for you and feel free to pm me if you ever want to chat

All the best for your sacs coming up! I have faith in you!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: colline on August 30, 2020, 05:52:52 pm
Hey Ash! Sooo loving your updates! <3 <3

Just regarding VTAC, I'm not sure if you know this but UniMelb's graduate degree packages are really flexible and getting an offer into say, B Science / M Engineering doesn't immediately lock you into that pathway. Your 3-year BSci would still be the same as someone in the standard BSci course, and at the end you'll have the option to continue into Master of Engineering, or another postgrad degree, or honours, or straight up graduate and go into the workforce. The 2 courses are completely separate. So I would recommend still keeping Science/Engineering or Science/Teaching (or both) in your VTAC preferences, because it wouldn't impact your BSci at all and you still have the option to go into different pathways if you change your mind. Basically, you have nothing to lose from including either or both in your preferences, but you do get a nice guarantee and a peace of mind if you get in.

Idk if my explanation made sense hahah. ;D

And massive congrats on getting onto the interview committee of NYSF! Keep us updated!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: aprimogenitor on October 05, 2020, 10:03:40 pm
Quote
When I first read NLMG I didn't have too much interest in it, however today I decided to watch the film. As soon as the end credits started rolling though, I juts sat there in silence, thinking and thinking.

I have never had so many piercing questions flooding my mind all at once.
"What does it truly mean to be human?"
"Where do I draw the line between what is morally right and wrong?"
"What is being 'humane'?"
"How far does one have to go to prove their have a soul?"

Very weird feelings and questions everywhere but either way, I'm excited to be writing some essays on this book!


This made me smile :)

I get happy whenever people start thinking about those things because I think they're more important than anything haha.

Nice journal, I'll bookmark and come back some other time to see if you updated. I hope COVID has not been too harsh on you, and I'm sorry for any pain it has caused you.

This is a beautiful community created around someone (you) posting journal updates.

Thanks, I got many smiles from the numerous updates I read.

Good luck and all the best, I can tell you're an amazing person (from your journal) :) I hope the people lucky enough to have you in their lives are aware of that :)

Also: Good luck on the GAT! I'm sure you'll smash it! hahaha seriously though :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on October 06, 2020, 07:31:02 pm
✰Update: 6/10✰

Ashmi: *Starts posting on AN again*
AN:
(https://i.imgur.com/0Un2Osr.gif)

Hello hello! If you have stumbled onto this page for the first time welcome and for those that have been following this journey welcome back to the next episode of this chaotic mess!
Sorry for the absence recently, I've just had to deal with some personal problems which has taken a lot of emotional tolls, but now I'm back in action! Huge shoutout to you guys because I love and appreciate you all so much💖.

Song of this journal update
FYI, Half of it is in English, half isn't.
Before I begin, the replies to the previous journal update:

Blueycan❤️
hi ashmi! it's good to see your journal pop up again!!
also i may or may not have turned on the notifs for this journal but that will remain a mystery
the way you've described NLMG seems super interesting, i might have to check it out even though i'm not studying it!

Spoiler
With vtac/uni stuff, I'm so certain that whatever you choose to do, you can do it. And hey, I think learning is a lifelong process. Whether you choose engineering or teaching at first, that doesn't mean you can't do the other at some point down the track. On another note, I'm so sorry to hear about your family, I really wish you guys the best through these tough ass times. It sucks, it couldn't suck any more than it does, but even if it feels like rock bottom, things can only go up from here, right? Reaching out is so important and I really am proud of you for making that decision, I know it probably wasn't too easy. My pm's on AN and insta are always open for a chat <3

good luck for your chem and physics sacs, do your best and it'll be over and done with before you know it  !!! (:
looking forward to ur next update !!!!

Hey hey Jeyda!!

Wait.... There is a way to turn on notifs??? I need this for all the other journals on AN [including yours] cause I'm always missing out on new posts from others. Defs read NLMG sometime too!

Thank you so much for your kind words sis.🥺 I'm honoured to have someone like you around and you always make my day.
Thank you for stopping by to this mess and I really appreciate it!
Potato🥔
Hi ashmi  ;D
You have no idea how fast I clicked when I saw your update ahahah
Reading your passion for teaching was so inspiring!

Spoiler
I'm really really sorry to hear this about your family. AN is here for you and feel free to pm me if you ever want to chat

All the best for your sacs coming up! I have faith in you!
Hey Potato!
Awww bro you don't even know how much that means to me.🥺 Random people clicking onto this journal let alone writing a comment really does mean so much. Thank you for all the support and love by the way too~
Good luck with everything you have coming up Potato!
Colline🦄🐍
Hey Ash! Sooo loving your updates! <3 <3

Just regarding VTAC, I'm not sure if you know this but UniMelb's graduate degree packages are really flexible and getting an offer into say, B Science / M Engineering doesn't immediately lock you into that pathway. Your 3-year BSci would still be the same as someone in the standard BSci course, and at the end you'll have the option to continue into Master of Engineering, or another postgrad degree, or honours, or straight up graduate and go into the workforce. The 2 courses are completely separate. So I would recommend still keeping Science/Engineering or Science/Teaching (or both) in your VTAC preferences, because it wouldn't impact your BSci at all and you still have the option to go into different pathways if you change your mind. Basically, you have nothing to lose from including either or both in your preferences, but you do get a nice guarantee and a peace of mind if you get in.

Idk if my explanation made sense hahah. ;D

And massive congrats on getting onto the interview committee of NYSF! Keep us updated!
Hey Colline!

Thank you so much for the advice! I did decide to change it thanks to you and thank you so much for clarifying things. ;D
Also, I am honoured that you are reading my journal. 🥺 It is a mess sweetie, but I'm so glad that you enjoy reading it!
I can't wait to hear more about your vet journey too by the way!!

Thank you for stopping by and I hope to hear from you again sometime💖💖
aprimogenitor📚💙

This made me smile :)

I get happy whenever people start thinking about those things because I think they're more important than anything haha.

Nice journal, I'll bookmark and come back some other time to see if you updated. I hope COVID has not been too harsh on you, and I'm sorry for any pain it has caused you.

This is a beautiful community created around someone (you) posting journal updates.

Thanks, I got many smiles from the numerous updates I read.

Good luck and all the best, I can tell you're an amazing person (from your journal) :) I hope the people lucky enough to have you in their lives are aware of that :)

Also: Good luck on the GAT! I'm sure you'll smash it! hahaha seriously though :)
Hey aprimogenitor!  ;D

First of all, welcome to AN!! 8)

Second, I don't even know where to begin with writing a reply to this🥺. I am so touched by your words I'm literally on the verge of tears, but smiling simultaneously. I'm not kidding here, this has seriously touched my heart. This is so sweet to hear and has made my day. [Side note: Feel free to PM about anything! If you wanna chat or talk about certain subjects I'm always free ;D. This goes to everyone on AN too]. I don't know how much you have read when you say "numerous updates :o", but I hope you enjoy reading this chaotic journey.

Thank you so much for your kind words and good luck on the GAT too!! I'll do a journal update now thanks to this :D.
Ok, now onto the journal update you have been waiting for. It is pretty big today so I have to use a lot of spoilers

✰NYSF✰
So umm you may or may have not known that I was part of the Interview Committee this year for selecting candidates for NYSF 2021. Now this was such an interesting experience, especially since it was my first time doing something like this.

Well, since the interview offers have been sent out , I can now talk about it! [and also lovely to see your faces in the main common room if I didn't interview you personally]

So me and my awesome Rotarian were probably the interview pair you didn't want to have this weekend. If there is one thing I wanted to say, I have never rejected so many people in my life...

You would be based of a numerical score and then an option to say Yes/No to send, and if you said No, that person was instantly disqualified. Let's just say my interview pair had a lot of "No". For someone that doesn't say 'no' often, it was one hell of an experience!!! I've learnt a lot of things from interviewing people and the Rotarians during this process. Each Rotarian and past NYSFer all had their own stories and I'm not too sure how to describe it, but they sort of "opened my mind" to another world I didn't even know of. If there is one thing I love the most, it is connecting and learning from others. 10/10 experience even if it was online. As soon as restrictions die down and things slowly go back to 'normal', you bet I'm going to be non-stop volunteering at my Rotary club again.

Also, CONGRATS TO THOSE THAT GOT IN!
I'm so proud of you all and you did a superb job in the interviews. Your applications were interesting to read and each person had their own story.
✰PDT Work-In-Progress and final photos✰
(https://i.imgur.com/7dwmD7N.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/uwOHSht.png)
(https://i.imgur.com/Eui8MHh.jpg)
Note: This costume is made for my friend and not me. Anyway I'm glad I got to hand everything in and this is what it looks like up on display!
✰The "thoughts" update✰

I think my soul has already left my body, especially after the terrifying English trial exam I had the other day. I have never felt my hand become so numb before...

While my soul is on what I think is a "vacation" [and I don't think she is coming back to my body anytime soon], I'm over here feeling pretty dead inside.

So Ashmi, how is life?

Interesting bro. Weird things have happened across this month, lots of downs and some ups here and there to try and balance things out.

Honestly, everything just feels blurry yet so sharp. Have I gone insane? I don't know. I really don't know. Sometimes, I look in the mirror and can't tell if that's me or not in the reflection. It is like there is a mask on my face and it is breaking, but I can't tell if it is because the mask itself is fragile or my hand is crushing it with brute force.

Hollowness. Yeah that sounds right. Just a well painted shell, a well crafted persona and a well structured object. Ok, maybe my inner PDT is seeping out of me and is trying to convince my head that I'm an object to analyse for the end of year exam. [I'm running out of objects to analyse for the exam. I have even resorted to my English novels for inspiration. Help.] Speaking of PDT, there is a lot to talk about actually.

I don't even know where to start with this explanation. PDT is one of those subjects where every marks counts sadly [aka Further 2.0 but design version]. PDT and Further are way too similar, both in the time allocations and the pressure to not lose marks.

I won't lie, I am scared.

I'm scared that my folio and everything I've made will become invalid if I stuff up the exam.

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision to move to the school I am at now just for PDT. But I need to remind myself that everything happens for a reason, and that I need to convince myself that I have made the right decision.

PDT is just a double edged sword.
Will you decide to hurt or help me first? That is the real question.

Pressure. There is so much of it, I can't breathe sometimes.

It's like being trapped in darkness.
It's so quiet.
Words don't even come out of my mouth at this point. I just keep walking ahead because there is nothing else I could do. It's like observing a world with no sound.

It's comforting being isolated without light, but when you reach out your hand, you don't even know if you are going to touch something or not. I don't know how far I'm meant to reach out. Am I going in circles? Or am I just trying to grasp onto the emptiness that I'm destined for?

Everything is a massive paradox.

I remind myself to keep reaching out. I need to reach further into the darkness than I was before. Maybe I can never reach it, but if I don't try, I won't get anywhere. I need to remember that I have a goal and that I need to keep moving forward. Remember. I need to remember that I'm getting closer as I move in time.

Get up, get up, get up

Don't stop, don't stop, don't stop

Keep going, keep going, keep going

I better end this train of thought before I start writing a full novel. I'll end it with this:

"Painting that rainbow with black ink, I will fly"

Ok moving on to the long awaited subjects:

✰PDT✰
See above. Just handed in my folio 3 hours ago and I am DEAD inside. One year of hard work accumulated into a weird looking product and a big fat folio. My hands were literally shaking when I handed it in. I am very relieved that it is over and now I can focus on the exam.

Please check on your folio buddies because art/tech subjects during a pandemic is NOT a good idea.

Moving onto exam prep, I only have 3 proper exams for PDT which are in the study design. I'm struggling to figure out how I'm going to space these 3 exams haha. I'm doing my first trial for PDT this week so that leaves me with only 2 exams left to hopefully sustain me till November...

This is definitely the hardest subject to study for. Right now it is either going to be a hit or a miss.
 
✰Physics ✰
Oh hey handsome

No complaints with you so far. Oh wait there is a complaint....

UNIT 4 SUCKS

I HATE this wave/particle stuff. It's so boring... [why Physics whyyyy]
Harmonics can also jump into the ocean and get eaten by sharks for all I care about.

Man I was in love with you till Unit 4 appeared. Unit 4 needs to learn from Unit 3 Physics which had so much FLAVOUR and is SPICY.

Other than that major flaw, you are still handsome to me Physics ;)

Did a trial the other day and did pretty well for my first timed exam [I think it was mainly luck though]. I lost about 7 marks in total but I'm hoping to shrink that down to 0 as time goes on. I'm not going to lie, but I was a bit upset first with the score [stop inner competitive Further get your butt out of Physics please. This is not your subject and I don't want you here] but then I realised that it is the first exam and there is definitely time for improvement! So after that little scenario your girl here is back in action. She is READY to be smashing some papers ~with style~. *fist bumps the air*

[FYI, I haven't checked the grade distribution for any of my subjects except PDT cause the last thing I want to be doing is comparing myself...]

My cheat sheet is almost foolproof and all that's left to do is train my hand to be fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. I might do some more conceptual readings on Unit 4 and start doing some writing exercises to 'train' me to write faster.

OH AND OMG I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE PHYSIC TRIAL EXAMS COMING UP!!! Apparently my teacher is gonna use exams that he did back in high school on us for one of the trials and YOU KNOW HOW PUMPED I AM TO SEE THEM????
I cannot even begin to describe how excited I am to try some nice spicy physics questions that are not just boring repeats of VCAA.

If you have followed this journal for long enough, you would know that last year I hated Physics with a burning passion. Physics was actually my worst subject by a long shot last year and I don't know what has happened this year, but now it's one of the best and my fav subjects? It's funny what a bit of time can do.

Ok on a serious note, I need to get my butt together for the exam before my Unit 4 SACs drag me down more than they already are.

✰English ✰
Had a trial exam the other day and my hand is dead. Numb. Painful. RIP Muji pens.

My biggest problem is overwriting and I really need to get a grip of that before it goes out of control. I think after this journal update I'll make some very thorough plans for all the prompts I have and then go to writing in timed conditions. I would like to also bring some more new complex ideas to the table so I'll probably do some more academic readings.

Oh yeah I probably should add that yesterday I got my results back from the trial exam [they were externally marked by VCAA examiners OH NO] and I thought I did badly but I ended up doing extremely well? I have been struggling with this subject all year and when I saw those scores, I nearly fainted on the spot. I am so happy and this has given me more motivation to write more essays!

Also, if anyone does Stasiland/Never Let Me Go as their comparative, you seriously need to read the academic readings, especially for NLMG. The Stasiland readings are great [same with Rear Window] but the NLMG ones are on ANOTHER LEVEL. I was literally reading one this morning about "What does it mean to be human?" and oh my lord, that was probably the best thing I've read all year.

The idea of how Ishiguro [the author] explores the power of restraint in people is amazing and the way he weaves in deeply seated trauma between the bland lines of the narration is out of this world. I just love the fact he can create a voice that is on the edge of being human. These academic readings are giving me more new questions:

What is the limits of humanity?
What do we consider to be dehumanizing treatments?
What is a "humane" upbringing?
Do clones "have souls at all"?

Maybe the whole idea of the book is not to determine if the main character is a human or not. Maybe instead we need abandon our prior perception of what it is to be human.

It is quite baffling how a clone who narrates this whole story with the most bland and casual voice can say some of the most disturbing things. To top this all off, none of the clones want to escape. Rather, Ishiguro creates a world where all signs of rebellion is erased. That to me, is the most fascinating thing of his piece. The way power and control is maintained is through the absence of external enforcement mechanisms. I have never heard of anything like that till now. I want to look into it a little deeper.

I have gone on a NLMG tangent again..... Ah well that was fun to write out. I might do it again sometime as that sort of helped me put my ideas together into a paragraph. [Ashmi English Journal Updates??? TBC]

I am definitely without a doubt going to write an essay on that topic somewhere during this exam revision period.

I have always disliked English, but reading some random thesis on NLMG is WORTH IT. There were so many great ideas that no one I know has mentioned so far and I'm hoping to incorporate some of them into my essay.
If I had to describe it, it's like eating Korean BBQ, delicious and flavoursome.

✰Methods/Chem✰
Nothing to see here.

MM exam 2 is beautiful but MM exam 1 just like harmonics in Physics, needs to jump into the ocean and get eaten by sharks. As soon as someone takes my CAS away from me OH BOI, my confidence level drops to UNDEFINED. I haven't really touched my bound reference at all now that I think about it. In fact, as I'm writing this, I kinda forgot it existed....

Chem has definitely not been a good friend. She is very boring [COUGH Food Chem COUGH]. The only fun thing in the whole Chem course for me is Redox... I wish I could chuck Unit 4 Chem into a massive hole, bury it and never look at it again.

Ok that is it for today's update! Stay tuned for more in the future [will be much more frequent from now on] and thank you for being such a wholesome and supportive community💙
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on October 06, 2020, 08:05:03 pm
Heyyyoooooo Ash!!! You don't even want to know how excited I got for this update!!!

First of all: CONGRATS ON HANDING THAT FOLIOOOO IN!!!!!! Your final piece looks so so cool and awesome, I'm so proud of you for getting it done!! Yay no more folio!!

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This is definitely the hardest subject to study for. Right now it is either going to be a hit or a miss.
I seriously agree with this one. Really wish my folio subject was like maths so I could spam practise questions and feel prepared. I hate that exams are used to moderate our folios - like seriously. They are two completely different things! I'm positive you'll do fine though!! Have you checked out some company exams for PDT? I'm pretty sure most have updated to the 2020 study design :)

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UNIT 4 SUCKS
OMG. I pretty much said this in my last journal post. Especially AOS1. It was horrible. I seriously hate everything about waves!! WHy did unit 4 have to exist.

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OH AND OMG I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE PHYSIC TRIAL EXAMS COMING UP!!! Apparently my teacher is gonna use exams that he did back in high school on us for one of the trials and YOU KNOW HOW PUMPED I AM TO SEE THEM????
I cannot even begin to describe how excited I am to try some nice spicy physics questions that are not just boring repeats of VCAA.
You passion for physics will forever inspire me.

Congrats for doing so well on English trials! I am so confident you are going to smash that exam. And with methods and chemi, I'm sure everything will fall into place eventually. (and ah ha I'm the opposite. I hated redox so so much, Unit 4 was literally a dreammmm)

Loved reading this update Ash - hope you have an awesome week!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on October 06, 2020, 08:06:43 pm
Hey Ashmi!

First, don't worry about not posting updates, I can relate. I love your updates so much I knew I was going to reply (I've been meaning to reply to more journals but I just can't keep up!) 🥰🥺

Good job on the NYSF Interviews! I cannot imagine having to reject people and I am so happy that you had a great experience  ;D I am still a little bit salty that I didn't see you on the zoom but that's ok 😂😂

Your PDT product looks incredible! It seems so intricate and detailed and I cannot IMAGINE ever being that creative. I am so proud of you for doing this especially during a global pandemic!!!

You seem to be smashing all of your subjects and I wish you the best of luck for the rest of the year and exams ;) :) 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on October 06, 2020, 08:32:52 pm
See above. Just handed in my folio 3 hours ago and I am DEAD inside. One year of hard work accumulated into a weird looking product and a big fat folio. My hands were literally shaking when I handed it in. I am very relieved that it is over and now I can focus on the exam.
You are INCREDIBLE! I'm so proud you did it! I can't imagine the stress of trying to complete a folio during confinement without easy teacher guidance or materials but yours is incredible regardless! A massive massive congratulations Ash  ;D ;D and pleASE send me a picture of your final, I'd love to see it
Did a trial the other day and did pretty well for my first timed exam [I think it was mainly luck though]. I lost about 7 marks in total but I'm hoping to shrink that down to 0 as time goes on. I'm not going to lie, but I was a bit upset first with the score [stop inner competitive Further get your butt out of Physics please. This is not your subject and I don't want you here] but then I realised that it is the first exam and there is definitely time for improvement! So after that little scenario your girl here is back in action. She is READY to be smashing some papers ~with style~. *fist bumps the air*
Only losing 7 marks on your first exam! That's amazing (and I'm actually in awe). Whilst I'm not entirely sure, I don't think the marking is as strict as further, so losing a few marks can still yield VERY high scores  8)
Oh yeah I probably should add that yesterday I got my results back from the trial exam [they were externally marked by VCAA examiners OH NO] and I thought I did badly but I ended up doing extremely well? I have been struggling with this subject all year and when I saw those scores, I nearly fainted on the spot. I am so happy and this has given me more motivation to write more essays!
This is awesome and proves you are going to do so well in english (almost there!) Your texts sound really interesting as well. Guessing your favourite section is the comparative?

mmm
Chem has definitely not been a good friend. She is very boring [COUGH Food Chem COUGH]. The only fun thing in the whole Chem course for me is Redox... I wish I could chuck Unit 4 Chem into a massive hole, bury it and never look at it again.
Well, um, this is a little offensive... Unit 4 chem is the ORGANIC stuff and I'm frankly quite uninspired by your prejudice towards it... ???
You are doing so well with ALL your subjects Ash so don't underestimate yourself and keep working hard over the next few months! A special good luck for PDT because I know how much this subject means to you and how much effort you've put into it over the last year  ;D Have an awesome week

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on October 06, 2020, 09:24:55 pm
me rn:
(https://i.imgur.com/fYYoG4B.gif)

I've already congratulated you bUT I'LL DO IT AGAIN! It looks so amazing and I'm so proud of you for getting it done! Ah, it's actually so inspiring to see your finished product after all that gruelling work. I can't imagine how relieved you feel to have the weight of such a big project lifted off your chest!
Good luck for the GAT and the rest of your trial exams, especially physics! You've smashed it all year, and you'll do amazing I just know it. Keep working hard Ashmi! Only a few months left and then you're free  :P Looking forward to your future updates <3

Please check on your folio buddies because art/tech subjects during a pandemic is NOT a good idea.
*looks at subject selection list. sees vcd. has flashbacks to ashmi's echoing words...*

also ive just had to learn how to put in a gif and ive aged 9 years
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on October 06, 2020, 10:14:34 pm
Replies are in spoilers cause there is a lot to say!

ArtyDreams🎨

HEYYYOOOO ARTY!!🥰

Thank you so much bro! I'm so glad the folio is in and that I never have to see it again.

Honestly I don't know how you are coping with Art, but man folio subjects are just so hard to study for. There are barely any questions to go around! I kind of wished they had some other mechanism in place other than moderating the folios by the exam. [Maybe an interview or something?].

Sadly, there is only 1 company exam I can do....😢. [3 VCAA + 1 company exam]. It is sort of sad I must say.

Arty, I think spiritually we are twins because man whoever invented Unit 4, I'm sorry but I felt like I walked through a storm and back. Waves is the bane of my existence at this point. *High fives Arty*

Man I don't understand why everyone likes Unit 4 Chem😢. [Literally the only people that hate it are me and this one friend...] Did I miss out on something cool?😰. What did you like about Unit 4 Arty???

Thanks Arty for reading this mess and you too have a wonderful week!
Eloisegrace🌷

Hey El!🥰

I can absolutely agree that it is so hard to keep up with journal updates sometimes. There are so many good ones popping off at the same time you start to drown in all these amazing posts.😂

Oh this is sad you couldn't see me🤣. Don't worry there will be another opportunity next time!

Thank you so much for your kind words on the PDT product🥺. It is kinda funny thinking about the fact this whole thing was made during a pandemic! I wonder sometimes how I even started making it in all honesty. [I don't even know how I managed to get the fabric, especially after that panic buying!]

Thank you El and good luck for your exams too! I believe in you sis!
Choco🍫

HIIIIII CHOCO!!!🥰

Awwww Choco that means a lot to me🥺. Doing a folio subject under these conditions are definitely not an easy task at all. [Make sure to constantly check on your folio friends and give them encouragement too!]. The one thing I forgot to do was to take pics of my folio😅. Will do that when school is back in action though!

That gives me a lot of reassurance with the Physics exam Choco! I'm a little but unsure how science subjects work in terms of marks [and I'm really scared to look at the grade distribution😖] but I trust your words😄. Thank you Choco this makes me feel a lot better!

I would say for the English exams my fav would be the comparative just because of the book, but I must say, I really love the film we did for text response because we can talk a lot about the visuals [I really struggle to with things that are not in a visual/maths format].
Re: mmm
First of all I'm sorry if you found it offensive. 😭 I didn't mean it in a bad way.😖🥺

The main reason I find Unit 4 to be bland is the fact it is not really hands on. It is sort of hard to explain, but in Unit 3, most of the concepts were things you could do experiments on [fuels, redox, electrolysis etc] and I think the word I'm looking for here is "physical"?

I also find it a little bit sad that you can't always go right down to the very bottom of something. It is not like maths where I can fall back on first principles [which is why I like unit 3 because this happens], but for Unit 4, there is a lot of memorisation and we don't really know why for some of the things? For example, the catalysts used in organic Chem pathways. I would really love to know why it is that specific catalyst and sort of work backwards. I don't know if that made any sense😢. Food Chem is also the same problem, but a lot worse than Organics... I dislike food chem mainly because of the lack of hands-on stuff? It's kind of embarrassing to say, but I really struggle to engage with anything if it is not in the form of visuals/maths and food chem just so happens to be that.... There are some good visuals here and there though but everything else doesn't particularly interest me.

I think the only exception to this is the one experiment on making esters which was really fun! [and then it came to the problem of why I'm using concentrated H2SO4...].

I've heard a lot of Unit 4 Chem is similar to stuff you learn in Bio? Is that true? If that is, please don't murder me Choco😱.

I don't know, maybe my brain isn't wired in the right way to appreciate this type of stuff. Out of everyone I know, only me and my close friend [the French girl you know] seem to severely dislike it. I do agree with you, I am definitely uninspired by this topic and I'm hoping there might be a prac or something hands-on I could try in a hope to 'rekindle' the love for Unit 4 Chem.😓
Thank you so much Choco for the reply and the encouraging messages! I really do appreciate it and good luck to you too! Have a beautiful week🥰.
Blueycan🌠

HEYYY JEYDAAAA🥰.

(https://i.imgur.com/Nqv2yuQ.gif)

OMG what a way to start a reply!🤣. I literally burst out laughing when I saw that. I am SO proud to see you evolve to using gifs! [My bro, you have evolved so much that now you are nearly an adult HAHAHA]

Girlllllll, it feels SOOOO GOOD knowing that a whole years worth of work is gone!

Don't worry, VCD is a good choice. Be prepared to get wrecked but not wrecked simultaneously. So long as you are organised [and have the supplies] you will be fineeeee!💯💯💯

Thank you Jeyda for stopping by to this mess! [And even better thanks for telling me there is such thing as post notifications]. Good luck on the GAT too and have a great week!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on October 07, 2020, 06:38:35 am
First of all I'm sorry if you found it offensive. 😭 I didn't mean it in a bad way.😖🥺
The main reason I find Unit 4 to be bland is the fact it is not really hands on. It is sort of hard to explain, but in Unit 3, most of the concepts were things you could do experiments on [fuels, redox, electrolysis etc] and I think the word I'm looking for here is "physical"?
I also find it a little bit sad that you can't always go right down to the very bottom of something. It is not like maths where I can fall back on first principles [which is why I like unit 3 because this happens], but for Unit 4, there is a lot of memorisation and we don't really know why for some of the things? For example, the catalysts used in organic Chem pathways. I would really love to know why it is that specific catalyst and sort of work backwards. I don't know if that made any sense😢. Food Chem is also the same problem, but a lot worse than Organics... I dislike food chem mainly because of the lack of hands-on stuff? It's kind of embarrassing to say, but I really struggle to engage with anything if it is not in the form of visuals/maths and food chem just so happens to be that.... There are some good visuals here and there though but everything else doesn't particularly interest me.
I've heard a lot of Unit 4 Chem is similar to stuff you learn in Bio? Is that true? If that is, please don't murder me Choco😱.
I don't know, maybe my brain isn't wired in the right way to appreciate this type of stuff. Out of everyone I know, only me and my close friend [the French girl you know] seem to severely dislike it. I do agree with you, I am definitely uninspired by this topic and I'm hoping there might be a prac or something hands-on I could try in a hope to 'rekindle' the love for Unit 4 Chem.
Gosh I was totally joking (and everyone likes different things which is why AN is so cool) - also I feel like your brain is more wired towards the mathematics of chemistry? but yeah the organic chem stuff is more similar to bio. I kind of understand where you're going though, I mean sometimes the lack of depth in VCE or the fact that they only skim the surface of certain topics can be annoying (although I had the same problem with electrolysis, which you probably didn't have because of your physics background - I was so confused between the difference between voltage and current and my teacher just could not explain it at all.)

Anyway sorry for that mini rant and thanks again for the update, keep being the best  8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on October 07, 2020, 07:43:09 am
Hey,

The reason you're using concentrated H2SO4 is Le Chatlier's principle! It's a reversible reaction & dilute H2SO4 would mean adding more water...

Usually people hate mechanisms (the actual step by step of how reactions work) but I learnt a bit of that in VCE and I found it helped me feel like I was actually understanding a process rather than just memorising.

Also: spectroscopy is the best topic in chem imo so u4 gets major points for that


With physics:
- you should be able to do standing wave formation in strings practically
- the formulas don't come from nowhere - you should be able to learn/be taught why the path diff eqs are as they are and same for De Broglie model of the atom. Not sure if that helps?
 

Congrats on your folio!


It's pretty normal to be feeling a lot of pressure at this time of year but I hope the heaviness of it eases up soon :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on October 07, 2020, 07:47:24 am
Yay, an Ashmi update!! So sorry about the late response, I spent the entire day spazzing about the GAT today ahaha

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Good luck with everything you have coming up Potato!
Thank you!! Good luck with your upcoming exams (though you don't need it  8) )
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Just handed in my folio 3 hours ago and I am DEAD inside
WHAT A ROCKSTAR, amazing job!! I can't even imagine how terrifying or stressful it would be! Don't worry though, your products are AMAZING and I'm sure the examiners will be in awe  ;D

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I lost about 7 marks in total but I'm hoping to shrink that down to 0 as time goes on.
That's not 'pretty well,' that's extraordinary, Losing 7 marks in your first exam is outstanding and shows how much passion you've had for this subject this year. I also hated Bio before Year 10 all my life hahaha, sometimes it's our least favourite subject which becomes our favourite!

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[they were externally marked by VCAA examiners OH NO] and I thought I did badly but I ended up doing extremely well?
Wowowowow! I don't have anything to say, Im legit so amazed (I have very bad vocab lol). This is sooooooo amazing. Waiting for that 50 in English dude...

You are literally rocking all of your subjects which most people find difficulty with and you've shown extra resilience doing a art/tech subject in a pandemic. All the best for all of your subjects, and especially for PDT and Physics, you're gonna ace it! Have an amazing week  ;)

Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: angrybiscuit on October 07, 2020, 05:00:23 pm
Hey ash! I literally missed you so much!!

Awesome job on your folio, I know how hard you've worked all through the year and I hope the examiners can see it :) By the way it looks incredible!!!!

Also incredible (sorry my lack of vocab is really showing through) job with the interviews... your role sounds v important so good job. Awesome work with all your subjects so far, you're showing incredible results and we're super proud!! I love how in-depth you go in English ahha I could never. Hope your trial exams go well, and best of luck for the term ahead :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on October 07, 2020, 06:12:47 pm
Hey ashmi! Been a bit busy so I'm late to the party, unfortunately. :(

Firstly, a massive congrats on finally finishing and submitting that mammoth of a folio. It's no easy feat, especially in the mess of a situation we're in right now, so I'm very very proud! The photos you've attached are astounding and I can see the hard work you've put into it.

I'm going to have to terminate our friendship right here. You don't like unit 4 chem!?!?!?! My goodness, it's the only bearable part of chem! If it weren't for unit 4 I don't even think I'd have picked up this subject. I cannot, for the life of me, understand unit 3, and it's so so confusing, and I still have all of unit 3 to relearn before exams. :( In all honesty, I'm so envious of your love of unit 3 because I just don't understand anything in it. :(

Congratulations with physics! I know by this point I'm just echoing what's already been said by the people above me, but you did so well on your exam and you should be mighty proud! ;D I know you'll do amazing in this subject, keep working hard! It's also great to see your love for English shine through the comparative.

Re. thoughts
I don't know what it's like to do PDT or further, but I do know how you feel. Take a deep breath ash, I know things will get better. It's hard to maintain a positive outlook on things right now, but you've been working so hard and I think you're being hard on yourself. It's totally valid to feel fearful and I hope things get better for you. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, and ease some of that pressure. <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on October 09, 2020, 05:42:12 pm
Replies are in the spoilers!

CM🍫
Gosh I was totally joking (and everyone likes different things which is why AN is so cool) - also I feel like your brain is more wired towards the mathematics of chemistry? but yeah the organic chem stuff is more similar to bio. I kind of understand where you're going though, I mean sometimes the lack of depth in VCE or the fact that they only skim the surface of certain topics can be annoying (although I had the same problem with electrolysis, which you probably didn't have because of your physics background - I was so confused between the difference between voltage and current and my teacher just could not explain it at all.)

Anyway sorry for that mini rant and thanks again for the update, keep being the best  8)
Hey Choco!!🥰

Oh thank heavens! I really don't like how Chem sometimes just skims over everything.😖. Electrolysis was probably one of my fav bits of Chem [you are defs right about that because it involves good old Physics🤩

[Ashmi: *Learns from CM that half of Unit 4 is Bio.
Ashmi: *sweats as she has just realised she has enraged the Bio lover*]
Don't worry Choco, mini-rants are always good to have!🤣
Bri MT🐢
Hey,

The reason you're using concentrated H2SO4 is Le Chatlier's principle! It's a reversible reaction & dilute H2SO4 would mean adding more water...

Usually people hate mechanisms (the actual step by step of how reactions work) but I learnt a bit of that in VCE and I found it helped me feel like I was actually understanding a process rather than just memorising.

Also: spectroscopy is the best topic in chem imo so u4 gets major points for that


With physics:
- you should be able to do standing wave formation in strings practically
- the formulas don't come from nowhere - you should be able to learn/be taught why the path diff eqs are as they are and same for De Broglie model of the atom. Not sure if that helps?
 

Congrats on your folio!


It's pretty normal to be feeling a lot of pressure at this time of year but I hope the heaviness of it eases up soon :)
Hey Bri!

Chem:
You are an absolute miracle worker! That makes SO much more sense for the concentrated bit [but now I have more questions on why it is specially H2SO4....].

I really like learning about the mechanisms of how everything works! [I have a memory of a goldfish that's why I love to learn about the why and not the what].

Physics:
Yeah I've tried doing all that [physically making a standing wave and deriving things from first principles etc] but it just doesn't seem very appealing or 'fun'? I might try doing what you suggested again and see if that works though!
The whole standing waves unit I am struggling to enjoy but I think I might need to look into a different lens to see the 'true beauty' of it🤣.

Thank you so much Bri for your kind words! I'm super relieved to have handed in my folio and thank you for reassuring me that what I'm feeling is definitely normal. I really appreciate it🥰.
Potato🥔
Yay, an Ashmi update!! So sorry about the late response, I spent the entire day spazzing about the GAT today ahaha
Thank you!! Good luck with your upcoming exams (though you don't need it  8) )WHAT A ROCKSTAR, amazing job!! I can't even imagine how terrifying or stressful it would be! Don't worry though, your products are AMAZING and I'm sure the examiners will be in awe  ;D
That's not 'pretty well,' that's extraordinary, Losing 7 marks in your first exam is outstanding and shows how much passion you've had for this subject this year. I also hated Bio before Year 10 all my life hahaha, sometimes it's our least favourite subject which becomes our favourite!
Wowowowow! I don't have anything to say, Im legit so amazed (I have very bad vocab lol). This is sooooooo amazing. Waiting for that 50 in English dude...

You are literally rocking all of your subjects which most people find difficulty with and you've shown extra resilience doing a art/tech subject in a pandemic. All the best for all of your subjects, and especially for PDT and Physics, you're gonna ace it! Have an amazing week  ;)


Yo yo yo what's up Potato?🥰

Oh bro the GAT don't even remind me about that haha. I'm sure you did fine so no stress!

Bro, I'm definitely going to need all the luck I can!! I'm not magically gifted sadly so luck is going to be a major factor here haha. Also thank you so much for your kind words on my folio! I think have my soul went into that so I'm really grateful everything turned out alright.

I'm so confused when it comes to science exams and what is perceived as 'good' or 'bad' but thanks to you and everyone else it is super reassuring to know that I'm going alright! It is super funny how we can go from hating something so much to loving in with time🤣.

I have bad vocab too Potato don't worry!!🤣. Sorry to burst that bubble but defs not getting anywhere near 50 thanks to my SAC grades + ranking haha. I am also aiming no where near that haha. But WOAH that confidence Potato is truly astonishing!

Awww thank you Potato for your kind words and thanks for stopping by to this mess. I really appreciate it🥰.
angrybiscuit🍪
Hey ash! I literally missed you so much!!

Awesome job on your folio, I know how hard you've worked all through the year and I hope the examiners can see it :) By the way it looks incredible!!!!

Also incredible (sorry my lack of vocab is really showing through) job with the interviews... your role sounds v important so good job. Awesome work with all your subjects so far, you're showing incredible results and we're super proud!! I love how in-depth you go in English ahha I could never. Hope your trial exams go well, and best of luck for the term ahead :)
Oh would you look at this cutie🥰. Hey sis how is it going??
Firstly, I MISS YOU TOO!😭

Awww thank you for your kind words biscuit🥺. I'm really glad you liked it!

If there is one thing we have in common AB, it's the fact we both have terrible vocab🤣. I don't know what has happened with me and English recently but man I don't want it to stop anytime soon [got my comparative next week haha].

Good luck to you too sis and I hope to hear some great things from you!!🥰
whys🦁
Hey ashmi! Been a bit busy so I'm late to the party, unfortunately. :(

Firstly, a massive congrats on finally finishing and submitting that mammoth of a folio. It's no easy feat, especially in the mess of a situation we're in right now, so I'm very very proud! The photos you've attached are astounding and I can see the hard work you've put into it.

I'm going to have to terminate our friendship right here. You don't like unit 4 chem!?!?!?! My goodness, it's the only bearable part of chem! If it weren't for unit 4 I don't even think I'd have picked up this subject. I cannot, for the life of me, understand unit 3, and it's so so confusing, and I still have all of unit 3 to relearn before exams. :( In all honesty, I'm so envious of your love of unit 3 because I just don't understand anything in it. :(

Congratulations with physics! I know by this point I'm just echoing what's already been said by the people above me, but you did so well on your exam and you should be mighty proud! ;D I know you'll do amazing in this subject, keep working hard! It's also great to see your love for English shine through the comparative.

Re. thoughts
I don't know what it's like to do PDT or further, but I do know how you feel. Take a deep breath ash, I know things will get better. It's hard to maintain a positive outlook on things right now, but you've been working so hard and I think you're being hard on yourself. It's totally valid to feel fearful and I hope things get better for you. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, and ease some of that pressure. <3
Hey hey whys! 🥰

Awww whys that means so much to me.🥺 I'm really grateful for your kind words and yes that folio was like climbing mount Everest and back [I don't even know how the other folio kids do it...]

Ashmi: *Seeing whys wanting to end friendship over U4 Chem*
*Also remembers CM saying Bio was pretty much U4 Chem*
*Realising that everyone on AN likes Bio*

Ashmi: *SWEATS AND RUNS*
(https://i.imgur.com/MQXZiep.gif)
Hey whys, do you think we can merge together into one person and exchange our U3 + U4 knowledge?🥺👉👈🤣. Honestly we are the polar opposites when it comes to Chem!

Also, thank you for the reassurance🥺🥺🥺. I definitely needed that and I think I seriously need to take a deep breath.

Thank you whys for your help and good luck for exam prep!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on November 07, 2020, 07:40:37 pm
✰Update: 7/11✰

Hey AN!

(https://i.imgur.com/t18LSrO.gif)

I'm stopping by for maybeeeeee one last update till my last exam is over.

Thank you for those that have supported this hectic journal and have actually clicked on to this random thread. It means a lot to me and hopefully you guys learn a lot from my mistakes.

✰Song of this journal update✰
✰Just a little update on subjects✰

So numerically, this is how confident I feel for certain subjects:

English: 5/10
MM E1: 6/10
MM E2: 8/10
PDT: 9/10
Chem: 4/10
Physics: 10/10 (I am more prepared for this subject than all my subjects combined HAHAHAHAHA)

Qualitatively, this is how I feel:

English:
I have made many plans for Section B (Stasiland and Never Let Me Go) and I feel confident I can write a sustained piece in this bit, however, I am struggling to make full proof essay plans for Section A (Rear Window). Section C has been a nightmare because of its repetitive nature - sometimes I cannot tell if my piece is good or not? At the start of exam revision period, I was getting 7/8s for my essays, but now I've been able to stabilise myself to 8s and 9s depending on the prompts/article used. I don't know if my teacher marks too easily or harshly so these are only rough estimates. (I am still questioning how I managed to get all high scoring essays in my first timed trial exam cause I haven't been able to replicate that since...)
If anybody wants to be last min study buddies for any of the texts above please DM me! I love exchanging ideas!!
 
MM E1: This exam is hell. No honey just no. It is always the arithmetic errors I'm making here. Yes, I can get the method mark 99% of the time, but depending on how much I have to 'do' to get to the final answer, the worse my marks get. I am working towards improving my arithmetic and hopefully, I can reduce the marks lost here before the exam soon.

MM E2: This exam is heaven. When I have a CAS, everything in life becomes so much better. I have the worse arithmetic ever and I absolutely adore this exam because of my CAS. I probably should add I haven't even printed out my bound reference yet. I had a mini 2 page bound ref for my very last MM SAC, but it doesn't include any of Unit 4 though... Man, I am unorganised in comparison to last year. I've mainly been using the formula sheet though so I actually am not too sure what to add into it. I'll figure it out after the English Exam.

PDT: Ouchie. I'm also losing a lot of silly marks here and there but I'm working on techniques to make sure I reduce the chances of this happening in the real exam. (Mainly with colour coded highlighters and looking at the questions thoroughly through reading time). I'm finding it VERY HARD to draw a fully coloured and annotated design in just under 8 minutes though (the max time you can spend in order to be able to complete the next following questions). There are not a lot of exams available sadly, so sometimes it is hard to feel confident that you know hat you are doing. The good news is that every trial I have done, I've been to get over 90%. The bad news is that I haven't gotten one 100% yet - I've come close with 89/90, but not the target 90/90. There is still plenty of time for me to refine my mistakes though, so that is what I will keep doing and hope it pays off.

Chem: You are my 10% subject and I do not care about you anymore. There is a VERY distinct difference between my Chem trial exam scores in comparison to my other subjects and my SAC scores (although they do get moderated) are much worse than all my other subjects. I'm sorry bro but it is time for me to leave you, however, I'll come back to you though if you have juicy electrolysis questions. Sorry, Chem, I didn't want this to happen but it is pretty obvious you are the 10% in my life now.

Physics: Oh hi handsome. How can someone be so beautiful yet so understanding?
Trial exams have been going great, plenty of time leftover and I love every question I see. Definitely, one of the most fun exams to do! I have done a lot of trial exams for this subject and have definitely lost count at this point. I'm just scrambling to get my hands on as many hard questions as I physically can. I never imagined this would be one of my best subjects in Year 12 and I really hope that unlike last year's 3/4, this subject pays off big time. I have worked my butt off for you Physics and I am begging you to NOT do a 180-degree turn on me now. This subject and PDT right now are my only hope.

My literally mood right now for Physics:
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/QgFSGnZ.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/3esG1ER.jpg)
*I can spiritually relate to the seal right now*

✰Revised Goals✰
Oh and here are the goals for what I want to get:
ATAR: 88
Course: BSci @UniMelb
Major: Probably Physics (Don't tell my Physics teacher this or I will be interrogated like there is no tomorrow)
Plans: Engineering/Physics/Teaching - can't decide yet so let's leave that for older Ashmi. I not wise enough yet as you can tell.
Other things I want to add: I pray my friends also get into the same course cause this is also their first preference.

From this journal update forward, this is going to be an ATAR FREE JOURNAL. Yes, you heard that right, ATAR free on ATAR NOTES. MINDBLOWN.
(https://i.imgur.com/yF0xi3p.jpg)
So yes to those people that want to stay away from exam threads and want something that doesn't talk about study scores/ATARs, feel free to pop on by in the future. All you will hear is if I got into the course above or not. No matter what score I get, you probably won't hear about it, unless it gets publicly announced by my school or something. (Hopefully not)

We are close to the end guys and good luck to everyone!!! 🥺💕
You have got this and I love you all very much. Go into the exam confident and I hope to hear positive news from each and every one of you. You all deserve to do well and I really hope everything goes smoothly!❤️
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Coolgalbornin03Lo on November 07, 2020, 08:30:51 pm
I was so excited to see an update!!!!!!

Also your gonna do GREAT in English! Your essays are amazing and you have quotes and everything! And also I’m up for being a rear window study buddy because I understand the struggle.....Section B is so much easier 😭😭

Chemistry is also being left behind for me. I mean 3 exams that aren’t Chem and I wonder what I’ll be doing 🤔

Good luck!!!! I can’t wait to see how you go! I’m sure you’ll do amazing  :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on November 07, 2020, 08:36:59 pm
Hey Hey ashmi!! You're gonna smash this, I believe in you! Your mindset is amazing, I wish I was as good in physics as you 8)
Looking forward to your ATAR-free posts and all the best! <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on November 16, 2020, 09:31:35 pm
✰Update: 16/11✰

Hello beautiful people of AN!!
(https://i.imgur.com/i01A6VN.gif)

Your girl here is procrastinating (as usual) and has decided to do a very quick mini-update to this journal.

✰Song of this super quick mini-update✰

Coolgalbornin03Lo🤠
Hey bro🥰

Thank you so much for the last min English cram session last week! I loved that so much and I cannot believe that we actually did a prompt very similar to the one in Section A HAHAHAHAHA. I'm so glad I don't have to listen or watch Rear Window again.
Good luck for your upcoming exams and I know you are gonna do great!!
Potato🥔
Hey hey Potato🥰
You know when you see Potato there is going to be a massive rush of positivity
Welcome back to this good old messy journal 8).
Oh man, how I wished I wish I could understand bio🤣.
I'm glad to hear that the bio exam was alright and also good luck for any assessments/Yr 11 exams (if you have them) coming up! You will be 100% fine I know it!
Although this is a short update, I think it is quite important so I'll just post it in this journal today.

I have some exciting news!!

So those that have friends that do the art/tech/design might have heard of something called the VCE Season of Excellence. To cut the long story short, there are different streams, Top Screens, Top Arts, Top Acts, Top Class, Top Talks and Top Designs.

Well, since your girl here does PDT, she decided to enter for Top Designs. I didn't think much of it and considering that my whole folio is digital (goes completely against all normal folios haha), I figured I wouldn't get anywhere. I completely forgot to mention it in my journal (I actually did forget it existed for a good two weeks) and time flies when you are focusing on exams.

Last Friday about 5pm ish while I was stuck grinding some PDT exams at school, I got an email.
"Who on EARTH is emailing me now?" I huffed, especially since I was stuck on this super hard question I was trying to formulate a concise answer for.

I put my pen down and then went to read the email. Saw the sender was VCAA Season of Excellence and thought "Ok it is probably a rejection email from the application I sent in the other day". I could only send in 10 very specific pages that didn't show my full folio potential anyway so I was already expecting to get rejected from the start. (Let me tell you the 10 pages they asked for were the worst pages of my folio...) Even the girls at my school that have gotten 50s in the past didn't get shortlisted at all. I knew it was a very strict process and that my folio definitely didn't make the cut in comparison to the other amazing folios I've seen.

I checked the email out anyway and my eyes nearly popped out of my head.

It said this:

"Dear Ash,

Thank you for your Product Design and Technology (PD&T) application for Top Designs 2021. Selection for PD&T is a two-step process and I'm very pleased to advise your application has been shortlisted for the next stage"

I got shortlisted for VCE's Season of Excellence: Top Designs

I got shortlisted for Top Designs

I GOT SHORTLISTED FOR TOP DESIGNS.

My measly little digital folio got SHORTLISTED????

OMG, WHAT IS HAPPENING. VCAA WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! AND NOW YOU ARE TELLING ME I HAVE TO GO TO YOUR HEAD OFFICE TO GIVE MY FULL FOLIO IN FOR ROUND 2???

This is literally happening and I never thought a day like this would come. I'm doing something right in PDT after all.

I don't think I'll get past the 2nd stage (VCAA has a theme each year and I doubt that my Leafeon Costume will fit this year's new theme) but MAN I'M HAPPY YOU EVEN SHORTLISTED IT!! This is like a dream come true to even get shortlisted!! I am SO SO happy to even get someone to look at my folio and think it is worth something. I'm honoured for whoever is on the VCE Season of Excellence committee who looked at my work and actually considered it.

Now if you check the very first post on this journal, it says this:
On top of that, I would also really love to get into Top Designs for 2021 (or at least shortlisted). Just the idea of having your folio and product up on display in a museum sounds pretty cool and I would really love if I could get my costume up there one day!
+1 Accomplishment = Happy Ashmi
This may have been a messy year where I have thrown most of my original goals out of the window, but I'm glad one of them worked out🤣. I might post some photos of my folio in this journal if people want to see them?

Ok sorry for the sudden outburst of an update. I felt PDT was quite an important part of myself and hence why it gets its own journal update today. Also, good luck to all you guys doing exams! I know you will do great!❤️❤️
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: lm21074 on November 16, 2020, 09:43:03 pm
CONGRATULATIONS ASHMI! 👏❤

From what you've shown us on the forum, your PDT work is ah-ma-zing! :)

Just wanted to say that I admire your passion for the subjects you enjoy and love of learning! I have no doubt that whatever ventures you take, you will go far.

Hope the rest of your exams go well! Keep at it :)





Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Coolmate on November 16, 2020, 09:44:33 pm
Hey Ash!

Congratulations on your shortlisting, this is fantastic news!!! ;D ;D
All of your hard work is paying off! ;)

Looking forward to the next update and goodluck with the rest of your VCE exams ;D

Coolmate 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on November 16, 2020, 09:55:49 pm
Congratulations, ashmi! You're killing it!
You should be very proud  ;D  ;D  ;D

Good luck for the rest of your exams! Keen for your next update <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on November 16, 2020, 10:30:24 pm
AHHHHH! That's amazing Ash!
You should be so proud of yourself!

The amount of work you've put in for PDT has really shown through your entire journal, so congratulations, you deserve it.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on November 17, 2020, 06:00:35 am
I’m SO PROUD!! You deserve this so much and I’m so happy for you! I’m sure that you will be very well considered for the next stage, especially since I’ve seen pages of your folio and it’s incredible  8)
Congratulations again!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on November 17, 2020, 06:58:54 am
Congratulations!!

Also there is seriously nothing to apologise for, thank you for sharing your accomplishment and excitement with us!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on November 17, 2020, 07:38:08 am
Hey ashmi!!! Thank you so much for the encouragement!
AND CONGRATULATIONS that's amazing!!!! I'm sososo proud and so happy for you! You deserve this soo much  ;D
All the best for your exams and looking forward to the next update  ;)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on November 17, 2020, 08:24:28 am
CONGRATS ASH!!I know I said this already, but I'm so so so excited for you  :D Good luck for your interview!!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Marylen on November 17, 2020, 10:57:31 am
OOOOOOOOOOO GO ASHMI!
I knew you could do it! (I have been silently reading your journals throughout these last entries  ;D)
Can't wait to see what happens next! Heck, maybe I could be gazing with astonishment if I see your designs on a fancy mannequin behind glass!

Love,
Mary
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on November 17, 2020, 11:16:08 am
YOU GO GIRL!!!!!
I’m so so so proud of you - YOU DID IT!!!! You’ve worked immensely hard and the fact that you’ve been shortlisted for top designs is amazing, keep up the good work!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 17, 2020, 02:58:22 pm
ASH OMG OMG
CONGRATS BB SO WELL DESERVED. Been seeing your folio being putting together these past couple of months and it feels like I'm actually part of the process hehe. Anyways congrats! I know how hard you've worked for this... you deserve it and more!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on November 17, 2020, 05:14:05 pm
OH MY GOD  ;D ;D ;D

GO ASH! I'm so proud of you! Hope exams are going well  :) :) :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on November 21, 2020, 09:07:49 am
✨lm21074, Coolmate, blueycan, Geoo, CM, Bri MT, Potato, ArtyDreams Marylen, whys, angrybiscuit, eloisegrace✨
Hey guys! I just want to say thank you SO SO much for your comments🥺🥺🥺

It really means a lot hearing what you have to say and can I just say you all are so wholesome. I'm so grateful to have such amazing people like you on the forums and it really does mean so much to hear each and every one of your unique replies❤️. I definitely will be posting some pics of the folio after exams so stay tuned to see them!
✰Update: 21/11✰

Journal Update
Hey AN. I'm back with another update.

Remember how I was talking about PDT in my last update? Oh boy here she is again for this whole journal update. Before we begin though, today's song of this journal update goes to this song. This has been my go-to song to blast for the past 2 years whenever I do any work for PDT and means quite a lot to me surprisingly. I was going to leave this particular song for the very last update of this journal but it is here now. If my whole VCE journey could be turned into one song it would be this one here:
(Make sure you turn on the subtitles and auto-translate it to English🤣)

I don't really know where to begin this update so let's just start with the exam which was yesterday.

I walked into school just like an ordinary morning, but with the exception of a good old hash brown from Maccas in my hand.  My PDT class is quite small so we pretty much chilled and had a mini "picnic" in front of the stairwell we would have to go up for the exam later on. Everything was fine and 10 minutes before reading time began, we walked up those stairs to Level 3, the exam floor. I felt very prepared for this exam, but I had a feeling that something didn't feel right. I couldn't put my finger on it, but something was definitely out of place with the exam booklet that was lying there in front of me. I brushed it off and put those thoughts to the back of my mind to worry about it later.

Then, reading time began. I opened the exam booklet and was had a look at the first few questions in Section A. I looked at the second question in that section and so many alarm bells were ringing in my head. I could see so many traps with that question and I was shocked to see something of that "difficulty" at the start of the exam. I kept going, intrigued to see what else would be on the paper. The next few questions following for section A had its easy components but some good trap questions that could easily throw someone off. It wasn't until I reached the middle of the exam booklet where the supervisor instructed us to rip out the detachable design brief. Just when I was about to rip it out, I had a feeling something bad was about to happen. That feeling I had at the start before the exam came back and washed over me. I knew while firmly holding onto that design brief that there would be something in it I wouldn't want to see.

And then I opened it, releasing a beast I didn't know existed out of its cage.
Section B, worth 50% of the exam.
This was the curveball of VCE PDT this year.

For the very first time in all of VCE PDT history, they didn't want us to design an outfit.

They wanted us to make a tactile play mat that transforms into a bag.

That was the moment my heart sank.

"I must be hallucinating" I muttered to myself. But no matter how much I reread that piece over and over again, those words on the paper didn't change. The panic mode started to kick in and in that time span, I could feel my mind becoming clouded.
Writing time commenced and that is when I bolted through Section A as quickly as possible, knowing that this new foreign design task for Section B would throw me off guard.  I usually can get the PDT practise exams done with 30 minutes to spare, but man, this exam I finished literally 5 minutes left before writing time ended. Section A was great, but Section B was a nightmare. All those precious marks that you need to save in PDT were easily lost to my Section B design response.

Everything that I worked for slipped right through my fingers. All those blood (literally), sweat and tears wasted.

I walk out of that exam room feeling numb. I don't even think I got to the stairwell before I burst into tears. And here I was, standing at the top of the level 3 stairs, alone and crying my eyes out.

One of the only subjects that I care about deeply this year I stuffed up.

I had one job, just to get a measly little subject that scales down a ton right and yet I screwed it up. I will not lie, I feel crushed and worthless. I guess I really haven't learnt anything after all. It was merely just a repeat of my 3/4 from last year. There goes my late nights of creating pages for my folio and SACs that I worked myself to death for.

Honestly, I cannot remember how long my crying session went on today, but the feeling of defeat is today's headline in the Ashmi world.

What does this mean now? It looks like Physics is going to have to singlehandedly carry me into my dream course. I can already feel the pressure accumulating and the Physics exam is still a few days away. So many questions and the feeling of doubt is flooding me.  "What happens if I stuff up?" "What happens if the exam is too easy?" "What if I get in there and there is something I cannot answer?"

If there is one thing I'm hoping for this Tuesday, it is for the Physics exam to be hard. Bloody hard. You are my only hope right now and if I look at the exam during reading time and see that it is easy, I will cry in defeat once again.

Sorry everyone, I'll probably just ghost around the forums for a bit and might stay off AN cause I'm not feeling good after that exam. Anyway, that is today's update and probably the last one for a bit. See you around! ❤️
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on November 21, 2020, 10:41:24 am
Hey,

It sounds like that's something that would've been a curveball for everyone, so who knows, maybe a whole bunch of people would've struggled a lot with section B and the A+ cutoff will be lower. Maybe all your extra study and effort increased your ability to adapt to that section even if it didn't feel like it. We don't know but I know your mind will keep on trying to tell you that you can and do know you did badly when that's simply not the case if you did answer all the questions. Kudos as well for still managing to finish the exam on time despite how much you were thrown. Wherever you go from here, that ability to pick yourself up and push on is fantastic to have. Fingers crossed for you & best of luck for physics.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: The Cat In The Hat on November 21, 2020, 10:45:58 am
If you found the PDT thing weird and difficult, remember everyone else will have too.

How you felt you went in the exam is not an accurate measure of how you really went.

Your feelings are entirely understandable. Take a break if you need it. Come back if you need it. There'll be people here ready and eager to listen.

Doubt is so easy to listen to. And yet - keep on trying, ignore those doubts, do your best, and maybe it won't be so bad after all.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on November 21, 2020, 11:59:29 am
Hey ashmi,
I'm sure that most people would definitely have struggled with section B as it sounds like an absolute curveball so I know it's easy to spiral but I believe in you that you can pick yourself back up in time for the Physics exam. I know it feels like it's over but one can never tell how the exam actually goes as opposed to how they feel walking out. I believe in you that you can do this! You will do great on your physics exam I feel it. All the best for physics and don't be too hard on yourself <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on November 21, 2020, 07:33:14 pm
Talk about a curveball. Good work for pushing through and finishing that exam even though it felt that way. I'm sure almost every other PDT student felt the exact same, and while that may feel like an insignificant thing right now, I hope it can bring you a little comfort in that you weren't alone in what you were experiencing during that exam.
You did the best that you could in that moment under those conditions. You've been killing it in PDT all year and one measly unpredictable exam won't change the hard work, passion and talent that you've demonstrated all throughout this year.
Keep your chin up, ashmi– you've got physics in the bag. Wishing you the best <3
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on December 03, 2020, 08:16:37 am
✰Update: 3/12✰
Replies
Probably should put this out here real quick, but PDT is sort of like English/Further in which there are different modules! PDT has 3 choices, Textiles, Wood and Plastics. Sadly though it looks like only the textiles kids who got screwed over because of that exam...
Bri MT🐢
Hey Bri!

Thank you for your reply. It really does mean a be able to hear a logical viewpoint on this situation. The only problem with the A+ cut-off being lower is that this problem only occurred to the textiles kids in the exam and not the other streams... (The Wood/Plastic prompts where quite easy hence why the doubt). Also thanks for the luck for Physics! (Went alright but not the best). Thank you so much for your words and support, it really means a lot💕
The Cat In The Hat🐱🎩
Hey Cat In The Hat!

I really hope what you are saying about what you feel vs accuracy is true (It makes a lot of sense though). Thank you for saying this, I really needed to hear this. I've taken a big break now since the last update and it was definitely something I seriously needed. Thank you for your words.💕
Potato🥔
Hey Potato!

I tried to pick myself up for Physics but I don't know if that went too well to be honest. (I tried my best though and I think that is all that matters in the end) I really hope that everything went alright though and that I'm not experiencing an exaggeration episode. Good luck for Year 12 and make sure you have a break!!! 💕
Blueycan💫
Hey Jeyda!!

(By the way girlllll that profile pic is A M A Z I N G)
I must say, looking back on it now, that was one weirdo curveball to even consider in an exam . I don't even know how all the other textiles kids went but hopefully we weren't too disadvantaged in comparison to the wood/plastic people haha. You are absolutely right with the "one measly exam" bit and I really wished they didn't moderate the folio with it cause it sort of sucks... (but then again they need to make it comparable with people from other schools). Its sort of hard to decide what I should base my efforts on, my actual folio or my study score cause man, at the rate its going it is looking like two very different scores.

Good luck Jeyda for Year 12 and get plenty of sleeppppppp (and music ofc)💕
AN: So Ashmi how have you been going?
Ashmi: *My last braincell*
(https://i.imgur.com/ytazNAY.gif)

Song of this journal update
Currently, I'm a mixture of burnout, relief, excitement and fear. I've taken a VERY big break since my last update and I'm currently on a mini vacation with my friends which is helping me recover from this overload of stress that I've placed on myself for the past two years.

Let's start with exams. Thank heavens they are DONE! The only exam that I'm happy with my performance is the English exam and somewhat the Physics exam (wasn't the best but definitely better than every other subject). I'm very glad its done and that I can leave VCE behind me. ATAR wise, I think I may be on the borderline of what I need so I've spend the past few days looking a bit more thoroughly into pathways to be super prepared for the worst case scenario (SEAS please save me).The one thing that I really need right now is just a fresh start, especially with this hell of a year. I'll have much higher expectations of myself when I'm in the course of my dreams, but for now I'm happy with my decision to lower my expectations for this year cause I honestly don't think I would be in a very healthy state if I keep things the same.
(https://i.imgur.com/5XBlsdw.gif)
^Me trying to get myself back together before the New Year begins.

Straight after the Physics exam, the first thing I did when I got home was sell, recycle or give away all my stuff. I started cleaning my room last Tuesday night and let me tell you I'm still cleaning it. I'm very glad my stuff is being put to better use elsewhere and that I never have to see it again. Something weird happened though, on the second day of cleaning out my room, I found this little tin box. I recognised it immediately but the big problem I faced was that it has this small lock on it and no key in sight. To give you a little bit of context, this tin box had a collection of random things I liked since I was about 8 and I did not remember anything that I put into this box. At this point, I was desperately curious to know what was in this box so I grabbed a small set of bolt cutters, cut that lock open and had a peek inside. Oh boy, I did NOT expect what I saw inside of that tin box.

It was a bunch of photographs and a good chunk of them were from Scienceworks Planetarium.🤣Now, 8 year old me had no clue what the majority of these photos were, but now that I look at them again, it was pretty much astrophysics, electricity, fields and particle/high-energy physics.

It was then and there when I realised, I had an obsession with Physics. (whys thinks that is an understatement though...). I'm not talking about a small little "I love this subject" type of obsession, I'm talking to the extent where this subject has literally become my word. Its funny to think that the child version of myself already loved Physics before I even knew it was a thing.🤣. I don't even know what I got emotional over, but something about that little box got to me.

Anyway enough said of that, let's move on.

So remember how your girl here was ranting on about Top Designs? Well, I've gotten to the final selection stage!!! YAY! I never thought this would actually be happening and now it is seriously down to luck if my work is displayed or not. So on the 15th December, VCAA I AM COMING FOR YOU WITH MY MASSIVE COSTUME. I think I might make a completely separate update either later today or tomorrow with some pictures from my folio. I must say, now that I look at my folio my thought process is like "How did you do this in such a short time frame with barely any resources?". It's funny what you can do under pressure.

Also, this journal has reached over 30,000 views!!! Like WOAH how did this happen? Here is a little screenshot that I took of my journal when it was first starting out and I'm absolutely amazed at the transformation that it has undergone in a year.
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/wBS5DVH.jpg)
Like woah only 175 views and +8 respect? I am seriously amazed
Thank you for the support it means much more than you think!

Finally, here are some goals I want to accomplish before Uni starts:
Learn some Chinese
Get back into Photography and try something new e.g. Astrophotography (Have no clue where to start with Astro haha)
Sew new clothes (AN please keep me accountable for this)
Go out with friends (I'm actually in Mornington right now on a holiday with a bunch of them haha)

Well anyway thank you so much AN for all the support throughout this journey and I look forward to hopefully giving another update soon!!💕 Congrats Year 12s you have made it and good luck to the class of 2021!! We love you as always and have a super relaxing holiday💕💕💕
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 03, 2020, 02:23:13 pm
Hi again Ash (can I just say how I love the format of your updates, the gifs and song make me  ;D ;D)
Currently, I'm a mixture of burnout, relief, excitement and fear. I've taken a VERY big break since my last update and I'm currently on a mini vacation with my friends which is helping me recover from this overload of stress that I've placed on myself for the past two years.
Understandable :) The mini vacation looks incredible, any fun highlights? You definitely deserve it!
At this point, I was desperately curious to know what was in this box so I grabbed a small set of bolt cutters, cut that lock open and had a peek inside. Oh boy, I did NOT expect what I saw inside of that tin box.
It was a bunch of photographs and a good chunk of them were from Scienceworks Planetarium.🤣Now, 8 year old me had no clue what the majority of these photos were, but now that I look at them again, it was pretty much astrophysics, electricity, fields and particle/high-energy physics.

It was then and there when I realised, I had an obsession with Physics. (whys thinks that is an understatement though...). I'm not talking about a small little "I love this subject" type of obsession, I'm talking to the extent where this subject has literally become my word. Its funny to think that the child version of myself already loved Physics before I even knew it was a thing.🤣. I don't even know what I got emotional over, but something about that little box got to me.
This is such a cool story, even 8 year old you knew it aha. I can't wait to see your passion grow for physics as you explore the subject further at university.
Well anyway thank you so much AN for all the support throughout this journey and I look forward to hopefully giving another update soon!!💕 Congrats Year 12s you have made it and good luck to the class of 2021!! We love you as always and have a super relaxing holiday💕💕💕
Another congratulations on becoming a finalist in Top designs, I'd love to (and I'm sure many others would too) see more of your final/folio on here. All the best for the rest of the year, I hope you have a nice relaxing break.
Can't wait for the next update  8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: The Cat In The Hat on December 07, 2020, 06:27:39 pm
Another congratulations on becoming a finalist in Top designs, I'd love to (and I'm sure many others would too) see more of your final/folio on here.
Seconded!!!
Somehow I only got to seeing this post was here today... and I want another update! :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on December 07, 2020, 09:21:02 pm
Super sorry for the late reply Ash but CONGRATULATIONS THAT'S SOO AMAZING! You should be SO proud of yourself and be confident in yourself because I have a vague memory of you saying that you may not get into the finalists but LOOK WHERE YOU ARE! So proud <3

I hope you have an amazing break and your to-do list sounds great. Are you planning on having a uni journal?
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on December 14, 2020, 05:20:30 pm
Choco🍫
Hey Choco!!🥰

I'm glad to hear that you like the structure of the journal updates! (Will keep doing them don't worry). So far vacation wise, going out to the beach and just doing touristy stuff has been a big highlight. The food has also been pretty good and living together with friends is amazing!
This journal update today is going to be about my folio so you are in luck~
Thank you for stopping by and have a beautiful and relaxing break! Looking forward to meeting up soon hehe.
The Cat In The Hat🐱
Today is your lucky day because this post is all about my folio haha. Scroll to the end and there should be some of my folio there!
Potato🥔
Hey Potato!
Oh I definitely remember saying that I probably would not get into finalist but man I must have gotten lucky🤣. Thank you bb you are too kind💕. I haven't thought about making a uni journal, but if its something you wanna see let me know and I might make one! It would be fun to have one now that I think about it.
Thanks for stopping by Potato and I hope you are having a relaxing holiday!
✰Update: 14/12✰

Hey AN!
(https://i.imgur.com/kIX35NL.gif)
^Me when I go for a Maccas run after this update

To those new to this journal, hello and welcome to the home of constant folio ranting *cough* PDT *cough* and a mild Physics obsession. To those who are already addicted, passing by or lowkey stalking, welcome back to the chaotic mess once again.

Now can we have a drumroll for today's song!
*Drumroll*
Song of this journal update
Ok now onto the real journal update:

Ashmi: *Getting ready to start ranting about a subject*
Physics and PDT:
(https://i.imgur.com/AFzMLup.gif)

If you thought PDT, you are bang on right! (Sparing Physics for today haha)

It's quite weird looking back on this folio. Just the whole idea that I did my folio without picking up a Copic marker, touching a piece of bleed-proof paper and printing out croquis templates. It still baffles me that I've been able to produce something without those things.

I remember Year 10 and 11 me going to Top Designs each year and always looking at every folio, every name both in the exhibition and shortlist and thinking "How do people think of this?". Not only are the folios outstanding, they were also very intimidating in its own way. If you know me well, I absolutely suck at drawings things traditionally and let me tell you, when I saw those folios I nearly gave up instantly on the spot. Exactly after each visit, I would always go home and try to improve my drawing skills (which usually failed miserably). Here I was, rewriting and erasing my work in intervals without any success.

(https://i.imgur.com/DnjIgSg.gif)
^This is the best thing I could find that describes this situation because it is way to hard to describe 🤣
I remember back in Year 10 when I proposed an idea to do a folio digitally to my teacher (as I could draw digitally but not traditionally) and her just saying something like that was absurd. Looking back, there was never a digital folio back in Top Designs when I visited and I assume just like my teachers, it was ingrained into us that something like that wouldn't be considered as a high-quality piece of work. Well anyway, I'm glad I moved schools for Year 11 because it was in Unit 2 where I tried to do my folio digitally.

And that was the moment where I turned my biggest weakness into my strongest strength.

Yes, my new teacher was a little sceptical at first but supported me every step of the way till it was done. Without that constant support, I wouldn't have the piece I did for Unit 3/4 today.

Who would have thought that a mere drawing tablet would be enough to completely change the folio game. I guess you could say it was the thing that "brought back my imagination". I'm very glad to have done my whole folio from start to finish digitally and although it was challenging, it was definitely worth it.

Well AN, today is your lucky day because I have finally gotten myself together and have pictures of my folio! At the end of this post, there is a PDF that has just a few important pages of my real folio (not the whole thing cause the file would be too big. Sorry!). Since the folio is a little too big to place into one post, it will be split up into two parts (so you will have to wait for the next update for the second half haha). Thank you to everyone that has helped contribute to this folio and without your feedback, it wouldn't be the same.💕

Some folio pages:
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/4IVpwrm.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/MDnU3wW.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/qFcKPhG.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/yy1Eqbw.jpg)
(https://i.imgur.com/cZ6zuFw.jpg)
Also, I would just like to add, I have to give in my product tomorrow at VCAA in Coburg... (watch me walk around Coburg carrying a white covered tissue paper bow and struggling to carry my whole costume to this place while looking like a lunatic in 30 degree heat).

I won't lie, I am SO SCARED. I am PANICKING.

Like oh my goodness, this is ACTUALLY happening. It felt so real when I had to sign the consent forms but knowing that I have to make my way there tomorrow is a little terrifying. I was pretty good for the whole day till I realised that at this time tomorrow, I will be giving up my baby product I've worked so hard on and for them to decide if it goes into the exhibition makes me nervous haha. I guess feeling nervous is also the same feeling as being excited sometimes. So yes I AM EXCITED TOO!

Well anyway, I'll give you guys a verdict of how it went when I'm free. I'm going to iron my product now and put it in a garment bag and start covering all my props in this very easy to rip tissue paper.

See you later AN! Love you all lots💙
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on December 14, 2020, 06:50:17 pm
I know we've said this before but WOW this is so exciting and I'm glad that at your new school you were allowed to use a digital medium!

I love how many different designs can be seen in there too & that they're each clearly different.
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on December 16, 2020, 08:52:40 pm
✰Mini-Update: 16/12✰

Hello, AN!
(https://i.imgur.com/82fUTTz.gif)

Song of this journal update
Note: Part 2 of the folio is attached to this update!!

Very quick and casual update for today. So I went to VCAA yesterday with that monstrous costume and do you know how liberated I feel knowing that thing was away from me? Oh bye bye 1.3-metre bow and heavy magician Leafeon costume!

I do feel sorry for the poor lady that had to carry that foreign-looking objects upstairs and attempt to put the costume on the mannequin. Good luck trying to lace up the corset. I struggle every time and I'm the one that made it. 😂 (I think it will get rejected just because it's too hard to put on) Other than that, everything seemed to go well! Turns out there was just under 150 shortlisted applicants for all of Top Designs this year (so PDT, Viscom, Media, Systems Engineering and some of the VCE VETs). I got to meet one of the people that were on the PDT panel for shortlisting this year too!

I must say, I felt like such an imposter of a design student. Literally everyone there was so creative and did so many folio subjects and here I was going uh yeah I'm a maths/science kid that only does PDT. It was SO funny.😂

It was a bit of a weird arrangement inside too. There looked to be some people from each subject panel sitting around in a semi-circle on the side while I was giving my stuff in. It's a little strange cause they are sort of just watching you as you put in your stuff (they literally stare from a distance and I think they are trying to put a folio to a face)

Oh and to top this all off, the person that was helping me sign these forms literally started talking about how his brother is doing his Masters in Physics at UniMelb and that was by far that was the best conversation I've ever had. Apparently, he is doing astrophysics and working on a satellite and I was in AWE the whole time. Like I came for Top Designs, but I stayed for the physics.

Long story short everything went smoothly and I panicked for nothing! We get to hear if we got in or not after our ATARs come out, so stick around to hear that soon.

Enough said of that, attached to this post is part 2 of my folio! I hope you guys enjoy! See you soon for another update!💕
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: The Cat In The Hat on December 17, 2020, 08:07:49 am
Okay, that stuff looks really good. :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on December 18, 2020, 07:48:19 pm
Ash, I have been silently reading your journal over the past couple of entries and boy am I proud of you!!! Your folio seems incredible and is so so interesting to someone who is not creative AT ALL!

All the best 💕🥺
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on December 31, 2020, 04:50:50 pm
✰Update: 31/12✰

Ashmi: *Magically decides to do a journal update*
AN: *Those who are addicted to this journal*
(https://i.imgur.com/yhYlUKu.gif)

✰Song of this journal update✰

How do I even start this update? So many of you probably know that yesterday was the day that results come out for the VCE kids.

Let's just describe how the last 48 hours went. I went out the day before results with someone to get my mind off the whole "Results are coming out tomorrow" mindset. We shopped for the whole day (boxing day sales of course), binged eat and attempted to relax.

Got home, made dinner (carbonara which is Evolio's fav) then shortly after I fell asleep cause I was dead tired from walking. Now if you know me well, I love my sleep. I was quite frustrated when someone woke me up at 6:30am, especially from my dream of a Maccas run where I was stuffing my face with hash browns. I was completely disorientated and there were multiple people messaging or trying to call me. Then I quickly caught on that it was ATAR day. So here I am, it's now 6:35am and I'm trying to comfort one of my closest friends before scores are released.

Out of nowhere, someone else decides to call me and explain that "the emails" are out. At that point, I had to drag myself out of my beautiful, warm bed to look at my computer. I already accepted the fact I wasn't going to get what I needed and just decided "You know what let's just check it". Sat on my chair, turn on my computer, went to my emails and once I checked my scores I thought I was hallucinating.

There was one subject that stood out too much. I really thought I was half asleep and that maybe going back to bed would be a good idea. But no matter how much I looked at that one score it didn't change. That was the moment I burst into tears.

"I'm not a lucky person", "this must be a mistake", "I've got someone else's score not mine". So I just sat there, crying and trying to make some sense of that number at 6:50 in the bloody morning. I'm on a call with someone and he is asking me what's wrong while I hear my Dad knocking on the door (who clearly hears me sobbing and couldn't sleep that night cause he was worried about me) and asking me if I'm alright.

What was I sobbing my head off about? Of course, it's PDT.

So VCAA, you are telling me that you liked the blue squirrel tactile play mat that turns into a backpack that I drew in the exam? Whoever was marking my exam must of been very generous or had a good sense of humour. If there was one picture that could describe my exam performance in PDT it would be this:
(https://i.imgur.com/FgjIaMd.gif)

Well why was I crying?
Spoiler
(https://i.imgur.com/BTOOjYr.png)
I got a Raw 50 for PDT.
What shocks me, even more, is that there seems to be only 4 other people that got a 50 this year.
Also, don't bother trying to find my name cause I didn't give my consent for my name to be released this year hehe.
That is the only study score I'm talking about cause I said in my journal previously I wouldn't talk about any of them. (My school told everyone about which subjects got perfect scores so I can't really hide it hence why its an exception for this update). I got lucky. Very, very lucky and I'm still processing how this happened. Also, I just got an email saying I've been rejected from Top Designs for final exhibition. I'm pretty happy with the fact I've gotten this far! Although I may have not gotten in, at least I get my name and school displayed on the shortlisted area which is an achievement alone. If there is one thing I want to say, it's that PDT singlehandedly, carried me to the ATAR I needed. I've always wondered if moving schools for PDT was worth the pain, but now I can say I'm truly grateful for making that decision.

Also, I got the ATAR I need!! (My readjusted goal was 88). If you have been following this journal from the start, originally I wanted a 96 and by some miracle I got much higher than that too so I guess you can say I accomplish both goals whoop whoop!

I am really excited for 2021 and UniMelb HERE I COME!

Thank you to whoever is looking after me up there in VCAA cause you guys are the reason I'm so happy right now. After a year of absolute pain in my personal life this is the best thing I can hear from you guys.

I just want to say a big massive thank you to everyone on AN.
Special mentions to the following people:
AN Mamma whys
The sister I wished I had Evolio
The partner in crime squad ArtyDreams, Choco, Coolgal, Geoo, angrybiscuit, JRho
My AN daughter blueycan
The young yet wise bois eloisegrace, potato, 1729, tigermum and james.lhr.
My Slytherin, buddy mentor Colline

And last but not least, all the mods and frequent users of AN that really bring this community together!

✰A message to the class of 2020 and 2021✰

We did it bois! I am SO proud of each and every one of you! We have fought through a tough year like no other and I'm proud of everyone's individual effort they put in. Give yourself a pat on the back and a massive congratulations!!! I love you all as always and you guys are just the absolute best.

To the class of 2021, if you did a 3/4 this year, congrats for completing the subject(s) in such a weird year. Definitely not a normal year but with whatever score you got, just remember to look back and see how much you guys have progressed in such a tough year. Good luck to you all and I look forward to reading some journey journals (to those who haven't made one it's time to start) in the future!

Good luck everyone for what the future holds and I can't wait to hear some exciting stuff from you all. I absolutely love you guys and a massive congratulations to each and every one of you and have a happy new year!!!💕 💕

See you all in a future update soon~
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: whys on December 31, 2020, 06:35:20 pm
So happy to see an update from you Ash!

There was this eerie build-up in your journal to your PDT score, I was literally on the edge of my seat while reading! I so badly wanted to scroll down and look, but I kept reading, and when I reached the big reveal - oh boy. GIRL, YOU DID IT. RAW 50. R A W  5 0. All that perseverance and love for the subject really paid off, huh? You're amazing, Ash. You are such a hard worker, and you're the type of person that never gives up. You achieved your dreams and surpassed your goals - now your dream uni course is waiting for you!! This year was not easy, and the fact that you did so well makes me a super proud mamma. Congratulations for not only pulling through, but also achieving everything you dreamed of. You are nothing short of an inspiration, and I wish you all the best for your future endeavours.

I know how much you loved PDT, and it makes me so happy to hear you achieved a 50 for it. Congrats girl, you deserve it, and more!

Thank you for this awesome update, and I hope you have a wonderful 2021!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Bri MT on December 31, 2020, 06:41:23 pm
So happy for you!!!

Sounds like you get to avoid being thrown into an ice bath as well ;)


You've dedicated yourself to PDT in particular and put in so much hard work so I'm especially glad to see that that has paid off!
Huge congratulations :D


P.S - next time a voice in your head tells you you can't achieve your dreams try to remember how exceptionally well you did in PDT despite how you felt after the exam :)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: eloisegrace on December 31, 2020, 07:00:18 pm
OH
MY
GOSH
YESSS ASHMIII
A 50 IN PDT 🤩🤩🤩
I am so so proud of you and I KNEW you could do it!

I have absolutely loved following your journey this year and I have loved your passion and enthusiasm and everything in between.

Have fun at UniMelb next year and maybe I’ll see you in 2022 🧐

Congrats again,
Eloise 🥰
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on December 31, 2020, 07:01:52 pm
AHHHH!!!! Congratulations Ash that's amazing!!!

I remember reading the update when you finished the exam and knowing how up in the air it was with them changing it, so and i'm just so happy for you for PTD! You deserve the 50 so much, and i'm so proud of you. All of your hard work and dedication has paid off, and I couldn't be happier for you. I hoped you celebrated that amazing score because you 100% deserve it. Your journal has been such as pleasure to read throughout the year, and I always looked forward to your PTD updates. When I saw this update pop up, I felt just so nervous, crossing my fingers, and bam, a 50!!!!
The school move was so worth it for PTD!

So happy and super proud of you, hope you have a fantastic 2021! Looking forward to see what the future holds for you.
Your folio is just amazing, and the time and effort you put in really shows, and it paid off, congratulations!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on January 01, 2021, 01:41:22 pm
Replies are in the spoilers!

Also, I've been getting a lot of PMs about this "blue squirrel" convertible play mat to bag thing I drew for my exam and let's just say that if it does get featured in the examiner's report, I'll make sure to chuck a picture into this journal in the future. I won't lie, my drawing skills during the exam were embarrassing but the technical annotations on the drawing were pretty good. It is a very funny drawing where the outside of the backpack was a blue animal (looked like a squirrel) and when you undid all the zips, turned it inside out and lay it flat on the ground, it became a mini hopscotch with different types of materials for each tile and accessories to put on it for 4-year-olds to play with.

Mamma whys🦁
So happy to see an update from you Ash!

There was this eerie build-up in your journal to your PDT score, I was literally on the edge of my seat while reading! I so badly wanted to scroll down and look, but I kept reading, and when I reached the big reveal - oh boy. GIRL, YOU DID IT. RAW 50. R A W  5 0. All that perseverance and love for the subject really paid off, huh? You're amazing, Ash. You are such a hard worker, and you're the type of person that never gives up. You achieved your dreams and surpassed your goals - now your dream uni course is waiting for you!! This year was not easy, and the fact that you did so well makes me a super proud mamma. Congratulations for not only pulling through, but also achieving everything you dreamed of. You are nothing short of an inspiration, and I wish you all the best for your future endeavours.

I know how much you loved PDT, and it makes me so happy to hear you achieved a 50 for it. Congrats girl, you deserve it, and more!

Thank you for this awesome update, and I hope you have a wonderful 2021!
Hey mamma bean!

I am still in shock with how the work for once paid off. I must have gained some of your lucky energy or something because I was definitely not expecting anything THAT high. whys, your words touch my heart so much I can't even begin to describe how I feel🥺💕. I honestly didn't think I was capable of getting close to my goals but it magically happened!!! Thank you for all the support in 2020 because without it, none of this would have ever happened. It feels so surreal knowing that I'm definitely 'clearly-in' to my dream course that I set my eyes on at the start of this journal even though I changed my goals to be much lower at the end of 2020. It is such a weird feeling knowing that in such a bad year for the technology kids, I somehow managed to pull out that score for PDT and drag myself up. I'm glad to know that you are proud of your inspirational daughter.🥺

Thank you so much whys and happy new year!!
Bri MT🐢
So happy for you!!!

Sounds like you get to avoid being thrown into an ice bath as well ;)


You've dedicated yourself to PDT in particular and put in so much hard work so I'm especially glad to see that that has paid off!
Huge congratulations :D


P.S - next time a voice in your head tells you you can't achieve your dreams try to remember how exceptionally well you did in PDT despite how you felt after the exam :)
Hey Bri!!🥰

Thank you so much! I am very delighted to know I won't be thrown into an ice bath this year ;D. I've organised a time with the person I made the bet with originally for them to be thrown into an ice bath as it looks like I've one this bet and they are not impressed 😂. Will update if anything interesting happens!

I really didn't think my work would pay off for PDT, but a miracle has happened and I'm glad everything worked! Also, yes I definitely will be reminding myself of PDT (especially after that curveball exam) anytime in the future where I start doubting myself again. Thank you for all your help this year Bri and I couldn't be more grateful to have someone like you around on the forums! Happy new year to you and your family!
El🧐
OH
MY
GOSH
YESSS ASHMIII
A 50 IN PDT 🤩🤩🤩
I am so so proud of you and I KNEW you could do it!

I have absolutely loved following your journey this year and I have loved your passion and enthusiasm and everything in between.

Have fun at UniMelb next year and maybe I’ll see you in 2022 🧐

Congrats again,
Eloise 🥰
Hey El🥰

Welcome back to this chaotic crazy girl mess!
GIRL, I remember you messaging me one time saying I would get a 50 in PDT and I remember vividly saying "No way sister". Oh man I was dead wrong😂. Thank you El and I'm glad to hear you enjoy this very wild journey journal!!

If you do decide to come to UniMelb in 2022, I'll be waiting!!💕
Thanks for stopping by El and good luck for this year!
The Food Studies Queen Geoo🍰
AHHHH!!!! Congratulations Ash that's amazing!!!

I remember reading the update when you finished the exam and knowing how up in the air it was with them changing it, so and i'm just so happy for you for PTD! You deserve the 50 so much, and i'm so proud of you. All of your hard work and dedication has paid off, and I couldn't be happier for you. I hoped you celebrated that amazing score because you 100% deserve it. Your journal has been such as pleasure to read throughout the year, and I always looked forward to your PTD updates. When I saw this update pop up, I felt just so nervous, crossing my fingers, and bam, a 50!!!!
The school move was so worth it for PTD!

So happy and super proud of you, hope you have a fantastic 2021! Looking forward to see what the future holds for you.
Your folio is just amazing, and the time and effort you put in really shows, and it paid off, congratulations!
Hey Geoo!🥰

AHHHHHHH thank you 🥺🥺💕. Oh yeah I remember exactly the absolute post-exam pain of PDT so getting a 50 was a massive surprise! I have celebrated without a doubt (especially with my PDT teacher on Facebook haha. Even my physics teacher came to join at one point) and it just feels like a dream I haven't woken up from. I'm extremely glad to hear you enjoy this journal (even when I'm ranting) and I'm honoured to know you have been following my journey. (On a side note, your journal is AMAZINGGGG. As soon as I hear about "food", it's an instant 10/10 for me). I am extremely glad I moved schools now and the pain was worth it!

Thank you so much for all the support throughout VCE Geoo and happy new year!!
Have a lovely happy new year everyone!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ArtyDreams on January 01, 2021, 01:58:31 pm
CONGRATS ASH!

It’s been a pleasure to follow your journal this year, and I’ve loved reading about all your physics & PDT adventures especially!

STEM subject and folio gang foreverrrrrrrr  :)

Cant wait to see what 2021 brings you!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 01, 2021, 04:55:36 pm
Ash,
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG 50 IN PDT. 505050505505050505050505050
I am SO PROUD OF YOU. It has been such a difficult year for folio students but you persevered through and through 😭
Congrats on everything! <33
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Sine on January 02, 2021, 08:48:40 pm
congratulations on your results, glad to see that you are happy with them!

really well deserved  :D
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on January 08, 2021, 03:29:10 pm
CONGRATS ASH OH MY GOD 50 RAW IN PDT?!?! THAT"S AMAZING!!!! I'm sosoosososoososos happy for you and you have absolutely deserved these amazing scores!!! Your journal has been so much fun to read (especially your PDT journay) and I hope you have an amazing 2021 :D
Also I'm very honoured to have been christened as a young yet wise boi ahahahhahaha
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on January 13, 2021, 10:27:16 pm
ArtyDreams🎨
CONGRATS ASH!

It’s been a pleasure to follow your journal this year, and I’ve loved reading about all your physics & PDT adventures especially!

STEM subject and folio gang foreverrrrrrrr  :)

Cant wait to see what 2021 brings you!
ARTYYYYYYYYY🥰
Thank you for sticking around for the ups and downs and yes to the STEM + Folio gang  8). Can't wait to see you this year and I'm looking forward to hearing some great things from you in the future!!
angrybiscuit🍪
Ash,
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG 50 IN PDT. 505050505505050505050505050
I am SO PROUD OF YOU. It has been such a difficult year for folio students but you persevered through and through 😭
Congrats on everything! <33
Angrybiscuittttttttt!!!!
Thank you so much sis🥺🥺. WHAT A YEAR TO DO A FOLIO SUBJECT! I'm glad everything ended smoothly and congrats for your results too!! I can't wait to hear amazing things from you in the future~
Sine💿
congratulations on your results, glad to see that you are happy with them!

really well deserved  :D
Thank you so much Sine!🥰🥰
I'm glad everything went alright and I'm defs happy with everything!
Potato🥔
CONGRATS ASH OH MY GOD 50 RAW IN PDT?!?! THAT"S AMAZING!!!! I'm sosoosososoososos happy for you and you have absolutely deserved these amazing scores!!! Your journal has been so much fun to read (especially your PDT journay) and I hope you have an amazing 2021 :D
Also I'm very honoured to have been christened as a young yet wise boi ahahahhahaha
Hey hey Potato!!

I still have no clue how it happened but a miracle occurred and I've never been happier! I'm glad to hear that you have enjoyed this journal and good luck for this year! You have got this 8)

✰Update: 13/01✰

Hey AN! Long time no see!
(https://i.imgur.com/7xAkuSQ.gif)

✰Song of this journal update✰
Since this probably will be my second last update, it means that I only have 2 more songs left to pick :'(
It was quite hard picking out a song for this update, but I decided that I'll something that I feel most resembled the early stages of VCE, in particular, what PDT was like to me. So here it is!
Today's journal update is going to be short and sort of pointless, but I think writing this into a coherent update may help me figure out a few things. I'm not exactly too sure where I'm going to start but hopefully things sort of make sense.

Let's start with VCE. I walked into VCE with nothing more than my cosplay and a goal to do PDT. At the time, I was looking into engineering as a possible option for what to study in uni. By the time I was in year 11 and going into year 12 I was pretty dead set on electrical engineering. Year 12 hit, physics came into my life and things slowly turned upside down. Now I've left year 12 confused and excited. So here I am, stuck between physics and electrical engineering once again.

For my first VTAC preference, I end up putting Bachelor of Science/Masters of Engineering at the University of Melbourne. At the end of this year I'll make an official decision of what I'm going to do but for now, I'll just be doing a mixture of subjects. Shout-out to Colline and Evolio for helping me so much in the past few weeks with this!

I must say though, I am heavily leaning towards physics (and will probably just say I'm doing a physics major haha). If I do decide to pursue physics down the track, it will probably either be astrophysics or particle physics (Go high energy physics!). There is a goal I want to achieve if I do plan to study physics. I would like to go on exchange to ETH Zurich in Switzerland and maybe if I'm lucky enough, visit the world's largest particle physics lab, CERN. There may also be a possibility that I would like to pursue a PhD, but that's another story for another day.

I think now that I'm writing this, the only thing that is stopping me from picking physics is the employment factor. If I'm going to get any success from studying physics, I need to be very good at my stuff. Very VERY good. Physics is a dream, but am I willing to sacrifice everything and chase after it? I don't know yet, but I'm hoping as time passes, the answer becomes more clear.

Also, I am extremely happy to leave 2020 behind and somewhat start 'fresh' despite 2021 just feeling like a massive extension. I'm hoping that this year is much better and that I'm able to keep a balanced lifestyle throughout uni. If you have been following my journal for a long time, you may know that I made a bet with someone over PDT with the result being whoever lost would be thrown into an ice bath. Now, I won that bet. I felt very satisfied throwing my friend into a freezing ice bath (It was HILARIOUS) and by far was one of the most interesting experiences I've had in a while.

I probably will also make a uni journal after my last update on this journal. I cannot believe how quickly the time went (it honestly feels like I started this journal not too long ago). It still surprises me how there are over 37,000 views on this chaotic mess. Hopefully, one day down the track, someone finds this journal useful (*cough* the PDT kids *cough*).

Well, that's it for now! See you guys soon for another update when offers come out💕
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: lm21074 on January 13, 2021, 10:51:28 pm
Congratulations on completing VCE, ashmi! I hope you know that you've done amazingly well and deserve every ounce of success! :)

Whichever path you take, your AN fam will be right behind you, supporting you every step of the way :)

Physics can take you in many directions. There's a YouTuber called PaigeY who studied astrophysics at uni and now she's on her way to becoming an actuary!

I'm excited to hear all about your uni journey!

P.S. I think I might do the ice bath thing too - might remind me to stay on track!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: ashmi on January 15, 2021, 10:56:13 pm
lm21074🦕
Congratulations on completing VCE, ashmi! I hope you know that you've done amazingly well and deserve every ounce of success! :)

Whichever path you take, your AN fam will be right behind you, supporting you every step of the way :)

Physics can take you in many directions. There's a YouTuber called PaigeY who studied astrophysics at uni and now she's on her way to becoming an actuary!

I'm excited to hear all about your uni journey!

P.S. I think I might do the ice bath thing too - might remind me to stay on track!
Hey LM!

Thank you so much for your support🥺. Sometimes I need to be reminded of this so thank you for saying that!
Also, do the ice bath thingy!! It is a great source of entertainment throughout the year and the reward you get of throwing the person who lost the bet into the bath is priceless ;D.
✰Update: 15/01✰

Hello AN!! I hope you all are doing well.

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So before I begin this journal update, CONGRATS to the class of 2020 for receiving your first round offers!! You guys have persisted through such a tough year and you all are so inspirational. I'm so proud of each and every one of you🥺

Today is the day of this journal's last update. I still can't believe how quickly the time went. I still vividly remember starting this journal just to try documenting my feelings during VCE and here I am now finally putting an end to it. There were a lot of ups and without a doubt many downs during this journey, but I'm glad I was able to get to the end of it in one piece.

✰Song of this journal update✰
So this is the final song for this VCE Journal! Struggled a lot with trying to find a song that summed up this journal in a nutshell, but after thinking it over for a bit, this is the one. I'm not too sure how to describe it, but when I'm writing this journal update, I'm forcing myself to look back at my younger self - kind of like a reunion in a way.
Ok now onto the uni offer I received. I pretty much knew exactly what was coming, but I was really surprised at how early it came. So here is the offer!
Spoiler
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I still cannot believe that I was able to get this. When I first created this journal, this was the course I had my eyes on and was my major goal. Once 2020 hit and a lot of personal issues came up, I pretty much gave up on even getting close to the ATAR I needed and at one point, I was pretty sure I wasn't going to even get into Bsci at UniMelb. It just feels so surreal to be able to receive the offer of my dreams. Seeing the journey it took from Year 10 all the way to now just to get this offer has been out of this world.

On a side note, you know how good it feels to finally update my Facebook page with UniMelb being a life event??? That hits differently.

Now if I have one thing to say, it is the uni's enrolment process. To me, enrolling is just as hard as doing the VCE itself😂. Also, if you have been following this journal, you would know about my lifelong struggles between electrical engineering and physics. So some good news. After talking to Stop 1 (UniMelb's help service) about each major and how it could impact my master, I seem to have come to a conclusion of what I'm going to do for undergrad.

With Stop 1's help, it turns out that hypothetically if I want to do Master of E.E using a physics major, it won't actually take me an extra year unlike if I majored in E.E in undergrad, in fact, it's less than half a year catch-up (turns out with some careful planning of my subjects I can squeeze quite a lot of the foundation E.E subjects thanks to the physics subjects covering the prereqs hehe). I don't mind taking a little detour if I want to do E.E later down the track if it means I can learn some juicy quantum mechanics *chef's kiss*.

So my bros of AN, your girl here is picking the FIZIXS major.*
*I know I said I would pick at the end of the year but yolo let's see how long this lasts

Am I going to do a Master in E.E? Or am I gonna run to physics for master? I don't know but I probably should start a uni journal for this.

Now, we are at the final destination. I am truly honoured to have met such amazing people through the forums. Each and every one of you have such unique personalities and aspirations that make me so glad to be part of AN. You all are so supportive of each other and this is one of the nicest and friendliest communities I've been part of. AN, you guys have been absolute legends.

It is time for me to part from this journal and start a new chapter of my life.

Thank you for helping me reach this journey to the end.❤️️
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Geoo on January 15, 2021, 11:08:22 pm
So happy for you Ash! Congratulations on getting your dream course, that must be so exciting! Sounds like with the mixing around of your major, you can still follow your passion of the amazing physics and keep the doors open. I remember seeing your first post which seems like forever ago, and reading this journey of your VCE has been an absolute pleasure and something I always looked forward to reading about. From your passions in PTD to the FIZIXS!!!
I'm so happy and proud of you for getting to where you want to be, hopefully i'll see that notification of a uni journal pop up in the near future. I'm a little sad that it has come to an end, but the future is very exciting!

Enjoy the rest of the break before uni life, and good luck with 2021!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 16, 2021, 07:22:36 am
I still cannot believe that I was able to get this. When I first created this journal, this was the course I had my eyes on and was my major goal. Once 2020 hit and a lot of personal issues came up, I pretty much gave up on even getting close to the ATAR I needed and at one point, I was pretty sure I wasn't going to even get into Bsci at UniMelb. It just feels so surreal to be able to receive the offer of my dreams. Seeing the journey it took from Year 10 all the way to now just to get this offer has been out of this world.
I can definitely relate to this and I'm SO PROUD of you for getting there. I always knew that you could do it but that doesn't mean it didn't take diligence, hard work, sacrifice and all those stressful minutes before SACs and exams (it really makes it all worth it). I'm so, so excited that you made it into your dream course and I can't wait to see you absolutely blossom at Melbourne uni, pursing something that you are completely passionate about.

Am I going to do a Master in E.E? Or am I gonna run to physics for master? I don't know but I probably should start a uni journal for this.
Um obviously? We need an ashmi uni journal.

Now, we are at the final destination. I am truly honoured to have met such amazing people through the forums. Each and every one of you have such unique personalities and aspirations that make me so glad to be part of AN. You all are so supportive of each other and this is one of the nicest and friendliest communities I've been part of. AN, you guys have been absolute legends.
This has been one of the most incredible journeys to follow and I always get so excited when I see a new entry! Echoing Geoo it's a little sad to see it come to an end but I'm sure we will hear about your uni adventures soon. Thank you for being one of the members that has made AN such a supportive community. Enjoy the break, you'll smash 2021  8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: Coolmate on January 17, 2021, 06:36:24 pm

Well why was I crying?
Spoiler
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I got a Raw 50 for PDT.
What shocks me, even more, is that there seems to be only 4 other people that got a 50 this year.
Hey Ash!

🎉WOW!!!!! Awesome Job, and what a stellar effort! 1 of 4 in the state and a Raw 50 ;D

Congratulations on this amazing score ;D

Coolmate 8)
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: homeworkisapotato on January 18, 2021, 11:20:34 am
WOWOOW Congratulations Ash!! That degree sounds so spicy so you better start a uni journal! This has been an incredible journey to follow, so unique, and though I am sad to see your journal end I'm super excited to follow your uni journey and learn so much from you! Thank you for being such a supportive and positive member and I hope to see a post from you soon (in your uni journey journal) :D All the best!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: J_Rho on January 18, 2021, 03:38:34 pm
A HUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE congrats Ash! You've worked so hard and I'm so happy you got into your goal course! I'm so proud of you! I cant wait to see where the future takes you!
Title: Re: The CASual Journey to the End | Ashmi's VCE journal アシュ
Post by: blueycan on January 26, 2021, 04:40:20 pm
AAH I'M SO LATE BUT A HUGE CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU ASHMI FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE ACHIEVED! You've literally achieved everything you said you weren't sure about and I literally could never be more proud! Thank you for everything Ashmi, you really have become an amazing friend of mine and I'm so grateful! I'm so excited to follow your journey into university! <3