Some deep questions here, I'm going to keep my responses relatively snappy and if you'd like me to elaborate just ask
Few qs
Do you ever question why we as humans live and the meaning of life ? Very simply, not so much philosophical ly but more so just "why"
I don't think life has a meaning - it's just life. I'm not a big believer of higher powers and so forth, so I don't think we're here for a reason. I can understand why others may take comfort in thinking we do though.
What are you thoughts on social phobia, anxiety, and mental illness in general, from your newfound medical experience (and perhaps , if you remember , your thoughts prior to med) ?
I think mental illness definitely exists, it does have significant impacts on peoples' lives, and because we don't know a lot about how it occurs on a chemical level we're also not great at treating it. I don't think that understanding has between yr12 and now, although I certainly didn't know or know of so many people with mental illness when I was going through school as I do now, which is of course worrying.
Now for a trademark controversial opinion:
I also question whether with the recent movements to de-stigmatise mental illness (and all the other media coverage it has) are actually doing
only good things. There's no doubt many good things come from these campaigns and many lives have been saved, however I wonder if this is all making young people feel like "it's ok to have a mental illness" in the sense that "ok" means it's "normal". I'd argue, "no, it's not ok", just like it's not "ok" to have melanoma or have your leg amputated. It's never "ok" to be sick. It's "ok" to admit you're sick and seek help, and that should be encouraged to everyone who is sick, but it's not "ok" just to be sick.
I wonder if these campaigns have done so well that they're actually normalising mental illness too much. But normalising as a concept, not as a deeper understanding (ie. crap like R U OK? day), to the point where newer generations aren't actually as resilient as previous generations, because now there are a stack of diagnoses to fall back on every time something doesn't go their way in life. That's not to say people with mental illness "just aren't resilient", because of course that's nonsense and we know that mental illness has numerous biological and environmental factors at play, but I suspect it may be just one environmental factor increasing the generational risk of becoming mentally ill. By how much it is increasing this risk? Who knows, but I think it is probably under-stated. It's an opinion I've heard echoed around in the medical community, especially during my psych term, and I think it's one that could have its merits. Indeed, resilience education features in many schools now in Europe and the US, perhaps it's Australia's turn to adopt it.
edit: clarified a few points
Final one: what are your thoughts on comparing yourself to others ? In terms of looks, academics etx. Frivolous or something we all just do subconsciously?
Something we all do subconsciously for sure. But also not something worth dwelling on too much. Comparing yourself to someone else can motivate you, but it can also motivate you for what I consider to be 'the wrong reasons'. I think it's much more healthy to focus on yourself and how you can improve, and that's often hard to do, but you can teach yourself to make that the focus of your motivations.