POV: It's been exactly 1 year 2 months since you wrote your last entry. You've been slipping into bad habits again and the black spots in your vision are coming back - so maybe it's time to start this up again.
~Haaaaiiiiii~ It's been a while. Which is a good thing - I did well for a chunk of time there. But this year I've noticed that my want to eat is diminished, and I've been regressing. I'm struggling to eat 2 full meals a day and although I try to fill it with fruit, veggies, and light snacks like crackers or a little bit of bread, I am not fulfilling my overall food quota anymore. It's partly because I've been constantly ill ((still! ikikik)) but also because I just get distracted. My lunch, if I eat anything, is consistently around 2pm every day, and forget about anything more than a bit of fruit for breakfast if I get around to it. Dinner is usually more solid but at least 2 out of 7 nights I'll just end up eating plain rice or a small salad. Even if I really like something, I can only eat a small amount at a time (for the most part).
It's just getting worse again, so I need to start keeping myself accountable.
So, the plan is as follows:
I will set out a weekly template and record what I eat and how I felt over that day. If I manage 3 meals or the equivalent, I will gain a star for that particular day. My aim is to end up with a seven star week, after which I will reward myself with a special snack or something. I will also record my weight weekly and consciously set reminders to eat.
Yes, I'm literally conditioning myself with positive reinforcement. Yes, I am using a similar method to that I'd use to potty train a baby. And yes: I am baby.
Okie that's about it - I'll check in next week with a full timetable and make sure I edit it in this week's thingos. Bye for now, friends.