12/12/19
To put it simply, my results were disheartening. I was quite far off reaching the required ATAR for my first preference (is 8 points off considered to be far?), and I'm 99.9% sure that my ATAR won't be enough to get into any of the courses that I put on my preference list and submitted to VTAC. I don't know what my next course of action is.
I have a lot of options, but I'm just not aware of them right now. And by the way, I gave up on trying to get into medicine several months ago. Psychology is what I'm looking at now.
And even if I somehow get into uni, my study habits need a lot, and I mean a lot, of work. I simply gave up on studying at the crucial moment (i.e. I basically barely studied in the last 3 weeks before the start of the exam period). I thoroughly disliked 3 of my subjects throughout the whole year, and I don't even feel bad for not studying for these exams. I guess what gave me comfort in the post-exam/pre-results period was that I gave it 110% in each of my exams. I guess relying on that alone wasn't enough.
Give me a few hours to let this sink in. And then I'll eventually forget about it.
Sorry for depressing you all. Love you all.