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Title: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 20, 2019, 12:00:27 pm
Hey guys thought I’d start up a journal now that I am technically a year 12!!

So a little bit about me: I’ve just finished Year 11 and the subjects that I did were Chem 3/4, Spesh 1/2, Methods 1/2, Biology 1/2, Psychology 1/2, English and Text & Traditions (compulsory). Next year I’ll be doing Spesh, Methods, Biology, Psych and English! Will definitely be a challenging year but I’m weirdly looking forward to it.

I've finished chemistry this year as an early 3/4 subject. Even though I'm disappointed with how I performed this year, I absolutely loved it. The concepts and topics were great (equilibrium and food chemistry are my favs) and it challenged me to apply the knowledge that I've learnt, not simply just regurgitating facts.

Outside of school I love to play the keyboard (am hoping to self teach myself how to read notes), swim recreationally, go to the gym, and learn French (this was out of the blue!) Above all I have a great passion for astronomy. I LOVE astronomy. Everything above space and aerospace attracts me like a massive magnet. I could literally just sit with someone and speak about it for hours on end.

What are my year 12 goals? Honestly, I just want to be content with whatever ATAR I get. I have a thing of being unforgiving towards myself. I always kick myself for not doing the best and then kick myself for kicking myself. For once I want to learn to be content with whatever I’ve accomplished.

What are my future aspirations? Money. I know that sounds shallow and all but my dream is to really help out my parents. I feel sorry for them as they’re both tired from working a lot and I feel that it’s my responsibility to alleviate financial stresses. It’s terrible to see them sick due to fatigue and stress and honestly it takes a toll on me too. This is my ultimate goal and I will not care how I achieve it.

What are my career aspirations? Honestly, I don’t know. I don’t really have a clue. I know this sucks but I’m choosing a career that not only pays well but ensures job security in the near future. I’ve established very quickly that though I love science I HATE HATE the research component of it. Therefore, the prospects of being a scientist or a researcher is quickly eliminated. I would love to be able to do something in aerospace but again, there is little guarantee of job security within Australia.

I’m leaning towards IT with business as I would really love to start up a business but I’m a science gal and I’ve never done anything business-related (any thoughts on this?) I still don’t know what area of IT I want to do (data science and software engineering are tempting but I need to know more about them). Medicine is another tempting career but I fear that 6 years before being able to help my parents is far too long. As well, I’m scared for my mental wellbeing but I’m honestly up for it!

I would love to be able to first relieve my parents of financial stress so that they no longer have to work full time. Then after that, I plan to pursue my dream in aerospace, even going to America if that’s what it takes! The literal thought of working for SpaceX or NASA makes me want to cry.

Hopefully, through this journal I can make more sense of myself and find out what I really want to do in life  ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on November 20, 2019, 12:34:53 pm
Awesome to see another year 12 journal, and great subject choices!

I must ask, since you love astronomy (so do I), how come you haven't taken physics? I know that there isn't alot of astronomy in there, but I am kind of curious.
Teaching yourself a language is so awesome, I think it is so beneficial to have another language under you belt, I do the same with Chinese. What made you chose french though?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 20, 2019, 01:04:55 pm
I must ask, since you love astronomy (so do I), how come you haven't taken physics? I know that there isn't alot of astronomy in there, but I am kind of curious.

I get asked that question a lot and honestly, I ask myself that as well! In Year 10 there was a physics equivalent elective in which I didn't do (due to timetabling reasons). For some reason, during subject selection, I (dumbly) decided to do subjects that I had backgrounds in, so I decided not to do physics. This was a really bad mistake looking back at it!

Then this year I decided to pick up physics, unfortunately, my timetabling clashed. As well, at that point I was drowning in work and I thought that if I picked up physics I'll have to do even more work haha. It was a very lazy excuse but looking back at it I regret not doing physics in the first place because I do really well in the physics component of specialist! It's a shame given that I will be at a disadvantage if I decide to pursue astronomy or aeronautical engineering as I don't have physics

Teaching yourself a language is so awesome, I think it is so beneficial to have another language under you belt, I do the same with Chinese. What made you chose french though?

Funny story! My sister and I watched a french tv show (it's an animated show and it's pretty embarrassing to admit this but it's amusingly good) and fell in love with the language instantly so we decided to try to learn it! How about you? How did you come to learn Chinese?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: caffinatedloz on November 20, 2019, 05:23:41 pm
So great to see another journal, look forward to reading more about your journey! Are you excited about officially being a Year 12 (or feeling nervous)? Does it feel real yet?

Best of luck learning the keyboard! What kinds of things are you trying to play? And when I learnt to read notes on the stave, I did a ton of worksheets. They were super helpful (but I can't remember what they were called or where I got them from). I still can't read bass clef though, I just have to count down from middle C.

 ;D ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 20, 2019, 05:36:22 pm
So great to see another journal, look forward to reading more about your journey! Are you excited about officially being a Year 12 (or feeling nervous)? Does it feel real yet?
Thank you so much! It really hasn't hit me yet... I'm more sad than nervous about the prospects of leaving school because I love my school  :'(

Best of luck learning the keyboard! What kinds of things are you trying to play? And when I learnt to read notes on the stave, I did a ton of worksheets. They were super helpful (but I can't remember what they were called or where I got them from). I still can't read bass clef though, I just have to count down from middle C.
I'm trying to play classical songs! (I've learnt to play a couple such as Arabesque no 1 and nuvole bianche). Thanks for the tip! Reading notes definitely won't be easy but learning via muscle memory and synthesia takes super long!
On my list of songs to learn are Clair De Lune (Debussy) and Nocturne in C Sharp Minor (Chopin).. both are beauuutiful songs. 
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Bri MT on November 20, 2019, 05:42:22 pm
Great to see your journal!

- Likes science
- Doesn't want to do research
- Interested in starting own business

Have you researched my course (Bachelor of Science Advanced - Global Challenges (Honours) ) at all?
It's a science course but focused on stepping outside of the academia bubble and linking with industry etc. In 2nd year we all start our own businesses. Seriously you should look it up and if you have any questions ask :)


It's absolutely reasonable to want money and to want your family to be financially secure; please don't think that this makes you a shallow person. I hope you're able to both do this and follow your passions - best of luck!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 20, 2019, 07:38:09 pm
Have you researched my course (Bachelor of Science Advanced - Global Challenges (Honours) ) at all?
It's a science course but focused on stepping outside of the academia bubble and linking with industry etc. In 2nd year we all start our own businesses. Seriously you should look it up and if you have any questions ask :)
I have heard of it but made the mistake of not looking further into it! I researched it just recently and the entrepreneurship and leadership aspects definitely drew me in! I'll definitely look more into it and keep it in mind as one of my preferences.. thanks!  ;D

It's absolutely reasonable to want money and to want your family to be financially secure; please don't think that this makes you a shallow person. I hope you're able to both do this and follow your passions - best of luck!
Was hesitant in starting up a journal but I'm absolutely touched at the wonderful responses I got  :) Thank you!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 29, 2019, 09:05:32 pm
November 29th 2019
(I don’t know if you can really call this an update):

Last year I befriended a teacher who would become one of my greatest sources of inspiration and motivation. I came to him for book recommendations and now we constantly exchange our thoughts and feelings about the books we read. It’s like our little book club.

Those books absolutely changed my life. I sobbed as I read ‘Flowers for Algernon.’ I laughed my ass off as I read ‘Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy.' I sobbed again through Norwegian Wood. I was lowkey confused by Catcher in the Rye but it was still an adventure nonetheless.

After such a hellish october and november (due to nonstop assessments and exams) I am finally able to read books! I whizzed through ‘Becoming’ (as it was an amazing book) which I got as a present to help motivate and inspire me and I must say it did it’s job! I can definitely related to Michelle Obama's past on so many levels. She wrote about hating how her previous boyfriend 'swerved' in terms of his career. Instead of going straight to med school he instead became a mascot first, which personally bewildered her. She didn't get (and rather despised) the fact that other people don't take a linear path to their goals and instead take this zig zag path which takes time and money. I can totally relate. As well, another painful parallel of our past is losing a close relation from cancer at the young age of 27.

My next endeavours are the three english books which I hope to conquer before the next week so I can go on to other books.

Does anyone have any book recommendations? Honestly, I read any genre so anything would be appreciated!

À bientôt!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 07, 2019, 12:38:45 pm
December 7th 2019
Helloo! Holidays have officially begun and I thought I’d update my journal. I have a crap tonne (like a lot lot) of hw to do during the holidays but I’m sooo relieved that I get a break! I’ve been reading heaps (mainly next year’s english subjects and I’ve started to compile quotes)

I can’t tell you guys how relieved I am to have only 5 subjects (plus RE) to think about. I was juggling 7 subjects this year which was definitely a nightmare.

Last week we had our awards ceremony and snagged up 5 awards. I’m soooper happy as only one out of the whole cohort get one per subject :)

Anyways, my study score for chemistry comes out next week. I don’t want to expect or predict anything as I know I’d simply be disappointed. If it was just me I would not give two shits about if my SS is 31 or 45. But one of the teachers came up at the start of the year telling me that she expects me to get at least a 40. Coming from a school where the highest SS in chemistry is usually 38.. this was a shocker and it scared me throughout the year. I’m absolutely petrified in disappointing her.

You see, I never usually care about whether or not I get a B+ or an A+. But I do care about what other people think. I don’t care if my SS is underwhelming, but I do care about what my teachers think and I do care that I disappointed their expectations. It’s a horrible trait of mine to be so conscious and to be so affected by other people’s judgments. I guess, this is my tragic flaw and I hope to rectify this as I grow up as it does impede my ability and desire to put myself out there and to take risks.

Long Term Goal #1: Let people judge me and not give a single shit.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Snow Leopard on December 08, 2019, 02:09:02 pm
December 7th 2019
Last week we had our awards ceremony and snagged up 5 awards. I’m soooper happy as only one out of the whole cohort get one per subject :)
Congrats, that's a fantastic effort! Which subjects did you get the awards for?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 08, 2019, 04:47:02 pm
Congrats, that's a fantastic effort! Which subjects did you get the awards for?

Thank you!! I got them for Chem, Spesh, RE (Texts), Biology and English (surprisingly)!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 12, 2019, 08:22:13 am
December 12th
I woke up at an unusually early time of 6 am. Already my heart was pounding. I literally rehearsed all the possible scenarios. Worst case: raw 36; it would have scaled to a 40 and I could tell me teachers that I technically got a 40. Ideal case: raw 40; to feed my teachers' expectations. Best case: raw 44; to feed my ego.

With my mom reassuring me as I panicked into oblivion I reluctantly went on the website and...

Spoiler
It's over 44 !
Btw: At certain points of my journal, I may come off vague. I want to write down my feelings and thoughts and stuff but not too much detail of my daily life that someone that I know will identify me. I'm absolutely petrified of someone coming up to me and saying "Hey don't you have that journal..."


Okay so I was absolutely elated. Not sure if I cried. This whole morning I was punching the air. Hopefully, it taught me a lesson
Ultimately I knew that no matter what score I got I would be proud of the effort I put into chem. I absolutely loved chem and weirdly I will never ever forget how much I enjoyed this beautiful subject (all of y'all must be grimacing of how weird I am but I won't blame you). I was only scared of what people thought of me but hopefully, next year that fear of judgement will be gone!

To the class 2019, all the best! I hope you're satisfied with your ATAR and are proud of what you've achieved. For the class of 2020, I hope you're satisfied with your study scores and are proud of what you've achieved. It's rich coming from me but the old saying is true, that they are simply numbers and do not define you :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on December 12, 2019, 08:26:56 am
Congratulations on such an amazing result!!  :D ;)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 12, 2019, 08:35:55 am
Congratulations on such an amazing result!!  :D ;)

Thank you so much!



On a side note.. does anyone know how much it cost to get the Statement of Study Score and Statement of Marks? I know it's not worth obsessing over but I am genuinely curious. I know there is a fee but there isn't anywhere that specified it?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on December 12, 2019, 08:38:00 am
Thank you so much!



On a side note.. does anyone know how much it cost to get the Statement of Study Score and Statement of Marks? I know it's not worth obsessing over but I am genuinely curious. I know there is a fee but there isn't anywhere that specified it?

I'm not confident that this is correct, but one of my teachers once mentioned its like $20 or something close to that.

Also` dont feel bad that you like Chem! There are so many people out there that like it as a subject too! I'm doing 3/4 chem next year, and it is really one of my favourite subjects too - youve defintely inspired me to do well  ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Evolio on December 12, 2019, 08:38:53 am
Yes, congratulations on a fantastic score!  ;D ;D ;D Phenomenal! You'll be my inspiration for chemistry next year!

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Already my heart was pounding.
I can relate to this so much, it's not even funny. My heart started pounding around midday yesterday.

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I absolutely loved chem and weirdly I will never ever forget how much I enjoyed this beautiful subject (all of y'all must be grimacing of how weird I am but I won't blame you)
Haha, not weird at all. In fact, I bow down to you!

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I was only scared of what people thought of me but hopefully, next year that fear of judgement will be gone!
Hey, it's okay. It will get better over time and I know that you will strengthen that muscle of not caring what others think and just doing you! It just comes with practice.

Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 12, 2019, 09:18:31 am
Yes, congratulations on a fantastic score!  ;D ;D ;D Phenomenal! You'll be my inspiration for chemistry next year!

Thank you so much Evolio for your kind words! You've literally lifted my mood even further ;D All the best for chem next year! My messages are always open you need!

Hey, it's okay. It will get better over time and I know that you will strengthen that muscle of not caring what others think and just doing you! It just comes with practice.

Thanks for the encouragement!  :) :) :)

Also` dont feel bad that you like Chem! There are so many people out there that like it as a subject too! I'm doing 3/4 chem next year, and it is really one of my favourite subjects too - youve defintely inspired me to do well  ;D

It's great that you like chem! It's definitely not an easy subject and it helps heaps that you enjoy it!
Again, my messages are always open if you need it next year!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on December 12, 2019, 11:08:27 am
An epic score for chem biscuit! You should be super proud of yourself and hopefully I can do the same for next year. Looking forward to next years journal entries!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: PhoenixxFire on December 12, 2019, 11:30:24 am
Congrats on your study score!
On a side note.. does anyone know how much it cost to get the Statement of Study Score and Statement of Marks? I know it's not worth obsessing over but I am genuinely curious. I know there is a fee but there isn't anywhere that specified it?
From memory it's something like $10-15 for each. It'll say on the form you get with your mailed marks.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 12, 2019, 02:39:13 pm
An epic score for chem biscuit! You should be super proud of yourself and hopefully I can do the same for next year. Looking forward to next years journal entries!

Thanks Geoo! I'm confident that you will :)

Congrats on your study score! From memory it's something like $10-15 for each. It'll say on the form you get with your mailed marks.


Thank you so much!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 24, 2019, 10:30:44 pm
December 24th 2019
Some reflections on chem:
I remember thinking I’ll never get a 40 given my school’s track record for chem. I remember thinking how screwed I was given my atrocious U4 sac grades.

So the old saying is true that your SAC scores doesn’t ‘really’ matter (it does in terms of ranks but not in terms of numbers I guess). So don’t be disheartened by a bad SAC grade. I remember getting a 76% on the experimental design (the poster one) and then putting all my hopes of a 40 down the drain. That time seems so long ago and I can’t believe how long it devastated me for. I remember thinking that I really screwed myself for not getting into a selective school and that my school’s previous performance will reflect mine. Thankfully, I put that aside and tried my absolute best and it all paid off in the end.

Anyways, I’ve ordered the statement of study score. To those interested, for GA1 my 95/100 was scaled to 100. I got 76/90 for GA2 which was incredibly scaled into 86/90 (ty vcaa). I lost 13 marks on the exam putting my GA3 score 214/240. Ultimately my exam performance saved me and I’m really keen on getting a copy of the exam to see which ones I got wrong. I think I got such a high ss due to the apparent difficulty of this year’s exam. I’m highly grateful for it though.

So that’s chem done. For my sanity and yours, this is probably the last time I’m going to rant off about chem.

In terms of holiday homework, I've been pushing to get my set homework done. Hopefully, I can get a break to start a marathon read. Then I'll start getting ahead on the first few topics and getting organised for the year!

Not only that I finally have a job which I will be juggling throughout Year 12. Some people told me that having a job during Year 12 is a death sentence but I’m determined to have that balance. I’ve only just recently experienced how hard it is to be employed without work experience and for my sake and my ATAR I hope I’ve made the right choice.

Then there’s this fear that I won’t perform just as well for my other subjects. Of course, I only had one 3/4 this year so there is no way I can match such performance with 5 subjects but as always I’m plagued with doubt. It’ll be interesting to read these entries in the future.

Regardless, I’m really happy with life at the moment. My personal life and matters are slowly looking up but I have to be prepared to when it comes crashing down once more. It’s crazy to think that three months ago I was in a really bad place emotionally and mentally. 3 months ago I felt like living was a burden and everything felt sooo heavy from just solely existing. I’m soo glad I continued to march forward and life is looking pretty great at the moment. If you’re in a difficult place rn, remember that better times are coming, I promise :)

Lastly, I just wanted to say what an awesome community this is. I’m often too shy to reply to people as I have trouble trying to put feelings into words or I'm scared I'll come off differently as the way I wanted to be... guess I'm just being weird. Anyways, it warms my heart to see people being so supportive of each other and I wanted to say thank you to all you wonderful people in AN :D

I've also realised how messy my entries are,.. oops.

That’s all for today! See y'all next year haha
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Bri MT on December 24, 2019, 10:46:58 pm
Congrats on chem and - more importantly - on getting to a better place :)

It's great to hear that you're taking a balanced approach to year 12 and good work on getting the job - I hope it gives you a well-earned break from academic stressors.

It's really nice to hear how much you value the community even if you don't always have the confidence to reply. 
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 26, 2019, 04:18:27 pm
Congrats on chem and - more importantly - on getting to a better place :)

Thank you for your words :) Looking back, becoming happier and mentally healthy is such a huge achievement for me.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 26, 2019, 06:02:17 pm
Just scrolled through your whole journal (which for some random reason I missed previously) and it was fantastic to read!!

Also I really admire you for getting a job! What type of job is it? I worked at a cafe this whole year (and will next year too) and I promise you it’s a fantastic experience (and also great to earn some money too)  :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 26, 2019, 06:34:16 pm
Just scrolled through your whole journal (which for some random reason I missed previously) and it was fantastic to read!!

Also I really admire you for getting a job! What type of job is it? I worked at a cafe this whole year (and will next year too) and I promise you it’s a fantastic experience (and also great to earn some money too)  :D

Hey there! Thanks for your comment :)
I got a job at my local supermarket. I agree that it's a great experience, it's so different from the academic environment I'm so used to. I quite envy you in your job, it's so hard to get a job in a cafe because all they want are those with experience :'). I have to congratulate you on working yet getting an astounding study score, to me that's incredible. If you don't mind me asking, how did you find a work-study balance?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on December 26, 2019, 09:59:44 pm
Hey there! Thanks for your comment :)
I got a job at my local supermarket. I agree that it's a great experience, it's so different from the academic environment I'm so used to. I quite envy you in your job, it's so hard to get a job in a cafe because all they want are those with experience :'). I have to congratulate you on working yet getting an astounding study score, to me that's incredible. If you don't mind me asking, how did you find a work-study balance?

Wow, a job at the supermarket is pretty good though!

Thanks so much, your study score in chemistry is also amazing (any tips for next year?). In regards to finding a work-study balance, I think I've always been used to having a lot on (as I also train 8 hours a week and am in numerous school bands, plus youth group). Personally, having a lot on makes me more efficient and I tend to use my time more wisely.

Answering this question in a way that is actually useful to you is proving quite difficult. Just make sure you never get too stressed about whether you could be using the time for studying or other things when you're on your shift. Instead, use it as time to reflect and almost 'relax' (I know work isn't something you'd call relaxing, but it definitely gives you time to think and sort things out in your head).

Sorry if that wasn't very helpful :P If you want to ask more specific questions, feel free, I'd probably be better at answering  :'( Good luck with the holiday homework too!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 26, 2019, 10:23:43 pm
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You were more than helpful thank you so much! In terms of chem tips, check your messages as it will be loooonng :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Snow Leopard on December 27, 2019, 01:49:35 pm
You were more than helpful thank you so much! In terms of chem tips, check your messages as it will be loooonng :)
Could you please make a post about how you did so well in Chem on the forums?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 27, 2019, 05:17:46 pm
Could you please make a post about how you did so well in Chem on the forums?
Sure thing! Keep a lookout for this article :)
I didn't know there was a demand for this but I definitely will!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on December 27, 2019, 05:31:34 pm
Yes please do so!!

It'll be sooooo helpful to all future Chem students!! Cant wait to see it.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Snow Leopard on December 28, 2019, 05:30:08 pm
Sure thing! Keep a lookout for this article :)
I didn't know there was a demand for this but I definitely will!
Thanks so much :)
I'll definitely keep an eye out for it!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 10, 2020, 11:29:31 am
January 10th 2020
The new year started off for me well having finished all the school’s set homework and I did a mini readathon for several days where I put all my things on hold to just read. I read 4 books in 5 days!! A huge feat for me.
(The Handmaiden’s Tale, The Dry, Big Little Lies and Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine)

I really neglected reading during year 11 and I hope I don’t fall into the same habit next year…

Now that the readathon was done I went back to my regular routine of working out, coding practice, more reading, doing homework and working… so much working. But hey, at least I’m getting $$$

In terms of holiday homework, I’m just trying to get ahead on the first few topics before school begins. I have since read each of my three English books twice before. Once to simply read and the second time to compile quotes. I plan to read them once more again prior to the school year.

In terms of New years resolutions (I know, super late) I’d like to:
- continue to exercise and be physically active
- read daily (for at least 30 minutes)
- have at least 8 hours of sleep daily
- take care of myself mentally
- not be indecisive.
- spend heaps of time with family
- have a study-work-family balance

The last one will definitely be the most challenging for me ahh.

I’ll probably update this once more before the school starts! See you all then!

(ps: did AN update/change? My eyes are not used to it haha)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 10, 2020, 12:03:45 pm
Nice! Did you enjoy the Handmaiden's Tale? I'm thinking of reading it soon. It's also great you've gotten through so many books recently.

Now that the readathon was done I went back to my regular routine of working out, coding practice, more reading, doing homework and working… so much working. But hey, at least I’m getting $$$

I know, I've worked so much recently, but it's so good to do it now and save some money, especially since it adds a bit of structure to otherwise empty days.

Also what novels are you doing for english?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 10, 2020, 01:18:20 pm
Nice! Did you enjoy the Handmaiden's Tale? I'm thinking of reading it soon. It's also great you've gotten through so many books recently.
I did! Was both scary and insightful. Won't spoil much but it's a good read!

Also what novels are you doing for english?
Nine Days, The Lieutenant, I am Malala (for comparative).
All of which are equally boring aha :-X :-X What about you?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 10, 2020, 02:28:27 pm
Nine Days, The Lieutenant, I am Malala (for comparative).
All of which are equally boring aha :-X :-X What about you?

Station Eleven (I loved it, so good!), The Penelopiad & Photograph 51 for comparative.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on January 10, 2020, 02:46:37 pm
Station Eleven (I loved it, so good!), The Penelopiad & Photograph 51 for comparative.

I'm going to randomly jump in to say I'm doing the same for comparative!

Good luck with achieving your new years resolutions angrybiscuit! Also I love your username, it's so wholesome.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Evolio on January 10, 2020, 03:36:48 pm
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I read 4 books in 5 days!! A huge feat for me.
(The Handmaiden’s Tale, The Dry, Big Little Lies and Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine)
That is a big feat! I don't think I could read that much at a time, even though I like reading! I'm just started reading 'Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine' yesterday. How did you find it?

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Nine Days, The Lieutenant, I am Malala (for comparative).
All of which are equally boring aha
I read 'I am Malala' about 4 years ago and I found it to be a high quality read! One of the best (and most if not the most powerful) books I've read! Hopefully it surpasses your expectations!

Looking forward to future journal entries!   :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 10, 2020, 04:07:03 pm
Station Eleven (I loved it, so good!), The Penelopiad & Photograph 51 for comparative.
Ahh, why are your books so much better than mine ;(((

That is a big feat! I don't think I could read that much at a time, even though I like reading! I'm just started reading 'Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine' yesterday. How did you find it?
I loooved it! At first, I was a bit put off by her attitude (?) or her demeanour but I very quickly sympathised with her plight. It's put into light (for me anyways) the effects of loneliness. I remember a while back reading about the Minister for Loneliness and I didn't think that was necessary until now!

I read 'I am Malala' about 4 years ago and I found it to be a high quality read! One of the best (and most if not the most powerful) books I've read! Hopefully it surpasses your expectations!
I have read it and did think it was very powerful in terms of the message she got across. However, the parts where she was explaining about the history I found it difficult to get through as I'm not much of a history fan and it dragged on sometimes. But I agree, an unbelievably good read.

I'm going to randomly jump in to say I'm doing the same for comparative!

Good luck with achieving your new years resolutions angrybiscuit! Also I love your username, it's so wholesome.
Yay! We can help each other out bc honestly I have no idea on how I'm going to compare it aha ;)
Thanks for the encouragement, all the best for your goals too ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on January 10, 2020, 04:14:27 pm
Yay! We can help each other out bc honestly I have no idea on how I'm going to compare it aha ;)

Haha I meant I'm doing the same books for comparative as chocolatemilkshake! Rip :(
I'm sure you'll defs find a whole bunch of stuff to compare though, have fun!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 10, 2020, 04:51:05 pm
Haha I meant I'm doing the same books for comparative as chocolatemilkshake! Rip :(
I'm sure you'll defs find a whole bunch of stuff to compare though, have fun!
Ahh.. jealous of you guys.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: caffinatedloz on January 27, 2020, 04:40:56 pm
When do you go back to school? ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 30, 2020, 01:21:52 pm
When do you go back to school? ;D
This Friday! What about you? How are you feeling about school?  :) :)



January 29th 2020
I can’t believe how fast the holidays flew by…
I’m as excited for school as I am about studying english, not very excited at all. In fact, I’ve dreaded it.

Work has occupied much of my holidays and I must say, I’ve learnt to manage my time quite well with it. It’s unfortunate that I haven’t been able to do more coding than I envisioned and hoped, but at any rate schoolwork comes first.

I’m feeling relaxed tbh, I don’t need a ridiculously high ATAR so there’s no pressure academically. I just hope that English and Specialist will go smoothly and that I don’t bomb either of them. I’m planning to approach my subjects the way I did with chem last year, only this time trying to eliminate silly errors as the year progresses so it does not become a habit.

Something strange happened after the unfortunate and untimely death of Kobe Bryant. Though I was not a huge basketball fanatic, it became a huge shock. It made me realise how truly fragile life is. This news along with the book I’m reading for school ‘Nine Days’, it really is a punch in the gut to realise that one moment can truly change your life for the worst and how your loved ones can just disappear from your life just like that.

So hug your loved ones, kiss them hello and goodbye, thank them, tell them how much you love them, take every opportunity to spend time with them and cherish every moment because you never know when that will be your last.

Take care of yourself guys :) ;)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on March 09, 2020, 10:05:56 pm
March 9th 2020
Oh wow it’s been a long while since I’ve updated, I literally almost forgot.

So I’m pretty proud at the way I’ve been managing my time (as of late, who knows what will happen as the year progresses). I’ve been doing extra stuff on top of my homework which I’m very happy about and better yet, I still have a job so money is still coming through.

On a negative note, I’m really worried about english. Not only do I despise the subject, my teacher… is really not for me. Their teaching style is something I know will let me down and it is unfortunately beyond my power at the moment. I know getting a really awful ss in english will impact my ATAR severely. Last week we had our creative SAC and it went pretty badly. Very badly. Awful. The topics were just not great at all and I found myself unable to produce a meaningful story. I messed it up real bad and I don’t think I’ll be able to climb from here. It sucks that I can’t replicate my english performance from last year and it makes it even worse that I’ve performed well in english before but now that it actually counts, now that it actually matters I’m just in a slump. I swear the universe hates me.

A lot of things have been worrying me lately. My indecisiveness has been pissing the parents off. I’ve told them I wanted to do medicine but they retorted that I wouldn’t be able to handle it, part of me wants to believe them. Then I said fine, I’ll do computer science instead (computing systems in unimelb) because I like programming. But I’m worried I lack problem-solving skills and I’ll lag behind a class full of programming wizzes. In truth, I'm worried I'll end up like my parents. Lack of passion for their jobs. I don't know what I'm most passionate about. More worryingly, I don't know what I want out of life.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ashmi on March 09, 2020, 10:22:03 pm
Hey angrybiscuit! ;D

We are all in this together and don't worry, you can always pick yourself up no matter how badly you do.

A lot of things have been worrying me lately. My indecisiveness has been pissing the parents off. I’ve told them I wanted to do medicine but they retorted that I wouldn’t be able to handle it, part of me wants to believe them. Then I said fine, I’ll do computer science instead (computing systems in unimelb) because I like programming. But I’m worried I lack problem-solving skills and I’ll lag behind a class full of programming wizzes. In truth, I'm worried I'll end up like my parents. Lack of passion for their jobs. I don't know what I'm most passionate about. More worryingly, I don't know what I want out of life.

I just want to chip in and say do what you want to do! Don't let someone else make your decision for you. It's your life, your marathon, your journey, don't let anyone take that unique quality off you.

I have a similar problem with my parents too as they think I 'can't handle it' but I'm sure they will change their minds later down the track when they see you are happy. Your life is meant to be full of challenges, and if you are on a smooth road, you are definitely doing it wrong. We are meant to live a life where we are constantly challenged, pushed to the limit and that's part of learning and living.
Don't worry right now if you are not sure what you want to do! There is plenty of time to decide and in the end, everything is on you. Keep up the way you are doing this right now. Look after yourself and make sure to not give up. ;D

Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on March 09, 2020, 10:31:37 pm
I can definitely relate to your English struggles, mine are almost identical!

Regarding career, you still have a while before you need to make your decision. Maybe researching courses could help, but when I was in your position, knowing what the course constituted and what definite career prospects I would have access to after graduating really helped. Don't let the difficulty of medicine dissuade you from applying, or the opinions of others for that matter. Yes, it's hard to cope, but a myriad of other jobs are similarly arduous. Medicine is a multi-faceted option that provides so many differing pathways to suit all aspiring doctors, and I encourage you to reconsider. If you enjoy the course, then difficulty just becomes a hurdle you'll find yourself jumping over - this is true for any pathway you are passionate about. If you love it enough, then the cons of the career will be but a small part of your entire experience. Computer science and medicine are two completely different things, and I hope you can find your dream career soon! Don't fret though, many of us don't know what we want out of life and push that insecurity to the back of our heads, so it's commendable that you're acknowledging that and I hope you can find the answer soon.

From one VCE student to another, I wish you good luck. We'll get through the horrendous subject that is English together (or not so horrendous ???.... I mean wasn't there a time when we did well :-[).
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on March 10, 2020, 05:42:29 pm
I just want to chip in and say do what you want to do! Don't let someone else make your decision for you. It's your life, your marathon, your journey, don't let anyone take that unique quality off you.

I have a similar problem with my parents too as they think I 'can't handle it' but I'm sure they will change their minds later down the track when they see you are happy. Your life is meant to be full of challenges, and if you are on a smooth road, you are definitely doing it wrong. We are meant to live a life where we are constantly challenged, pushed to the limit and that's part of learning and living.
Don't worry right now if you are not sure what you want to do! There is plenty of time to decide and in the end, everything is on you. Keep up the way you are doing this right now. Look after yourself and make sure to not give up. ;D
Thank you! This made me look at things more positively :) When you do think about, if life doesn't have 'downs' or challenges then there's pretty much no point to it.

Don't let the difficulty of medicine dissuade you from applying, or the opinions of others for that matter. Yes, it's hard to cope, but a myriad of other jobs are similarly arduous. Medicine is a multi-faceted option that provides so many differing pathways to suit all aspiring doctors, and I encourage you to reconsider. If you enjoy the course, then difficulty just becomes a hurdle you'll find yourself jumping over - this is true for any pathway you are passionate about. If you love it enough, then the cons of the career will be but a small part of your entire experience.
If it was another person saying it I wouldn't be so easily deterred, but my parents know me better than anyone else and they know that I'm prone to bouts of burnout and depression. I've researched it intensely and while I do love what is to be studied, I'm scared for my mental health too. But I haven't ruled it out as an option. I've always known how important health is, especially since my family has been unfortunately struck by illnesses. Pretty early on I've desperately wanted to be the one to return people to their health. I feel like the feeling of helping someone get back on their feet will trump the difficult years to get there.

I also can't overlook the possibility that I won't be able to fulfil my promise to my parents and help them out after high school. It might be years before I'll have an income that I can give them and I have yet to hear about someone who is able to juggle med school and a part-time job.


Computer science and medicine are two completely different things, and I hope you can find your dream career soon! Don't fret though, many of us don't know what we want out of life and push that insecurity to the back of our heads, so it's commendable that you're acknowledging that and I hope you can find the answer soon.
People always look at me strangely at my very very different career options. I've done some coding during my free time and did attempt (or rather failed) at app development. I thoroughly enjoyed it, hence why computer science quickly became my second option.

Thanks whys, as always, for your wisdom! You definitely helped ease my worries. Hopefully, your english situation gets better... wishing you all the best :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: AngelWings on March 10, 2020, 07:27:50 pm
I've researched it intensely and while I do love what is to be studied, I'm scared for my mental health too. But I haven't ruled it out as an option. I've always known how important health is, especially since my family has been unfortunately struck by illnesses. Pretty early on I've desperately wanted to be the one to return people to their health. I feel like the feeling of helping someone get back on their feet will trump the difficult years to get there.
Have you considered other health professions that may be able to have the same sorts of interactions, but not necessarily involve studying medicine itself? There are opportunities working in the health industry that might be less taxing on your mental and physical health, if that is your main concern, as well as jobs that are more direct/ indirect to the patient’s recovery, that don’t necessarily need a degree in medicine itself.

If you find the right place, they’ll also cater towards your mental and physical health, as well as adjust things to ensure you are safe and well while you work.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on March 15, 2020, 02:40:55 pm
Have you considered other health professions that may be able to have the same sorts of interactions, but not necessarily involve studying medicine itself? There are opportunities working in the health industry that might be less taxing on your mental and physical health, if that is your main concern, as well as jobs that are more direct/ indirect to the patient’s recovery, that don’t necessarily need a degree in medicine itself.

If you find the right place, they’ll also cater towards your mental and physical health, as well as adjust things to ensure you are safe and well while you work.
Yes I have! These include dietician or a nutritionist and even a pharmacist. But I need to do some more research as a lot of them just point to ones requiring med school. It would be amazing to find a place that will care for medical students' mental and physical health. The majority of the experiences I come across (mostly in America) are not too positive. The burdens and the toxic culture especially after medical school lead to an alarmingly high rate of physician depression and suicide, it's something that makes me reconsider.

Thanks for the advice!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on April 03, 2020, 10:05:28 pm
April 3rd 2020
Wow everything’s gone crazy so fast.

Tbh the longer holiday did benefit me heaps. I was able to get back to my regular routine of workouts (whoops I neglected this during the term) and heaps of reading. Plus I’m able to work heaps. Speaking of work, I’m really lucky that I still have a job (I work at a supermarket) and I walk past the Centrelink in my area heaps of times and the lines are soo long it’s so disheartening.

I’m able to get ahead of my classes and start doing exam questions here and there which is great! I’ve even started writing text responses… can you believe it. Makes me realise that if we have to resort to online classes next term (looking at the numbers that seems very likely) I’ll be alright.

Anyways all this is low-key driving me nuts. Our formal (which is not until early july) was cancelled which sucks. We won’t have our last athletics or swimming carnival which sucks. We’re not sure we’re going back in term 2 which sucks. I want to see my friends, I want to see my teachers. I know there are more important things to worry about during this time but damn I hate not being able to fully live out my last year in high school. This year was going to be the year I join all the sports and all the extracurriculars. I'm supposed to look back on this year and think wow that was a great year. Now I'll look back at this year as the crappiest year of my life.

Been dealing with some personal things lately and this plus the isolation and uncertainty just drives me mental. Hopefully, I can unwind a little before online school starts.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on April 15, 2020, 07:19:06 pm
April 15th 2020
I mean this quarantine thing sucks and all but honestly I’m really benefitting from it. I get more sleep, we don’t have zoom classes so I work at my own pace (good and bad thing depending on how you look at it) and I get more time to do other things beyond school. I can now help more with chores and cooking, I have time to exercise daily. Work-study balance is great at the moment.

I am worried that since all the sacs are postponed until further notice that I will suddenly be bombarded with sacs next term but we’ll worry about that later.

As with online school, we don’t have live classes (as said above). Teachers have this document on what is due week per week and we go by that. It’s unbelievably flexible. Most of my friends don’t do shit until like 5 pm but hey whatever floats their boat.

Last term I desperately did not want my english sac back and guess what... I’m not getting it back. Not as long as we have this quarantine as we usually get sacs back including the paper and not just the grade. My prayers have been answered with a world wide quarantine, I don’t know whether to laugh or cry about that.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on April 15, 2020, 07:55:34 pm
There are definitely many upsides to online learning. As you said more sleep, rests, free time etc. It's nice to see that you are feeling pretty positive about it all. I hope that they don't bombard you with SACs when you get but it looks to be what most schools end up doing.
Good luck for term two, and I hope that it continues to be great!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on April 15, 2020, 08:40:47 pm
April 15th 2020
I mean this quarantine thing sucks and all but honestly I’m really benefitting from it. I get more sleep, we don’t have zoom classes so I work at my own pace (good and bad thing depending on how you look at it) and I get more time to do other things beyond school. I can now help more with chores and cooking, I have time to exercise daily. Work-study balance is great at the moment.

I am worried that since all the sacs are postponed until further notice that I will suddenly be bombarded with sacs next term but we’ll worry about that later.

As with online school, we don’t have live classes (as said above). Teachers have this document on what is due week per week and we go by that. It’s unbelievably flexible. Most of my friends don’t do shit until like 5 pm but hey whatever floats their boat.

Last term I desperately did not want my english sac back and guess what... I’m not getting it back. Not as long as we have this quarantine as we usually get sacs back including the paper and not just the grade. My prayers have been answered with a world wide quarantine, I don’t know whether to laugh or cry about that.

Tbh I'm 100% with you on the benefits of online learning!! I do like it since we get so much more relaxing time.
Literally just having no travel time to school makes all the difference.

Interesting about the SACs - in a slight way I wish my school would do that too but I think my school is heading towards online SACs, not sure how well that'll go in terms of authentication but we'll see.

Hope you have a great term!!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on April 16, 2020, 04:51:08 pm
There are definitely many upsides to online learning. As you said more sleep, rests, free time etc. It's nice to see that you are feeling pretty positive about it all. I hope that they don't bombard you with SACs when you get but it looks to be what most schools end up doing.
Good luck for term two, and I hope that it continues to be great!
Being positive is the best we can do during these times... all the best for you as well :D

Tbh I'm 100% with you on the benefits of online learning!! I do like it since we get so much more relaxing time.
Literally just having no travel time to school makes all the difference.

Interesting about the SACs - in a slight way I wish my school would do that too but I think my school is heading towards online SACs, not sure how well that'll go in terms of authentication but we'll see.

Hope you have a great term!!
I used to wake up at 6 to get ready, now I wake up at 8.50 just to be in time for the 'roll' call. No travel time is incredible.

Yeah, online SACs would be very dodgy. Rankings would be all off and I am almost certain that everyone will cheat.. let's be honest who wouldn't

All the best for you as well, hope everything goes smoothly on your end   ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Coolgalbornin03Lo on April 16, 2020, 04:55:01 pm
Wow your lucky SACs are called off. Originally our school was doing that when this was all still hypothetical but now SACs are gonna be over a zoom :( idk how that’ll work cause there’s 200 kids in chem. I’m scared that I’ll lose my ranking to people who cheat because I’m confident I can’t get higher than them.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on April 16, 2020, 05:04:06 pm
Wow your lucky SACs are called off. Originally our school was doing that when this was all still hypothetical but now SACs are gonna be over a zoom :( idk how that’ll work cause there’s 200 kids in chem. I’m scared that I’ll lose my ranking to people who cheat because I’m confident I can’t get higher than them.

Would like to chime in to say that the people who cheat will probably end up doing worse than you anyways. It's the exam that counts the most, and those who cheat will not learn anything from their SACs. You will, and will likely outperform them in the exam - also I doubt the virus will impact school for the entire year, so when we go back to school and SACs are normal again, their ranking will drop if they have been cheating instead of efficiently studying. I too had the same worries regarding online SACs, but it is in your power to complete the SAC honestly. You can't stop others from cheating, but they will not be in a better boat than you when it comes to the end of year exam.

I agree with everyone above - I can safely wake up much later - with time left over to watch TV - which is great because I can watch the tv shows I want to! I have so much more time for non-study things which I am grateful for, but I miss the impromptu meetings when walking to class, the hellos and the laughs, and the fun we had at lunch and recess. There are some things that can never be replicated in online conditions. I wish you the best of luck for your VCE journey angrybiscuit!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on April 16, 2020, 08:22:03 pm
Wow your lucky SACs are called off. Originally our school was doing that when this was all still hypothetical but now SACs are gonna be over a zoom :( idk how that’ll work cause there’s 200 kids in chem. I’m scared that I’ll lose my ranking to people who cheat because I’m confident I can’t get higher than them.
As whys said above the best you can do is to do your best :) Those who cheat are indeed sabotaging themselves, so do your sacs like you would on normal circumstances. You wouldn't want to do practice exams open book with notes so just apply the same thing in online sacs. Good luck for this term, hope everything goes well!

I agree with everyone above - I can safely wake up much later - with time left over to watch TV - which is great because I can watch the tv shows I want to! I have so much more time for non-study things which I am grateful for, but I miss the impromptu meetings when walking to class, the hellos and the laughs, and the fun we had at lunch and recess. There are some things that can never be replicated in online conditions. I wish you the best of luck for your VCE journey angrybiscuit!
As great as online schooling is, it can never beat actual school for me for the same reasons you have outlined above. The very social environment of school is why my parents never allowed me to be home-schooled. This is nothing more than wishful thinking but I hope that everything goes back to normal in term 3 (or hopefully earlier). Hope everything goes well for you whys!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on May 29, 2020, 09:07:20 pm
29th of May
Oops it's been a while, have been meaning to update but didn't have the motivation too.

Anyways there is a big storm coming for me and I'm currently trying to brace myself. I have two weeks to prepare until the dreaded SAC week where I will have SACs for almost all my subjects because I literally did not have any SACs during the online school period. I should have met this with anticipation but for the SACs to be all in one week... just yikes  :-\

Another wave of SACs is coming next term specifically the first couple of weeks and the last couple of weeks of term 3. Unfortunately, this means it will coincide with my UCAT but there is nothing I can do but just prepare the best I can.

All my subjects have begun Unit 4 which is mildly annoying because I still have U3 SACs. Truth is I am petrified. Term 2 began with so much time on my hands and I wished I spent it more wisely instead of attempting to relax a little. And let's not even begin with English  :-X :-X

Speaking of UCAT I have never been so petrified in my life about a test, not so much the prospect of it being worth as much as my ATAR, but the fact that I paid $300 for me to fail. The variability in my performance is frightening. My mocks range from 650 to 850 and it varies day to day. The only one I am consistently performing well in is Situational Judgement which doesn't even contribute to my overall score. I hope to at least be more consistent and pray that I do somewhat well on the actual thing.

Sorry for all the doom and gloom, hopefully, my next couple will be more positive ... hope everyone's week went smoothly!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on June 17, 2020, 03:12:44 pm
June 17th 2020
Hello it’s time for a proper update because I’ll disappear pretty soon… these sac weeks remind me so much of year 11 exams which sucks ;(

English
Just did a text response and oh my what a d i s a s t e r. So bad that it was actually worse than my creative which is saying something. Luckily, we’re headed to language analysis is something that I can somewhat do. The English gods better grant me some magical english powers so that I can obtain that raw 35  :'(

Specialist
Where do I even begin.
Sometimes I get it, sometimes I don’t. Learning a vast majority of U3 content independently was a nightmare and it’s left a lot of holes in my knowledge that is so time consuming to fill. There will be concepts where “oh yeah I get it”, but then they’ll give me a question that has a different angle for tackling it and I’m— lost??? Hopefully I get better at knowing the right method to tackle questions. DE’s are the bane of my existence at the moment so hopefully I can up my game.

Methods
There’s some hope for me in maths.
I’m slowly (but surely) getting better at application questions. I enjoy methods much more than I do spec and I find it miles easier because most of the topics I do on methods I cover on spec first.

I got to do VCAA exams which I find are doable. But then I’ll do sacs from other top-performing schools and I— wow I struggle so much it’s actually disheartening and makes me lose confidence in my abilities. Am I good at methods or is my school just dumbing it down so as not to discourage us? Probably the latter.

Psychology
Uh, not really much to say really. Just finished learning and memory. We’re on to U4. Psych is pretty easy to grasp but there’s just so much content I find it very time-consuming. A SAC coming up soon and I'm slightly worried because the teachers have been warning us that it'll be difficult one.

Biology
I’m not excited to learn about evolution AT ALL. Just not my cup of tea. I absolutely loved the previous AOS which was immunity and evolution is just a massive downgrade for me. SACs have been okay though so there’s that.

UCAT: Have been doing 1 hour of UCAT per day. Have done a couple of mocks. Not too hopeful given that these mocks indicate nothing but I’m hoping to get around 10k questions before my actual test date. I’ve only done around 7k at the moment. Starting to feel the pressure because I’ve got less than a month to go. My expectations for my UCAT is even lower than my expectations for english so that says something.

General
Wow. Wow I think I got too cozy during the lockdown period because now I am feeling the full force of year 12. I have so many sacs to study for it’s insane and they're all within next week. This coupled with the fact that I haven’t had the time to exercise and some body image issues and you got s t r e s s. I’ve been managing things well but I feel so underprepared whenever I don’t spend as much time studying for SACs as I did for them last year (which I know is impossible given my workload nowadays). I won’t leave this on a negative note (I know you guys are probably realising that I'm a pretty pessimistic person lol) Got back my English SAC (the dreaded creative, 3 months late) and it wasn't a failure but there's heaps of room for improvement but at least I know where I lost the marks in :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on July 03, 2020, 08:53:47 pm
July 3rd 2020

ENGLISH
I’m convinced I am absolutely cursed at this subject. Half my year level showed an astronomical flex by not reading the book but still get a higher score than me in the analytical response what witchcraft are they using??? Can I use them too???

PSYCH
All is well. We’re travelling nicely, though kinda worried because we’re covering things rather slow. Although my teachers are confident we’ll finish the content in time so I’ll take their word for it. The new unit is more interesting than U3 imo

BIOL
The speed at which we’re covering the topics is insane. We have Unit 4 AOS 2 left to do which is literally the smallest AOS in the entire 3/4 course so I’m pretty happy with bio. Still have a shit tonne of SACs (3) to squeeze into Term 3 but it won’t be the equivalent of WWIII unlike Term 2. Very confident that I’ll have plenty of time for exam revision

SPEC
I’ve officially hit rock bottom… in spec. I have now accepted that it will be bottom two and that I will probably get at most raw 20. I have never in my life struggled so much in maths as I do now in spec. Everything in integral calculus and differential equations is just lost on me when is put into application questions. Oh well it was fun while it lasted. We've just started on kinematics and mechanics which is something that I thoroughly enjoy.

METHODS
Methods, my actual love. What an absolute contrast lmao. I have forced myself to enjoy application questions and I have found myself actually enjoying them throughly (lmfao.. is this Stockholm syndrome?). If there is one thing that spec has done it has fuelled my love for methods because it actually makes sense. 

UCAT
So I’m using Medify to prepare but I’m not too confident given that the practice tests that the official UCAT website gives are far, far more difficult (RIP). Ultimately, it’s a hit or miss for me especially with VR.

Verbal Reasoning is by far my absolute worst section. I’ve improved in all except this one. I cannot read nor comprehend within the 40 second time frame provided and I always end up getting 600-700. My performance in VR parallels my performance in English, how tragic.

Future pathways
1.Bachelor of Medical Science @ Monash

It’s a dream, it’s probably beyond reach but I can just try.

2.Bachelor of Science @ Melbourne
—> Neuroscience / Physiology
Honestly I will major in any life sciences as they’re all so intriguing. For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to do science instead of biomed, mainly because of the wide variety of majors but I guess we’ll see.

Through this pathway I can hopefully get into postgraduate medicine or (if I am steered to another path) another pathway completely.

3.Bachelor of Science
—> Data Science / Computing systems major
I highkey also want to work as a data analyst for a company or something or just work in the industry. This one is a vague but achievable goal for me.

Ultimately, even if I don’t get my preferences, I have a crap tonne of other interests. But I have a bad habit of not researching enough so I’m scared of not knowing what I’m getting into.

General
I thought maybe I should reflect back given how bloody cheesy and cringe my journal title is but you know what I’ll just own it. When I started this journal I was in a really bad place. My family’s home situation was very bad, to the point where university was not an option for me because I really believed that I needed to step up as a provider for my family. Hence, my initial desire to chase money. Things have changed however, and my home situation has gotten better, to the point where I am most likely going to university and pursue whatever my heart’s desire. But I’m not going to ignore the fact that things can get worse, and that I’ll need a backup if that happens. No matter what happens my family always always comes first and I'm willing to put aside everything for them.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on July 14, 2020, 03:56:32 pm
July 14th 2020
To be honest, I’m really unhappy with how I travelled these holidays. I had plans to get ahead in most subjects and complete exams but I forgot that UCAT was a thing and it drains the crap out of you (:

I honestly cannot wait until UCAT is over, but I have like a love/hate relationship so I feel like I’ll have withdrawals after doing 30 mins of UCAT every day since March. I’ll miss it, but I’ll be very glad to have it gone. I have been having daily panics about what happens if I don’t hit the desired UCAT score (a probable outcome). My mom’s helping me keep things in perspective that I’m not going to lose anything by performing badly, and that if I don’t get into my desired course, I still have a roof over my head. Honestly, super grateful to have such parents. I know I don’t talk about them much here, but the fact that they don’t pressure me and they support whatever endeavour I take means so much.

I’m trying not to be so harsh on myself so I’m trying not to berate myself from not achieving as much as I have hoped to have. At least I’ve committed to working out twice a day. Honestly exercise helps SO much from technology derived headaches it’s insane.

So I’ll congratulate myself from the stuff I’ve done:
> (3) Unit 3 Biology exams
> Psychology extended investigation
> (3) language analysis pieces
> Read news articles for language analysis
> Revision for methods SAC
> … A shit tonne of UCAT

Last week I got my methods sac back and I have mixed feelings. On one hand I’m pretty happy because all my mistakes were just silly errors and not because I don’t understand the question. On another hand, I feel so disappointed because it could have easily been a perfect score if I didn’t make those silly mistakes.

My mood has been at an all time low which is expected as I hit the halfway point of this year. I just hope my energy and motivation goes up from here…

That’s all for this short update. Hope you guys stay well :)

SEAS questions
I've been thinking about applying for SEAS in terms of Category 4 (difficult circumstances). I've got a couple of questions and I'm not sure where I should be asking this.

1) Is it worth applying for category 4 when I’m already eligible for category one because I go to an under-represented school?
2) How do I know my circumstances are eligible? It is not listed in the VTAC website and I’m scared that it’s not going to be considered as “difficult circumstances"
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: AngelWings on July 14, 2020, 05:19:11 pm
Jus going to leave this spoiler here to answer your questions.
SEAS Questions

Asking here or on the VTAC Discussion board both work.

1. It depends on the circumstance you’re applying with, besides the underrepresented school and you’ll have to have enough evidence to support your claim  (more info on Category 4 here). To be honest with you though, I’d probably apply for more categories rather than less and let VTAC decide whether it is valid or not.

2. You can (a) apply and hope for the best (they just won’t take Category 4 if they don’t believe it counts, but will still consider you for other categories regardless and can be successful there instead), or (b) contact VTAC to confirm. VTAC (and the institute you apply for) usually take it as a case-by-case scenario, so they’ll be able to determine from your evidence whether you have a valid claim for difficult circumstances.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on July 14, 2020, 06:38:04 pm
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Thank you so much AngelWings ;D

Will probably put my application through for both Categories 1 and 4 and just see whether or not they'll consider my circumstances :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on July 25, 2020, 01:56:39 pm
July 25th 2020
Warning: A long and rather drab update

So I just the sat the UCAT and spoiler alert it was bad. I just expected something better and expected myself to be better (this is probably why I have low expectations of myself because when I do have high expectations, I don’t meet it). Now I’m stuck in a situation which I will get on to later.

It’s not a bad score, but it’s good either. According to last year this will get be a 90th %ile, this year is probably lower. It’s not bad, I’ll admit, but it won’t give me the peace of mind that I am guaranteed an interview (you need around 95+). I don’t know if this score is good enough for an interview.

Everyday it seems my chances of med is getting smaller and smaller. This UCAT score just affirmed two things: I’m not as capable as I think I am, I’m probably not cut out for medicine. I know you’re thinking how melodramatic I am, but seriously, this is an aptitude test. It was my chance to prove that I’m more than just booksmart but it proved that I’m nothing more than that.

A couple of weeks ago my school informed me that I am their nominee for the UoM Principal’s scholarship. At the same time, they know my dream of Monash medicine. I have to let them know whether or not I’m set on Monash so they can find another nominee if ever. In my case, it’ll be smarter to go to Melbourne and accept the scholarship. With SEAS, I will be guaranteed into Science at Melbourne with 85 ATAR or below. This chance is so much greater than getting into medicine with a mediocre UCAT and a mediocre ATAR. I’m determined to continue working towards medicine, but I also need to be realistic.

I'll need to let them know of my decision soon. If I tell them I'll be accepting the scholarship, I have to be certain to have UoM as my top preference in VTAC which means that I've given up on my dream course.

Huge shoutout to whys for answering my countless questions, to Seamus Wong, ashmi and Coolgalbornin03 for their encouraging words. You guys are the best <3
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on July 25, 2020, 02:16:48 pm
The UCAT is a culling tool, if anything. It doesn’t mean you aren’t good enough or you aren’t cut out for med. It’s just an easy way for unis to lower the number of eligible students. A cut off like 50th percentile, for example, already eliminates 50% of potential candidates. It also doesn’t mean you’ll be a good/bad doctor - again, just a nice and easy way for them to lower the pool that apply. I definitely think you shouldn’t give up, you still have a chance at med if you work on your ATAR. Your score isn’t at all bad either!! It’s always important to have back up/alternative options you’re happy with but I don’t think you should abandon trying for monash med yet.

Congrats on finishing the UCAT! Now you can take that well-deserved break.

Also, happy to help! :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on July 25, 2020, 02:23:33 pm
Please please please don't be too hard on yourself angrybiscuit! I totally understand that it can be so disheartening, but you are worth so much more than your UCAT score and I'm positive that you can achieve anything you want to.

Everything will fall into place as it comes, and don't give up on your dreams! Anything is possible and no matter how, you WILL make it.

I believe in you ;)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on July 25, 2020, 02:49:35 pm
Hi angrybiscuit,
First of all, your UCAT score is far from horrible and doesn’t indicate your worth or intelligence at all! I know it’s hard to get over disappointment but we all still believe in you and med is certainly still an option

Also a massive CONGRATULATIONS on being nominated for the UniMelb scholarship at your school. You should be proud of yourself and even if you decide not to accept it, it’s still a fantastic achievement and proves you are more hardworking and smarter than you think. Whether you should accept it is definitely a difficult decision but whatever you choose I’m certain that your future holds incredible things. Just make sure it’s YOUR decision  ;)

All the best, you’ve got this and I look forward to the next update
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on July 26, 2020, 08:34:28 pm
The UCAT is a culling tool, if anything. It doesn’t mean you aren’t good enough or you aren’t cut out for med. It’s just an easy way for unis to lower the number of eligible students. A cut off like 50th percentile, for example, already eliminates 50% of potential candidates. It also doesn’t mean you’ll be a good/bad doctor - again, just a nice and easy way for them to lower the pool that apply. I definitely think you shouldn’t give up, you still have a chance at med if you work on your ATAR. Your score isn’t at all bad either!! It’s always important to have back up/alternative options you’re happy with but I don’t think you should abandon trying for monash med yet.

Congrats on finishing the UCAT! Now you can take that well-deserved break.

Also, happy to help! :D
I'll definitely keep that in mind. It's quite silly of me to use UCAT to determine whether or not I'd be a good doctor or not 😅

Thanks for your wisdom whys!

Please please please don't be too hard on yourself angrybiscuit! I totally understand that it can be so disheartening, but you are worth so much more than your UCAT score and I'm positive that you can achieve anything you want to.

Everything will fall into place as it comes, and don't give up on your dreams! Anything is possible and no matter how, you WILL make it.

I believe in you ;)
Hi Arty!
Thank you so much for your advice <3 I'll definitely try to stop playing the numbers game.
Your belief in me means SO much to me (it's super motivating  ;D)

Hi angrybiscuit,
First of all, your UCAT score is far from horrible and doesn’t indicate your worth or intelligence at all! I know it’s hard to get over disappointment but we all still believe in you and med is certainly still an option

Also a massive CONGRATULATIONS on being nominated for the UniMelb scholarship at your school. You should be proud of yourself and even if you decide not to accept it, it’s still a fantastic achievement and proves you are more hardworking and smarter than you think. Whether you should accept it is definitely a difficult decision but whatever you choose I’m certain that your future holds incredible things. Just make sure it’s YOUR decision  ;)

All the best, you’ve got this and I look forward to the next update
Hi choco!
I guess I've always been stuck with this mentality that UCAT = intelligence which is what killed my morale in the first place. Regardless THANK YOU for your kind words, I will see the nomination as a win for me even if I don't accept it ;D



Wow okay so I've had some time to digest things and looking back at my last entry I can't help but cringe. I sounded so dramatic and sounded like a real brat. I'll look on the brighter side and see it as a good lesson for me, that not everything that I want, I will get. I'll have to learn that disappointment is okay and I shouldn't dwell on it too much.

I've decided not to accept the scholarship, I'll keep my head high and see where things take me. Hopefully there will be other opportunities for a scholarship down the road (in UniMelb or Monash). This decision was a pretty big deal because it's pretty much my OWN decision. If you've read from the start of my journal, I'm very indecisive. If I can, I'll try to avoid huge decisions that will significantly impact my life. Though this decision is far from absolutely life-changing, I can be satisfied with the fact that I made it with absolute conviction (haha small steps)

Regardless, thank you guys so much for helping me keep things in perspective. To those who reached out to me and did not judge me at all for such a melodramatic episode, thank you. I'm seriously the luckiest :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on July 26, 2020, 09:14:00 pm
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Hey, you shouldn't apologise for being 'melodramatic' - it's very normal to feel disappointed when you don't meet your expectations (which can end up exacerbating how you feel about everything else). I also want to remind you that your UCAT score is very very far from 'bad' and I, including others, are very proud! To me, you sounded real, not like a brat and not at all cringe. And that's what I really appreciate reading in journal entries, because it's okay to feel upset and write about it - that's what it's all about! We support each other when we feel disappointed and celebrate when we achieve what we want to achieve.

Also, good on you for making a decision! I can also relate to being very indecisive (I'm a libra heheh). I can never decide on anything and it stresses me out a lot (one time I had to choose between two birthday cards and it took me ages and I still wasn't sure if I'd chosen the best one lol). I recently I had to make a decision on whether I wanted to continue training with the adults or become a youth leader at St John Ambulance (I volunteer there) and it was the hardest thing in my life... I don't even think I'm satisfied with my decision haha. Proud of you for making a decision you're happy with - small steps are the way to go. :D

Not melodramatic. I appreciate the realness in your entry.

Have a great week! (oh no, I just realised the weekend is over) :(
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on August 02, 2020, 11:34:35 am
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Hey whys!
It's awesome to be able to express myself freely without fear of judgement and I thank you and other AN users for that :)

Ahh decisions, decisions, why do they have to be so hard  :'( Like why not both???? Good on you for making such a hard decision, I'm sure you've made the right one ;)

Hope you have a great week!


August 2nd 2020
I am sure you're all aware of the rising cases, and there is a real possibility that we will return back into online learning. I know many people are hoping to go back to lockdown but for myself, online learning was SO DIFFICULT. Nothing stuck to me and to this day I am still relearning those I learnt in lockdown because I did not consolidate them properly. But, safety is first and foremost and whatever decision happens I'll readjust and readapt.

English
NEXT

Maybe I'm an absolute clown for not reading the study design but I just found out that the comparative is worth 60 marks??? Out of the whole 70 marks for Unit 4??? God I am so crap at comparative and it's literally my entire Unit 4 mark 😂 🤐

Biology
Did I say that I hated evolution? I was SO wrong. Human evolution and interrelatedness of species is actually such an interesting topic (granted, my teacher did say that a large chunk of content that was not very fun to learn was taken out). I mean like isn't crazy that our ancestors were like hunting and gathering while I'm here typing this journal??? Crazy. We’ve moved on to genetic engineering and emergence of new diseases. Learning about the spread of diseases and pandemics while currently experiencing a pandemic just hits different. Biology is by far my favourite subject, rarely do I actually enjoy all area of studies in a subject.

Psych
Initially was bored at our mental health topic but is actually super interesting ;D More importantly, it helps me look out for myself, aiming to prevent myself from getting too severe when times get tough (I promise I do not attempt to self diagnose myself but it’s good to be aware). I find psychology so funny to learn. I’m stressing learning about stress like lmao.

Methods
Okay okay. For once I’m confident in my abilities for a subject. But as always, am let down by silly errors. At least I have the skills down pat, now I just need to get rid of RIDICULOUS errors.

Let me list down the silly errors I made that cost me 6 marks 🤐
> I didn’t simplify (yep)
> I didn’t show enough working out for not one but TWO questions
> I had to dilate f(x) by a factor of 2 from x axis. FOR SOME REASON I didn’t multiply ALL parts of the equation by 2… grr
> I had to label the coordinates as integers but labelled an intercept in fractions.. WOW
> I missed an asymptote (yes it was y=0)

… Yes I wrote all this from memory. Yes I am mad. Yes I am determined to do better.

Spec
I’m getting there. Almost done with the content and hope to refine my skills because my previous SAC is nowhere near the level I am happy with. I am very happy about the fact that there is no more probability and the mechanics and kinematics stuff are something that I’m enjoying and it’s something I actually understand.

A journal that isn’t radiating with negative energy? Wow who is she. Anyways being at school helped me get over my little ’slump.’ Motivation is not up there but it’s picking up at a steady rate for SACs.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on August 02, 2020, 11:44:14 am
Hi angrybiscuit! I totally get your anger over silly mistakes as I am the queen of silly mistakes ahaha
keep powering through, you're doing great!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: mi-xao-14 on August 03, 2020, 08:05:30 am

August 2nd 2020
I am sure you're all aware of the rising cases, and there is a real possibility that we will return back into online learning. I know many people are hoping to go back to lockdown but for myself, online learning was SO DIFFICULT. Nothing stuck to me and to this day I am still relearning those I learnt in lockdown because I did not consolidate them properly. But, safety is first and foremost and whatever decision happens I'll readjust and readapt.

English
NEXT

Maybe I'm an absolute clown for not reading the study design but I just found out that the comparative is worth 60 marks??? Out of the whole 70 marks for Unit 4??? God I am so crap at comparative and it's literally my entire Unit 4 mark 😂 🤐

Biology
Did I say that I hated evolution? I was SO wrong. Human evolution and interrelatedness of species is actually such an interesting topic (granted, my teacher did say that a large chunk of content that was not very fun to learn was taken out). I mean like isn't crazy that our ancestors were like hunting and gathering while I'm here typing this journal??? Crazy. We’ve moved on to genetic engineering and emergence of new diseases. Learning about the spread of diseases and pandemics while currently experiencing a pandemic just hits different. Biology is by far my favourite subject, rarely do I actually enjoy all area of studies in a subject.

Psych
Initially was bored at our mental health topic but is actually super interesting ;D More importantly, it helps me look out for myself, aiming to prevent myself from getting too severe when times get tough (I promise I do not attempt to self diagnose myself but it’s good to be aware). I find psychology so funny to learn. I’m stressing learning about stress like lmao.

Methods
Okay okay. For once I’m confident in my abilities for a subject. But as always, am let down by silly errors. At least I have the skills down pat, now I just need to get rid of RIDICULOUS errors.

Let me list down the silly errors I made that cost me 6 marks 🤐
> I didn’t simplify (yep)
> I didn’t show enough working out for not one but TWO questions
> I had to dilate f(x) by a factor of 2 from x axis. FOR SOME REASON I didn’t multiply ALL parts of the equation by 2… grr
> I had to label the coordinates as integers but labelled an intercept in fractions.. WOW
> I missed an asymptote (yes it was y=0)

… Yes I wrote all this from memory. Yes I am mad. Yes I am determined to do better.

Spec
I’m getting there. Almost done with the content and hope to refine my skills because my previous SAC is nowhere near the level I am happy with. I am very happy about the fact that there is no more probability and the mechanics and kinematics stuff are something that I’m enjoying and it’s something I actually understand.

A journal that isn’t radiating with negative energy? Wow who is she. Anyways being at school helped me get over my little ’slump.’ Motivation is not up there but it’s picking up at a steady rate for SACs.

Wowowowow we're doing the same subjects, except I do chem as well, did psych last year, and I love it (despite the amount of work tho *cough*)!!!!!

I haven't gotten up to human evolutions yet, just finished fossils stuff, which aren't my thing tbh.

Comparative, oh boy ripppppp, I am still at the start of reading my novel, and we just started this area hahahah............ Yeah it can be p tedious cuz it's very time consuming, but I enjoy analysing in English heheh.

MENTAL HEALTH!!!!!!! My favourite topic in psych cuz it's such an interesting topic, especially where it has helped me understand ppl better and be more sympathetic towards them, and it has kinda influenced my career paths, and I wanna do research in drugs (hopefully one day I will get to do that cuz I'm kinda already leaning towards Engineering and Arts, ooooooft, triple course choices).

Awww mannnnn, I feel ya, silly mistakes grrrrrrr, that happened to me in the second part of my methods SAC jdgaegajwpeojspdjgadgpj!!!!!! It pissed me off so hard gahhhhhh!!!!! I easily make silly mistakes, idk why man, I'm just such a dumbass for that bahahahah.

Oooooooo, spesh, yep, I mean idm probability, but thank you for cutting out the study design. I need more time to consolidate my spesh (and all my subjects). I mean I'm alright at it, at least not my weakest subject, but I don't find myself confident enough at it, unlike in methods. It's been my fav subject since yr 11 cuz it's challenging but manageable, which makes it soooooo interesting!!!!!! I just feel so good whenever I'm able to figure something out whoaaaaaa!!!!! (Yeah, don't mind me sound like an eager 5-yr-old lmaoo).

Man, hard lockdown, crappppp. I rlly hope you'll survive in this, especially us yr 12's, online learning, yikessss. It is going to be a lot harder than ever, so good luck with it, don't let your motivation slide away too much!!!!!

mi-xao-14 ^^

P.S. thanks a lot for replying to my dead ass journal, I appreciate that heaps!!!! : )))))
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on August 24, 2020, 02:49:35 pm
homeworkisapotato, mi-xao-14
Hi angrybiscuit! I totally get your anger over silly mistakes as I am the queen of silly mistakes ahaha
keep powering through, you're doing great!
Thanks heaps! Though I'll have to fight you for that title... my little errors are ridiculous
Hope you're all well :)

Comparative, oh boy ripppppp, I am still at the start of reading my novel, and we just started this area hahahah............ Yeah it can be p tedious cuz it's very time consuming, but I enjoy analysing in English heheh.

MENTAL HEALTH!!!!!!! My favourite topic in psych cuz it's such an interesting topic, especially where it has helped me understand ppl better and be more sympathetic towards them, and it has kinda influenced my career paths, and I wanna do research in drugs (hopefully one day I will get to do that cuz I'm kinda already leaning towards Engineering and Arts, ooooooft, triple course choices).

Awww mannnnn, I feel ya, silly mistakes grrrrrrr, that happened to me in the second part of my methods SAC jdgaegajwpeojspdjgadgpj!!!!!! It pissed me off so hard gahhhhhh!!!!! I easily make silly mistakes, idk why man, I'm just such a dumbass for that bahahahah.

Oooooooo, spesh, yep, I mean idm probability, but thank you for cutting out the study design. I need more time to consolidate my spesh (and all my subjects). I mean I'm alright at it, at least not my weakest subject, but I don't find myself confident enough at it, unlike in methods. It's been my fav subject since yr 11 cuz it's challenging but manageable, which makes it soooooo interesting!!!!!! I just feel so good whenever I'm able to figure something out whoaaaaaa!!!!! (Yeah, don't mind me sound like an eager 5-yr-old lmaoo).

Man, hard lockdown, crappppp. I rlly hope you'll survive in this, especially us yr 12's, online learning, yikessss. It is going to be a lot harder than ever, so good luck with it, don't let your motivation slide away too much!!!!!

mi-xao-14 ^^

P.S. thanks a lot for replying to my dead ass journal, I appreciate that heaps!!!! : )))))
Can't share the same love for analysing in English AHAH I cannot for the life of me enjoy English.

Mental health made me realise how we as a society don't take mental health seriously enough  :'( :'( It's great that it has influenced your career path.

I feel you... it's so rewarding when I actually you solve a challenging question and you feel like mini Einstein AHAHA ;D

Hope you're going well :)

August 24th 2020
Good news, I’ve adapted well to online learning aside from the procrastination brought on by times of fatigue and ✨headaches✨. Otherwise, all is well.

I’m not in too much of a hurry to complete the courses though I’m almost finished with biology, spec and methods. I’d rather consolidate the entire course first before nose-diving into practice exams. If there’s anything I’ve learnt last year it’s that spamming practice exams mindlessly won’t benefit me. I did around 25ish I think but I reckon I would’ve obtained the same SS if I did more or less. Ultimately towards the end, I saw the same patterns of mistakes I made and did nothing to rectify them (oh well I didn’t know how to rectify them) and ultimately cost me mindless marks on the real thing. I’m hoping to really reflect after each practice exam and not treat it as a worksheet that I put aside after use.

VTAC wise, medicine is up in my preferences. I didn’t apply for interstate because I’ll have to work part-time to full-time to finance it and I don’t think that’s possible with medicine. I do 10 hours per week (sometimes less, sometimes more) right now with work and sometimes it can be too much. 

If I don’t get in, it’s no big deal. Initially was going to do Science at Melbourne but right now I’m leaning towards Monash and their double degrees. And let’s be honest, a 20-minute commute is more attracting than a 1 and a half hour commute to Melbourne. Hoping to do Science/CompSci or Biomed/Commerce combo. Ultimately, I don’t want to mindlessly aim for medicine then end up unemployable despite my qualifications, I need to think long term.

There are days where I feel so pumped like I can take on the world. Other days I wish I can stop trying altogether, crawl under the blanket and never emerge again. I’ve also just realised how truly isolated I am because my social battery is always flat. Like I can only exert a certain amount of energy per day into study and socialising and I always put my energy into study as a force of habit. Not to say that I feel lonely, not at all, just an observation of mine.

Hope everyone's well :) Please look after yourselves.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on October 03, 2020, 10:49:18 am
October 3rd 2020
Where did time goooo??? I blinked and it's already October.

I have completely forgotten about this thing as usual. Since my last update I have: gotten my P’s, completed like 5 SACS (only 2 more to go), had a lot of work shifts and completed all my courses just before term three ended fun fun.

Work has become a well earned break. I know it’s crazy but not having to do anything with school feels great. Within the walls of my work, specialist maths and english does not exist, it’s a great therapy only I’m the one getting paid.

I feel as though I’m not doing enough. Not enough practice exams, not enough revision. I’m finally given an opportunity to be able to complete copious amounts of exam study (i.e. quarantine and online schooling) but I didn’t do anything significant. If anything I am studying less than I have last year. I keep pinching myself for not taking the opportunity while I had it.

Doing exams are so bloody frustrating nowadays. I get rid of a lot of questions because they’re not in the study design but sometimes it’s difficult to discern whether or not it’s not in the study design or it’s just because I really don’t know it myself. Grr my problems seem so small compared to others but I’m always so frustrated. Hence ‘angry’ in my name though it should be ‘frustrated’ but it doesn’t have the same ring to it.

English is going fine. But it’s one of those moments in TV shows where things are going suspiciously great for the protagonist and something awful happens. I feel like this is going to be one of those moments. Trying not to stress about the fact that the comparative is literally my entire unit 4 grade but it’s fine. Trying not to stress about the fact that english exam is in 37 DAYS. Cool cool cool cool cool. Everything is fine. Specialist maths is going awful. For some reason I do really well on the short answer portion but absolutely horribly on the multiple choice section? According to psychology it should be the opposite but I guess I’m backwards so I can’t really blame it.

This journal should be entitled: angrybiscuit needs to learn to be kinder to herself, she’s trying but she cannot help but hate herself: a saga.

Anyways very excited to go back to school though I can’t help but think that staying at home during term 4 to do practice exams is more enticing. But I’ve been rotting in my study for some time now so I’m more excited than bummed out.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ashmi on October 03, 2020, 11:48:47 am
Hey hey angrybiscuit!!🥰

I'm so excited to see a journal update!

October 3rd 2020
Where did time goooo??? I blinked and it's already October.

This is a big MOOD. You are definitely not the only one that is experiencing this. It feels like I've taken a short nap in August and then BAM we are in October!!😕
Also, congrats on getting your P's!! That is a big achievement and definitely worth celebrating over😃.

Doing exams are so bloody frustrating nowadays. I get rid of a lot of questions because they’re not in the study design but sometimes it’s difficult to discern whether or not it’s not in the study design or it’s just because I really don’t know it myself. Grr my problems seem so small compared to others but I’m always so frustrated. Hence ‘angry’ in my name though it should be ‘frustrated’ but it doesn’t have the same ring to it.

I can spiritually relate to this! It is SO frustrating trying to do exams to time, especially since sometimes you can't tell if something is in the study design or not. It can get quite confusing too and don't worry, you are not the only one who is angry 🤣. Sometimes I can't tell if VCAA has made studying for exams easier or harder...

Trying not to stress about the fact that the comparative is literally my entire unit 4 grade but it’s fine. Trying not to stress about the fact that english exam is in 37 DAYS. Cool cool cool cool cool.

Let's stress together bro😭. English is that one subject that no matter how much you try, it creeps up on you SUPER QUICKLY. It's like trying to run away from a racecar sometimes🤣
On a side note, the hypothetical journal title "angrybiscuit needs to learn to be kinder to herself, she’s trying but she cannot help but hate herself: a saga." literally sounds like a whole television series you would binge-watch with a good batch of popcorn. Give yourself some self-love cause you deserve it🥰

I absolutely believe in you angrybiscuit and that you will most definitely reach your goals in style!! You have GOT THIS and it is totally alright to have a break when you need it. Thank you so much for the journal update and I'm defs looking forward to seeing another one in the future🥰
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on October 03, 2020, 01:26:55 pm
I've been waiting for an update! ;D

I looked at the date and wow :( it still feels like the middle of the year to me. Time goes so fast and everything is just going by like a blur. Congrats on getting your P's! I'm nowhere near 120 hours, so hopefully I can drive more on the summer holidays.

I definitely agree, honestly, a part of me will always wish that study designs weren't cut because it's just so much harder. I have so many gaps in my knowledge so I can't tell if it's off the SD or if I just have no idea, so I can totally relate to that. And that English exam is slowly creeping up on us... we can all share our hate for this subject together. I'm so glad I'll never have to write another text response essay in my life after this year. 37 days are going to go by in a blink though 😭 - I need more time!

Same, I absolutely cannot wait to go back to school! Although the extra revision is nice, I think I need some motivation and I want to see my friends too.

Have a lovely weekend angrybiscuit, and don't stay angry for long!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on October 03, 2020, 05:58:38 pm
Hey angrybiscuit! I'm so happy you updated  ;D

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I feel as though I’m not doing enough. Not enough practice exams, not enough revision. I’m finally given an opportunity to be able to complete copious amounts of exam study (i.e. quarantine and online schooling) but I didn’t do anything significant. If anything I am studying less than I have last year. I keep pinching myself for not taking the opportunity while I had it.
I relate so much to this! Everyday whenever I take a few hours break I feel the back of mind yelling at me to the point I can't even enjoy the break. I can't wait to go back to school so I don't have to feel like I have to study 24/7.  You're doing great, just hang in there until school starts.

Have a great one, looking forward to the next update, and hopefully frustratedbiscuit will turn into delightedbiscuit <3
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on October 04, 2020, 12:48:54 pm
Heyooo angrybiscuit!
Was so excited to see an update! And CONGRATS on getting your Ps! Enjoyyyy the new found freedom!!

I seriously have nooo clue how it became October.....like imagine....if COVID didn't exist we'd be doing our English exam in LESS than a month. But still 37 days seriously scares me...

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Doing exams are so bloody frustrating nowadays. I get rid of a lot of questions because they’re not in the study design but sometimes it’s difficult to discern whether or not it’s not in the study design or it’s just because I really don’t know it myself. Grr my problems seem so small compared to others but I’m always so frustrated. Hence ‘angry’ in my name though it should be ‘frustrated’ but it doesn’t have the same ring to it.
I seriously feel you on this - it really annoys me there's no full VCAA exams we can do. I hope you'll become a happybiscuit soon!! Just keep at it, I'm positive everything will work out in the end.

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Anyways very excited to go back to school though I can’t help but think that staying at home during term 4 to do practice exams is more enticing. But I’ve been rotting in my study for some time now so I’m more excited than bummed out
Me too. As much as staying home to do exams sounds good, I think we'll all benefit from getting some motivation from school.

Thanks for the update - I'm sure everything will work out soon! Have an awesome start to the term  :D

Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on October 18, 2020, 02:49:32 pm
ashmi
Hey hey angrybiscuit!!🥰

I'm so excited to see a journal update!

This is a big MOOD. You are definitely not the only one that is experiencing this. It feels like I've taken a short nap in August and then BAM we are in October!!😕
Also, congrats on getting your P's!! That is a big achievement and definitely worth celebrating over😃.

I can spiritually relate to this! It is SO frustrating trying to do exams to time, especially since sometimes you can't tell if something is in the study design or not. It can get quite confusing too and don't worry, you are not the only one who is angry 🤣. Sometimes I can't tell if VCAA has made studying for exams easier or harder...

Let's stress together bro😭. English is that one subject that no matter how much you try, it creeps up on you SUPER QUICKLY. It's like trying to run away from a racecar sometimes🤣
On a side note, the hypothetical journal title "angrybiscuit needs to learn to be kinder to herself, she’s trying but she cannot help but hate herself: a saga." literally sounds like a whole television series you would binge-watch with a good batch of popcorn. Give yourself some self-love cause you deserve it🥰

I absolutely believe in you angrybiscuit and that you will most definitely reach your goals in style!! You have GOT THIS and it is totally alright to have a break when you need it. Thank you so much for the journal update and I'm defs looking forward to seeing another one in the future🥰
Hey ash!!
Your racecar english analogy is SPOT on... 22 days now omg. October has 0 chill. On a side note, it would be a good series only my life is reality TV worthy HAHA

Thank you so much for your encouragement! Hope exam period is treating you well also.
whys
I've been waiting for an update! ;D

I looked at the date and wow :( it still feels like the middle of the year to me. Time goes so fast and everything is just going by like a blur. Congrats on getting your P's! I'm nowhere near 120 hours, so hopefully I can drive more on the summer holidays.

I definitely agree, honestly, a part of me will always wish that study designs weren't cut because it's just so much harder. I have so many gaps in my knowledge so I can't tell if it's off the SD or if I just have no idea, so I can totally relate to that. And that English exam is slowly creeping up on us... we can all share our hate for this subject together. I'm so glad I'll never have to write another text response essay in my life after this year. 37 days are going to go by in a blink though 😭 - I need more time!

Same, I absolutely cannot wait to go back to school! Although the extra revision is nice, I think I need some motivation and I want to see my friends too.

Have a lovely weekend angrybiscuit, and don't stay angry for long!
Hi whys!
Getting your Ps is a must. The freedom is great ;D so make sure to get onto those hours after the exams!!

The only thing that is getting me through exam revision is the fact that in 22 days time will be the last time I will write a ridiculous comparative/text response/argument analysis EVER. I cannot wait till "PENS DOWN" and I am freee from english 😂. I am so glad I have someone to lament over English, it is truly horrible.

Thanks for your reply whys! Hope exam revision is going well :)
homeworkisapotato
Hey angrybiscuit! I'm so happy you updated  ;D
I relate so much to this! Everyday whenever I take a few hours break I feel the back of mind yelling at me to the point I can't even enjoy the break. I can't wait to go back to school so I don't have to feel like I have to study 24/7.  You're doing great, just hang in there until school starts.

Have a great one, looking forward to the next update, and hopefully frustratedbiscuit will turn into delightedbiscuit <3
Hi potato!!
Ahh yes, at this point in time I feel like if I'm not studying I'm wasting my time. But I'm learning, slowly but surely, that breaks are necessary and that I don't need to feel guilty over them.

Thanks for the reply, I'm a happier biscuit now :)
ArtyDreams
Heyooo angrybiscuit!
Was so excited to see an update! And CONGRATS on getting your Ps! Enjoyyyy the new found freedom!!

I seriously have nooo clue how it became October.....like imagine....if COVID didn't exist we'd be doing our English exam in LESS than a month. But still 37 days seriously scares me...
I seriously feel you on this - it really annoys me there's no full VCAA exams we can do. I hope you'll become a happybiscuit soon!! Just keep at it, I'm positive everything will work out in the end.
Me too. As much as staying home to do exams sounds good, I think we'll all benefit from getting some motivation from school.

Thanks for the update - I'm sure everything will work out soon! Have an awesome start to the term  :D
It's so difficult to wrap my head around the fact that if it wasn't for COVID, our english exam is in 11 DAYS. October is going 100km per hour in a 40km zone.....

Thanks for your kind words... hope exam revision period is treating you well <3
Thank you all for your kind words, your support means the absolute world <3

October 18th 2020
holycrapholycrapholycrapholycrapholycrapholycrap

22 DAYS are you joking. I think I'm set for Section A and Section C, I am pretty confident I can write to time. Will it be good? Who knows, but as long as I can get an essay written in an hour, I'm all set. I am, however, very concerned about comparative. We did our SAC just over a week ago and what a disaster. I know, I know I'm lamenting over my disastrous english sacs once again but this one was definitely bad. It absolutely sucks to see people write 4-5 pages when you only do 3... I feel very unprepared for Section B and I hope I can improve with the time I have.

On a positive note (because we desperately need some here), my two maths are coming along nicely. I'm getting used to VCAA style questions and I'm content with how I'm travelling along. With biology and psychology, I am less confident but I'm getting there. I just need to fill in some gaps in my knowledge for Unit 4. It's a lot more difficult because of the study design changes but eh.

I don't usually do study score predictions because for my school, I don't know if they're marking too harshly or marking too easy. But as of right now here's how I think my scaled study scores will be in terms of rank (highest to lowest). Chemistry will be without a doubt my highest, so I'm hoping it will pull up my atrocious English ss.

Chemistry
Specialist
Methods
Psychology
Biology
...
...
...
English (duh)

That's all for now. Hope you're all doing well. Let's hope the restrictions ease up in time for us to have a COVID safe celebration/graduation... we deserve it.

- (happy but anxious)biscuit
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 02, 2020, 10:23:57 pm
November 2nd 2020
Feeling a lot of feels right now.

Just finished my last day of high school last week and so many emotions just came by me. I can vividly remember the first day of high school (cliche I know). Getting lost in the school corridors, couldn’t even find the toilets. Being at awe at the older year levels.

My first muck up day that I experienced I remember thinking that in 5 years' time I’ll be the one trashing the school and here we are. Sooo many emotions last week.

Overwhelming joy. Let’s be honest. The prospect of graduating is incredibly exciting. The fact that I have just finished 6 years of high school just blows my mind.

Sadness. My friends and I are all coincidentally going on to different universities and different paths. I can’t pretend and say that we’ll remain as close as we are now but the prospect of forming new friendships is so scary. Like the thought of not being close by to the people I’m used to and love so much is absolutely petrifying.

Fear and apprehension. I’m not ready for the real world. I want to crawl under the protective wing of my teachers telling me what I should do and lifting me up when necessary. Who’s going to pick me up when I fall down? Who’s going to push me out of my comfort zone? I know I certainly will not. I’m lucky to have such incredible teachers to the point where finding my own feet will be difficult. I don’t think I can do that all myself.

Absolute anxiousness. With the english exam in 8 days and nowhere NEAR ready all I am feeling is absolute FEAR. This is not how I would imagine finding myself so soon prior to exams.

So right now I am a crude mixture of good and negative emotions. I've had a couple of days off in preparation for the last days of school and was a very nice break but now I just feel numb.

As for exams I do english everyday, 1 maths exam and 1 science exams. Personally, I’m proud of how I’m handling things with making sure I eat healthily, stay active and sleep for 8 hours every night. These ensure I keep sane.

Fingers crossed by the time I enter the english exam I’ll be feeling more prepared.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 08, 2020, 05:23:26 pm
November 8th 2020
Not me writing this entry instead of studying for english oop. Anyways, 2 days!! I can almost taste freedom, the sweet relief from the shackles of english that has taken me prisoner for 6 years now.

The thought of never having to write a bloody text response/comparative/argument analysis essay under timed conditions just excites me.

Anyways, time marches on mercilessly. It does not care whether or not I have dreaded exams soon. I feel prepared but unprepared. Definitely not as prepared as I would have liked. I felt like this week went by with a blink of an eye… anyone else felt this? Probably just me. Anyways on to my subjects.

English
Surprise surprise, my worst one is comparative and I don’t think I can improve with the time that I have so I’ll just accept it and move on. I’m sick of writing essays however, which is why I am going to spend tomorrow just revising and going more in depth with my texts. That being said how I feel going into Tuesday is how I could feel if i walked into a geography exam, completely unprepared and clueless. But I’ll fake it and trick myself into thinking I’m ready.

Maths
Gonna squeeze both methods and spec here because I’m performing relatively similar in both.

My methods silly errors are absolutely unforgivable and with two weeks to exam there is no hope for me to remove them. Absolutely none. My teacher laments over how I can full marks in tech free exams if I eliminate them, but instead I accumulate so many deductions. Wow. Every method I’ve tried to reduce them are futile, my mind skips over TINY details that become my downfall. I never pick up on them no matter how many times I go over my paper it’s so bad.

Medea’s downfall may be her hubris, mine is silly maths errors.

On the other hand, my silly errors in specialist is more forgivable. It’s that subject where you can technically lose a fair few marks and still do alright. Hoping to scrape by a 30 but that sounds a little too optimistic.

Biology
Why does experimental design have to exist?? My narrow mind cannot comprehend what needs to be improved upon or what needs to be controlled…

Just need to work on tightening my understanding and revising my weaknesses. I’m making stupid little errors that just infuriates me.

Psychology
I am very afraid for the extended response :D My teacher who has been a VCAA examiner for 20 something years tells us to write like there’s no tomorrow. I write 3 pages for the extended response and he wants me to write another two. ANOTHER TWO? This is longer than my english essays.

He likes to scare us that quantity is as important as quality so I’m trying to broaden my knowledge so I can write endlessly for this question. I also need to focus on mental health because I have forgotten everything :D

How unfortunate that my sciences are all next week then followed by maths. Oh well, the countdown to freedom begins. 12 days to go :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Coolgalbornin03Lo on November 08, 2020, 10:39:20 pm
November 8th 2020

Biology
Why does experimental design have to exist?? My narrow mind cannot comprehend what needs to be improved upon or what needs to be controlled…


I remember you said this about chemistry and you still did great!

I think you being so “insightful”- I don’t know what it’s called but being aware of what you don’t know and fixing it is exactly why your gonna do well! Good luck on your 3 exams this week- it’s such a rare situation cause heaps of people do bio or psych early, all my friends laughed at me hehe.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 10, 2020, 03:33:11 pm
I remember you said this about chemistry and you still did great!

I think you being so “insightful”- I don’t know what it’s called but being aware of what you don’t know and fixing it is exactly why your gonna do well! Good luck on your 3 exams this week- it’s such a rare situation cause heaps of people do bio or psych early, all my friends laughed at me hehe.
AhHHA someone caught me complaining about experimental design AGAIN this is embarrassing 😂  I'm sure you and I know the pains of anything experiment related like research methods.

Yes we are unfortunate in our situation ;( Thanks for your kind words, good luck to you as well!



November 10th 2020
Expect me to actually be on here a lot so I apologise in advance for this thing popping up in the unread posts thing.

Did I just walk out of that exam with 3 half-assed essays? Yes I did. Did I walk out with a big smile on my face? Also yes. Regardless of how I go I'm happy because it's over I'm FREEEE (from English that is). I cannot be happier, I feel as though a million pounds has been lifted off my shoulders. To say that I'm reinvigorated is an understatement. My skin is clear. My crops are thriving. The sun is shining.

"Ready" to face psych and bio next. I'm pumped and refreshed. I've done 15 exams each and I think I'm set to go. Though my teacher has been nagging me for the last section of the psych exam so I'll spend the little time I have preparing for that.

Funny, the only thing getting me through exams is the thought of finishing it.

Good luck year 12s :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on November 10, 2020, 06:53:45 pm
Great job angrybiscuit!! All the best for your psych and bio exams :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on November 10, 2020, 09:25:28 pm
So so proud of you for getting through!! One (dreadful) exam done, just some more to go!! Loving your mindset - you are definitely ready for psych and bio and I believe in your ability to do well.

All the best for the rest of your exam period!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 13, 2020, 08:22:53 pm
homeworkisapotato
Great job angrybiscuit!! All the best for your psych and bio exams :D
Thank you! Congrats on completing bio as well! I'm sure you aced it ;)
whys
So so proud of you for getting through!! One (dreadful) exam done, just some more to go!! Loving your mindset - you are definitely ready for psych and bio and I believe in your ability to do well.

All the best for the rest of your exam period!
Thank you whys!
You and I would celebrate the most for finishing English. Hope bio went great... though I know you aced it ;)
Best of luck for everything else!


November 13th 2020
I’m (almost) halfway there! Done with my sciences ;D

Psychology:
MC was a disaster. Won’t be surprised if I lost the bulk of my marks here. It was just so strange and so.. specific. I remember being so flustered, reading over the question 10 times before going with my gut and moving on. The short answer were like long answers AHHA they need a lot of writing. I remember flipping to the next page and seeing MORE lines and MORE questions like it never ended.

Nonetheless, I walked out of it content with my performance, I wanted a hard exam knowing that the A+ cutoff will help me push close to my dream of 40.

Biology:
Contrary to Psychology, I walked out of that exam with a pit of sickness in my stomach. It was doable for sure and ATARNotes and the rest of the state will agree in it’s suspicious easiness in comparison to the shit show of psych. I knew what that would mean, my careless errors will get the better of me and will cost me. This would mean students would need to claw their way up the rankings to get the high 40s. Don’t have high hopes for this one.

Still holding on to the hope of 38-40. I’ll be satisfied with that.

My post-exam blues don’t last long however. They are quickly replaced with euphoria, sheer relief and excitement. It is so strange not having to revise for them anymore, like I lost a leg or something. But it’s welcome news as I inch closer to freedom. This time next week, I’m a free person (dramatic I know)

Methods:
I am MOST scared of methods. I am petrified of this subject. My silly little errors will EASILY add up and cost me my SS…. I’m using what little time I have to be more meticulous but it ain’t working 😐

Specialist:
I am not at all stressed about this subject. I don’t have extremely high hopes for it, I only want a 30 and my exam scores show that I’m on track for that. Yes I know it’s bad to have this lax mindset but I’m not extremely mathematically inclined.

Again, I don’t want to be too optimistic. My philosophy has always been to aim low, hit high. Try my best and expect the worst, that way I won’t be too disappointed. It’s a shitty mindset, but it has worked time and time again.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 20, 2020, 02:54:42 pm
November 20th 2020
THIS IS IT, THE DAY I’VE BEEN DREAMING OF SINCE THE START.

Methods:
BOTTOM TWO BABY

EXAM 1
How do you fuck up an exam that bad???

That was embarrassing. My brain was simply not functioning. Forgot how to find x-intercepts. Didn’t think about the easiest conceptual things. Interpreted the question in terms of which areas to find wrong. In short, absolutely ✨fucked✨

I left that exam defeated. But I was determined to pick myself up for the next day, erase it from memory like it never happened. Open a new clean page whatever because I was in shambles

EXAM 2
I woke up that day feeling r e f r e s h  e d. Unfortunately, the exam was during 3pm aka the time when my battery runs out and must take a nap. MC was shit (guessed like most okay). SA was alright but probability ran me over like a truck. Pretty sure I messed up the entire question. I can’t even have anyone mention this subject without flashbacks on the questions I got wrong and how I could’ve approached it differently etc.

Overall, I’ll be really lucky to get anywhere near 35. Like really lucky

Specialist:
A hugeee contrast to methods. Exams were doable and on the easier side which I was grateful for after the onslaught that was methods. I left the exams feeling content.

Overall, I think I’m on track on getting a 30


After that two weeks of tragedy, it’s time to get back to the drawing board because at this rate I aspire to be like my chances of getting into medicine: very slim. I entered my predicted scores into a calculator and I am looking at around mid to high 96 which is pretty high for my school’s standards so I am content.

Right now my preferences have yet to change. But radiography, science/commerce and science/computer science are looking very probable right now.

This brings me to the “end” of the academic side of this journal. Crazy that today I officially have finished 13 years of education. These past 5 weeks alone were insane but the process of it and the relief of finishing was nonetheless satisfying.

I have a bucket list I want to complete, books to read, movies and shows to binge, a fitness goal I want to work toward.  No amount of exam failure can challenge my happiness right now.

I’ll update this sometime before the ATAR is released, put out a sappy reflection or something. I’ll see you all then. All the best.

EDIT: Sorry mods if my language is too crude. Do let me know if this type of vulgar language is not allowed, will remove them promptly :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: lm21074 on November 20, 2020, 03:41:51 pm
Congratulations angrybiscuit! :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on November 20, 2020, 04:20:55 pm

CONGRATS angrybiscuit!!! Enjoy the well deserved break  ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on November 20, 2020, 05:06:29 pm
AHHH! Woohoo! Congratulations Biscuit on completing year 12 that's must be such a reliving feeling. Great to see such a positive attitude, no matter how you went. I hope you enjoy all the free time, you totally deserve.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on November 20, 2020, 06:58:59 pm
Congratulations angrybiscuit sossooososoos proud! Enjoy the break and looking forward to your next update <3
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on November 23, 2020, 05:40:39 pm
Congratulations angrybiscuit! :)
Thanks! Congrats on completing your 3/4 exams. All the best for your 1/2 exams :)

CONGRATS angrybiscuit!!! Enjoy the well deserved break  ;D
Thanks! You too :)

AHHH! Woohoo! Congratulations Biscuit on completing year 12 that's must be such a reliving feeling. Great to see such a positive attitude, no matter how you went. I hope you enjoy all the free time, you totally deserve.
Thank you so much! I have definitely been enjoying my free time. Not long to go for you as well :)

Congratulations angrybiscuit sossooososoos proud! Enjoy the break and looking forward to your next update <3
Thanks potato! Congrats on finishing bio <3 All the best for the next couple of weeks :)


Thanks guys :) Reading in my cozy chair with a hot tea nearby and a face mask on is definitely needed after these crazy weeks. Am definitely enjoying the freedom ;D

Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Bri MT on November 23, 2020, 07:26:08 pm
Congrats!

Reading in my cozy chair with a hot tea nearby and a face mask on is definitely needed after these crazy weeks. Am definitely enjoying the freedom ;D

Cosy reading with tea sounds wonderful :D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Evolio on November 23, 2020, 08:35:46 pm
This is extremely late but CONGRATULATIONS ANGRYBISCUIT!!  ;D You've worked incredibly hard this year, reached the finish line and now you can take a well-deserved break!

And SAME, I have high expectations for myself about fitness so hopefully we reach those goals! All the best!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on December 29, 2020, 11:18:38 pm
Evolio
This is extremely late but CONGRATULATIONS ANGRYBISCUIT!!  ;D You've worked incredibly hard this year, reached the finish line and now you can take a well-deserved break!

And SAME, I have high expectations for myself about fitness so hopefully we reach those goals! All the best!
I am even LATER so I apologise! Thanks though <3 Same goes to you!
Bri MT
Congrats!

Cosy reading with tea sounds wonderful :D
I apologise for being so late! Thank you!
I had plenty of those sessions the past month :)


December 29th 2020
uhhh I kinda forgot about this

I said a reflection prior to results so here it is. I feel like I’m at a point in my life where ahead of me are multiple, countless roads and I have to choose one when I have no clue where to go. I’m clueless is where I’m getting at. Lost seems to be the better word. There’s so much pressure to choose the right road, I’m getting a sense from the people around me that choosing the wrong one is detrimental in some sense.

Regardless, I’ve had an unproductive but very relaxing holidays. Honestly don’t know what I’ve done for the past month but I don’t want to beat myself over not being productive. I deserve not doing anything after all.

Here is said reflection:

what I don’t regret
— putting in time to take care of myself physically and mentally
look I barely went crazy when it came to revision. 2 exams a day where I could have easily done 3-4 but I chose not to. I could have sacrificed an hour or two of sleep, the time I spent making my meals, and the hour I spend working out daily but thankfully, I chose not to.

— not quitting my job
I told myself that I would quit my job to focus on year 12 but I decided not to and powered through the year juggling work and school. Granted online learning provided flexibility that I never would have had in a normal year but I do not regret staying.

— putting in effort
self explanatory.

regrets
— letting my successes determine my happiness.
Success should not equal happiness. I have much to learn that I should not rely on my successes to be happy. I have come to realise that my successes dictated how happy I was and failures dictated my sadness. Why can’t I make mistakes and still be happy?

— letting other people’s judgements get the better of me
what’s this?? I haven’t changed at all from last year?

— hating myself
look it’s okay to be harsh on yourself but mine spiralled into self-loathing and eventually disgust. It wasn’t healthy, it affected my relationship with myself and how I perceived my self worth.

— not using the extra time from quarantine in a productive sense
I could have picked up a new language, learnt more coding, read more books, furthered my understanding of my subjects but instead rotted in my room as


disappointments
— methods. that is all
— UCAT. no explanation needed
— not spending more time with family. (I am now though!)

Right now I am suffocating. So many choices, so many options. I am 90% sure I want to attend Monash for convenience much to the disappointment of my parents and teachers. Ultimately, they are not the ones who are going to have to travel 3 hours daily.

I am going to be happy with whatever score. But all I can feel are the expectant eyes of my teachers. I have a feeling that I’ll never truly let other people’s judgments affect me.

To those expecting results tomorrow, all the best ;D
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: keltingmeith on December 30, 2020, 12:02:53 am
regrets
— letting my successes determine my happiness.
Success should not equal happiness. I have much to learn that I should not rely on my successes to be happy. I have come to realise that my successes dictated how happy I was and failures dictated my sadness. Why can’t I make mistakes and still be happy?

— letting other people’s judgements get the better of me
what’s this?? I haven’t changed at all from last year?

— hating myself
look it’s okay to be harsh on yourself but mine spiralled into self-loathing and eventually disgust. It wasn’t healthy, it affected my relationship with myself and how I perceived my self worth.

— not using the extra time from quarantine in a productive sense
I could have picked up a new language, learnt more coding, read more books, furthered my understanding of my subjects but instead rotted in my room as

I almost feel you're being too hard on yourself. I think it's kinda normal to rely on victories to help keep you in good spirits. Healthy? No, particularly if you go through a period where life keeps kicking you to the curb, but it's not about being happy despite not having victories - it's about redefining success, and realising that even if you have the potential to change the world, some days just getting out of bed is worth celebrating. It definitely feels unfair to regret letting failures make you feel sad.

Same with your inability to "effectively" use quarantine - sometimes, your success criteria is just getting out of bed and doing something to keep you happy. It's okay if that's enough - you've got a whole life in front of you to think about learning coding, trying to learn a new language, etc. etc. Not like you'd get particularly good at any of those in just 2 weeks anyway, or even a month, anyway.

Also, if someone says they don't let what others say get to them, they're lying. Maybe they're pretty good at it, but everyone falters, and there will always be times where even they're bothered by what someone says.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 01, 2021, 06:57:35 pm
keltingmeith
I almost feel you're being too hard on yourself. I think it's kinda normal to rely on victories to help keep you in good spirits. Healthy? No, particularly if you go through a period where life keeps kicking you to the curb, but it's not about being happy despite not having victories - it's about redefining success, and realising that even if you have the potential to change the world, some days just getting out of bed is worth celebrating. It definitely feels unfair to regret letting failures make you feel sad.

Same with your inability to "effectively" use quarantine - sometimes, your success criteria is just getting out of bed and doing something to keep you happy. It's okay if that's enough - you've got a whole life in front of you to think about learning coding, trying to learn a new language, etc. etc. Not like you'd get particularly good at any of those in just 2 weeks anyway, or even a month, anyway.

Also, if someone says they don't let what others say get to them, they're lying. Maybe they're pretty good at it, but everyone falters, and there will always be times where even they're bothered by what someone says.
Thank you for your profound words. I am defining success unrealistically and I am indeed making unrealistic expectations of myself. I definitely feel as though I am punishing myself for doing the bare minimum.

You are absolutely correct though, simply doing "nothing" kept me sane and happy during the lockdown and that was enough.

Again, thank you for putting things in perspective :)

January 1st 2021

I have finally digested Wednesday’s happenings and have finally had time to sit down and write something coherent. My results are nothing short of incredible— almost improbable. My ATAR is surprisingly high. I think this is attributed to the COVID special considerations thing as my school *apparently* was affected pretty badly.

Anyways, onto my results.

Predictions (scaled):
Quote
Chemistry
Specialist
Methods
Psychology
Biology
...
...
...
English (duh)

Actual:
Quote
Specialist
Chemistry
Methods
Psychology
Biology
English

Goals:
English: 35
Psychology: 40
Biology: 38
Methods: 35
Specialist: 30

Actual:
Spoiler
(redacted)

We all know how much I despise English. So seeing that study score almost made my eyes pop out of my sockets. How in the world did I get that score???? I feel almost undeserving of it after years of hating it.

I surpassed my expectations with bio and psych. But that did not stop me from feeling the slightest bit of disappointment. Deep inside, I really wanted one of them to surpass my chemistry study score as I truly enjoyed them. But nonetheless, they would have had minor effects on my ATAR and it is just vanity at that point. These became my bottom two which was totally unexpected but fate had other ideas.

My maths are another story. Sure, my english ss was improbable in my eyes but my maths study scores blew me away. How on earth did I manage a 40+ for methods???? Having messed up one whole question in exam 2 and practically lost 15+ marks in exam 1 I am absolutely speechless. Specialist was my most i n c o r r e c t prediction yet. At the start of my 1/2 specialist studies, I thought a raw 30 was inconceivable but I pulled off a 43. If you ask me even I am clueless. This scaled to 50+ which to me was unfathomable. This single-handedly carried my ATAR.

I don’t want to come off vain but I truly am proud of myself. I attained an ATAR of 99+ much to my school's delight. This coupled with my SEAS will no doubt open many doors for me.

Is it enough for my dream course? Unfortunately no. I did not get an interview offer due to my abysmal UCAT score. A wave of sadness hit me once more, as though my 2 years of effort went all down the drain due to a 2-hour aptitude test. It’s almost funny. I am now leaning towards science/comp sci or commerce/comp sci. The prospect of not being able to do undergrad medicine stung of course, but I will not dwell on it. I have lived far too long in self-contempt.

My career advisers also look at me strangely when I want to enter a course in which the ATAR required is 75 and 88 respectively (with Monash guarantee). It does make me feel as though my effort to obtain the highest ATAR I can wasn’t necessary… even wasted energy. But you know what, what I have achieved is beyond my imagining. My ATAR might not have been needed for my courses but it showed me what I was capable of if I put in the effort and hard work.

I am genuinely happy, albeit confused and overwhelmed at times with my preferences, but truly happy.

Congrats all for getting through 2020. May 2021 bring us more fond memories :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ashmi on January 01, 2021, 08:14:54 pm
Hey angrybiscuit!🥰

First of all CONGRATULATIONS!! Those are some amazing scores and I'm so proud of you for doing your absolute best. You got through VCE and was able to show yourself what you were capable of.

I am so happy for you and to me, you are one of the many inspirations on AN. If there is one thing that this journal has shown, it's your determination and will to never give up. Keep pursuing your dreams/goals and wherever you decide to go, we will always be here to support you. Once again, congratulations girl and good luck for 2021! I'm looking forward to hearing some amazing things from you in the future!!!

On a side note, I'm pretty sure with your SEAS and ATAR you may be able to get a scholarship somewhere?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Chocolatemilkshake on January 01, 2021, 08:41:41 pm
CONGRATULATIONS angrybiscuit! A RAW 43 in spec is absolutely incredible, I'm in awe. That. Is. Amazing.

A massive pat on the back for English, methods and that 99+ ATAR. I'm so happy for you and your attitude towards your future study is very inspiring. I can't wait to see what you do in the future, wherever you head I'm sure you'll continue to do fantastic things 8)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: eloisegrace on January 01, 2021, 08:45:25 pm
Congratulations angrybiscuit!

Those scores and that ATAR are amazing ;D I wish you the very best for your future studies in 2021 :) :) :)

methods score buddies hahaha
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on January 01, 2021, 09:14:39 pm
Congrats Biscuit that's amazing, i'm so happy for you!

Your inspiring journal has been an absolute pleasure to read, and i'm so happy that you've been able to achieve what you have. Those scores and that atar are certainly impressive, and 100% deserved. Your strive and motivation has shone through with every post you've made and it's all paid off in the end. Congratulations again on your scores, hope you had a great new year and i'm looking forward to seeing where you go in the future.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: ArtyDreams on January 01, 2021, 10:10:52 pm
CONGRATULATIONS!


Your achievements are so amazing and you should be extremely proud of yourself! (Especially that spec score.....it’s beautiful 🤩)

I’ve loved following your journal this year, best wishes for 2021!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on January 02, 2021, 12:44:35 am
A massive, massive congratulations on your exceptional ATAR angrybiscuit!! You’ve worked so hard this year and it all payed off. That English study score is amazing, I’m so proud and happy for you!! After a year of loathing the subject, we made it through to the end. Not to mention, all your other scores were incredible too!

All the best for the future! I understand you may be feeling disappointed about not receiving an interview, but there are always non-standard and post-graduate options if you feel like you want to pursue medicine later on. You are such a determined person, I am sure you will get to wherever you want to be in life.

Once again, congratulations!!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on January 08, 2021, 03:22:51 pm
Congratulations angrybiscuit!!! I'm so happy and proud for you and I know you will go above and beyond after high school. Your journal has been a delight to read and I truly hope you are proud too!!

Are you planning to start a uni journal?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Evolio on January 08, 2021, 04:58:57 pm
A massive CONGRATS on your results angrybiscuit! Those scores are phenomenal!! I could only dream!

You've worked so hard and it's all paid off!

All the best for the future!! I know you're going to continue to achieve so much!!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 13, 2021, 04:09:15 pm
ashmi
Hey angrybiscuit!🥰

First of all CONGRATULATIONS!! Those are some amazing scores and I'm so proud of you for doing your absolute best. You got through VCE and was able to show yourself what you were capable of.

I am so happy for you and to me, you are one of the many inspirations on AN. If there is one thing that this journal has shown, it's your determination and will to never give up. Keep pursuing your dreams/goals and wherever you decide to go, we will always be here to support you. Once again, congratulations girl and good luck for 2021! I'm looking forward to hearing some amazing things from you in the future!!!

On a side note, I'm pretty sure with your SEAS and ATAR you may be able to get a scholarship somewhere?
ASH,
I am so touched to hear these words  :'( :'( I'm so grateful to have someone like you who always pushes me and supports me.

Thank you so much ash, I can't wait to see what's next in store for you.
Chocolatemilkshake
CONGRATULATIONS angrybiscuit! A RAW 43 in spec is absolutely incredible, I'm in awe. That. Is. Amazing.

A massive pat on the back for English, methods and that 99+ ATAR. I'm so happy for you and your attitude towards your future study is very inspiring. I can't wait to see what you do in the future, wherever you head I'm sure you'll continue to do fantastic things 8)
AHHH ty!! Even now, I still CANNOT fathom it.

Thanks so much for your words and likewise, congrats on all your hard work being paid off.
eloisegrace
Congratulations angrybiscuit!

Those scores and that ATAR are amazing ;D I wish you the very best for your future studies in 2021 :) :) :)

methods score buddies hahaha
Ty el! Right back at you with your maths study scores!

Haha yes! I have no idea how in the world I got that  :-X :-X
Geoo
Congrats Biscuit that's amazing, i'm so happy for you!

Your inspiring journal has been an absolute pleasure to read, and i'm so happy that you've been able to achieve what you have. Those scores and that atar are certainly impressive, and 100% deserved. Your strive and motivation has shone through with every post you've made and it's all paid off in the end. Congratulations again on your scores, hope you had a great new year and i'm looking forward to seeing where you go in the future.
Geoo,
Thank you so much! Likewise, I was SO happy seeing your results, knowing that they've surpassed your expectations.

Keep in touch :) I can't wait to see where this takes you also.
ArtyDreams
CONGRATULATIONS!


Your achievements are so amazing and you should be extremely proud of yourself! (Especially that spec score.....it’s beautiful 🤩)

I’ve loved following your journal this year, best wishes for 2021!
Arty,
thank you so much! Congrats to you as well, getting through year 12 in such a tumultuous year!
I can't where to see where you head off to next ;D
whys
A massive, massive congratulations on your exceptional ATAR angrybiscuit!! You’ve worked so hard this year and it all payed off. That English study score is amazing, I’m so proud and happy for you!! After a year of loathing the subject, we made it through to the end. Not to mention, all your other scores were incredible too!

All the best for the future! I understand you may be feeling disappointed about not receiving an interview, but there are always non-standard and post-graduate options if you feel like you want to pursue medicine later on. You are such a determined person, I am sure you will get to wherever you want to be in life.

Once again, congratulations!!
Whys,
I can't believe we've made it through English!! No more bloody text response or argument analysis EVER.

Thanks for your words! All the best for whatever's next and beyond ;D
homeworkisapotato
Congratulations angrybiscuit!!! I'm so happy and proud for you and I know you will go above and beyond after high school. Your journal has been a delight to read and I truly hope you are proud too!!

Are you planning to start a uni journal?
Potato,
THANK YOU! I'm glad you've stuck with me through this year, it's been a pleasure <3

Hopefully, I will have one! Provided that my responsibilities are not too overwhelming
Evolio
A massive CONGRATS on your results angrybiscuit! Those scores are phenomenal!! I could only dream!

You've worked so hard and it's all paid off!

All the best for the future!! I know you're going to continue to achieve so much!!
Evolio,
Thank you so much! Congrats to you also, for getting through this year with tenacity. Whatever your results may be, you should be proud of yourself.. I sure am!

Likewise, all the best for whatever's next <3

January 13th 2021
Had to stop myself from accidentally writing '2020'. Even online, I still feel as though I am stuck in 2020.

Thank you guys for the overwhelming support and love.

Life has taken me full force once more. I missed the busyness of year 12 and I got it back as the new year hit off. Despite being a casual, my hours reflect that of a full-timer at the moment and when I am not at work I am reading or off to the gym. So I’ve learned how to take care of myself again, like using moisturisers, self-care and all that jazz so that says something because even as a young child, I never bothered to look after myself.

I want to get back into programming and make a small game before my holidays end. I also want to get back to “rote” learning the keyboard. Sooner or later, I’m sure to get these done.

I got my statement of results back, you know out of interest. Made me feel some regret, some pride too. Like how I got 9 for my argument analysis, but 7 for the comparative. I never liked my pairing, now it made me cement my hatred. These filled my mind with if only’s. If only I had done this, if only i had done that blah blah. The saying is true, there will always be regret no matter the outcome of VCE.

13 days late but here are my new years resolutions
- Become more strong physically (and mentally)
- Recover from disordered eating and improve my relationship with food
- recover from body dysmorphia and learn self-love
- Spend more time with family
- Recognise my shortcomings, for example, my fiery temper and irritability and work towards reducing them

This is my second last entry of this journal. Isn't time funny? I cannot believe that we're already up to this point
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on January 16, 2021, 09:06:06 pm
January 16th 2021
I’ll end this journal with a banger of a story.

So I didn’t get an interview. It’s one thing to miss out on medicine, it’s something else to miss out on it due to a 2 hour aptitude test than undermined every shred of my abilities. I’ve decided on radiography, and that should I decide I was capable, I’ll study medicine down the track, whether straight out of my degree or when I’m 30.

A friend of mine asked me if I received an invite for the interview. No I did not, I said, my UCAT is too low.

“What’s your UCAT?” they asked. 85, I said. I had nothing to hide really. He was dumbfounded because his friend got an invite with a lower ATAR and UCAT combination. No SEAS or other considerations too. It was my turn to be dumbfounded. Mate, are you sure? I asked, in disbelief.

Now at that point I thought, damn this is unfair. How could this be the case? Then he said the magic word, “Unlucky.” I refuse to be unlucky. What’s this got to do with luck?

Determined, I went to Monash campus, hoping to speak to someone about admissions. Just my luck, this was the period where probably the entire university were in holidays. Great, just great. I managed to talk to someone on the phone, though they were not directly involved but told me to email some address.

What have I got to lose? I told myself, and emailed furiously and swiftly. No words came for two days and I was certain this was the end of it. Ah, well.

My phone rang some late afternoon. “Hello angrybiscuit, we would like to invite you to an interview.”

I faltered, this was the moment I’ve been waiting for. “Tomorrow morning, at 9.” They said.

First round interview people had two weeks to prepare for their interviews. Second round interview people had about a week. I had less than 20 hours and counting. No apologies, no explanations, nothing of that sort. But still this was better than no interview at all.

Like a person with a thesis due the next day worth 30% of their grade I tried to prepare for an interview that was supposed to save my UCAT score and worth as much as my ATAR. I could not believe that with these things on the line I was not more nervous. Probably because I had less than a day between invite and actual interview that I did not even have the time to feel nervous.

On the actual day, I was pretty relaxed, I had nothing to lose. I’ve already accepted my fate with radiography. In fact, I made a game out of it. How fun is this? Meeting 6 strangers and giving them my opinions. Hilarious.

The interview was uneventful. It wasn’t “it made Obama president great” but it wasn’t a disaster either. Either way it was mediocre in my eyes, not enough to offset the UCAT.

Jan 14 crept by and I have accepted my fate. After all, I’ve already accepted the prospect of doing Radiography so come what may, I will be satisfied.

Jan 14 and I had the morning shift so it was only until 1pm that I checked my emails. I thought offers wouldn’t come until 2pm that day haha. Imagine my surprise to see my offer.

Spoiler
Medicine - School Leaver Entry

Unbonded. My interview did it. IT FREAKING DID IT. IT DID THE IMPOSSIBLE. Looking at those with offers I probably had the lowest UCAT of the metropolitan kids, un-freaking-believable. I will no longer be defined by my UCAT failure yipeee

This is just the beginning of a long, difficult road. I’ll have to learn to be a little fish among a pond of big fish, to be amongst intimidating great minds. I’ll have to learn to struggle to gain wisdom. I’ll have to learn to pick myself up after struggle, not rely on others to.  But I will embrace every moment and remember that in the end, the destination is not what matters but the journey.

I truly love to learn and I don’t think I will ever quench my thirst for knowledge. It excites me that this is a step towards a life long journey of learning.

This ends this VCE journal. While the title suggests that I am supposed to have achieved something or gone somewhere, really it was all about a journey and not the end. A documentation of my self doubts, triumphs and tribulations. The hardships that have hardened me but also given me wisdom. A realisation of my short comings but also my abilities.

So while this might be an end, really this is just the beginning. The beginning of a life-long journey of learning, a journey of self discovery.
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: Geoo on January 16, 2021, 09:27:06 pm
Brilliant!!!!!
*Clapping*

What a crazy story, but it will be a fantastic one to tell! Congratulations i'm so happy for you!!! I'd be so nervous to do that interview with only short notice, so good on you for having the courage to do your best given the crazy circumstances. You did it, you made it, that's awesome, and good on you for going that extra mile and contacting them, that takes confidence and perseverance and was a bit of a gamble the payed off in the end.

 I've thoroughly enjoyed your updates throughout the year, of all your triumphs, thoughts, and moments. It's sad the journal has to come to an end, but as you said, it's not the end of a journey. Good luck for med school, I'm sure you'll be an amazing doctor!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: SmartWorker on January 16, 2021, 09:29:25 pm
Hey angrybiscuit,

Super proud of your achievements, truly an inspiration! Another worked example that determination is a predictor of success!  8)
All the best for med, keen to hear your experiences this year. Good luck future Dr. ! ;)

And PS: You narrate with an imbued fervour!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: The Cat In The Hat on January 16, 2021, 09:30:41 pm
Great story!! Great job!! :)
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: whys on January 16, 2021, 10:22:36 pm
So happy to hear, angrybiscuit. You deserve it, and I can’t wait to meet you and the rest of the cohort!! It’s crazy that the med admissions team made a mistake hahah, you’d think they’d be more organised and mistakes like this wouldn’t happen. Good on you for enquiring further.  CONGRATULATIONS and all the best for the future!!!

P.S. not a low UCAT at all - 85th is in the top 15% which is an amazing score when you think about it!!
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: tiredandstressed on January 16, 2021, 10:55:55 pm
Amazing story- congratulations my hearts melt for such an amazing achievement!

Wish you all the best for your future studies, there's alot coming for you it's gonna be exciting.

-T&S
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: homeworkisapotato on January 18, 2021, 11:12:00 am
Such an inspiring story! Congratulations angrybiscuit! I'm so happy and proud for you that you reached out to the admissions team, it's something that most people wouldn't have the balls to do so I'm SUPER proud of you :D
All the best! You're gonna smash med <3
Are you planning to have a med journey journal?
Title: Re: journey to self discovery
Post by: angrybiscuit on February 08, 2021, 07:05:22 pm
Geoo
Brilliant!!!!!
*Clapping*

What a crazy story, but it will be a fantastic one to tell! Congratulations i'm so happy for you!!! I'd be so nervous to do that interview with only short notice, so good on you for having the courage to do your best given the crazy circumstances. You did it, you made it, that's awesome, and good on you for going that extra mile and contacting them, that takes confidence and perseverance and was a bit of a gamble the payed off in the end.

 I've thoroughly enjoyed your updates throughout the year, of all your triumphs, thoughts, and moments. It's sad the journal has to come to an end, but as you said, it's not the end of a journey. Good luck for med school, I'm sure you'll be an amazing doctor!
AWW thanks Geoo <3

So honoured that you've read my journal to the end. Likewise, it's been such a pleasure being by your side and reading through your journey. All the best and keep in touch :)
SmartWorker
Hey angrybiscuit,

Super proud of your achievements, truly an inspiration! Another worked example that determination is a predictor of success!  8)
All the best for med, keen to hear your experiences this year. Good luck future Dr. ! ;)

And PS: You narrate with an imbued fervour!
Thanks for dropping by SmartWorker and for your words!

Glad to hear that my writing style is up to your standards ;D
The Cat in the Hat
Great story!! Great job!! :)
Thanks! All the best for this year with nursing and all <3
whys
So happy to hear, angrybiscuit. You deserve it, and I can’t wait to meet you and the rest of the cohort!! It’s crazy that the med admissions team made a mistake hahah, you’d think they’d be more organised and mistakes like this wouldn’t happen. Good on you for enquiring further.  CONGRATULATIONS and all the best for the future!!!

P.S. not a low UCAT at all - 85th is in the top 15% which is an amazing score when you think about it!!
Thank you whys! I can hardly believe it and likewise, I can't wait to meet you!

Right?? Super weird. Imagine if I didn't enquire any further...

HAHA if you put it that way it does seem like a good score. Just wasn't 'competitive' in my eyes.
tiredandstressed
Amazing story- congratulations my hearts melt for such an amazing achievement!

Wish you all the best for your future studies, there's alot coming for you it's gonna be exciting.

-T&S
Hey TS!
Thanks for your words <3 All the best to you as well for this year and beyond!
homeworkisapotato
Such an inspiring story! Congratulations angrybiscuit! I'm so happy and proud for you that you reached out to the admissions team, it's something that most people wouldn't have the balls to do so I'm SUPER proud of you :D
All the best! You're gonna smash med <3
Are you planning to have a med journey journal?
Thanks potato! Such a pleasure having you around this past year and I'm going to miss it so much!

We'll see HAHA I'm very adamant on keeping my part-time job but it might not work out well with med :-X Please do keep in touch and all the best for year 12 <3

<3